POSTED UNDER Breast Implant Removal REVIEWS
anticipating getting these toxic bags out...- Woodland Hills, CA
ORIGINAL POST
For as long as I could remember I wanted big boobs...
znikieNovember 13, 2013
For as long as I could remember I wanted big boobs. I was teased a lot when I was younger and as I got older padded bras just were not cutting it. I was sad and depressed over it for the longest time. I kept thinking "oh I cant wait to get pregnant so I can see what it would be like with big boobs" well that dream shattered when after many years of trying to conceive Dr's finally told me that I wouldnt be able to have children. I had already lost two (ectopic) lost a fallopian tube and was turning 40.. One Dr even told me that I should seek grieve counseling because the chances were so slim.
Fine: "then I will go get the boobs Ive always wanted" I said out loud and proud... around the same time I had just met a girlfriend who upon meeting quickly told me how she was scheduled to get breast implants done that month by Dr. Fisher. She totally strengthened my enthusiasm to get them done and finalized my decision...
I was making a decent living at the time and thought hell why not. I can pay them off pretty quick and have big boobs too... A win win.. So off I went to interview surgeons... I probably would of went to Dr. Fisher but he was double what I paid and the Dr. I chose was in the office right next to his so I thought why not... I did however, see quite a few but really meshed well with one in particular. His name is Dr. Aboolian and he got my humor and made me feel at ease when I would laugh and make jokes about my little boobs... when the other surgeons just sat their professional and straight faced. I also liked his photos. He was straight forward and I liked that too so I went with him. They went down in price from $9,000 to $7,000 because I told them I wanted to schedule surgery ASAP. I was so confident and excited. I had brought in pictures of what I wanted them to look like and pictures of what I did not want them to look like. He didnt have me try them out first which I hear Drs doing but he had me hold a couple different kinds. I didnt know the difference either way nor did I care. I put all of my trust into this man in hopes he would make my body beautiful... Little did I know that my body was already beautiful the way God made me.. I realize that now. I just wanted to be bigger than an A cup and smaller than a D... I ended up with DD... Way way too big and make me top heavy... I have bare photos of before I just have to find them... Right now I have what they look like with clothes and then what I look like now. Ill continue to add photos as I find them...
Ok back to my story...
My girlfriend got hers two weeks before I was scheduled to get mine done. Her surgery was flawless and I anticipated mine to be the same.
On June 6, 2010 I went into surgery.. I brought my picture to make sure he knew what I wanted and under I went. After the surgery I was anxious to see what he did but I had to wait. From what I saw I liked... days passed and bandages were taken off and I was so freaked by how big they were. My first visit back to him I expressed my concern and he just brushed it off. "Oh Nikie, this is what you wanted and soon they will soften up and fall into place. It takes time" Weeks went by and they started to soften but still too big. I tried to enjoy them but the numb feeling and the fact that I couldnt lay on my stomach irritated me not to mention having my nipples touched was so annoying... My Fiance was so upset. I hated my boobs and it wasnt even a month. At month 5 my fiance left for 2 months to do a play in Georgia... That day I was scheduled for a laser facial.. I wasnt feeling quite right so I took a pregnancy test just to be sure since if I was pregnant I wouldnt be able to get the facial anyway... To my surprise I was indeed pregnant. I couldnt believe it. My fiance and I had been having problems a month before and were only together one day that month. who knew?
Flash forward: My Fiance and I moved in together and started planning our wedding... we wanted to do something sometime when our daughter could walk... everything was great.. and during pregnancy my boobs did not change at all that I noticed... I gave birth July 14, 2011 and 6mths postpartum I got mastitis... immediately I felt my left boob harden up. It was the craziest feeling... every day I felt it get harder and harder. I remember having my girlfriend come over and massage it in hopes it would soften. My Dr. never really explained Capsular Contracture before so I was unaware of what it was and how much pain I was about to be in. Because I was breast feeding there wasnt much that could be done. He did offer me to take Singular and indocin at the same time... which I ended up doing even though I was breast feeding because the pain was unbearable. thank God my baby is ok and it did not do any harm... Looking back that was selfish as nobody could tell me if it would cause damage to a newborn or not and I just wanted to feel better. The medicine did help but not by much. It just eased the pain and stopped it from squeezing any harder. I had been in touch with my Dr. and he continued to tell me that there isnt anything he could do until I quit breast feeding which by the way, only one boob worked after everything was all said and done... so I said fine, Ill breast feed a month and then have the surgery. At 14 months and still breast feeding I find out I was pregnant again... We postponed our wedding and I postponed my explant surgery... I couldnt believe it. Pregnant again?? How could I be so blessed... I couldnt of been more happier.
Flash Forward: 3mths postpartum I get mastitis... again I feel my breast start to tighten this time it was both of them. The left I couldnt even move. It was like a coconut was stuck to my chest and then the right one started to get hard on top an forced my boob to point down... I mean you can imagine right?? I look ridiculous and now Im self conscious of my body... I cant even begin to tell you how gross I look. Something I did 3 years ago to make myself look desirable now is tearing me apart. I am constantly in sports bras.. Literally. I live in them. I hate the feeling of skin on skin. Yes, Im breast feeding and yes only one boob is only working but honestly, I dont think if I wasnt breast feeding they would look any different. Maybe a bit smaller but not by much. they still would be distorted and thats the worst.
I recently, saw my general Dr and at a routine check up he felt my breast and noticed a lump. He sent me to get an ultrasound and thank God its ok but on the lsft side there appears to be a leak or rip with fluid around the breast implant so now I know why Ive been feeling so run down.. Im being poisoned by these awful things. they need to come out. My Dr. referred me to an in network Surgeon Dr. Shay Dean who takes my insurance in hopes that it would be covered... I went in to meet him and was pleasantly surprised despite the neg reviews... He was nice and professional. He told me that I would need a lift. That would be coming out of my pocket and would be an extra $3500 if they did the explant and lift at the same time. I was ok with that, I just had to wait until I was done breast feeding. That was 6 months ago.. I recently went back in to see if anything has changed and physically nothing has but he has changed his mind saying that I would need to have 2 separate surgeries. One for the explant and one for the lift because if he did them at the same time the blood supply to my nipple could be compromised, it would die and then fall off. "WHAT"??? Oh hell no... and on top of that its an extra $7000 and he wants to put in littler implants with the lift.. nope. Time for a second opinion... After that visit I came home and called Allergan. They approved me to get them taken out on them and to replace the implants if I so choose... (Ha, of course... NOT) since there was a leak and tear.. so either way if I see an in network Dr who takes my insurance or I have Allergan take care of the bill I will still have to pay out of pocket for my lift... If I even need one... Please take a look at my photos and tell me what you think... Can you just get a lift in one boob and not two?
To be continued...
Fine: "then I will go get the boobs Ive always wanted" I said out loud and proud... around the same time I had just met a girlfriend who upon meeting quickly told me how she was scheduled to get breast implants done that month by Dr. Fisher. She totally strengthened my enthusiasm to get them done and finalized my decision...
I was making a decent living at the time and thought hell why not. I can pay them off pretty quick and have big boobs too... A win win.. So off I went to interview surgeons... I probably would of went to Dr. Fisher but he was double what I paid and the Dr. I chose was in the office right next to his so I thought why not... I did however, see quite a few but really meshed well with one in particular. His name is Dr. Aboolian and he got my humor and made me feel at ease when I would laugh and make jokes about my little boobs... when the other surgeons just sat their professional and straight faced. I also liked his photos. He was straight forward and I liked that too so I went with him. They went down in price from $9,000 to $7,000 because I told them I wanted to schedule surgery ASAP. I was so confident and excited. I had brought in pictures of what I wanted them to look like and pictures of what I did not want them to look like. He didnt have me try them out first which I hear Drs doing but he had me hold a couple different kinds. I didnt know the difference either way nor did I care. I put all of my trust into this man in hopes he would make my body beautiful... Little did I know that my body was already beautiful the way God made me.. I realize that now. I just wanted to be bigger than an A cup and smaller than a D... I ended up with DD... Way way too big and make me top heavy... I have bare photos of before I just have to find them... Right now I have what they look like with clothes and then what I look like now. Ill continue to add photos as I find them...
Ok back to my story...
My girlfriend got hers two weeks before I was scheduled to get mine done. Her surgery was flawless and I anticipated mine to be the same.
On June 6, 2010 I went into surgery.. I brought my picture to make sure he knew what I wanted and under I went. After the surgery I was anxious to see what he did but I had to wait. From what I saw I liked... days passed and bandages were taken off and I was so freaked by how big they were. My first visit back to him I expressed my concern and he just brushed it off. "Oh Nikie, this is what you wanted and soon they will soften up and fall into place. It takes time" Weeks went by and they started to soften but still too big. I tried to enjoy them but the numb feeling and the fact that I couldnt lay on my stomach irritated me not to mention having my nipples touched was so annoying... My Fiance was so upset. I hated my boobs and it wasnt even a month. At month 5 my fiance left for 2 months to do a play in Georgia... That day I was scheduled for a laser facial.. I wasnt feeling quite right so I took a pregnancy test just to be sure since if I was pregnant I wouldnt be able to get the facial anyway... To my surprise I was indeed pregnant. I couldnt believe it. My fiance and I had been having problems a month before and were only together one day that month. who knew?
Flash forward: My Fiance and I moved in together and started planning our wedding... we wanted to do something sometime when our daughter could walk... everything was great.. and during pregnancy my boobs did not change at all that I noticed... I gave birth July 14, 2011 and 6mths postpartum I got mastitis... immediately I felt my left boob harden up. It was the craziest feeling... every day I felt it get harder and harder. I remember having my girlfriend come over and massage it in hopes it would soften. My Dr. never really explained Capsular Contracture before so I was unaware of what it was and how much pain I was about to be in. Because I was breast feeding there wasnt much that could be done. He did offer me to take Singular and indocin at the same time... which I ended up doing even though I was breast feeding because the pain was unbearable. thank God my baby is ok and it did not do any harm... Looking back that was selfish as nobody could tell me if it would cause damage to a newborn or not and I just wanted to feel better. The medicine did help but not by much. It just eased the pain and stopped it from squeezing any harder. I had been in touch with my Dr. and he continued to tell me that there isnt anything he could do until I quit breast feeding which by the way, only one boob worked after everything was all said and done... so I said fine, Ill breast feed a month and then have the surgery. At 14 months and still breast feeding I find out I was pregnant again... We postponed our wedding and I postponed my explant surgery... I couldnt believe it. Pregnant again?? How could I be so blessed... I couldnt of been more happier.
Flash Forward: 3mths postpartum I get mastitis... again I feel my breast start to tighten this time it was both of them. The left I couldnt even move. It was like a coconut was stuck to my chest and then the right one started to get hard on top an forced my boob to point down... I mean you can imagine right?? I look ridiculous and now Im self conscious of my body... I cant even begin to tell you how gross I look. Something I did 3 years ago to make myself look desirable now is tearing me apart. I am constantly in sports bras.. Literally. I live in them. I hate the feeling of skin on skin. Yes, Im breast feeding and yes only one boob is only working but honestly, I dont think if I wasnt breast feeding they would look any different. Maybe a bit smaller but not by much. they still would be distorted and thats the worst.
I recently, saw my general Dr and at a routine check up he felt my breast and noticed a lump. He sent me to get an ultrasound and thank God its ok but on the lsft side there appears to be a leak or rip with fluid around the breast implant so now I know why Ive been feeling so run down.. Im being poisoned by these awful things. they need to come out. My Dr. referred me to an in network Surgeon Dr. Shay Dean who takes my insurance in hopes that it would be covered... I went in to meet him and was pleasantly surprised despite the neg reviews... He was nice and professional. He told me that I would need a lift. That would be coming out of my pocket and would be an extra $3500 if they did the explant and lift at the same time. I was ok with that, I just had to wait until I was done breast feeding. That was 6 months ago.. I recently went back in to see if anything has changed and physically nothing has but he has changed his mind saying that I would need to have 2 separate surgeries. One for the explant and one for the lift because if he did them at the same time the blood supply to my nipple could be compromised, it would die and then fall off. "WHAT"??? Oh hell no... and on top of that its an extra $7000 and he wants to put in littler implants with the lift.. nope. Time for a second opinion... After that visit I came home and called Allergan. They approved me to get them taken out on them and to replace the implants if I so choose... (Ha, of course... NOT) since there was a leak and tear.. so either way if I see an in network Dr who takes my insurance or I have Allergan take care of the bill I will still have to pay out of pocket for my lift... If I even need one... Please take a look at my photos and tell me what you think... Can you just get a lift in one boob and not two?
To be continued...
znikie's provider
UPDATED FROM znikie
Updated before and after shots...
znikieNovember 14, 2013
I dont think I ever stated the size of my implants... I got Allergan 375 Naturelle Silicone Filled Under Muscle. Uggghh Im so mad at myself.
Replies (19)
November 14, 2013
I started with a 385 cc in 1 and 360 in the other if im remembering correctly.I did not have a lift and my doc said i wouldnt need one due to the breast tissue i had underneath. Find a good Doc and they should be able to tell you. My doc is there near San Diego at Foothill Ranch
Hootan Daneshmand, MD He was amazing! Best thing i ever did was take mine out :) and remenber if you want a lift later you can always do that later :)
November 15, 2013
Thank you for your comment... Yes.. finding the right Dr is key... sucks when you think you found a good one and then they turn out to be shady. Praying to the Universe he/she comes to me and it will be clear that they are the one.
November 15, 2013
I did the lift though Dr. Pousti said I should wait and stage it. He didn't think I needed it but I wanted to do it all in one shot. There's nothing wrong w doing the explant first and lift later. Another thing Pousti said was I could get the implants deflated in the office and let them naturally go down over a few (~3 months), then get them removed under local anesthetic. CHEAPER and gives your body time to retract skin while the implant deflates. I don't know if it's a possibility with CC, but just something to look into
November 15, 2013
Thats how I feel because of the extra money if I wait... but then Im hearing from people (not Drs) that I may not need a lift. Plus I am not sure that I want to be put under so many times... Is it possible to deflate silicone? I didnt think you could otherwise I would do that any day. My CC is so bad though. I just need them out as soon as possible. ya know...
November 15, 2013
wow. you have and had an amazing figure.another thought i had is if you want to go to one of the ladies on here's doc, ask for our real names so you can drop it at the PS's and try to get some $ off or something...
November 15, 2013
Awe.. Thank you so much.. Im Having to work at getting the weight off now when I never worked out a day in my life is hard. These gigantic boobs dont help either. I feel like Ive just let myself go because I hate the way I look. Ive hated the way I look my whole life. Im ready to just love my natural self. I wouls love to find the Dr you are talking about and also learn about the Benelli Lift. I never heard of that. Thanks again... Youre awesome and so are your new natural boobs. :)
November 15, 2013
Do a little google search on types of breast lifts. There are several depending on the amount of droop or amount of lift needed. A full anchor lift is the most extreme and leaves the most scars. Some doctors even do some internal lifting if that's all that's needed.
November 15, 2013
Yes... I am actually right now... so much information Im a little overwhelmed... The Drs Ive seen both said I needed the anchor... and that terrified me. Im leaning more toward no lift at the moment Im sure I will be going through a bunch of different stages of changing my mind though.
November 15, 2013
Fixit225 How did you find out that you had a tear in your implant? Ultrasound??
November 15, 2013
Gosh, your natural breasts were perfect, I bet you're going to be so happy to get them back! Your CC looks so uncomfortable, sorry that happened.
November 15, 2013
:( makes me so sad now... I cant believe how much I hated them for so long. I look back at photos and pray so hard they go back to their natural self without a lift... I never even wore a bra and now I LIVE in one. Literally. I only take it off to shower. I dont even take it off to have sex whenever that is. Its the saddest thing ever. Im not sure what I did to deserve this or what purpose it is suppose to serve me in my lifetime because Ive had lots of lessons but I know I would not want to wish CC on my worst nightmare... SUCKS
November 15, 2013
Yah I feel you :( but just stay strong !! And remove them ASAP it will be good for you and most likely your relationship ... I noticed that with me I started subconsciously taking it out on the people around me because of my low self esteem ... I'll let you know how my surgery goes on Monday so you can see my dr.
November 15, 2013
Znikie...I can so identify with your conflict to lift or not to lift. I have severe cc and not my first revision since 84 but my theory is this. I am putting faith in my body to repair to its most original position and not to the knife in the hand of another ...again. I believe I will be able to see my breasts in a relaxed unstressed unstretched state as the closest to their original selves. Give em a chance...work out the muscle tissue to develop pectoral fullness...ensure enough hormones to be fluffing with plenty massage and another theory...my young breasts were small because they were narrow and pointy...now they will probably hang flattened but wider from having been pocketed filled and stretched out...not too dissimilar to breasts that have nursed filled and emptied. ..looking sooo forward to my explantation...period. may our breasts now relax...resume your original position girls...no tight seams waiting to tug away...just done already. Just sayin. When I asked my doctor if I was crazy..he said he thought I was on the right track. Just to be cc free...omg!!! Anxious to see what direction you chose...thank you all for your post explant pics...just amazing how much better the afters look!!!
November 17, 2013
Im sooooo excited to get mine out too.. Since mine has a tear in it I know that silicone has been leaking and after folloing Fixit225 I realize many of her symptoms are the same as mine... Recently, I put 2 and 2 together and realized that I will catch myself tightening up my hand and curling it close to my body as if I had a neurological disorder... Also having vision loss and foggy head I ust thought that was from pregnancy brain... OMG... I need these out ASAP and like you will most likely opt out of getting a lift. My poor body... :( Im excited to see what I will look like when I get them out. My before implant photos would be ideal but I know that will not happen... They definitely will be stretched out a bit I imagine... I went so big. :(
November 15, 2013
Oh my gosh , you had beautiful breasts before implants! Don't worry they will bounce right back:) my breasts were not beautiful before implants and now (post Explant) I LOVE them more than I dreamed! And more than that, I had CC in both, as well. You don't realize the level of pain and discomfort we lived with, until they are gone! Praying for you on your journey:)
November 15, 2013
Awe... Thank you so much.... I can imagine how I am going to feel... Nobody tells you about how uncomfortable implants are with or without CC... Thank you for the prayers keep them coming. I just called Dr. Chong and she is not available until after Jan just for a Consult. Especially since she comes highly recommended. Plus she does take my insurance and after Jan they stop taking insurance... Im so sad!
November 15, 2013
I just read this. What a bummer. She really is a great doc. If Dr. Chong isn't an option, do consider Dr. Spring in Marina Del Rey. I think she's the best option in the L.A. area.
UPDATED FROM znikie
Are There Any Reputable Dr's That You Trust in the Los Angeles Area?
znikieNovember 15, 2013
As you all know, I am in need of getting these things out and Im in the process of setting up appointments with Dr. Kim in Orange County and Dr. Lavinia Chong. but they are a little farther than I would like to go. Obviously, they both come highly recommended and I am willing to travel a bit but with two babies its hard for me to even get out to the grocery store for an hour... (which I call my vacation) by the way :) So that said, Im Looking for free consultations in the Los Angeles area, if possible.
Also, I want to thank you all... You have been such amazing support through this journey and want you all to know that...
Also, I want to thank you all... You have been such amazing support through this journey and want you all to know that...
Replies (6)
November 15, 2013
Don't waste your energy beating yourself up. Change your pattern. Be nice to you!
November 15, 2013
Hi znikie. I, too, live in Los Angeles and I consulted with 4 plastic surgeons here and Lavinia Chong in Newport Beach. Like you, I would have preferred to find someone here in L.A. a short drive from my apartment so I could just zip over and back and avoid traffic, but Dr. Chong impressed me more than any of the others I saw and I know she's worth the drive to Newport Beach. She asked important questions none of the others did, took measurements that they didn't, explained to me in great detail what to expect and seemed both very intelligent and very compassionate. I really think she should be at the top of your list. Yes, it takes about an hour to get to her office in Newport Beach, but considering you/we have to live with the results of our surgery for the rest of our life, that hour each way is a small sacrifice for getting the results we really want. She's not the type to push a lift on you if it's not what you want, but she will be completely honest with you about whether or not you will need one and whether or not it's better to do it now or wait six months after your skin has healed and contracted. I have total faith in her integrity and her desire to do what's right for the patient instead of what's going to pad her bank account. However, if it really is too difficult for you to leave your husband and child to make the trips back and forth to Newport, the doctor I would go with in the L.A. area is Dr. Michelle Spring. http://www.realself.com/find/California/Marina-Del-Ray/Plastic-Surgeon/Michelle-Spring Of the 5 PS's I saw, she was right up there with Dr. Chong and I would have chosen her if I hadn't met Dr. Chong and couldn't make it to the O.C. for whatever reason. Dr. Spring is in Marina Del Rey, so depending on where in L.A. you live, she shouldn't be much of a drive for you. I think we're about the same age. I'm 43 and got my implants at age 26 and I don't need a lift. Yours are big, but maybe since they're only 3 years old your skin might contract better afterward than if you had left them in longer. Whoever you ultimately choose, I wish you luck! You'll feel so much better when those are out and you're back to your fit, petite self again.
November 15, 2013
Arggg... Dr Chong isnt avail to do a COnsult until after Jan and Im really wanting to see someone asap. Earlier I made a consult with Dr Spring so thats great you suggested her. I hope others are just as excited with her and her work... If she doesnt work out maybe I will go ahead and wait until Dr. Chong is available to see me... Thank you for your comment. I cant wait to hear more about your journey...
November 16, 2013
it looks like you have great skin tone, I bet you will look great without a lift. I'm surprised that mine aren't dangling around my knees after having them since I was 19! I think you'll look amazing!
November 16, 2013
Awe thanks Rascal100... Im just nervous because of the CC and them having to scrape everything out. Plus there is a leak so they have to really clean everything. I have to find a super skilled surgeon to take this mess on if I dont want a lift. Someone not skilled could really botch me up. I have a consultation with Dr. Michelle Spring on the 27th... praying she is the "one"
Replies (41)