7 months later, still not happy. Making Lemonade out of Lemons - Shreveport, LA

This Wednesday will be 7 months since surgery. I haven't seen my surgeon in 5 months. Every day I want to call and make an appointment to re address my concerns. My self confidence is shattered and I don't call.

I need to see him. I don't think my implants are in the pockets correctly. I don't think they ever were. If you imagine my boobs as clock faces, at 8 and 4 (the outside bottoms) I can feel implant. If I push in, they move up, and then my boobs actually look lifted and like I wanted them to look.

The other reason I think something is wrong is because every single form of exercise that involves a bouncing movement causes them to feel like I'm having a pins and needles feeling. Like how your foot feels when it's fallen asleep and is waking up. Yeah, that. In my BOOBS! This can't be right. Millions of people have boob jobs and run. You can't tell me they feel like their boobs have a pins and needles feeling the entire time. You can't.

I stopped wearing my binder after month 2. The second I did, the bulge of fat he moved from directly under my boobs down to right over my belly button popped out. I am a 39 year old woman who is intimately familiar with her own fat. I know that it all just got moved down 3 inches. I know where it used to be. I can just imagine Dr. O'Neal telling me I've gained weight and it's new fat. You can closely examine my before and now pics and see what I'm talking about. It was a ridge of fat my boobs sat on. Now it's right above my very ugly belly button.

I am most disappointed by the mounds of fat between my old TT scars and the new ones by my hip bones. It was what I initially brought up before this whole thing started. I was left with them after the first TT, because I was so large. I showed them to Dr. O'Neal right off the bat at my initial consult. I said 'See how full these are? I want them gone'. He said, 'They're not that full'.

Again, when he was marking me up for surgery, I pointed them out and asked him to be aggressive. He just wasn't and he left me looking like a before picture.

I never wanted to be Barbie. I just wanted a flat tummy and my lumps by my hip bones gone. Happy to be a size 10. I didn't get it.

I don't even know what is fair to go in and ask him to do to fix this. I would like the lumps gone. I don't know if he can just do that with a little lipo, or if he'd need to cut out more by the hip bones (I feel like he should). I also want my implants in the pockets properly.

I would like opinions, please.

Disappointment.

That's what I feel. My doctor did nothing for me. I am not swollen. I haven't for a few weeks. These are my results, plain and simple.

I have no idea which direction to go in, because he dismissed me so easily last time. I feel my complaints will fall on deaf ears. After you sign your life away to these people, there really is nothing you can do for recourse.

Glad to report I didn't gain an ounce through the holidays, which included my birthday. On January 6th, I began an intense strength training challenge. I can already see changes in my body (mainly my ass, thank you lunges!, but luckily for you guys, I haven't shared a pic of that monstrosity, so there's no point in doing it now).

It is a 90 day challenge, which will end at my 6 months after surgery mark. I'll be damned if my surgeon will be allowed to take credit for MY hard work. So I'm going to update my results from the challenge on days, 15, 30, 60, and 90. Just so you guys know the real truth. That it was all me and not him. (Now I guess with all of my [RS bleep] talk, I have to stick with it, lol).

My bullet hole finally has a tiny scab that I'm treating like a faberge egg. My under (again, HA! There is NO under) boob scab is smaller.

Oh. And guess [RS bleep] what? My boobs still look like they're sliding off my body. Yup. They weren't lifted at all. The nipples were. Which makes for a very sad looking set of boobs. I am never without a bra unless showering. Why are they so low?

I don't really have much more to say, guys. Yay for everyone else who actually got what they paid for.

I have kept my word as far as watching my food. I told you I would. I am now down to 2 lbs below surgery weight. Or to put it another way, 4 lbs over what my Dr. said he removed. You guys will see a noticeable difference in my pictures. I am starting to look better. And it's becoming more glaringly obvious how tiny little things could have made all of the difference in this mommy makeover.

My bullet hole is healing, but slowly. I have decided to completely quit smoking again as my New Years resolution. I know smoking is impeding my progress. I'm trying to over come self sabotage. This is one of my self sabotage things. I also learned the medical term for why my boobs are red from my mom in law but promptly forgot it. My dad in law just had surgery, and he has the redness problem, but in his ankle, not his boobs.

I also have a gnarly scab where all the cuts meet on 'ol righty, still. And though lower, all 3 cuts are still on the face of my boobs. I have G cups but don't have enough boob for them to drop? Huh?

But, again, like I said, I'm taking charge of things again. Oh, and I am wearing my binder again from morning to bed time, every single day. I'll just squeeze my figure into submission! Hey, it's sweater weather, no one can tell. And you can really hide a muffin top with a binder and a chunky sweater, let me tell you.

I have moved my plans from going to a 12 week check up to address my concerns with my Dr to 16 weeks. In addition to being under the weight my dr said I should have been after the surgery, I also want to have a few smoke free weeks under my belt. Hell, i might even (gasp!) exercise. I want to be doing everything right.