35 Years Old, DDD to C - Ontario CAN
I have always had a love hate relationship with my...
Almost 2 weeks post op
Week 2 and I'm more mobile but have to limit my activities. Even cleaning up supper dishes got me overheated yesterday. I started driving my kids to the sitters and it's a little tough when I hit pot holes. I am out of Tylenol 3, (stopped taking Percocet due to a reaction) and I'm feeling really swollen today. Still sleeping in the recliner chair. My doc doesn't want me in a bra, just fitted tank tops. I'm adjusting to my new size but think I'm smaller than the C/D he promised. I mourned for a couple days. My husband seems ok with it but it's hard to tell. I found I had post op blues for a bit but some retail therapy has helped! I will post pics soon.
Question about redness and itching
Week 2, what I've learned
I've learned that I was so harsh on myself after surgery. I was terrible! The way I spoke to myself and judged was awful. I finally had to stop and say, what the hec are you doing? You just had MAJOR surgery and you are berating yourself about every flaw on your body! If your friends or husband spoke that way it would emotional abuse.
I think in took that "talking to" fairly well. So far so good anyway!
2 week post op pics
The Ahh Bra, Reiki energy healing and stinging nettle tea...
Since I get a bonus week, I decided to amp up my healing regime. I'm taking aloe Vera juice - Yeck!, bought a large size Ahh bra, which is too small -grrr, and booked myself for a reiki session. It was so relaxing and the practitioner didn't know I had surgery but could sense something in that area. He asked me afterwards and I told him what I had done. The whole time I was seeing flashes of colour and light and could feel my chest vibrating. Here's hoping it helped!
I also picked up some stinging nettle tea which supposed to be high in iron and good for healing the stomach ( perfect if the ibuprofen is causing damage). I started taking liquid iron last week and make green smoothies almost every day.
I was feeling super emotional this week but after the reiki I feel so calm and centered. On to week 4!
Dropping and fluffing!
I caved and went out to buy some bras yesterday. As I mentioned before my PS told me to wear only a camisole with gauze to protect the wounds and to apply polysporin on clean wounds every day. It was fine at first because the pressure from the swelling made me feel like I couldn't breathe with the tensor wrap I had on initially so was happy once I was free of that. But things have started to hurt more lately which I figure is due to softening and dropping. So I went out and bought a bunch of soft bralettes. Hanes Comfort Flex. Blows my mind that I have to wear an XL though! I'm a size 10 and just had 3 lbs taken off my breasts!!!
Anyway the Hanes comfort flex has padded cups (whaaat?!) never worn a padded bra in my entire life! It's very firm and comfy. Hoping it will help with the swelling. Realizing that my PS didn't give me a whole lot of info before or after my surgery. I see him again on the 19th, I gather for stiches to be removed...
I tried for fun again a regular bra in a C38 cup and it still doesn't fit but I can't really force the girls into the cup yet. But they definitely are wider than a C cup for now. Amazing how I felt like an A cup after my surgery!! I was really trying to keep it together that first week.
I'm nervous about returning to work though. Initially I thought it wouldn't be that noticeable but I'm sure it will be now. I realized the other day that no one told me I look good other than on this site. My husband said so when I asked him but I have yet to get an earnest "you look great!" from anyone in my life. I had a visit last weekend with my sister in law and she said nothing other than it was pretty noticeable... She also went on to tell me my stepmom told her she couldn't believe I was getting a BR. I was pissed off!
As a matter if fact, I'm easily irritated these days. My kids, my husband.... All getting on my nerves.
Someone else posted about their hubby not wanting to look. Mine either. He's squeamish and frankly in feel like telling him to man up! See, told you I was irritable :/
The first compliment :) (other than you ladies of course!)
Today, I donned my new Hanes Comfort Flex with built in soft cups and am really pleased with how I look. The little thin layer of padding gives just enough shape that it's looking like a much better version of my old bosoms. My friend said I look very much in proportion which is nice. Because who knew having the option of a little padding to boost your confidence while still having beautiful perky breasts of your own could be so liberating :)
As this is likely my last week home I am trying to make the most of it but feeling super lazy. I'd like to be productive in my time alone but my energy level is against me. My kids are 4 and 7 and not pleased with me that they are at the sitters on their spring break... I'm feeling a little guilty about that but since I can't really do anything fun with them right now I figure they are better off there than here climbing the walls and bickering....
4 1/2 weeks
Sunday night I pulled the last two pieces if tape off which were on righty at the t joint. Boy, can I ever feel the difference. Lefty doesn't pull at the incision nearly that much. So I wonder if it would have been better to take the tape off sooner.
I've upped my intake of bromelain and Traumeel (arnica etc) and it seems to make a difference in the swelling. No wonder everyone was raving. I didn't realize you had to increase the recommended dosage.
Getting used to the new girls. Husband still refuses to look because he said he'd want to touch. Haven't slept in the bed yet. Just my husbands recliner. Hats off to Cindy Crawford for designing it :/. It's fugly if you ask me but 4 1/2 weeks and no back pain! I will update more tomorrow after PS visit.
Also there a few hard spots that worry me. I hope it's nothing...
Follow up with PS
I started panicking once I got in the room because I forgot to take a preventative Advil in case he did any stitches removal or firm hands on investigation lol. I didn't even know if my stitches were all the dissolving kind! Turns out they are. I had one stitch poking out which I noticed the other day but it must have fallen off. I'm not as brave as some of you girls pulling your own out! Keep in mind this is the only medical work I've had done aside from orthodontics :)
I'm happy to say, PS was pleased with the healing. Said the lumps were scar tissue and would resolve with massage. He also reiterated that sensitivity could return. I'm suddenly very itchy tonight and haven't been since I stopped taking pain killers on day 3. Hoping it's a good sign.
He gave me the go ahead to start wearing an underwire bra already if I'm able to tolerate it. Said that compression from the wire would actually help flatten out the scars and break up that hardness. Crazy!
I really like this doc. He's young and very professional. I guess my reasoning for not asking a lot of questions from the get go is that I really felt at ease with him. Even though he was extremely handsome....can u say Awkward!
He gladly gave me a letter for the additional week off and sent me on my way. I don't see him again for 6 months. Feeling relieved and ready to get back to my regular life but with Boobs 2.0!!!
Back to work
I'm super happy I took 5 weeks off because I feel worlds better this week than early last week. A friend told me that the mere fact I was questioning going back meant I wasn't ready. She was right.
No one at work has seemed to notice or said anything. And I haven't seen any sideways glances either. I feel a lot more confident and am not always crossing my arms when talking to men. But even if I do, my breasts don't sit on my arms anymore! Small thing but it makes me happy :)
I am struggling with the massaging. I HATE the way it feels. It turns my stomach. I still feel all kinds of hard spots so I know I need to but I just dread it....
What does this mean? Means I no longer feel like all eyes are on me. Means I no longer feel 10 years older than my 35. Means I can walk around topless in front of my husband and not feel embarrassed. Means I am not conscious of my boobs flopping around during intimate moments...
At 7 weeks, my breasts are still somewhat tender but I don't have to protect them like before. The only part that bothers me is below my anchor incision on the ribs sometimes. It feels like pulling.
I would recommend that you take no less than 3-4 weeks off if you can. I ended up with 5 and I am so greatful I did.
I took it very easy. And because of that, I am recovering well. I never had any bleeding. Little bruising and my swelling now, even after an active day is almost non existent. I have been wearing underwire for three weeks. Only one of my incisions wept after the tape came off and it was pea sized at most.
The emotional and mental recovery was the difficult part for me.
With that behind me, I feel confident to make more changes for the better. It was worth investing the time in me. Worth the guilt, worth the anxiety,
Not a single person I didn't tell has asked me what I did or mentioned a change.
I feel so normal :)
Funny Story about back sleeping
Nipple sensitivity is still almost nil.
Breasts are still somewhat sensitive but not bad.
I'm still a DD 34. Which is fine because the size suits my frame and they are so pretty. Perky perky perky! So happy I did this.
Funny story about having to sleep on your back during recovery.
I slept in a recliner the entire 6 weeks after surgery. I became convinced my house was haunted during that time. Kept waking up hearing footsteps on the stairs. Dreamt of an old lady a lot. I'd experience sleep paralysis regularly. Finally I googled this and these are all symptoms that can come from medication and back sleeping!! Crazy huh. Never happened once I moved back to the bedroom. Thought I'd share in case anyone else thought they were going crazy or experiencing "malevolent" spirits while sleeping in a recliner ;)
6 month review
My scars only recently spread wider but I couldn't care less because my boobs are awesome!!
I read so many reviews saying ladies wish they were smaller but I am relieved he kept me at a D. He took out 1.5 pounds and 1.3 pounds so I def feel lighter and my breasts are never in the way.
I bought some more VS bras after my appointment and decided that I wasn't that disappointed that my bras are still pricey because at least now they can be pretty. True I can pick up a cheap bra that will do the trick in a pinch. But I guess I like quality.
The doc said nipple sensitivity will not likely return. I feel guilty that I maybe should have massaged more...
All said and done I say WORTH IT.
To the ladies fretting over their results please just wait. Wait until you see with new eyes and new clothes!
I will say that being a D34 I still have a hard time getting my size in most stores because 34 is small for a D cup apparently. I had this issue as a teenager too. But who the hell cares!! I know that my boobs look great no matter the tags on my bras.
This Just In - 11 months later
In the last couple of weeks my breasts have been tender. At times itchy. They never went completely back to normal after surgery anyway but the doctor said that was normal and it was a major surgery affecting a lot of tissue that would continue to heal. The fact that nipple sensitivity hadn't returned though, meant it wouldn't.
But tonight the itchiness was more than normal and I realized that I have some sensitivity back in my right nipple now. I'd say about 75%. The left side still feels numb but also tender so I'm thinking this is a good sign of more to come. I had pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I had traded the sensitivity for comfort and confidence.
But as it turns out...there's hope so anyone out there who may have lost nipple sensitivity please know that it can return even a year later :)
Dr Ferron was very professional, very kind. His secretary was great as well. My consultation with him was in May and surgery date not till February due to my schedule. That may have been too much time. I would have liked if he'd given me written instructions before and after because I was too flustered to remember most things I was told.