31 Yrd Old, 5'7" 135 lbs; Breast lift with Implants - FINALLY! - Toronto, ON

So I met with my PS on October 27th and it looks as though a revision is in my future ... He was super patient with me (I was an emotional mess) and he ensured me that I will love my breasts. The girls at the clinic were (and are) all amazing as well! Everyone there is super understanding and very patient with me. Basically what's happened is because my implants didn't really drop my actual breast tissue that was left is sitting at the bottom of my breast, which is why they are kind of bottomed out looking ... what SHOULD have happened is my implant should have dropped a bit forcing my breast tissue over the front of the implant and not under it. So right now it's like I have two different breasts, the bottom are very jiggly and floppy'ish (my natural tissue) towards the middle they're kind of flat and at the top they are very round and firm. In a bra they look amazing, outside of a bra they are very long looking lol whatever I can deal. I know that there are probably still going to be some changes but knowing that I will be taken care of when it comes to a revision and I won't have to sell my body to be able to afford it eases my mind lol I'm super super super thankful for Dr. Mansour and his team, honestly they have been so so so so patient with me and I'm so thankful!!!
Oh and to add to my update, I'm back at the gym/weight training heavy and it feels GREAT! jogging and push ups are a little strange feeling (pull ups/chin ups are out of the question right now because it pulls the skin under my breasts like crazy lol) but otherwise I love it :)

So everyone says I need to focus on the positive; on the things about my breasts that I like...cleavage, the look in clothing etc. I figured I would go bra shopping and this is what I got *sigh* this is my first time since my surgery that I'm trying on a real bra (I am still living day and night in sports bras) and I was super discouraged. I feel like I'm being a whiny b!tch but I can't help but feel the way I do about them. I waited so long to get this done to love them because I've hated my breasts for SO long and I hate them now but in different ways. I still wouldn't want to show them to anyone same as before :(

I hate them. I'm almost wishing I didn't get them done. I feel so unhappy with them. They are still super boxy and the one is flat underneath. I don't know if it's the way it's stitched but its not rounded the way the other one is. it doesn't touch my skin, it just floats there. They're not really round at all and I feel they're still on the low side, like I can pick them up and lift them a good few inches, and they're very snoopy dog looking from the side... I feel like I hate everything about them. I honestly cry about it, I hate them.
I also have to be careful when I massage them because I have open sores on my nipples and I don't want to irritate that more. I am feeling so so so discouraged, I hate looking at them, I hate touching them. I know there's suppose to be some changes but how could the changes be so great that I go from hating them to liking them? I feel discouraged beyond measure. :( :(