On the other side of the Rainbow. aka lil Hoots!

Hi fellow Partners in Plastic hell! Or explanted now and Happy!
I want to Thank all of you for the posts on this site! I have been back and forth for a few years now on explanting. MY courage has been born from all your messages of hope and love. 25 years ago I implanted my pretty much perfect smaller Athletic God given Breasts. ( SAME old story) Not really for me, I had a Boob loving Husband a million years ago. Trying to please him, I went along with the whole Bowling Ball theory, Bigger is better..No, is is not! I had Saline implants back then and I am forgetful of the size. They did not bother me at all actually.

SO, for the most part, the first 22 years, it was my dirty little secret that I had even had implants. With all the Big boy bras out there now, and all the many other " stuffed bra " looking gals, I fit right in. The marriage fell apart of course many years later. Still, being my health was fine, I did not beat up on myself about implanting all those years ago. That was until a few years ago. Things seemed to shift with time age. And one side was sagging to the point I noticed it and it bothered me. I had not idea of the outcomes you all speak of, and thought I had to implant again. This time, I had new implants, sub muscle and they were bigger then I had hoped for. I am over 6 ft tall, so My PS thought is would be fine. Silicone. The first few days I knew something was terribly wrong. I had severe pain compared to all those years ago and just did not feel right.

This went on for several months. All the time, just hoping things would settle down.. I ended up having them replaced, above muscle and smaller, still silicone. That was over a year ago. Still, not realizing, or maybe just fearing just taking them out, period! I have had nothing but issues since. Their was some tearing from the under muscle implant and that area still seems inflamed, I do trust my Doctor and were in contact through all of this. I hung in and have tried to just live with the discomfort, until I became ill last August. Tired all the time, fevers, pain, numbness and tingling I started researching possibilities of somekind of Silicone allergy and found this site. It has changed my life. I am set up May 1st for explant! As scared as I am, I also am so ready to be free of these toxic bags of waste. My Primary Doctor has ran some blood tests on me and I have some Liver issues now. We are hopeful this will clear up after I heal from Explanting, Ive put this in God's Hands now. I am sure things will improve by reading your stories. Thank you all so much! I look forward to once the healing is on the way I can see the athletic body I was born with again, and not this over stuffed and hard looking one. I have had so much bloating as well and weight gain that It will be wonderful if my body goes back to how I used to be. SO, thank you so much! Fake no more!