Already feeling them like my own

Hello Everyone,

First I wanted to say that this is a great website, I think it helped me decide to get my dream of BA done.
Well, let me start I’m 42 years old 145 pounds (5’0) I know I need to lose some weight. I have a 6 year old wonderful and smart boy, a lovely husband and I caring mother.

Back in 2008 I was diagnosed with Graves disease (hyperthyroidism) no fun, I lost so much weight and before I knew I was sick I though Wow after all I can still lose weight but didn’t know that all that weight lost was due to thyroid disease , I have always watch what eat and walk 3 miles 3 times per week. I have to mention that I would love to exercise more but working 40 hrs per week and part time student plus family it is a little bit hard.

After losing weight so much weight I decided that I wanted to get a BA, my mom was not very happy with the idea you know moms and a per my husband he told me, he would support whatever I decided.

I started to see an endocrinologist and put me on meds which of course made me gain some weight back. I was not very happy about it. Looks like my thyroid levels are stable for now and that why I decided to get the BA asap don’t get me wrong sometimes I think I will regret it because having this thyroid problem means weight problems forever. The Endo clear me for gery, and my PS was ok as long my endo would give me the ok for surgery.

So here I’m just got BA on July 25, it has been a week and one day and I feel ok. I am not myself 100% but feeling much better than couple days back. I have been getting depressed lately with crazy thoughts like Why did I do this at my age? Am I going to have to do this again in 15 years? I will be old LOL. I get depressed I guess because I have not gone anywhere, I have to mention that I showed up for work on day 5 OMG what a mistake I almost pass out. I called in the next day and today and Fridays are my regular days off. I will be back to work on Saturday which I think I will be fine. (easy days on sat).
I apologize for my writing English is not my first language. I will post some picture and please be honest and tell me what you think. They are really hard, still painful when I do the massage (that I really hate). I still sleeping on the couch and it is not fun. I’m taking 1000 mg Tylenol for pain. Thank you ladies for your responses.