Lets start with the breasts and go from there---Awake Breast Augmentation

I guessed on the cost, bc I don't know what it is...

I guessed on the cost, bc I don't know what it is yet. I am 35 year old mother of 5, ages 13, 11, 8, 6, and 3. I'm 5'8 and weight 130 lbs. 5 babies have left stretched lower tummy and my barely A boobs are pretty sad. They would stretch to a large C when breast-feeding, then shrivel up after!

I've gotten my body as far as I can back to where it needs to be on my own, but I need help with the rest. I have a consultation scheduled on Oct 24th with one of the best PS here in the Kansas City area. I want a mini TT, cause some if the scars on here are scary, and the recovery looks brutal, but we will see. I have so many questions.

I'm struggling with the whole is this healthy for my body vs do I want to look like this for the rest of my life thing, you know? The guilt of the $ and recovery time. I do not know anyone personally who has done this, and my friends and family will prob not be too supportive. They think I look good, but they don't see me naked and wearing padded bras and tucking my skin under my pants!

My hubby is supportive, but I can tell he would love for me to look better. He said whatever makes me feel better about myself. I hope I can feel closer to making a decision after my consult. Any supportive word by those who went through this??

Consultation in one week!

The PS office called,I think it was one of their customer care specialists, but she was so sweet! Everyone so far whom I have spoken to are so nice and have great positive energy, which I need! She answered some of my questions, any said that anyone pretty much who have had children are going to need a full TT vs a mini because the muscles have separated and a mini does not stitch together the muscles. She explained a bit about saline vs silicone, and I am leaning towards the silicone, bc I want soft and natural looking breasts! Not hard porn star boobies!

She gave me a price quote of $11,000, and said the surgery would last 4 hours and I would go home the same day. I'm feeling more excited now that this seems more of a reality. I'm actually feeling less terrified and guilty and more empowered, like, yes, I CAN do this for myself, and it is ok!

Next week will answer many more questions and Dr Quinn can tell by my body what would work best. I asked if the scar would be high or low, but she said everyone is different, and he could answer that for me. I'm hoping my long torso will help me out! Any ideas why some have high visible scars while others are more in the bikini area?

I'm so grateful for this site, it has helped me make this a reality and not a crazy dream. I'm posting my dream boobs pic bc I'm getting ideas! I don't want too big, just fill up what I have and it would be so nice for my husband to get more than a handful (barely) for once!

Dream boobies!

So, everytime I'm about to tell my mom, I chicken out

How do you tell someone that you know loves you but will strongly disagree with what you are going to do? Most people I could care less what they think, but my mom and dad are amazing and will always support me; but I know that they are going to be disappointed. I suppose most parents would be concerned if their daughter was going to be cut open and alter herself on purpose.

I'm confident I want this, and my husband and I feel good about it and are excited. However, my parents will think I'm being rash, silly, and wasteful. I would hate for them to think this of me. It's been something I've wanted for the last 3 years.

I keep wanting to tell my mom so that she knows it's on my mind and it won't be such a shock when I have a date set, (esp since I'm going to need her help with the kids!) I keep putting it off and now I'm going to try to tell her after my consultation and I have a more clear idea of what it's going to entail.

How do you tell someone you love that you are going to do this without them thinking less of you? They will love me always, but they aren't going to like this.

Went for consultation!

It went so well! I took a girlfriend with me (please take one, it makes it so much more fun!). Dr. Quinn was so nice and explained everything to me and just wants to do what makes me happy and give me good results. First they had me try on some silicone inserts with a special tight bra they had. They didn't tell me the sizes until I liked a particular set. I liked the 400 cc's the best. Once I put it on with the shirt I wore to the appt, it was such an amazing difference I how I looked. It made the rest of me look better, and my proportions looked more normal! I felt like a woman, and not an adolescent girl!

Dr Quinn did say that I might have a vertical scar with my TT, as I might not have enough elasticity on my upper abdomen to pull down far enough. He had me lay down and then do a crunch and felt my muscles. He said what you look like when you lay down flat it how we can get you to look all the time. I love how I look laying flat! It would be amazing not to have this extra little "beast" hanging around. He also suggested lipo of my little love handles I guess you could call them to finish out the whole look nicely. He said I might wish I had once we are all done. But it is up to me. Well, I say do it while you are in there! Those things are hard to get rid if anyways!

I'm stoked about the boobs, nervous about the TT and not knowing if there will be a vertical scar or not until it's over. The surgery will be 4 hours, and I can go home the same day.

I told my mom today, and she was actually amazingly cool about it. She understood the boob job but didn't understand how I needed a TT. I showed her my tummy hanging over and she never realized I had that. She ended up telling me she supports me and that I should go for it. So shocked, but it makes me feel so much better to have her supportive. She also agreed that we shouldn't tell anyone.

So after I give it a few days to think about it, I think we will make the deposit and set the date! I'm thinking early January after my kids are back to school from Christmas break. I can't believe I'm about to do this!!!

Getting another consult

I decided I'd better be smart and get a second opinion even though I really liked Dr Quinn. I've heard good things about Dr. Hall, so I'm going to get in to see him hopefully this week or next. I'm mostly concerned about my TT, since I don't have quite as much skin as a typical TT patient.

Dr Quinn is the boob guy for sure; his before and afters are amazing...but I figure I want the most skill to go to my TT, since I really don't want a jacked up scar that is too high or crooked. I mean, boob jobs are pretty simple, right? He sounded confident about the TT, so if Dr Hall says the same thing, I'll just have to decide who I feel more at ease with. You want to be totally comfortable with whomever is going to be changing your body, right?

Anyone else wake up every single morning thinking about their MM? I mean, without fail! Is it going to be like this till Jan??

More pics and another consult scheduled

I have a consult scheduled next week for Dr Hall, and my husband wants to come with me to this one. Should be fun :).

I keep looking in the mirror and grabbing my extra skin and imagining what it will look like gone. I want it to look like does now with some definition and not like a closed shade like some tts end up looking like. And the boobs. Can I just say, let's get this moving cause I want actual boobies so bad. Now when My husband comes up and squeezes my boobs (you know yours does it too) I say, soon you will actually get something to grab! He smiles and I know he would love it.

Here's some more pics...I can't stop pretending!

Last pics were cut off...cropped these better

So lipo or no??

Decided on just the BA for now....Jan 7th!

So I decided that a tummy tuck is a bit of a stretch, and I would be trading a little skin for a huge scar and possible vertical scar. I decided to just go for the BA, and I had my "try on" appt last week which was fun! I tried on the 425's, which I thought were a bit too big, then the 400's which I loved! I went down to 375, but still went back to the 400's. I have my preop on Dec 19th, then its all set for Jan 7th at 7:30 am. (So glad it's early!) I think getting breasts will really help my body image and help me feel like a sexy woman and a little loose skin won't bother me so much (maybe?).

Few more sizing pics

Anyone know how accurate sizers are? I mean, pretty close? Or would it be smaller under the muscle?

Changed Dr and am going to do the Awake Breast Augmentation in CA June 4th!

So I kept having very dark feelings about going to a surgery center and all the drugs I was going to be given, as well as my extreme fear of being put under. I decided to cancel; as much as I want breast augmentation, this wasn't the way to feel about it.

After lots and lots of research on the Awake breast augmentation, there was only one surgeon who does it completely awake. Most that I called and spoke to have you on twilight sedation along with heavy narcotics (so you might as well be asleep). I found Dr. Walter Tom in Santa Rosa, CA and began speaking with him. His staff is amazing and helpful to the gal calling all the way from Kansas City, and Dr. Tom called me on a Saturday morning on his cell and spoke to me in detail for about 45 min. He was so warm and compassionate and explained everything. He is an absolute expert on tumescent anesthesia, and he says you have to be a patient surgeon to do the Awake procedure correctly without heavy sedation. He gives his patients a valium, benadryl, and tylenol mix he calls the "Zen Pill" (I love it!). I don't like being drugged out, so a nice light soft relaxing buzz sounds heavenly compared to being completely obliterated by heavy drugs. Oh, and he is an amazing surgeon --he is actually a neurosurgeon (always check their stats....be careful when looking for awake surgeons, many are just Obgyn's who take a course and are allowed to practice if not using general anesthesia. That is where the horror stories come in. Or people don't remember the horror because they had twilight sedation where you don't remember!)

It is worth the fly out to CA, and they are setting me up with a discount at a very nice Hotel and Spa in Santa Rosa. So 8 days away from the kids in sunny CA with my husband and a boob job I can feel comfortable with?? Priceless. I am excited to share my experience on here as there are not too many on the awake procedure. He says the recovery is so much quicker as well.

I'll update closer after my Skype appt with him in May.
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I am doing the "Awake Breast Augmentation" on 4/10, next week!!!! I am sooo excited & feel so much more at ease not having anesthesia ...they said it is painless, just lot of pressure of course & you can see results right there! I am in New Jersey. My stats are 134lbs, 34A & 5'6 doing 400cc's Mentor Moderate Profile Plus silicone gel. The surgery center called me today to go over details...you can eat breakfast :) & to keep very hydrated! Starting with lots of water each day already...they do Valium & mix it with something to make you a little sleepy so you are totally relaxed....I will let you know how it goes!!!
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U look amazing with 5kids, flat tummy already.
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You are going to look amazing:)
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I am SO excited to see your results!!!!
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I agree with the other ladies, there is no where on you that needs lipo! I think you have an excellent frame for great results!
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you dont need lipo sweetheart once youve had a mommy makeover you are gonna look smoking!  x
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I am thin.....and two doctors told me no lipo. I have excess skin on my love handles, but not fat, per se. You are even thinner than I am.....can't imagine there is anything there to lipo. If it's just skin, you could have a longer scar to try to get some of the love handles. That's what my dr. is doing....an extended tummy tuck. I have a flat butt and don't worry too much about the flank/side area, but some of that skin tightened would be nice. I hate to lose any of the butt I do have! lol.
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You are looking really good for 6 kids! I know, it is hard to be fit, but have that extra skin and no one really knows it's there but us and our hubbys.
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Exactly. Why I am telling no one about this. No one would understand b/c I do look thin in clothes. They don't see me naked! lol.
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Let us know how your next consult goes! Dr . Hall is great! You aren't the only one waking up everyday thinking about your MM!!
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I would say no lipo. You are very thin.
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I wonder why he recommended it? He said I might wish I had. I don't like afters when women look like they are wearing a corset. I don't want to look like that.
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YAY! What a super fun and encouraging day for you!!
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oh yeah and i had silicon over muscle as i had enough tissue! x
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having kids totally screws you up i dont regret mine but hated the damage that had been done so i had a basic mommy makeover breast aug and tummy tuck and i have to say i am so happy i did! you have a slender body so you will look amazing when you have yours done good luck sweetness will follow your progress x
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Thanks, I'm hoping being slender helps. I love how your breasts turned out! What cc's did you get? I'm sure I don't have enough breast tissue to go over the muscle. I'm def thinking silicone as well.
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Thank you for starting your story on RealSelf! I think you look pretty darn great right now, but I'm glad you feel empowered to do what you want with your bod. Hope you get your dream curves. :) Please keep us posted!

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Hi! What date are you looking at? I am set for 12/17 and am so excited!!
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I was thinking after the holidays, but new body for Christmas sounds pretty great!
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I have two children and my ps would ONLY do a mini My tummy looked very much like yours does I had my surgery two days ago my incision is small I like that I still have MY belly button and my incision is really low When I called my ps office the first time looking for a quote she saif the same thing "no women who has had kids could be a candidate for a mini tummy tuck" good luck I hope you get everything you are after
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Oh really? I might have to do some more consultations, as I really really, want to keep my belly button! Maybe he can do a "revised" tt? Thanks for letting me know, it adds to my list of questions for him next week!
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Caseynjason, my Dr suggested a mini... I have had 3 kids. I am due for my preop on the 28th... I intend to ask specifics like "are we SURE we are NOT messing with the muscle, OR, is it a wait & see?" I'll let you know what he has to say on the matter.
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Thanks, I'm hoping he is good enough that he can do an "individualized TT" like why not a mini without moving my belly button, and still stitching the muscles? But I'm not a ps, so hopefully we can get clarified.
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Your concerns are quite common, we hear that a lot from ladies that are feeling guilty about their self improvement. I joke with my patients that the funding should come from the kids' college fund :) You are doing the right thing with choosing a quality surgeon for a consultation--you will be able to get a great deal of information about your particular options. It helps if you can articulate exactly the issues that you want to have addressed, so your surgeon can guide you on exactly what your choices are. Good luck! Matthew Concannon MD
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