Phoenix Reborn - Santa Cruz, CA
- updated 1 year ago
I gained 100 lbs in about 3 months due to...
- 5 Sep 2012
- 8 months pre
I gained 100 lbs in about 3 months due to medication I had to take when I was 18. I have lost the weight since (I'm 31) but I lived through my 20's with my stomach covered in stretch marks and my boobs sad and saggy like wrinkly bread dough hanging off my chest.
Finally I've lost more weight and my mom has offered to pay for me to get a mommy makeover. I feel like it's depressing because even though my body looks like I gave birth to an elephant I don't even feel productive, like I actually have a child to show for it... In any case, even though I'm scared, I'm starting to feel like I do want to have the surgery (at least so I won't be embarrassed to take my clothes off in front of a man, which I'm hoping will happen eventually. I think I would rather explain a tummy tuck scar than the wrinkles (I guess?) especially with hoping it will fade.
I just want to clarify: I am only 31. and I have never had kids. I am 5'5" and I weigh 151 lbs.
UPDATE: I haven't scheduled my surgery yet, I'm...
- 11 Sep 2012
- 8 months pre
I haven't scheduled my surgery yet, I'm not sure if I'm going to do it in Santa Cruz or Los Gatos. I went to family therapy today with my mom and we talked about the surgery. I am probably going to stay with my mom for a while while I recover. I might go with a dr. in los gatos so I don't have to drive over 17 right after the surgery, or I might stick with dr. kerley. I am not sure exactly what to expect for the recovery process although I have some kind of idea from what i've read on this website...
i am really scared of the idea of not being able to do my usual workouts, i have worked really hard to lose weight and i am a very physical and active person and i am sensitive to anxiety and depression if i am unable to exercise, so i am very concerned about being confined for a while, but it will probably be ok...
i'm also super freaked out about the DRAINS!!!!! yuck!!!! i guess i will have to buy a big loose pair of digusting sweatpants to walk around in?? maybe i can get some from victoria's secret so even if they are loose i can still feel kind of cute in them...
it will (probably!?) all be worth it. if i do it. i'm still not 100% decided. thinking about it makes me anxious, and i am definitely needing to keep the anxiety under control.
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