On the other side of the Rainbow. aka lil Hoots!
- grapefruits no more
- updated 4 months ago
Hi fellow Partners in Plastic hell! Or explanted...
- 20 Apr 2013
- 10 days pre
Hi fellow Partners in Plastic hell! Or explanted now and Happy!
I want to Thank all of you for the posts on this site! I have been back and forth for a few years now on explanting. MY courage has been born from all your messages of hope and love. 25 years ago I implanted my pretty much perfect smaller Athletic God given Breasts. ( SAME old story) Not really for me, I had a Boob loving Husband a million years ago. Trying to please him, I went along with the whole Bowling Ball theory, Bigger is better..No, is is not! I had Saline implants back then and I am forgetful of the size. They did not bother me at all actually.
SO, for the most part, the first 22 years, it was my dirty little secret that I had even had implants. With all the Big boy bras out there now, and all the many other " stuffed bra " looking gals, I fit right in. The marriage fell apart of course many years later. Still, being my health was fine, I did not beat up on myself about implanting all those years ago. That was until a few years ago. Things seemed to shift with time age. And one side was sagging to the point I noticed it and it bothered me. I had not idea of the outcomes you all speak of, and thought I had to implant again. This time, I had new implants, sub muscle and they were bigger then I had hoped for. I am over 6 ft tall, so My PS thought is would be fine. Silicone. The first few days I knew something was terribly wrong. I had severe pain compared to all those years ago and just did not feel right.
This went on for several months. All the time, just hoping things would settle down.. I ended up having them replaced, above muscle and smaller, still silicone. That was over a year ago. Still, not realizing, or maybe just fearing just taking them out, period! I have had nothing but issues since. Their was some tearing from the under muscle implant and that area still seems inflamed, I do trust my Doctor and were in contact through all of this. I hung in and have tried to just live with the discomfort, until I became ill last August. Tired all the time, fevers, pain, numbness and tingling I started researching possibilities of somekind of Silicone allergy and found this site. It has changed my life. I am set up May 1st for explant! As scared as I am, I also am so ready to be free of these toxic bags of waste. My Primary Doctor has ran some blood tests on me and I have some Liver issues now. We are hopeful this will clear up after I heal from Explanting, Ive put this in God's Hands now. I am sure things will improve by reading your stories. Thank you all so much! I look forward to once the healing is on the way I can see the athletic body I was born with again, and not this over stuffed and hard looking one. I have had so much bloating as well and weight gain that It will be wonderful if my body goes back to how I used to be. SO, thank you so much! Fake no more!
Hello out there!!! Just a nervous Nelly here...
- 25 Apr 2013
- 6 days pre
Hello lovely Ladies!! 5 days after explant and...
- 4 May 2013
- 3 days post
Hello Ladies!! Thanks again for all the comments...
- 9 May 2013
- 8 days post
HELLO !! Update, 15 days post op.. The Nips...
- 15 May 2013
- 14 days post
If I can figure out to post a pic, in a bra, I sure will someday!! :) Droid cell.. not sure how to do it?
aka lil HOOTS~~~ Three week post op Day!! :)
- 21 May 2013
- 20 days post
I had my Three week post op today!! I hugged my PS.... I am SO happy to be implant free! He seemed happy to get that hug! I have little boobs. NO DOUBT that they are still in the stage of improving with time. Slowly, but surely, I can see them coming back to life after 20 some long years, a few surgeries and lots of trauma to them. I am HAPPY to be natural. Happy to be free. I can breathe again.I joked with my PS today, about feeling like his One and only flat chested Mermaid. HA! With all the rains, I was kinda drenched when I was at the Appt. It really matters to like your PS. To trust him. To be patient and kind to ourselves. My Breast I feel will keep coming back, they are alittle concave yet, but seemed like each day they fluff ever so little. 3 weeks out, I was told today I can swim again! SO looking forward to getting back into my life, WITHOUT, the bags. Or Grapefruits as I called them. Merena I was told for my incision scars, not that they are closed and healing! Best of luck to all of you healing and all who will be having an explant. I am going to continue to be patient, sounds like even 6 months one can be still fluffing and healing! My PS said I as lucky with all the years of implants, and issues, to have the Shape of the breast I have. I know, I have no pictures, sorry! I tried, not able to post. I am a shy one though, so I would have been in full attire anyway! boring ! :) But, thanks again to all the stories and courage ! We rock ladies! We really do! As I walked out of my PS's office today. Several young, I mean, YOUNG, twenties? Some sitting with the most gigantic Boobs I have ever seen, no doubt, newly planted ones, because their shirts were Low, showing all.. :( Made me sick for them. And I also met a few walking in, with HUGE.. I mean HUGE breasts. Again, these young ladies, proudly, flaunting almost the whole upper portion of the breasts. ALL the same, looking Huge, hard and well, almost to perfect in size. That's the dead give away. I simply walked by them, smiled, wearing my ever so small compression bra, under a blouse, proudly, Natural, flat and Loving it!!! AMEN!!
MY Little nips are coming back to me!!! YEAH!!!!!!
- 24 May 2013
- 23 days post
ClearPoint Medical Compression Bra 3218 Classic comfort bra
- 24 May 2013
- 23 days post
Happy Memorial day Girls!!
- 25 May 2013
- 24 days post
I am almost at the one month Anniversary of the explant. So happy about that. With all the many health issues I had over the years, the last years the most, I am glad they are gone. I had some Liver issues and lots of joint and muscle issues. Tired all the time. Most of that has left. The joint issues slid back in, slightly, in the last several days. I had a RA appt made months ago, before I even had an explant date. A week or so ago, the Doc drew all kinds of blood to check some things out. Even though, the implants were out. She felt, I would not have RA by looking at me. Wrong. :( I got the results yesterday and it kinda hit me like a brick. It is low range still at least. So, miracles can happen.. I am a health nut normally, so I just have to dig in and really research this beast of burden now. I cant say if it is from Implants all the years? I will never truly know this? In my gut, I feel it is. Just because of my overall health before and then during the last years. Sad, but still happy to be implant free! This, is not going to suck any joy out of me. If anyone else out there has RA, or knows of someone and what they have been on or do to combat it, Id appreciate any info. I will be rechecked in 3 months to see its levels. Okay, carry on all you cute little small busted Beauties and small boobies to be! Life is precious short and full of turns. I plan to go to battle with this new one in my life! aka lil Hoots
A day at a time! Patience is Key!! Best of luck to all of you Ladies out there!
- 30 May 2013
- 29 days post
Alittle over 4 weeks since the Explant! Yeah! I still am changing. Maybe even smaller
lately? All I know,is my Nipples rock! HAHAHA. You guys understand this sillyness ! My Nips with the big old bags in them, well, they looked like they were inflamed and stretched out to the Max. They were! They, are really shrinking up to the Youthful size I had all those years ago in my early twenties. At 53! That is Huge! I still am sore. Up and down days! But, all in all, better with time. Slowly starting to do alittle working out. No jogging, not ready for that, but walking seems to make me feel better now! I am amazed at MY PS and his skill at sewing me back together. Many times now, Ive been cut open on the incisions. It could be a real mess. It's not! The PS will be retiring soon, he has a gift. I think he is truly a BIG boob man himself, I can tell by what walks out of his Shop. BUT, I also am happy he took care of me and my desires of having my Flatness back! We must connect with our PS. And really, feel like we trust them. I did with him! I wish all of you the best with future explants and already explanted..Rest. heal. eat right and repeat. OH, and pray! It works! :) I did buy some lightly padded bras from VS. It rocks to be little again! Love it! Hugs Ladies!!
almost 6 weeks post explant!
- 5 Jun 2013
- 1 month post
Just wanting to thank all of you again for all the courage and hope out there. Also, to you nonfat Blonde for that sisterhood of having our explants same day, same time. God Bless all of you and best of luck in the explanting girls to come!
At almost 6 weeks out, I find myself still having little ups and downs, but NEVER regretting the explant. I am 53, so I tire easy, but for sure, I have more energies! I can breathe again! That, and the little ones, are the best thing ever! I did find out I have RA, plus I have Lymes, so, most likely, some of my stuff is related to that. I believe as Ive said before, the RA though, is from the implants. No proof, but what is in my Guts!! I shared I bought a dress the other day, and the sales clerk wanted to see it on me. I proudly walked out in it, my little training bra aka compression bra, and sported the dress! Instead of sharing with everyone, in a small town that I explanted, I just say, I am embracing my Flatness at this time of my life, no big boy padded bras for me! Some of the ladies Ive said that too, seem happy to hear that. I do have a few VS padded bras for those times I may feel like I need a boost, but the wonderful thing is, they have been just laying in the bag, waiting I guess? I like the Natural. And, truthfully, my boobies feel better still in the tightness of the compression? So, I am finally, letting the boobies/ lil Hooters, have a voice. We put our bodies through so much abuse, it is time for me now, to really listen to my body. My skin seems better, my Hair is not falling out, and even growing again! I know, it's because the implants are out of there! SO, advice I can give at this stage, Rest, if you don't, you will set yourself back, pamper you, resist the urge to work out the first part of this healing, it is not worth the set backs. Walking seems okay, and I have been walking for a few weeks. Nothing more. I am guessing, at my exact 6 week mark, I will start with some small weights for the arms again! I know Ive changed all my eating habits, I sneak in a candy bar yet, not going to lie, but for the most part, Clean eating!! SO, peace to all of you beauties! I am off on a little two day trip, calling it R&R for ME! My sewing machine, my Bible, journal and a few good reads! Hugs! aka lil Hoots
6 week Anniversary!
- 10 Jun 2013
- 1 month post
WOW. Six weeks! Honest, it does fly by! When I look back now, I can really see how that word, Patience, is Key! Thanks again Non fat blonde, early on, she used The term, Patience Grasshopper, I ended up loving that and still do! Thank you Hon! Not much to report different from last week! I am still seeing improvements with time and massage. And, also wearing my Compression bra yet, seems to be key for me. My lil hoots are still perking up and the massage is the best part I think of this process. For sure, that is so healing and really needed once we get to start that! I can sleep, breathe and seem the brain fog used to feel, gone!! If you are on the fence out there on explanting, or nervous at all, that's okay! But do yourself a favor, and gift that to yourself! It will be the best thing you can ever do for your health and Body! Have that faith all will turn out. I mean, I am not going to lie and say that I still have that door open for the fluff fairy to come back some more! :)) But, that fluff slowly does happen, and our bodies seem to just start blooming like the small little blossoms! I am not perfect, but I am implant free and Love that! I do still believe my RA, low range, was caused by the way over to many years implanted. I will pray that goes away! In the meantime, take care of YOU, lets love our bodies again and I wish peace and happiness to all of you lovely and strong Ladies! aka lil Hoots ps.. I have a Droid-DNA cell, I have not posted any pics,I have no idea how too! Although I did send NF Blonde girl a pic of the littles! ( In my compression bra!) It did feel good to share that! We had our explants the same day, and time!
- 13 Jun 2013
- 1 month post
Anyway, I LOVE, seeing Kelly Ripa, embrace her own Natural, very small chested self. She is beautiful I think, and part of that, is to me, she is small on top. Just youthful. If she had big fake boobs, she would look older and raggy! Yeah for the little ones!! I did over due with some yoga last night, at home! At 53, I am going to back up the thought process. 6 Weeks out, I will not rush this healing! I could tell my incisions were not liking my movements, SO!! NO WAY, will I mess up the progress I am making. Walking and biking for this chick. Compression bras, and still, rest. I suppose it all depends on the age and person too!! Have a great day!!!! aka lil Hoots
9 weeks post OP... not sure, lost track of time!!
- 27 Jun 2013
- 1 month post
I have had good days, and today, BAD..
I love my Compression bra yet, but thought it was time to update my wardrobe.
I think I tried on, maybe 25 bras at Macy's today..Bad idea. It made me feel bad, and that I will never find that Perfect bra! Ive spent money on the Zee bra, although they are fine, not quite what I am looking for. I tried on way to many brands, high end, low end to even remember right now! I walked out, with just a Brief shaper, for a dress I need to fit in this Fall, knowing one thing!! I need to get back to the Lake and start to swim. That, first off, is an issue. Ive let myself slide into, well, being Lazy again...SO, no more woe is me. I truly, love being small chested! But it is a strange and still new thing! I dug out an old Wacoal Bra, spelled wrong maybe, and I love it, it is a 36 C.. Stretched out because of years of Implanted fakeness filling the cups, it actually, fits kinda nice. To try and find that same Bra, nope, discontinued..:( I will keep trying, in the meantime, two or three implantings ago, Before I actually really had the big ones inserted, Yuck and barf at that, but, I found that the 36 C fit.. Although, trust me, I seem more like a 38 A cup.. A cup? Ha.. cracks me up, but at 6-1, I am sorta, kinda like a Gabby Reece in Size, AMAZONISH, only with little hooters... Lil hoots that do not seem to beable to find a better bra, then the dang little compression bra. SO, I will just keep wearing that for now. They seem perfectly happy all tight and squished in there..LOL
SO, sorry for the rantings, it was a long, exhausting day. Never again, will I keep trying on bras that long..No way! I should know I was at my limit. Yikessssssss.. So, I do know one thing, catching a glimpse of my 53 year old figure in a mirror, I honestly, love the look I have, FLAT, sorta, kind of, with nips.. As Ive said before, It's all about the Nips anyway to me, and why Pad the hell out of them, and hide them? It's all I almost have? Well, alittle more, but you guys know what I am saying. I feel, if we pad up ourselves, it's kinda like not excepting our Natural God given bodies still. Okay, enough already, Happy 4th to you guys!! Be safe, take care of YOU!! aka lil Hoots
Wacoal Bra NN 85567 36 c
- 30 Jun 2013
- 1 month post
August One 2013
- 1 Aug 2013
- 3 months post