36 Years Old, 3 Kids, Active/Athletic, Desire Natural Look - San Francisco, CA

I am really feeling anxious, uncertain... Have cold feet. I have been contemplating a Breast Augmentation for ages. I do not like the way my flat chest looks in most fashions. And I love fashion and clothes!! So tired of wearing a heavy super padded bra that is always falling down. However, I usually am in workout attire and don't mind my small breasts in workout clothes. Personally, I think they are cute when I am naked. But when I am in a swim suit I wish I had a bigger breasts. Ugh. So anyway, I am scheduled for 5/20 after tons of research and talking to lots of surgeons. Going to have small silicone, lower profile, under the muscle... Maybe 275 cc? Not sure on size yet. Going for small C cup. But I am scared I am going to mess up my cute little boobs... Or eventually regret doing it. Don't fix it if it ain't broke? I also worry that my kids, who love love love to cuddle w me won't be able to cuddle with me the same way anymore. And I worry about sleeping. Will I have to worry about them slipping to the side because I am a back sleeper? And what about this silicone toxicity stuff? Is it really no longer a concern w the cohesive gels? And how awful are mammograms going to be now? Thoughts appreciated if anyone reads this.

I am ridiculously disappointed. My husband told me tonight for the first time ever that he does not think I should have the breast augmentation. Up until this point he has been very neutral and supportive. He has said he thinks I look great now but that I should do whatever I want. And despite all my uncertainties, I had a chance to go out w girlfriends on Friday night and the task of selecting an outfit and taping my damn bra to myself and to my shirt reminded me that I really really do want to do this. But then we got in an argument tonight because he thinks I have unrealistic expectations that I will be able to have it done without a lot of people noticing. And that is when he came out with it. That he simply thinks I should not do it. That the risks outweigh the benefits. That i "look good now" and could end up having them messed up sooner or later. So that is that. I have not told many people but of those I have told, virtually no one thinks I should do it. My mom is HIGHLY opposed. My sister is supportive but feels I could be making a mistake. One of my best friends is supportive but not encouraging necessarily. I have two other girlfriends I have told and they both think I should do it but one already had it done and the other wants to. No one else knows. So ultimately having my husband state this opinion puts a whole new perspective on things. I probably shouldn't do it. But I am here in bed crying with disappointment. :(

Well I calmed down and did not cancel. My husband is still supportive of whatever I decide... But his opinion is that I shouldn't. I am definitely dissuaded by the fact that people who love and care about me feel the surgery might not be in my best interest. But at the end of the day I really think it is something I want. So as of now, moving forward. The day is swiftly approaching.

Unfortunately I have the added drama of having to weigh in repair of my umbilical hernia. It returned after abdominoplasty. My original surgeon claims that it is not medically necessary to repair. The surgeon I have selected for BA strongly disagrees because there is a hole in my muscle wall. He was ready to submit it to my insurance but then I found out that he is not in network (I have HMO). Since I carefully selected the BA surgeon, I do not really want to consider someone else... And I don't think it makes sense to have two surgeries an go under anesthesia twice. So I guess I am going to pay for the hernia repair myself. Unless I decide to cancel the Breast Augmentation. Then I would find a doctor in network to repair hernia.