P.O Week 6.... Time flies! New pics...

Hello, I am a 30 year old mother of three. My story is pretty basic, with my first son, I gained around 60 pounds and lost it all again but never lost the skin. I was basically left with an apron of skin and from there, every time I had another baby the pouch got bigger and the fat didn't come off as easily. To say the least this was the hardest change I ever dealt with in my life. I felt disgusting and had people want to see my stomach like it was some sort of freak. I NEVER take my shirt off, I won't even look when I get out the shower. I just still can't believe its me. I went from the most comfortable person naked to a frumpy mom on the outside with the old me on the inside. I feel trapped in my body.

I could sit here and type all the reasons I have told everyone for getting the tummy tuck. that I would be a better mother, a better wife, happier. But what it really comes down to is that it bothers me. I just bothers me. And so, as I have been waiting for years and feeling guilty for even asking my husband for us to spend this money, I am now 3 1/2 weeks away from my tummy tuck. And thanks to all those who have written their stories my husband is now 100% on board with me and my decision. It helps so much to see why people feel the way they do, the reasons that have nothing to do with being perfect but more about being happy.

My doctor is I would say the best in Toronto, or one of the best and I fully trust this procedure. I decided not to get my breasts done even though I breastfed for 3 years in total and they probably need it but I just wasn't ready to commit mentally to having implants. And so, in the future if I feel they bother me, I will. But for now, I have to do what makes me sad, and what makes me feel like I am not me. The Tummy Tuck. So the plan for the next 3 1/2 weeks is to lose 10 pounds. I know. sounds impossible, but I am going to give it my all, at least an 8 pound loss would be perfect. My biggest concern is that I am not skinny enough to see great results and that I might regret not loosing more. I am 5'7 and 145 pounds and carry it all in my stomach and back. Does anyone feel that being skinnier makes the surgery look better? Also, any suggestions on what bedside items I should be packing? I am staying with my in laws for the first week without any other help and want to be as prepared as I can `to need the least amount of help possible. Thanks for listening and I will post pictures tomorrow!!!!

Okay, after seing all of your posts today I feel pretty good about what my results might be but I have to say it makes me super nervous to think I may not have what want in the end. It sounds o stuid, but I have a high belly button and I am worried that he may not be able to remove the skin all the way up... but by the looks of my own pictures , it shouldn't be a problem.
Okay, lets talk about the pictures. DAMN it's so much worse than I thought. Looking at it I can't believe its me.
And no C-section. My skin just decided to hang like that all by itself. But at the same time super refreshing to have finally taken pictures of it and as others have said I hope I can look back and thank the lord I had the tummy tuck.
SO... now that the tummy tuck is approaching, I feel like I can't wait another minute! I just can't immagine if I hadn't booked it and wasn't going through with it how depressed I would be right now.
Thinking of all the things I want for myself I ran 5k tonite and hope to keep running. Like I said, I am worried I am not skinny enough to see the best results. Oh well, can only do my best.
After my surgery I am staying at my husbands parents. I don't know why the thought of this makes me just want to cry like my 4 year old, but I do. I just have this visual of being proped up on the couch in extreme pain with my father in law forcing me to watch hours and hour of tennis while he complains and breathes too close. His breath is going to kill me this time I know it.
No but siriously, I love them and all but when you are that sick, you don't want to me stuck somewhere other than home.
Unfortunately for me, my surgery is in Toronto but I do not live there and I have 3 young kids (7,4,2) that have to stay home with my husband.) Yup, I am going to the hospital with my mom who is going to be in Toronto for a conference, she is dropping me off and then I am on my own until the inlaws come to get me the next day. And I swear to god if they drive in Toronto the way they usually do (motherin law pulling a full stop on the highway to try and get on a missed ramp) I may lose it!
But this is the sacrifice I am making to have the tummy tuck. I keep tellikng myself, "I am a grown woman, I can do this, my mother in law cares and I will be fine."
But why is it that I keep having visuals of calling for my father in law because I am stuck on the can??!

So sorry for the typos I think my kids got juice on the laptop keyboard. ARRGGHH!