PO Day 10, feeling pretty good :)

Ok, here goes.... I am 38, 5'7, about 140 pounds and very happily married to the love of my life for 20 years now. We have 2 boys at home (17 & 18) who are awesome people and we enjoy them very much. Now the nitty gritty... I have always been unhappy with my breasts and envied women who could wear all the things I couldn't. Bikini tops and low cut anything was not an option for me. I felt like I got 'jipped' for some unknown reason. I had my consultation on Dec 19th and found out that, not only do I have small, saggy boobs, but I also have something called Tuberous Breast Deformity. Wonderful, thanks! And all this time I thought I just had small, ugly boobs, bummer. That was not easy to hear but it did reinforce my feelings of wanting to get the procedure and that I wasn't just being vain or petty. After having two kids plus losing about 50 lbs a few years ago my tummy area is no prize either. I figured if I was going for the gusto, I might as well get the whole package repaired. So, January 31st it is! My husband will help me in recovery and I'm fortunate to be able to take as much time as I need and even work from home.

So, I'm excited, I'm nervous and I'm thankful to be able to finally fix something that has always bothered me and made me self-conscious. In every way I am doing this for myself but I am also doing it for my husband who adores me and loves to buy me frilly little things. I'm excited for both of us! I will post pics when I can because everyone else has and they have given me hope and inspiration for my future results and Im extremely grateful for that. To be continued...

Today was pre-op and I gotta say, I felt a little numb. I had my questions ready and, in my head, had asked them so many times already that I almost knew what the replies would be before I asked. I guess that's good, maybe? Maybe that means that I've done my homework? Hope so. But, I did feel satisfied when we left the office and felt like I had a good grip on the next weeks to come. The nurse person walked in and asked 'are you excited?'. I said 'no', and she looked a little confused. I said 'I'll be excited when its done'. And that's honestly how I feel. I've never had surgery of any kind. Never spent the night in the hospital except for when I had my boys (vaginal births) and went home the next day. But, it was a good appt and I did try on some 'sizers' to get a feel for what we want. For me it's more an issue of NOT GOING TOO BIG as apposed to how many cc's. I feel like I've made myself clear on what I do and don't want and now I'm leaving it in the hands of my very capable PS to make that happen for us. I am SUPER excited about my TT and somehow that stresses me out a lot less than the BL/BA. So, 2 WEEKS from today, I'll be joining y'all on the flat side. As a side note, tomorrow is 21 years that my husband and I have been together. And that makes me happy :) Cheers to all...

LESS THAN 1 WEEK AWAY! Pre-op pics will be posted soon. I'm still trying to come to grips with the fact that I am actually doing this. I say 'actually' because I've thought about it so long that this almost is just too unreal. I'm ready to do it but it still seems so strange! I've got meds, a recliner, toilet seat, etc, etc, etc... January 31st needs to hurry up! HURRY UP!!!