So it's canceled!!!

So, I've always considered bigger breasts since probably high school and now I have the means to do it. But I also just moved and joined a new competitive gym. They offered me a spot on the team a couple months after I put down a deposit and now I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. If I push my surgery date too far back I potentially lose my deposit or I go through with my scheduled surgery date and wait til next year to compete in the annual Crossfit Games. I'm also just worried about the surgery in general since it'll be my first time under anesthesia.

Plus, there's the obvious questions, size, pain and possible outcomes of the surgery. I mean, who wants to wake up from the table looking like frankenstein right? Haha!! Anway, I'm 22, turning 23 and I know I have time to grow physically, I'm justhoping that while regaining strength after surgery that I can still exceed the intensity I currently endure during training. I don'tw want people to get the wrong idea here, I'm not a body builder or super buff, but I am a fit person who just has never felt so feminine because of my breast size. I'm wondering if any of you ladies have had a hard time exercising even after a few months after surgery? That would be greatly appreciated if I could get some opinions on that please! So my scheduled date in in March but I have a consultaion thi sWednesday so hopefully after seeing the surgeon again I can definitely decide when the date will be. Updates on that in a couple days!

BTW, some stats about myself: half Korean and half Colombian, 5'3" at 135lbs roughly! I guess I have a slightly narrower chest so my dr recommended hp instead of mod+ which I though was originally recommended. I had my 2nd consulation today and still can't decide on what size! I want a small c or full b and so I'm deciding between 300cc/325cc or 250cc/275cc. I guess I will have to decide on my pre-op! I just think the team will have to wait for me to compete next year because I live in Arizona and I can't imagine suffering through recovery during the blistering heat! I'm sure March will be hot enough! So I will be rescheduling my surgery sometime tomorrow. I'm really scared honestly because of how many mixed opions I've gotten. Many of you say you love it, but personal opinons from people I know around here have said otherwise. But then again I think they're older and I'm sure surgery was conducted differently years ago haha! I just don't want to lose my strength and the ability to do the things I do now. I wish you didn't have to have surgery and that it could just magically pop up! Everyday I come on this site and read everyone's stories, most which are comforting, and after my 2nd consultation I do feel a little more confident about going through with it. More on this later, time to actually work. ( I'm sitting at my desk at work, bleh!) Post "before" pictures soon!

So my boyfriend and I got into a little spat over my surgery but only cause I was talking so much about how worried I was and he said to not get it lol I guess he was tired of me complaining! Of course that didn't change my mind but now not only am I still deciding with what size I'll end up with I'm deciding what date in march. I want my boyfriend to be there but he has school and runs for their track team basically having a race every weekend during the season so I'm trying to schedule it around that. My sister and possibly my parents might come down too so it'll be nice to have help lol. I moved to Arizona last June, I'm from California originally and I miss it a lot! It hasn't been too long since the last time I saw them though fortunately. I just told my dad about my surgery today too which went ok. It was via text haha but he seemed ok with it aside from the commen of being "beautiful the way you are" spiel. I told him to tell my mom I know she's going to freak out! Not in a bad way necessarily, I was blessed to have supportive parents throughout all of my crazy decisions and impulses :) I also talked to one of the trainers at my gym and he's agreed to do personal training with me after a few weeks of recovery. Thank goodness! I'll be doing some major walking and dumbbell curls (attempting anyway)! I'm grateful for this website too since I had no idea what people did to prepare for the surgery! I have compiled a list from the tips around here so thanks in advance girls! My Internet coincidentally went down a few days ago, someone is supposed to come fix it tomorrow so I can put pics up jeez. Til then, have a goodnight!