Surgery Scheduled for 8/20...nervous - CA

I have had silicone implants for 21 years. No issues, still feel soft and look nice. My last mammogram showed an enlarged lymph node, doc believed filled with silicone. They are probably leaking or seeping through, and way past time for maintenance.

I was so young when I got them (19) I don't even remember what I looked like before. I don't have any before photos as my previous ps passed away and I coud not get my medical records. I would say I was a very small A. I am now a 34 C. I am 5'8", 124, small frame. Even though I do not want to be flat chested, I know they need to be removed and do not want a replacement. I have 4 kids, youngest 2, and my health is not worth big boobs. I am most scared about how I will look after, sunken, flat...not quite sure.

As for the surgery scared about the drains and infection. My mom will be here for 5 days to help then I am back on my own with the kids and hubby. I will post updates on how my surgery goes. If I can figure out how to post pics, I will. I know I will be relieved to have these out of me once I am well and healed. I can't say I won't miss having some breasts though, hoping for a nice outcome.

Surgery at 1:00. Getting nervous...

Explant done. At home in bed. I took some tylonol and the pain is manageable. I took a peek and am totally flat. Trying not to get depressed. The nurse said I looked like an A cup/ 34A. I have drains. Right now I do not have any pain associated with the drains, but they seem like they will be annoying. Hoping to be healthy and be able to accept my appearance. Much to my surprise my implants came out intact.