My consult day is finally here! I'm waiting for Dr...
As I was typing this he just popped his head in and apologized for the delay and said he would be right with me. What doctor does that?? So polite. I already like him :-)
Sleeping On It
I am not close to my ideal weight, but I have struggled over the past few years to get the weight off. The problem is, I work my a$$ off, going to the gym, dieting, etc., and I see results everywhere except for my tummy. Then I get frustrated and upset...and fall off the wagon. Then I get back on. Rinse and Repeat. Over and over again.
I took a picture of myself the other day to post here...and I was SHOCKED at how bad it looked. I think once you are so used to looking at your "imperfection" it doesn't seem as bad....until you see it in a photo. Oooooof. It made me want to cry. I will post a before picture soon...I just haven't reached that point mentally yet.
So now, I have the paperwork to secure my date. It's filled out. And for some reason I'm second guessing my decision. Anyone else feel this way??? I have been obsessing over this decision for months. I want it sooooo bad.
Every day is a struggle. I hate getting dressed for work. I hate standing up in front of a group of people to present because I am paranoid that they are looking at my belly and wondering why the hell I look five months pregnant.
I just want to buy a pair of pants that fit my waist...and don't sag on my butt and legs.
And yet, I have this paperwork and I decided to sleep on it before faxing it over. I'm such a weirdo.
I hope to use this procedure not as a weight loss strategy, but to jumpstart it. In fact, if I never lost another pound, but my belly was not a drooping mess I'd die happy.
Paid. In. Full.
9 More days...
I know I want to do the basics - make sure house is clean and organized, laundry done, groceries shopped, and a few meals made ahead of time. My sister will be taking care of me for a few days, while the Hubby keeps the kids busy. They'll be out on Christmas break, so that will take some effort :)
Besides those things, what am I missing? I have gotten some suggestions from RealSelfers on scar treatments like BioOil and those silicone sheets. The PS office told me to start taking fiber supplements a few days before the surgery. When I had my c sections, I took Colace, so maybe I will also get some of that.
My mom's place, where I will be recovering has a recliner, which is awesome. I have read many posts where you all have said that makes life a lot easier, especially sleeping.
Oh, one question. So they said to wear a favorite underwear to get marked up in. The problem is, my lower stomach hangs over, so I don't really have a favorite underwear (because my "apron" makes everything look like crap!).
Do I do a thong, or a low rise panty?? So confused. Any advice would be appreciated Real Self Sisters!!
'Twas the night before TT
Skipped the work Xmas party to have dinner with my husband and kids. Didn't want to be running around trying to get things done. Can't drink alcohol so what's the point anyway right??
Here's the dreaded before picture. Barf.
On the flat side...
The staff at the surgery center were AMAZING. so sweet. Arrived a little early and filled out all the paperwork. Then Dr T took me back to get marked up, take pictures etc.
Then they took me to the surgery room and before I knew it, I was OUT! Surgery took a little longer (3 hours) because apparently i was having trouble breathing due to the MT.
Dr. T had to loosen the muscle tightening a little. Also they had to give a catheter which I took home.
Pain was tolerable but I felt nauseous gave me some anti nausea meds, got me dressed and I went home! My sister has been my nurse since Hubby is home with the kids. He can't handle blood!!
I have been staying on top of my pain meds and walking hunched over, bit overall I am doing well!! Dr. t called last night to check on me. He was so awesome- I love his honesty and caring demeanor. Seriously, if you are considering him, CHOOSE HIM!
My sis took my catheter out and I have already peed - no BM yet bit I have been taking Colace to prepare :-)
OH - some of you have wondered how to clean yourself in the bathroom! When I had my csections they have me a peri bottle (I think that's what they call it); it's basically a squirt bottle. VERY HELPFUL to clean down there since you can't shower. Just FYI. I asked them for me and they gave it to me.
Anyway hope all my TT REAL friends had good surgeries yesterday. I feel thankful and blessed that things went well!!
How are you all doing??
Skin starting to itch - assuming this is a good thing? Nerves reactivating or something technical like that lol.
Wish I could fast forward. I hate being this immobile.
Where is the #%?%#?!\ poop fairy????
First post op appt tomorrow. Can't wait to see what's going on under this binder!
Post Op Appointment
She took off my binder for the first time since they put it on. I don't know why I was expecting something scary to be going on in there lol. She removed the gauze which hurt like a #%^>?! And I wondered why the hell i didn't take my pain meds before I left for the appt.
Anyhow things looked....pretty good! The stiches are definitely no joke. My c sections scars had been sealed with dermabond so this was an adjustment. However I noticed that my c section scar had been removed! Cool. The scar is pretty low although he did have to do an extended incision due to lower fat roll.
Still a lot of swelling but hardly ANY bruising from the lipo on my flanks.
So far I'm pretty happy although I hope things will flatten out more. I'm not skinny and Dr T said he might not be able to get me totally flat. I'm ok with that but a girl can dream can't she?!?
Here's a pic at my appt. I will post more once I figure out this whole selfie thing while looking like the hunchback of Notre Dame. :-) Happy healing ladies!!!
Feeling Blue and Annoyed With The World
He's gonna bring them around today and I am considering going home. There's nothing better than the feeling of your own bed, your own space that makes you feel better. Maybe that'll help? I haven't left the house in a week, except for my follow up appt. Since I'm one of those people that can't sit still and am running my ass around everywhere, this prison sentence is making me freakin depressed!
I probably won't get my drain out for another week (%#!$#).
Last night in bed, I felt like my abs were so swollen they were about to split open. Is this the "swell hell" that everyone talks about?! In the pictures, it is hard to tell how swollen you guys are so I don't know if what I have is normal.
Overall, I thought I'd be further along than this, but I guess I need to be patient. I just want to feel better already....and wear something other than a pair of yoga pants and a ratty t-shirt!
Home Sweet Home & More Blues
My husband goes back to work on Monday and although I'll be working from home all week, I am really worried how I will be able to make it to school on 1/3.
I am still walking hunched over and I am SWELLING like a thanksgiving day balloon. I keep telling myself this is normal but I don't believe myself.
I came home yesterday from my moms and hubby has been awesome. I know he thinks I am crazy on some level. Last night I was sitting and folding laundry while we watched TV together. I pointed to my and and said "see! No rolls when I sit down. I know it's a lot of pain but I'm happy!" And hubby said, if you're happy I'm happy." He kills me when I least expect it!
So yesterday I'm happy today I'm miserable. Period is coming soon. Maybe that is why? Have you all experienced this??
Somebody Really Likes Me
My Buddy and MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
My health? My safety? Can't argue with that. Can't say I wasn't upset. Damn I want to get rid of this thing! I guess it didn't help that he milked the drain and HUUUUUGE blood clot came out. Wonderful timing, you long slimy red traitor. Damn you to hell!
So now I have class tomorrow and I have to figure out what to wear that will conceal it well. I was thinking of wearing a dress and running the drain down the inside of my thigh and let it hang there like a ball, a la Lance Armstrong? Any thoughts?!?!?
Follow up on Monday again with Dr. T and hopefully I can hold a funeral for this little plastic bastard.
On a side note, swelling is going down, and I am starting to feel MUCH better. Just have to remember to still take it easy.
RIP Plastic Bastard!
Eve was awesome at pulling that sucka out. It didn't hurt at all!
Back to the office tomorrow and I hope I can stand up straighter than I am now!
Almost 4 weeks post op
Anyway, he did put a needle in just to be safe and looks like nothing came out.
He have me the go ahead to start using scar therapy. He recommended vitamin e and cocoa butter and massaging it. He said I could buy all sorts of expensive "potions" and creams but he doesn't really endorse that. Just speeds up the process but doesn't change actual results. My scar seems to be pretty light so I think I will be happy with it.
In other news I got the flu this week and between the coughing and sneezing I am sure I busted a stitch or something. Not feeling too good about that.
6 Weeks PO and A Minor Crisis!!
I HOPE someone calls me back today!!
I thought i've been being careful...have I been standing up too straight?
Having this bad cough for three weeks probably hasn't helped either.
I am having visions of this huge would opening up and I swear I will freak the f*#% out if that happens!!
I am so happy I picked Dr. Tattlebaum. He's careful, thoughtful, and commits to doing the BEST job he can do. His education, training and experience is impeccable. All things to consider when you consider giving over your body to someone else's hands! He is also compassionate, and more importantly, he is HONEST. He's not going to sell you a dream that he can't achieve. I appreciate that he is set reasonable expectations (and then surpassed them). If you're in the DC area and even considering plastic surgery, you must at least do a consult with him!