Finally Going for It! :) - Toms River, NJ

I am a 32 mother of a five year old little boy :) I have always struggled with my weight. At 22 I topped out at 185 lbs. By age 25 i was 125 lbs and after having my son at 27 i have stayed between 128 and 130. I recently quit smoking. Fat sure does seem to redistribute after having a baby :) I want the body that I worked so hard for in my 20's back. I have always been top heavy but the girls seem to have deflated after pregnancy (although they were never a matching pair). My arms and back once looked "athletic" now look a bit matronly.

I had a c section and my wonderful dr put the muscles back in place but fat and loose skin was not his department. I've never had a narrow waist (or maybe i just have narrow hips? :) And my super flat but once perky behind is slowly migrating into that upside down triangle that Irish gals are cursed with.

OH, one last "problem" (for lack of a better word)area, my skin from smoking, sun damage (in younger years) and melasma, is less than glowy these days. I am having what my girlfriends have dubbed the ultimate mommy makeover. Mini tuck, breast lift, vaserlipo arms back and flanks, fat grafting to the behind and laser resurfacing. I know it seems like a bit much but id rather do it in one shot. less time off of work, less money ect. I've been on the fence for 2 years now. I found a dr I'm confortable with and I'm going for it.

two more days until preop apt. I'm freaking out. I keep second guessing myself. Do I need this? Am I being horribly selfish? What if things go horribly wrong? My PS had better be prepared for this apt lol. Blood work today. My mother who was dead set against this is taking that week off of work. I am a horrible patient so my hubby appreciates this :) love you mom xoxo

pre op appointment went great. I feel so much more at ease. I had four pages of questions written out before walking in the doctors office and they were all answered (plus) before I could ask them and they are so supportive. I am generally a happy go lucky girls but the past two weeks i have been on an emotional rollercoaster. 9 days :)