From the start I never really liked them and was hoping one day feel like all my friends who loved their implants...never happend and I actually spent most of my time hiding my figure (oh and my husband hated them, he didnt like how big and unnatural they looked) Fast forward to 2010, I became extremely involved in crossfit and continued to loose more body fat...my breasts now looked like socks with rocks, they just hung there. So in May 2012 I went in and had a lift and smaller implants put in 225 and 250, this time under the muscle. I loved them they were the perfect size for my small athletic frame and I was so much more comfortable. I loved being able to wear small little bras and bikinis. Within 5 months of the surgery I noticed that my right breast had started to get hard and was pushing up toward my armpit.
The Dr confirmed it was CC and said the capsulectomy would be easy. I had the Capsulectomy Dec 21 2012. After the surgery my DR told me the capsule had gotten quite thick and there was a lot of scraping. That first night blood was oozing out of my incisions and the drain didnt seem to be working right, i knew something was wrong. For the next 10 days my drain started to work and I was filling about 100CC's a day. The DR said we had to pull the drain otherwise I would risk infection. When we pulled it I knew I was still producing to much fluid and within 2 days my right boob blew up to the size of a canatalope and I was rushed into emercency surgery for a hemotoma evuacation.
My poor boob was being opened up for the third time in 8 months. after the hemotoma removal I felt a million times better and we were confident I was on my way to healing, but within 8 weeks the same boob started to get ridiciously hard again. The dr wanted to have one more shot and had said that this time would be different because the hematoma had caused the CC this time. Mentally I knew that I couldnt handle another surgery and then wondering and waiting to see if the CC would come back would just stress me out too much. At some point I had to put my vanity aside and realize that my body simply no longer wanted these "toxic bags of shit" (thats how I had to refer to them so I would start to hate them). I was scared to death as to what I would look like. After the hematoma removal my dr had stiched me up so tight that the incision had a slight indent at the base, I had mentally prepared myself for some teathering but told myself that I'd rather have messed up natural boobs than messed up fake boobs.
I had my explant 4 days ago and can say that I am 110% happy I did it! Since They have come out my skin looks better and I am sleeping so much better. My Dr said that he has never seen an implant get squeezed that tight that quick. He was amazing and reassured me that I did the right thing. As i predicted the side with all the problems has some teathering but it honestly doesnt upset me at all. I know that they look a little messed up, but once I put a bra on you cant tell at all and I love the fact that they are all mine. After looking at all the pictures and stories on this website I started to realize how much more beautiful I think natural boobs are. I never expected to look in the mirror and be so happy to have the body that I am supposed to have back. I have also had several people while I was out shopping stop me and ask me what I do to be in such amazing shape, at first i was sad thinking that I must look like a boy now that I have no boobs, but I realze now that even just 4 days post explant I am walking a little more confident and not wearing clothes that cover up my body. This has been one of the most emotional times of my life and I couldnt have done it without having read the other stories and emailing with some of you on here. my only hope is that my story helps give someone else a little bit of comfort as they are deciding weather or not to explant. I honestly could not be happier!