one year post op

I have never expected that I would be getting breast implants. I was always told that I had pretty breast. My breast were always my most favorite thing on my body. Well, after I had my baby, I lost alot of volume in the upper pole of my breast. It has made my confidence level go down to 0. What once use to be the best body part on my body, is now the one part of me that makes me self conscious.

My new post op baby breast never bothered my husband. He was always happy with my appearance. But I am unhappy with them, so I decided that I was going to go for a consult.

I went in for a consult. Everyone there was very nice. The cordinator came in and talked to me about prices and let me try on sizers and we discussed incisions. Afterwards, I met with the Dr. and he took measurements of my breast and discussed my wishes of what I would like. He was very kind. He asked me what sizes I was comfortable with during the sizing and I thought I was most comfortable with 350cc's. He asked me if I would consider 400cc's and I told him that I thought the 400cc's looked too big on me. (I don't know if I was just not use to having large breast or what not, but I felt like the 400cc's made me feel like Dolly Parton. lol )

Anyways, he said, "what about 375cc's, in the middle? Would you consider that?" And I agreed bc after all, he is the doctor. He knows more based on my measurements I'm assuming. I decided to go with 375cc's of Mentor Memory Gel implants and my incision will be under the breast fold.

My surgery is set to take place in two weeks. I am excited, but at the same time, nervous. I have never had a surgery before.I don't know how much pain I am going to experiance (even though they told me that they do a rapid recovery technique that should have me back moving around by the next day) but they also sent me Rx's in the mail, so that being said, pain has to be involved. I hope its not too bad bc I am a baby. I cried when my breast dried up from breast feeding. I am dreading the pain from the surgery... Other than that, I don't really know what to expect (as far as my results go)

Even though I thought he explained himself clearly, I still kind of feel nervous bc I don't know how they are going to look afterwards. I pretty much have gathered that your appearence depends on both the Dr.s experience and the shape/amount of your breast. I'm not worried about the Dr. part bc I done alot of research before choosing this Dr. and I know that he is highly trained and one of the best, but I just can't help but wonder what the outcome is going to look like.

I guess that since the surgery is getting closer and closer, it has me questioning myself. Asking myself if I made the right decision on size, is it going to be too small, should I have went bigger, am I going to have high profile or moderate implants ( i am going to give them a call about that) Is it going to give me enough cleavage? Ect.....I hope all turns out ok.

April 2, 2012 - 11 days til my surgery. I am starting to get worried. I am wondering how long the pain is going to last for. My husband is only going to be with me for a week before he will have to go back to work. I hope I am ok when he is gone, being that we have a one year old. I hope I can care for him by myself by then. And I'm starting to freak out by looking at all of the post op photos after surgery. The swelling looks so high. How long does that last for? I'm just worried because when I dried up from breast feeding. I thought it was the worst pain I have ever experienced..I just have all of these questions. Hoping that I am prepared. My dr. says that he does a rapid recovery thing that makes most patients be able to get back to normal activity by the next day, but I'm having my doubts about that because of all of the prescriptions for meds I got in the mail from the dr. office. One for sleep, pain, swelling, and constipation....hmmm, will have to see for myself I guess..

April 3rd - 10 days til surgery
Still kind of freaking myself out. I really need to stay off of the internet! I am concerning myself with the way the middle of my chest looks pre op, wondering if it will mess things up post of. My dr. told me that one of my breast was hanging a little lower than the other, and that it won't be a problem because he will just lower the implant on that breast a little to even them out. My Dr. seemed really excited to work on me. Kept saying that the size, shape, nipple position on me was perfect and when I pointed out the flaw in the middle of my chest he said that he is suprised that I even noticed that. I can't wait to just get the surgery over with. My thoughts are killing me...