31 days post op.

Hi everyone! Well like a lot of other people I have been on this site for sometime now, and now its time to tell my story. In my twenty's I was always thin about 103 to 108 but I always (even as a child) had a pooch, there was nothing I could do to get rid of it. So late twenty's is when I had my first child, after my first child I had 4 more so total of 5 and they are all c-sections. I never got back down to my let say 108 again I always stayed in the 125 to 140 range, after my son my final baby i have stayed from 131 to 138 and I seem to be happy with that, though 130 would be great! I am active, I love to work out, I do run and do weights but I have found since turning 40 it is really hard to shed that weight. I am now 43 Im 5"3 and currently range from 136 to 138 go figure! I have wanted a tummy tuck after each baby lol but I just kept having them! So now we are done and its been 7 years since my last and I have a Tummy and I'am done with my tummy! Its not to bad I really have no stretch marks but I do have a pooch, I hate my pooch. I want to look good in clothes, I want to wear the dress and not worry about my tummy showing or gosh i cant wear that dress because of my pooch or wow wish i could wear that pair of shorts, I'm just tired of hiding my tummy and hiding me! Im tired of going shopping and being discouraged when the only thing discourage me is my tummy. So Im going for it! My husband is who is really supportive and has encouraged me to do this, not that he thinks I look awful he just wants me to be happy and he wants me to feel good about me. He told me I look beautiful to him either way! So he has been my rock! I made a date for Jan and I cancelled it I was scared to death of dying on the table or never waking up and then after being on this site I have realized a lot of you have the same exact fears I do! You guys without knowing it have also been my strength, reading all your stories has really helped me to prepare myself for what waits ahead. I'm still scared but I think that is normal but I'am jumping in. More questions to come....have a great day ladies and happy healing to you all!