Boobs before kids
This was my biggest mental obstacle before...
You will notice they have a bit of a triangle/pointy shape to them, and the left is bigger and lower than the right. I do have slightly inverted nipples but I was a bit chilly (it's winter in Aus right now) when I took these photos so they came out to say hello! hehe
Boobs on the Brain!
I had the realisation last night that very soon I won't ever have to wear a padded bra again if I don't want to, I've never not worn a padded bra, even my bathers and sports bras are padded! Right now I'm not feeling nervous, just keen to get it done and start healing so I can start to see my new boobs!!
So the days are going slow. I mentioned early that I've made myself super busy at work to make it go faster, but it's not working. Instead I'm just really distracted and not doing the best job I should be (I work by myself). I wish I could just sleep for he next 2 weeks!! Anyway first world problems.
I think I'm pretty much organised. It's a bit different in Australia, my Surgeon told me exactly what post surgery bra to get and where to get it. I've been told that I must absolutely wear this for 8 weeks after the procedure, 24 hours a day. Awesome :/ But then again what's 8 weeks when I'm paying 12k and may possibly have these boobs for the rest of my life?
I take zinc, vit c and magnesium along with a multi on a regular basis so I think I can pretty much keep that the same. I've bought a few new loose fitting tops for after, as well as 2 pairs of button up pj's. Straws. Tick. Warm socks. Tick. Boyfriends got 4 days off. Tick. (the most important thing in my book)!
I pick up all my medication from the hospital on the day, so that's also covered.
Anyhoo, haven't really got much else to tell, these next 2 weeks better hurry up!!!
More before pics..
Exercise motivation, where are you?!
Types of boobs
I went to my last boxercise class last night, a bit sad because I know I won't be going back for a couple of months. I wish I could train right up to my surgery to feel better going into it but my surgeon said I have quite developed pecks so he wants to let them rest in the lead up to surgery day. I did mention to my trainer that I'm having surgery and can't train upper body for a while, and he said he's happy for me to come down to the gym when ever I think and use it for free until I'm back to joining in the classes again, scores! I think I'll most probably just make use of the bike, but it's so good to be able to get out of the house and work out, I get too distracted at home.
On a different note, I had a massive month at work last month and made a heap of bonuses, which means yay new clothes and bras after surgery and I don't have to worry about the cost which is really nice!!
Feeling drained :/
1 more sleep!
Before pics clothed
Morphine is awesome!
Thank goodness I'm on the other side!
Yay 6am time to get up! Had a shower in the lovely chlorhexadine hospital grade wash then pottered around a bit making the bed, tidying up and just making sure everything was nice to come home to. Said goodbye to my puppy dog and left the house at 7.30.
Got to the hospital pretty much on time, they 'checked' me in and the we sorted out my bill. Turns out they were charging me to stay over night when I only chose to be a day patient. Lucky I checked.
So my BF heads to the café to do some work while I get stuck into my book. We were told I wasn't being taken in until 11am but then at 10am someone comes in and says time to take you in! Ahh hell no I'm not going anywhere until I kiss my boyfriend. So after a bit of a tantrum and tears someone finally went and found him for me so I could say cya soon, which I don't think is too much to ask.
Next I was parked in a holding bay, and left there for nearly an hour which really pissed me off! Next the anaesthetist came out just to reconfirm some details and in I went. While being pushed to the OR all these sirens started going of and a lady (a nurse I think) came running out and yells "we need help in here now!", There were people running all over the place. Oh my god that terrified me, I hope the person in there was ok in the end.
So by the time we got to the OR I was balling because of what just happened and I was already emotional from earlier. I was really pissed at my surgeon because I had no phone call leading up to surgery, nor did he bother to come see me before going into the OR, and I didn't see him after my surgery either! Very very unhappy and disappointed with his service and bedside manner. Good thing I only wanted him for what his hands can do! haha. So yeh anyway all the other staff were lovely. They gave me a fresh warm blanket, made sure I was comfortable and just chatted to me about life in general. I had the anaesthetic needle to numb where the IV would be inserted (bonus because I didn't ask for that!) and then the IV. He said I'd start to feel sleepy now and should start counting back from 10, um I didn't even make 10, lol!
And then I'm awake again! Oh my god the pain!! I know what nurses are like they always started with the lowest painkiller and work their way up, but I also work in the medicines industry so I cried blue bloody murder and within 15 minutes I was given a morphine injection, hehe. By the way I have no memory of that post from yesterday saying I love morphine, it also looks as though I had a bit of fun of facebook, whoops!
So when I woke up I was in a different room then planned, and of course nobody bothered to call my boyfriend! One nurse reckoned she did but it went to voicemail, so in the end I called him to tell him to come find me. I'd been gone for 3.5 hours and the poor thing was pretty worried. And he said he hadn't had any calls at all!! More tears when he arrived nearly 45 minutes after I woke up because it took that long for him to get directions!
So by this time it's nearly 3pm, not feeling much pain because of the drugs just a tightness and pressure. So the hospital I was at doesn't allow you to leave for 4 hours after surgery, and they add another hour for strong painkillers like morphine. I was able to nibble a bit of banana bread at about 5pm and then did a wee! I was so excited because that means I get to go home! So at 5.30 my nurse signed the discharge papers and I was allowed to get dressed and leave and I was given all my medication to take home. :) I've got Endone (oxycodone) for the most severe pain, panadeine forte (codeine and paracetamol), celebrex an anti inflammatory which ill start using in a few days and some anti nausea tablets.
I'd so far only had a look at my boobs laying down (I had nothing on after surgery) so I got to have a look at the in the mirror standing up, so far so good! My poor BF helped me get dressed, he's so terrified of hurting me. When we put the surgical bra on I was worried he might pass out lol! After a very long slow walk we got back to the car and headed home. The drive home was shorter than the morning but still bumpy and painful!
I tried eating some yogurt when I got home but unfortunately that came back up. We watched a bit of a movie propped up in the recliner, then my BF moved me to bed and propped me up with some cushions. He gave me some more pain killers and then I slept all the way to 4am! My boyfriend helped me go to the loo, gave me more drugs and a drink then I went back to bed until 6am.
OMG morning boob sucks, you girls weren't freaking kidding!!!!! But I got up and walked around the house a bit and it did ease. I'm so glad I had all the advice from all you lovely girls on here so I had some idea of what to expect, it makes such a difference. My BF's just making me some chicken and rice for lunch, hopefully I can keep that down because I haven't really eaten in 2 days now. He's been so amazing, I would be absolutely screwed without him he does everything for me, but is also very caring and patient. I'm a lucky girl.
Anyway that's me all up to date, speak to you all again soon! xxxx
So I napped for a few more hours. At 7.30 my boyfriend (screw this his name's Sam!), ok, so Sam woke me up to put the dreaded bra back on before going to the gym. When he came home he cooked me a sausage because that's what I felt like, I ate the whole thing and kept it down yay! Last night I had a small steak for dinner and it came straight back up :(
Had a bit of a giggle earlier, got up for a walk before and saw Sam washing the dog in the bath. On my lap back to the bedroom he yells not so fast missy your next! haha, now I know how the dog feels.
I think yesterday I over did it a bit, I went for a 15 min walk across the road and around the park with Sam and the dog, and last night we went to the video store. I Nearly passed out when I was there. And I keep trying to do things by myself like turn taps on and reach things then Sam busts me. I also didn't sleep much yesterday because of the excitement so I'm catching up on that today. Lesson learnt, when people tell you to take it easy and don't over do it, just listen!!
So today my boobs feel tighter and sorer than yesterday, I have sensation in my left nipple but my right is still numb, and I've just started noticing pain near the incisions. I don't think having the bra sitting right on the incisions helps either. I've just started using bio oil on the top of my boobs to prevent scarring.
Hope everyone's recovering well and good luck to all those lovely ladies with up coming surgeries! xx
I HAVE CLEAN HAIR!
Still haven't been to the toilet :/ I took 4 coloxyl with senna last night, it's a laxative combined with a stool softener, when I worked in pharmacy this is what all the oldies take when they're on a lot of medications, in my professional experience it always works well but just not for me! Will try again tonight, hope it works because I'm currently looking about 6 months pregnant. I haven't actually eaten that much since surgery, but the bloating is really starting to cut into the tape under my boobs so I'm really keen to get some relief. Did any of you girls get desperate enough to use an enema? I really don't want to, but a few more days and I think I'll have to..
6 days post op
So I've been feeling pretty average the last few days. Sam went back to work on Monday and I feel like I've been sleeping my life away. I literally slept nearly all of yesterday and the day before which is weird because I wasn't that tied in the days straight after surgery.
The pain in general hasn't been too bad, though I do feel as though they are as tight as the day I had surgery, but I've been getting this sharp burning pain under my left boob near the incision sight when I move and it KILLS! I hate it because it means I'm just laying around all day too scared to move. I called the nurse and she said it may be one of my stitches catching a nerve. My post op is in two more days so hopefully we can do something about it then, and I also can't wait to get all this tape off!!
I'm pretty much off all the pain killers I just take 1 oxynorm when I go to bed to help me sleep. Morning boob's not too bad just really tight.
Feeling a bit nauseous today, not sure why that is. I think the boobs are looking pretty good, not much change really, hope they start to drop soon.
I think that's pretty much all that's been happening, it's my last day off tomorrow then back to work on Friday, I really don't want to go back to work yet, can't be bothered dealing with people at the moment! I've got a friend coming to visit tomorrow so hopefully that will cheer me up.
Hope you are all well :)
Last Day Off - thanks for the pep ups lovely ladies!
So I'm feeling a bit better about myself today after achieving a few goals. I did the dishes, made the bed and for once dressed in something other than pj's. This morning I did a bit of study and finished an assignment then my Mum and Sister dropped in for a visit. I haven't seen my mum in years so that was interesting, but it was great to see them as the live 4 hours away and just happened to be in the city.
After they left I started unpacking some boxes of work stuff, I did that for about 10 minutes and then my boobs starting feeling tight so I've stopped. But all in all I'm pretty happy with what I managed to achieve today, it's like in a day I've gone from pain and fatigue to feeling pretty good. I still feel like I'm short of breath ALL of the time which is annoying, and I feel weak not being able to lift things but I'm happy with this progress so far.
Now I'm just having a cup of tea and doing a bit more study while the motivations there, waiting for my friend who is coming to visit later today. She is bringing me a 'boobie' cake as apparently they don't make cards that say 'congratulations on your new boobs'. Lol
I'm not putting up any pics as they are pretty much they same just less swollen. Come on a week since surgery time to start dropping and looking good!! Please!
Post op appointment
We go into the room, I get my kit off and everyone including the nurse, surgeon and my hairdresser thought they just looked amazing! This is so reassuring as I've been feeling on and off about how they look at the moment. My hairdresser said mine look a million times better than hers did at this point, which is awesome, because her boobs are awesome! The surgeon assured me that yes once they drop they will get bigger and look closer together, however as my natural breasts do have a gap between them I should expect some kind of gap. He also said that by continuing to wear my compression bra that will help to bring them together.
Next off came all the horrible tape and dressing! The stitches are dissolvable, they just had to trim the ends off. They got me a mirror so I could look at incision sights. OMG they are freaking amazing!! Perfectly positioned and already the lines are barely noticeable. My surgeon my not be a people person but he sure knows how to do his job.
I was told to start massaging them to soften them, nothing specific just be gentle and do whatever I feel comfortable with. Because my nipples have been 'out' since surgery the nurse suggested a nipple cream to sooth them, and reassured me about my right nipple which is still numb, it can take months to come back, though the left one is EXTREMEMLY sensitive at the moment!
Umm think that's about it.. no exercising yet only walking, no heavy housework, try and keep driving to a minimum etc.. all the usual. Just do what I feel comfortable with. Rebooked for 6 weeks time and I was done!
When I got home I was so pumped I got stuck right into some admin work, and got the added surprise of a pay rise that I requested before surgery, yay!!
Right now I'm feeling pretty tight and sore so going to call it a day and enjoy my weekend off, I will upload some pics when I can be bothered :)
I had a really nice moment yesterday I want to share with you. I was just sitting on the lounge watching TV and my boyfriend came home. He told me later that night when he saw me sitting there in my PJ's all curled up with my boobies on show, I looked complete, and that he feels like I've always had them and im supposed to have them. That made me feel the best I've felt since surgery, and I knew id made the right decision.
2 Weeks Post Op
The boobs are getting along pretty good, still very tight and high but I guess it's only been two weeks so I can't expect too much. The only thing that's bothering me is they don't have any movement yet, if I try and squish them together nothing happens, they are so stiff and hard they just stay where they are. I'm hoping this will get better as they soften. My skin and nipples have also been incredibly dry, and very sore to touch almost like I'm sunburnt. I use Bio oil twice a day and massage at the same time and I'm finding this helps a lot. My right nipple is still numb, hope it comes back soon it's so weird!!
One thing that surprised me is that I can't stand to go without my surgery bra! I hated the thing at first, but now that the swellings gone down and I'm not so tender it fits really nicely. When I take it off to have a shower I feel so insecure and exposed that I can't wait to get it back on, I love the support I get from it and my PS said that if I go out and want to wear a pretty bra for a few hours I can, so I'm not completely restricted by it for next remaining 6 weeks.
Lastly, I'm cleared for light cardio exercise, mainly stationary bike and walking, no swimming yet until incisions are completely healed, strictly no upper body for at least another 4 weeks. Me, the dog and Sam are going to tackle some of the hills around our house this weekend to introduce me back to a bit of cardio interval training!
3 weeks Post Op
Just thought I would do an update on how life is 3 weeks after surgery.
I'm noticing I'm able to life more with out my boobs getting tight, e.g the dog! a full washing basket, bags of shopping.... I can also drive all day now and that feels comfortable as well. I'm starting to get the gym itch again, I'm just walking at the moment, I'm going to make myself wait until 4 weeks post before I try anything else. I can do a lot more house work now, I vacuumed on the weekend, did some washing and other general cleaning. Mopping's still too hard. I'm still not able to wash or dry my hair by myself as far as Sam's concerned, though I should probably give the poor guy a break... it's just that he does a much better job than me even though I hate to admit it!! haha!.
Sleeping still completely sucks balls! Lying on my side is fine but every time I get uncomfortable I seem to wake myself up, meaning I'm waking up nearly every hour! Still I seem to be managing during the day so I must be getting enough.. I also miss hugging my Sam! Big sore boobs in the way makes it a bit hard! lol
So the boobs are getting along fine, I found a stitch poking through the incision yesterday, that freaked me out!! Apparently it's normal and will fall away as it dissolves under the skin. I'm massaging twice a day with Bio oil, I forgot yesterday morning and man does it make a difference, I was a lot tighter by the end of the day than I normally would be! I'm not sure if they feel any softer but they are a bit more 'moveable' now. Can't squish them together yet but at least they move. Right nipple and under both boobs is still numb, wish the feeling would come back already!! My backs still killing me, but I have back problems anyway so I'm not surprised, and I always find my back is worse when I'm not working out...
And lastly 2 of my girlfriends are now doing research on getting a BA after seeing mine (clothed only) and they're not even looking that good yet! lol, girls.
I hope everyone is well out there! I'm hoping that my boobs will have dropped and soften a bit more by 4 weeks PO so that I can put more pictures up, they still look the same to me ATM!
Friends are the best!
Two of my friends who are now maybe considering BA's have just been so awesome, it would be pretty exciting if I got to return the favour one day! I was confident they would be understanding of why I did it when they found out, but they have just gone above and beyond in regards to seeing how I'm feeling, making me feel good about how they look and just being great friends in general. Talking about my boobs with these two the other night was the first time since surgery that I actually got really excited about them. Sometimes you just need your girlfriends. People like this are so important during this recovery time because sometimes it can just get you down, but with all this love and support I'm feeling pretty damn good :)
I keep forgetting everything i see is now my boobs, no more padding, ever!!
4 Weeks PO yesterday.. 'Gym Workout'
I thinking about attempting an altered version of one of the insanity workouts this weekend, I'll let you know how it goes!
Nearly 7 weeks post op
Sorry it's been a while! Life's been pretty mental, I'm sure all of you who have been through it before know what it's like trying to get back to normal again.
It's been nearly 7 weeks since surgery and I confidently say I'm feeling like myself again. Physically I can do all the normal daily things, exercise I still have to be careful, but otherwise the rest of the time I don't feel like I every had surgery. Speaking of exercise I just started a blog to track my progress back to fitness, danabananas.wordpress.com - feel free to check it out if you're interested! I've done 2 full workouts recently and it felt fantastic, still have to take it easy on the jumping and running, I also tried a push up on my knees the other day, didn't feel weird but I don't want to over do it... But I don't think it will be long before I back to the level of fitness I had before surgery.
So, the boobs. They are FINALLY starting to look the way I wanted them to look. They have rounded out a lot more and as they continue to drop I'm noticing my nipple is get higher and higher, no more boobies pointing at the ground, thank god! I would say they are fairly soft, definitely a lot better since surgery, but still quite firm and I can feel the edge of the implant when I play with them. I think the feeling is coming back in the right nipple, I get little zaps of pain in it every now and then, and when I touch it I can feel some kind of pressure, it's not painful but it feels weird. I hope this means it on its way back to full sensation!
Umm what else? Still in the surgery bra, a week and a bit to go and I'm free! I'll probably still wear it to bed for a little while longer tho. Oh yeah! Guess what, I can sleep on my stomach again! Absolute bliss the first time I did it!! I just found I had to get used to feeling the implants under me then I was fine :)
The scars are getting there, they feel really smooth now but are still quite red so I think I need to go and get something to start fading them.
Anyway, ill take some pics and upload them when I get a chance, hope you are all well :)
I have to give him a 5 star overall rating for the fact that he has done an amazing job of my breasts. I can't really comment on bedside manner for the fact that I didn't actually see him after surgery. I felt my questions were all answered but when I had to phone back a few times for things I forgot it was a bit of a process to get an answer. After my surgery to be honest I felt a little abandoned until I called and complained and then the nurse called me back and was really nice and comforting. Most of the staff were nice enough, though there was one sour witch in reception that I dreaded having to deal with. Of course the payment process was easy, they want their money! At my initial consult I was made to wait nearly 2 hours and nearly walked out, so the wait times suck!! So overall not really the best customer service, but I got the final product that I wanted and that's what's important to me. He could be as nice as pie but that wouldn't matter if he botched my surgery! The fact is he is the best in the city and does great work so even though the whole process wasn't all that fun for me, I think I got the best end result!