Not Happy- Round 2 with a different doctor coming soon

ok I do have 2 regrets and it is that i should have not gained so much weight and I should have kept working out just to have my body prepared for this intense surgery. I am swollen, emotional, stiff, bruised up, and sore as hell. I am going to buy a full body garment and cut the butt out to help with the swelling. I will remain strong and I will keep updating even on my bad days. Do I think my doc gave me the results I wanted, as of right now no. However she has changed my body in a way I couldnt by just working out. She did change my shape i just want more hips and projection in my butt. My butt is still hard and I am still swollen so who knows it may change for the better. My mom told me today that the first part is taken care of, so when I am approved I must take what I am now working with and perfect it in the gym, eat right, and stay positive so that is what i will do.

To read part 2 of my BBL journey, please click here.

I woke up this morning with my neck hurting and so tired. I just kept crying. Its crazy, im in no pain I guess I just wanna be normal already. lol Im happy and sad at the same time. All I know is I will not be getting a round 2. 1 time is enough for me. I will get my butt back in the gym and work with what I got which is way better than what I had. I just love to work out I just wanted to look good in some work out clothes, now I will. So while im sad and dipressed at time, I am happy and looking forward to the future. Man I guess this surgery is bringing out some type of bipolar in me lol

If I could do it again I would not have gained 20 lbs. After looking at my original pre op pics I should have just stayed as I was and let her sculpt that body. I was working out 2 times a day to improve my body,and I probably would have healed better and not have been so swollen. That is kinda my only regret now because I initially wanted to gain 15 pounds so I stopped working out and started eating and I couldnt stop eating lol So I gained like 20 or more actually. It happened so quick. I think these docs will know where to get the fat with any size we are and gaining weight just adds to much fat and they only can take out so much i.e 5 liters in cali. If you think about it that fat adds up quick. I think my waist would have been tiny and my butt would have popped more. Although i am still healing and it takes a while to see the final results I just kinda regret gaining so much weight. 20 pounds is a huge amount and for anyone wanting to gain weight I would just say think long and hard about that. But hey we live and we learn. No worries. Im just having a little rant.