Step 1. Consult a Dr Step 2. Review Options to Redo or Remove Step 3. DECISION TIME - Reading, PA

I'm 30 yrs old. 8 years ago I was a 32A and decided to get saline implants placed under the muscle. It was 225cc. I went to a 34c. For 2 years ago I have noticed my left breast has a large dimple & there is rippling. Doesn't hurt, and now 6 months after giving birth to by daughter, my left breast is a D cup while my right has remained a C. I do breast feed, but even with a shirt on after breastfeeding there is a noticeable difference. I scheduled my 1st consultation with Dr. Brian Reedy for 3/10/14. So far the office staff, Stephanie was very friendly which is comforting. We scheduled for Mar bc I'm still breastfeeding and to do the procedure I have to be "dry". I'm so nervous, I'm leaning mostly to remove them, simply because the idea of having these in my body no longer appeals to me and I just feel uncomfortable. I got them done @ a time I really didn't know who I was, and felt I would feel better about myself and now after life experiences, I find myself wishing I hadn't done it. So I'm just hear sharing my journey and hoping to find some comfort and encouragement from you fine ladies...

So I contacted my original dr. Dr Keith Berman of Staten Island NY. I do recall he was an awesome surgeon! Anyways, I got my opnotes and pictures from before and after my surgery. I had Allergan saline moderate profile 270-300cc under the muscle filled at 325ml for both right & left. It was done nearly 8 years ago. 1. It is a shock to see my little babies. I used to call them Mary Kate & Ashley lol as the girls were super young and twins then lol!!! So different to see them after 8 years and it makes me nervous because they have obviously stretched a bit. My biggest fear is removing them and being super stretched out and saggy. :-((( I know I have a while before my decision but I so don't want to redo them and am desperately hoping they are gonna bounce back. I'm gonna take a shot from below laying down so you see the dimple on the left boob better.

So Dr. Reedy's office contact me today about moving the consult to 2/24/14. Excited to be able to consult with the Dr sooner than later.. Still super nervous but I really feel I'm going the right direction. I'm excited to soon be explant free. :-)

Had my consult with Dr Reedy this am. He's awesome knowledgable and very friendly. I went in KNOWING I wanted to have these suckers removed. Yet, after leaving I find myself questioning. Will I really be happier? What are the pro's and con's? Replacing them pros: my shape stays the same, they will feel more natural, no rippling, bra size stays the same. Cons: still unnatural, possible revision on 10-20 or even 30 years & $6900 fee. Removing them pros: back to being natural, no necessary revisions down the road. Cons: $4500 fee, although natural possibly saggy, small again.. Neither list can tell me if I'll be happier... I'm happy with myself as is, and don't think my boobs play a role but what if they do? Ugh... So difficult... I'm giving myself until the end of this week to make a decision. Either route I go I'd much rather get it done by April. Hmpf... Anyone have any suggestions for my confused state?

So after more than 12 hours after my consult. I felt like all the original reasons for my wanting my implants out, scream out to me above any reason to keep them or redo them. So after the consideration, I'm still deciding to remove them. I might visit a few different drs offices to determine if I'm making the right choice. I hear wonderful things about my dr but one can never be too safe when it comes to their body. I don't want to side tracked from my decision. I just want to be understood and continue my journey to being natural.

So after much deliberation and a good nights sleep, plus paying attention to my inner voice, my decision hasn't changed. Removing the implants is still my goal! Fear did set in but it will pass and I'll probably get scared again but I know no matter what removing them is what I want. I just want to be sure with the Dr I'm choosing. I scheduled my consult with Dr Johnny Chung for 3/10/14.

Despite not having the best week being at 2 different drs appointments for unrelated issues and for some reason feeling super exhausted... And getting some sort of bug over the weekend, I'm at my 2nd consult hoping this is it and I can book my surgery date.

Set my appoint for 4/3/14 for the removal of these balloons. Dr Chung was very easy going and didn't try up selling me on the newest and the best implant replacement. He asked why I wanted them out and that was that. He was really easy to talk to and said we can do local anesthesia as the capsules are fine, but left the choice up to me. He explain incision location would be same place I had them (aureolas) and they would pop the implant and then remove. I chose no cocktail (mixture of Vicodin & something else). No talk of needing drains. Total cost $2480 w/o anesthesia or $2900 with.

I have a vacation planned for 4/18/14-4/27/14 - nothing crazy just going to Disney World. So... Now I'm having thoughts that I should move it to after the vaca. With 2 weeks basically between the time I have the surgery and actually go on vacation. What is your opinion? Aahh... I really want to get this done. I have an 8 mth old and I do plan on getting on rides. I haven't asked my dr yet which I should probably do....

9 days to go before I get my implants removed. I'm starting to get super nervous... Bah! Trying not to think of the what ifs and just be excited that I'm getting them out! They are part of a very emotional past that I can never forget but by ridding myself of them I hope to reduce the amount of times I have feelings of regret and hopefully be symbolic of getting rid of that part of my past..

I can't believe it's almost here.... So nervous but excited, I've been looking online for bralette's. Never really enjoyed bra's but looking forward to being small and bralette's, I dunno seem sexy to me especially bc there's so many varieties. Anyone using them, after explanting?

My stomach hurts I'm so nervous

Well here it is ladies! Dr Chung was amazing... We laughed and told stories during the surgery. He's a really good guy so was the assistant that was there. Soon as I got in the room, they had me undress top half only. Then I layed down and he marked my incision line about 1.5-2" where my original incision was (bottom part of the areole). Then he injected the local anesthesia whIch he said would pinch and burn but I didn't feel it much. Then he cut the incision n with that little lazer thingy to prevent a lot of bleeding be kept at each layer until he got to the impant. The right came out very easy, he stitched me back up and then went to work on the left. He said I was starting to develop capsule hardness but that it wasn't to all bad and I had scarring which is what caused the dimple in my left boob. Sooooo he did the same he did to the right but the pocket was a little tighter due to the capsule developing... He kept trying to get the stupid implant and bc it was smooth it kept just going back in! Lol... So funny bc at one point he was poking my rib and it tickled soooo much I kept laughing... Anyway, eventually he got the implant and I said... This one is probably gonna pop! Low and behold not even 1 minute after the implant burst and we all were sprayed with the saline. Lol! No worries it was cleaned up, he made sure there wasn't a piece of the implant inside of my breast cleaned it up and stitched it. Within 15 mins of that I was out the door. Craaaaaazy! But it was a good experience that I will never have to do again. None the less here are my little munchkins looking all sad and abused but he said it will take 3-6 mths for the skin to retract and said I'm ok to go on rollercoasters as long as nothing pulls on me and I can shower right away (thank goodness bc I have my boob water on me) and I can go to the beach and get in the water! Yaaaay! I'm very happy and am being very realistic these babes look sad right now but in the coming weeks are going to be so pretty and will bounce back slightly. And I'm ok with that because I'm natural. ;-)

So touching and really nice to get a phone call from Dr Chung. He asked how I was doing and recommended I take Tylenol to help with the coming discomfort. I absolutely was taken by that! That means a lot to me :-) I am starting to get discomfort though.

Not feeling to well. Pretty sore... Think I'm going to stay in today instead of what I originally wanted to do which is to to work. :-/ my left breast is more sore than the right. Probably because the ps fiddled around more in the left and that was the one that popped! So I think I'm going to rest. Here's a shot! I'm going to try to take 1 pick a day for 6 mths to see how it progresses and to show you all how it progresses.

Here's today's

Still looking good and droopy! But they are so soft... I love my natural small boobies

My incisions are sooo itchy OH MY WORD ! Otherwise feel good! Got some new sports/bralette's today. I had some medium ones and they don't seem to have enough compression to it. No big deal. Can't wait til the skins retracts. But good news my hubby actually said I looked sexy! And he likes the feel of the soft boobies

Oh 1 more in my bralette

At my follow up appointment 6 days post Op! Feel great, doubt I'll get any bad news. Still itchy but what can ya do?

So it's now about 18 days post op. I feel wonderful, have a little bit of scar tissue that's hardening but I'm massaging it according to dr's orders and can feel it getting smaller. Am in Disney, did a rollercoaster ride yesterday where the bars went over my chest. There was a gaping spacing between my chest and the bars (yaaaay, best feeling). I'm seeing slight improvement with the way the small tatas sit on my chest now, doesn't look as concave.

Almost 4 weeks now. Noticing my right breast is higher n fuller than my left. Not sure if it's fluid build up or just my right progressing faster than the left. Well here are the snap shots.

More pics. Noticed if I where a more fitted shirt then my boobs look like they actually exist but other times id wear a looser shirt and I looked pretty flat. Lol oh wells stuff happens at least I'm all natural. The bathing suite had some serious padding so my boobs look bigger in it but I removed the padding, so now I look flatter but I find that more comfortable.

Hi, having been around in a while, had vaca and super busy since! But I have my latest pics, also saw Dr Chung on 5/21 and all is well, I haven't been massaging the scar tissue was still there so I have been hard at massaging it since. The swelling is going down, he states, that as I work out I will experience swelling and fluid build up. But that the fluid will be absorbed by my body naturally. AWESOME! They do look sad still but it's ok I love them! I even went running training for a 5k and boy the difference was amazing!