Day 13 - Today was my first day back to the office (i was working from home all last week). I feel good physically just really really sore, still not walking completely upright, mentally is a whole nother story. Yesterday i saw my doctor to remove some sutures, I am a bit concerned because the insicion looks rather strange right at my hips, i wonder if it will look normal once it heals or if its "dog ears" i am not sure what they look like but i have heard a lot of people refer to it. My doctor wants to see me in a month. On another note i think i may be going to through the post surgery blues that i keep hearing people mention. It hit me yesterday like a ton of bricks when i had to get dressed to go to he doctors office, none of my clothes fit me and not in the good way that i was hoping (too big) everything is too small, i can't even button my pants up (how is that possible when i was able to button them up before when i had my big gut?) and lets not even talk about the fact that my thighs feel humongous my pants are super tight over my upper thighs. I was telling myself this can't possibly be true, then i went ahead and made a bigger mistake of weighing myself ugh! 3 pounds more then the day i returned from the hospital! So i marched into my doctors office in my husbands sweat pants, ready to cry, i asked how could this be? I knew i would experience some swelling but i feel huge, this is not good. what am i supposed to wear to work? I can't show up in sweats. He told me everything looked great and that the scars are healing nicely, he also told me to calm down the swelling was normal and that i wouldn't see the full results for 6 months!!! 6 months?! is he insane? :( can someone please tell me if the swelling does in fact take 6 months to subside? what about my upper thighs is that normal? or am i just getting fat from being home? I have been eating good, and he even told me i could work out lightly (ie walking, eliptical) which i started doing over the weekend. Is there anything i can take for the swelling, besides the obvious like drinking lots of water, etc.? As far as going to work this morning, it was a little bit of a challenge finally finding something to wear, i finally decided on a navy skirt suit (skirt zippered half way up, in the back, thank goodness the suit jacket covered it up.) I am also still wearing my binder so i had to wear something that would cover that up as well. I ordered a stage 2 compression garment, i am just waiting for it to arrive in the mail. Driving in went ok, my breasts are still sore and high but not too bad, they have gotten softer which is great. i did have to pace myself more then usual walking to my office building (which is kind of a challenge, in Boston with everyone whizzing by in the morning rush). I had to take 2 tylenol half way through the day because i was starting to feel a bit sore. by the time i got home i was totally exhausted and even more swollen then i was this morning. i don't even want to think about the fact that i have to do it all again tomorrow. I just can't help but feel a bit disapointed, i read up so much on this before my surgery that i thought i was mentally prepared and knew that i would experience some swelling, i just didn't think it would be this bad. I still feel like i have to cover my stomach when i sit down and suck it in when i am walking around, i really do hope it looks better in the end. I don't want to feel all this money spent was for nothing, i already feel guilty for spending it on myself... Any advice is very much welcomed. thanks!