40 Yr Old, 5'2, 105lbs, 255cc Natrelle 410style

I have always been flat-chested, always wished for...

I have always been flat-chested, always wished for BA, but husband is completely against it, although he says I can do whatever I want. Finally got the courage to do something for myself. I blame it on midlife crisis! Haha!
I am 40 yrs old, 5'2", 105 lbs. Pre-BA bra size 32AA, flat as a board.
I wanted to be conservative and didn't want people to notice. My doctor is also conservative, I think. We decided on 255cc anatomical, textured, silicone implants by Allergan Natrelle 410 style.
My surgery went very well, the first two days were the hardest, but never really had pain, just discomfort. I took 1 Percocet every 5 hrs as a precaution, for the first two days. Did not have nausea or constipation.
At four days post op, we spent the weekend with my in-laws. I had full range of motion by then. They did not suspect a thing!

First bikini at 40!

My kids always wondered why I never joined them in the pool. I just say I hate the water. In reality, I hate putting on a swimsuit because I am so flat, nothing looks good. It was so depressing. Even if I put pads on them. But today, I played with them in the pool! Had a blast! I was able to swim without any discomfort. I did feel a sharp tug near the armpit area when I tried to reach up to catch a ball while playing monkey in the middle.
I hope you do not think I'm too old to put on a swimsuit!

Size blues. Six weeks post-op

I admit it: I am not happy with the size I am now. The 255cc did not take me far. I did not do my research and did not have wish boobs in mind. All I thought I wanted was not to wear padding under my bra. But the cute bras I found at VS make me look so flat under all the clothes. Sad face. At two weeks post op, I measured 32D at VS, at four weeks, only 32C. We all know VS does vanity sizing, so in reality, I am only a 34B. My post op pics look like other people's pre op pics. Haha!

Another thing I'm down about, are the incisions. They are very visible still. I'm really hoping my boobs will drop more to cover them up some. *sigh

"Hedonic Treadmill" - We Get Used to What We Have

Read this from a "Real Simple" post: We, as humans, "are subject to a pesky psychological phenomenon called 'adaptation': essentially, we get used to what we have. This is commonly referred to as the 'hedonic treadmill': the concept that even if we acquire better circumstances - more money, a bigger house - we will quickly return to the level of happiness we had prior to these acquisitions, and will require more to get that same surge of satisfaction again. This explains why study after study shows that more money does not equate with more happiness."

I read this, and realized, that maybe, after a while, we get adjusted to our new and improved body image, and we get used to it, and then we are back to the same level of satisfaction we were previously. I think this explains "boob greed".

Going back to my previous entry, where I admitted to wishing I have bigger boobs, I have to clarify, that indeed, I felt that way from the first moment when I woke up in the recovery room, and I looked down, and was so disappointed that was still so flat. Really, my first thought was, all this for nothing?! So disappointed.

The thing is, I don't think even my brilliant PS can override what God had given me. He has certainly improved on it, but I am thankful that he did not go over my anatomical limits. He was really looking after my best interest, explaining that my breast width is too narrow, that I probably do not want boobs up to my armpits, or that complications would be more if I go any bigger.

Of course I now regret not asking him how big I could have gone. So, I did a lot of research in these last few days, and indeed, my PS did the right thing, and put in the most appropriate implant size and dimensions, dictated by my anatomical limits.

I do vaguely remember he said that a few years down the road, if I want to go bigger, it will be easier for my body to take, and that is certainly an option.

So for now, I am keeping my options open, still entertaining the possibility of getting bigger implants in a few years. I do miss the feeling of excitement when I was first having the BA, and finding this wonderful community of like-minded individuals. Thank you for taking the time in sharing this journey with me. I appreciate you all!

Almost 8 weeks post-op

My new best friend will be a VS push up bra. I can't wait until I'm cleared to do so. Everything in these photos are shown with the VS push up bra size 32D. probably too big for me now, but oh well. I got it at two weeks post op when i was so excited to be a D!

So far I have not been able to show any cleavage in public. I feel so self conscious. Does any body else feel this way? All my life I have been choosing clothes that show zero cleavage because I had none, and heaven forbid if I bend over and my bra padding might show! Hahaha!

8 weeks post-op. Cleared to play tennis!

Eight weeks post op today! I am back to 100% (I will not attempt push ups- never did that anyway!)

I confided with my nurse that I wish I was bigger. She in turn told my PS. When my PS came in, he looked so sad and disappointed, and I feel so bad. He explained how if I went bigger I would have had implants extending to the sides, higher risk of complications, etc. He said it is pretty normal for past BA patients to feel this way, but to see if few years down the road, I can certainly go bigger because by then my skin would have stretched to accommodate bigger implants.

He said everything looks good, still have some dropping and some softening to do, although they are already pretty squishy. I don't think they will ever be as soft as natural ones. I doubt it. Anyway, I'm aiming for "good fake" look. Haha! I asked him if the regular round silicones are softer than this textured anatomicals. He said "yes". That would have been good to know, although I still would have chosen these anatomicals.

He said I still have some dropping to do, so it should hopefully hide my scar. He said it should lighten up over time, and to continue to use Biocorneum.

I see him again in three months. Meanwhile, I have no activity restrictions now! I can play tennis!

Played hard game of tennis, and nothing hurts. So happy!

I am so happy with how everything turns out. Will do it all over again in a heartbeat. So worth it! When I was wearing heavily padded bras, I felt much more "fake" then. Now, I have so much more freedom to wear whatever I want. Why did I not do this in my 20s?!
New Jersey Plastic Surgeon

Dr. Jeffries and staff at Soderstrom are very professional, courteous, and caring. The whole process seemed effortless. I credit Dr. Jeffries' excellent surgical hand for my very quick recovery.

5 out of 5 stars Overall rating
5 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
5 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
5 out of 5 stars Payment process
5 out of 5 stars Wait times
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Amazing! You look great!
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You look great! I do know how you feel. I keep thinking I should have gone bigger cuz you cant even tell any difference when I have clothes on. The people that I did not tell haven't even noticed well they haven't said anything. Well, we can look at it this way....maybe gravity will be our friend. haha. Yes I did not find RS site till after my surgery. If I would have had these ladies before I would have been better informed.
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Congratulations! The new babies complete your beautiful body!
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You look great, very natural. YEAH!
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I had 225 overs for my first BA, developed cap con and within a year got 350s under, so I know what your surgeon means when he says your body adjusts well to the larger set the next time. I was ok with my 225s also and loved the vs push-up bra that you refer to. Check out my reviews.
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Hey again, Your results r just beautiful! Great for playing tennis :). Can't wait till I get to eight weeks!!
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Thank you, pocket123! Definitely this is perfect size for playing tennis. :-) The tennis pros I see on TV are mostly flat-chested. Haha! Time will pass by fast. I can't believe I'm almost two months post-op. I'm definitely liking them more and more each day.
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Hello - At what point do you feel they changed? I got this same implant 4 weeks ago and I am extremely dissapointed so far and scared that they wont drop. I wanted a natural look and no hard lines at the top and I feel that is how mine are. Right now I am devestated, so I hope it changes.
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Hi, Amagdale! I'm always happy to hear from women who got same implant as me! I think mine started to drop and fluff around 2 weeks. I posted a picture here where you can see it has started to round out, especially if I raise my arms. I did do some massages though, starting at 1 week post op. My PS wanted me to massage them - I clarified this with him because I know some PS not wanting to massage shaped implants for fear of them turning. I guess they has to be pretty accurate when they make the pockets. The implants just have to fit just right. When I was massaging them, I was not trying to displace the implants, but my goal was just to soften them up and push it down a little bit so they drop. It also helps to relax the pectoralis muscles so they fluff. My PS also did not want me to wear sports bras, except now when playing tennis, and only medium support. He said some sports bras are too supportive that it prevents the implants from dropping. I'm sure yours will drop in no time. Maybe your chest muscles were tight. Mine was flabby- I could not even do push ups. Haha. :-) I hope you keep us updated!
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Hello, I'm really glad to read your post. because I have a opperation September 19 and I am very worried about the size that I have chosen! I am a mother of a little boy of 5 years and believe me I'm as flat on your photos. I chose Natrelle implants 410 gel (gummy bear) like yours. I have chosen the 360cc size. They are not much different from yours. The dimention to your 11-11.5-4.7 and dimention of mine are 12-12.5-5.7. I'm sure you would not see the diffence on you. Because it's not the CC that make the diffence but the dimentions. I'm really glad you're sharing your experience, as its presently helps me a lot! i would like a little more shared experience with your email if you would like! I found it very well done and you look super sexy! I hope to hear from you! I'm new on this web sit.
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Hi, Toune1983! Thank you for leaving me a comment! And thank you for your kind words. Your chosen size of 360 I think will be perfect! I cannot find your exact implant in the Natrelle 410 catalog here in the U.S. Maybe it is not available here. I do like the projection of your implant, which is 5.7cm, compared to my 4.8cm. I think that will make a big difference. I am contemplating, more like fantasizing, really, about re-augmenting to 375cc still Natrelle Style 410 MF or FF. I really like the natural slope of the shaped implant, as I have minimal breast tissue. Please feel free to send me a message (inbox). Would love to follow your journey. I hope you write a review!
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Because of complications, I went from 225 overs to 350 unders in one year. Check out my pics and story. I'm much much happier with 350, and I am short and tiny --350 is not too big at all for my frame. My first PS was very wrong!! Both were HP round mentor.
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So nice to get an update from you! I think you look terrific. I would not throw away those dresses. I particularly liked the second blue one. U know what you mean about cleavage but I don't think it is too much. I also like what your PS said about starting out conservatively. Maybe someday you'll want to increase but by them your body will be used to it. How does it feel to play tennis? I posted a long question on the forum about exercise post BA - hoping some people will chime in.
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You have a beautiful body and very natural breast size for a woman of 40! I notice you keep saying you want to hide the cleavage or "maybe I could wear this if I were younger".. I have to disagree! You paid good money to enjoy showing off some cleavage!! Strapped dresses and low cut tops are a must for someone with such a great figure and attributes! I hope you are happy with the size and all. Don't ever think you are too old to be sexy. You look fantastic!! Show the world.
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For someone with an active lifestyle, and an avid tennis player, I think your size is perfect. Like me, I'm guessing you can hide them easily when you want to and bring them out to play as well. ;) It's great to hear that you felt so good playing tennis at eight weeks. I do a lot of push-ups in my work-outs, so I'm worried about that... but all in good time I guess. Congrats!
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I just want to add my two cents. We have the same implant, the same emotions post op and the same smart surgeon who looked out for us. Reading your post, I went through similar feelings at about 2 weeks. I second guessed my pre-op attitude. Then I did more research on the implant itself. Suddenly, a few weeks later I was happy. The size suited me proportionately but not dramatically. It just fit me and my lifestyle. I hope you feel the same way. It's a lot to go through to not be really happy. You look fabulous!
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Thank you for taking the time to comment! I loved reading your pre-op. Very thorough and informative. I am still very happy I had BA, and very thankful my recovery was fast, with no sensations lost, etc. I'm sure it is because of the modest sized implants. Right now, I am going to enjoy it, and not dwell so much about the size. You look great too, and very proportional to your body. Take care!
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Congrats babes and omg I play tennis too(but not for a long time lol) I still have some healing to go . Your boobs look very natural and the boob greed is normal . My friends and family chewed at me about going so big and what not but in a funny way. Girl these things haven't even dropped yet and though I'm athletic built and strong, they are heavy lol. Thank you once again for the bday compliments . These boobies need to start dropping dang it lol
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I think you must wear all those tops in public be coz they are stunning and playful. You look stunning. Thank you for keeping us updated xxx
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You know just the right words to say! Thank you! I am slowly adjusting to my new body image. I think I am slowly getting comfortable showing a bit more skin. I am also careful not to appear as if having implants changed me that much, especially to my husband. He was 100% against it, but just supportive of me, not my choices. :-)
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I absolutely love the psychology behind boob greed! I was actually going to look that up myself you totally read my mind! Like why boobie greed happens. That's so right!!
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Hope you continue to have a smooth recovery.
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Stay positive. Wait til they drop and fluff and you'll notice a difference. Ho
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You look great! And you will continue to look better and better as you drop and fluff. My surgeon says it take 6-12 months to see the final shape and size so you are at the start of your healing! 40 is the new 30 so continue rocking your bikini and showing off your new body!!!!
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You look great! Perfect shape! You are brave to go through that experience. I like that conservative look very much. Happy healing!
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