botox injection for blepharospasm disaster

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I'm still waiting. When I get up in hte morning I feel my best after I have had warm eye pillows and used eye drops on and off all night. I'm not up more then a half hour when I lose it again. My eyes are just so tored and I have trouble keeping them open. I feel like a freak and weak sunglasses to hide my eyes. I've gotten some responses from doctors on this site and they have actually upset me. Th9is one doctor said if you have droopy eyelids after Botox for Blephrospasm then it actually worked as that is what it is supposed to do to relax the muscles/ He assumed also that I got relief from the Blephrospasm. Blephrospasm is eye muscle twitching and forced closure of the eyes. I had trouble keeping my eyes open before so how has it helped. This is worse then the Blephrospasm. At least before my eyes were equal and I would get relief now and then. There is no relief from this until it wears off. He said if you had trouble this time the doctor can inject less the next time. I didn't get a chance to tell him there will be no next time. My brain feels like mush. Why don't these doctors tell you anything, there should be before and after instructions.They never discuss side effects. in fact I think it is a gimic and they don't want to tell patient's this as there is too much to be made off it. Ladies don't let your vanity make these guys rich. Before you know it they will be treating everything with Botox. I asked e doctor about they lying down for the injections and he completely ignored that question. I think Doctors protect themselves and stand up for other doctors like policemen do. Botox for Migraine Headaches, Botox causes headaches.

I think I am slowly getting better into my third week but hate getting up every morning wondering what this day will bring. I'm tired of holding my eye open with my fingers. I am hoping to wake up one day and my eyes open like God intended. I don't know how people survive with one eye as it is so awkward and off balance. Not much more to tell but I am told this poison wears off and it is poison, so just waiting it out. Becky