Has my implant dislodged?

Where do I begin? I lost my very stressful, unhealthy and sedentary job in 04/2011. It was the BEST thing that ever happened to me. I decided to start undoing the damage this hellacious job had caused, namely a lot of stress eating coupled with a lack of excercise from long hours. I had never been heavy (with the exception of pregnancy) but over the course of several years there found myself about 15 pounds shy of my ending pregancy weight! Enough was enough. I changed my eating habits overnight and started excercising. I was very surprised that it took so long to get the weight off as I had always been thin and lost weight effortlessly. In my 20s my weight averaged between 108 and 112 lbs. When I would go on holiday or want to look extra thin, I had no trouble dropping to 103. Well those days are over. I now maintain a pretty steady 127, give or take a few lbs either way, and I want to keep it that way. I'm too old to look good super thin anymore.

Anyway, when it was all said and done and the weight had finally come off, I was left with a flabby belly and love handles. What??? Well, those were the joys that motherhood brought to my body. I loved being pregnant and nursing my babies (1 for 14 months and the other for 22 months) but I was not prepared for this. I had never had either (my first baby did a litle damage to my body but the second, well...) and could not get rid of them so I had a bit of vaser lipo to contour my shape. It worked out really well and I was so happy to finally look good in clothes again. My doctor did warn me that I might be left with some loose skin but at the time I thought, that's ok, just as long as I can get dressed and feel confident about myself again. It wasn't. I hate the loose skin. I wanna look nice in a bikini again, but more than anything, I am sick to the back teeth of "tucking" the skin into my jeans. It is so uncomfortable.

My 34A boobs are another story. I'd always been small, but now I was also a bit saggy and concave to boot. They used to be lovely and firm and even though I wasn't ecstatic about their size, they matched the rest of me. I am so embarrassed about the concaveness from all the breast feeding that I literally live in padded bras. My husband doesn't even see them anymore. I liked how they looked when I was breastfeeding once the flow was settled and established (but not how they looked in the first few days when I was engorged. For me, (I have a small frame) it was waaay too big and I thought they made me look fat and ugly. I am very nervous about going too big. Very. Big boobs would not suit me or my lifestyle. My sister has natural D/DDs but she is very curvy with wide hips and a huge bum that would be the envy of any BBL candidate. She is a hottie. For me, a C is The Biggest I can consider. Anything else will mess with the rest of me, which I like and is pretty athletic and lean. (I wear 2s and 4s at GAP.)

I have not made this decision lightly. (I consulted with my doctor back in March or April, 2012). First, there is the $$$ and the ensuing guilt about spending that on yourself. Then there are the other negatives. I am essentially trading my loose skin for a pretty nasty scar. I am worried too because I don't tend to heal as well as most people do in respect of scarring. I have Type 1 diabetes which imay interfere with healing. I also hope that my diabetes, which is an auto-immune disorder doesn't make me more susceptible to capsular contracture. Does anyone know someone with Type 1 who's had a BA?

After a steady influx of visitors, some uncertainty, birthdays, holidays and other events which have prevented me from doing this, my surgery is now booked for 11th January 2013. (I hope my husband is up for this. He is taking a week off from work to look after me and the kids. I am so lucky to have him, I call him "my hero". :-)

I am so grateful for this site and all the stories that people have shared in respect of their procedures. It definitely has helped with a lot of questions and uncertainty. I love all the stories and tips people share and will certainly take these on board for my own surgery. Wish me luck, Peeps...