Five weeks post op

Hi guys its been 2 weeks since my last update and I apologize but things have been hectic for me. My nose is still swollen and the tip feels numb still and I know those are all normal things. Its super hot here in Florida so I don't expect the swelling to go down until November/December when the temperature actually drops below 60...lol. My leg recovery is really taking precedent over my life and its why I haven't been checking in on you guys. I will hopefully get a break here soon. I hope everyone is recovering well...doing your homework if you're still in that stage...and relaxing before your big day. Talk to yall soon!! Love all my Realself peeps!!

Well, I'm exactly 3 weeks post op today. I have literally been fighting a sinus infection for a week with DAILY headaches and couldnt even open my eyes since they were so sensitive to light. I couldnt even look at my Ipad. Which for a crippled chic like me..is BAD!!
I can definitely say that I've had my ups and downs as far as the acceptance of my new face. Althought I'm very pleased with my profile, I'm not crazy with how my face looks head on. It's not that it's ugly, it's just not really me and it's what I was afraid of. Don't get me wrong, I have some days where I'm like, "Wow, I can get used to this." and other days, like today, I see my old pics and just say, "Ugh!"
I truly go back and forth. I love my results but I miss my old face if that makes any sense. I guess this is all part of the psychological changes within that I'm still dealing with. I still feel like this chin is way too big for my face, but I know it's not. I feel like me until I look in the mirror and then I wonder who that new girl is and I'm not used to her yet, I guess.

I know this isn't an orthopedic forum, but I did have a follow up appt. today and it wasn't the best so I'm pretty bummed. My foot isn't laying flat like it's supposed to, my knee isn't bending as far as it needs to and my big toe isn't moving at all. So all in all I've had a total breakdown today. I'm so sick and tired of this walker. I keep getting stared at when I go places. I almost told some old lady at Best Buy yesterday what I thought about her because I SWEAR she's never seen a chic on a walker. And I know she wasn't staring at my new face either...dumb old hag!

So yes, I am back on my anti-anxiety meds for my borderline exposive behavior..lol... This time not for my Rhinoplasty, but just so I can keep it together for my little boy. I'm so weary and sad somedays. It will be 15 weeks tomorrow since that awful day and it seems like an eternity. Maybe because the fact that I can't walk is keeping me from really enjoying the change to my face. Does that even make sense?
Dunno, this isn't a Dear Abby site, but I sure have come here for comfort and have always recieved it.
Overall, I am happy and grateful to still have my leg, my life and great PS results(holla). Why do I still feel so BLAH? I'm seeing a great Christian therapist who has been there for me on and off since 2009. She was willing to do telephone sessions for me, since I can't even drive still, so that's helping.

Wow, this update ended up being a drag !!! I'm sorry! I updated pics from Day 17 (this past Saturday May 11th). We had a BBQ for mother's day and noone in the family noticed. Even my boyfriend's mom forgot I had it done and couldn't tell the difference (I was like HOW CAN YOU NOT NOTICE??) She was funny though. She wants to go see Dr. Farrior now too. Okay, enough of the "blah" update. I love all of you my nose sisters and brothers. I can't wait to read up on what yall have been doing. I've completely neglected you and I'm so sorry!!

So not much news to report other than I have been fighting a NASTY sinus infection since Sunday. SERIOUSLY?? I've never had one..how convenient...grrr.. So I have my regular pounding/throbbing afternoon headache and I can't even open my eyes since their so sensitive to the light. I got a zpack and nasal spray (approved by my PS). So if it wasn't sore before...the whole area (sinuses) around my nose hurts to touch now. The zpack isn't working as fast as I want it to.

So yesterday I kinda sorta started to see a teeny bit of "frontal swelling" go down. Which was cool. But I'm back to the morning swelling. I have been putting GLOBS of arnica gel on my nose and around my chin so I think that MAY be doing something. I'm still doing my bridge exercises (which feel fenominal btw with this infection) as much as I can. I know some of yall are "taping your noses at night"...are your PS' s telling you to do that? Should I be doing that? Does it help? I'm just trying to get this swelling moving along (like the rest of yall, right?)

I'm also (embarrased to admit but have a FEELING I'm not alone on this one) having a hard time not picking my nose. There. I said it. Rachael and I spoke about this and its happening...I need to pick my nose and I can't take it. I feel like a crack head with a q-tip trying to get that one little booger that's been bothering me..ugh:(
I go VERY slow with it. And I haven't had any blood in there since the 1st week. So, anyways, I thought I would share my booger anxiety since I was told no picking or blowing for 6 weeks which seems like an eternity to me when your a regular nose picker like me:(

Chin still looks long to me..but growing on me (pun intended). & my leg hurts like you know what. I increased my knee bend to 85 degrees yesterday which is really good. It was at 50 when I had those bars drilled out of my leg. I've tried hobbling around the house (my infamous zombie walk) with no walker and my therapist came unglued...ugh...which is so frustrating. I want to walk so bad:( but all in right time they say. Oh well..one thing/day at a time for me. I guess its this sinus infection (my honey gave me) for today..who knows what tomorrow. Love yall..talk soon. I'm sure ill have some pics for you this weekend for mothers day.