34G to 34(D?) reduction - Ontario, Canada
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After many years of putting it off, I am finally...
- 26 Apr 2012
After many years of putting it off, I am finally scheduled for a reduction next month. I am a 36 year old mom of 2 young children and a self-employed business owner with my husband. My breasts are simply way out of proportion for my body's build. I am 5'5 at 135 lbs and currently wear a (tight) 34F bra, but measurements say I should be in a 32H or so (British measurements, I find British bras fit me better). I was recently on the path to losing 5 more pounds when I realized that I was almost in a size 4 pants with no change to my boobs since I finished breastfeeding my second child.
I love yoga and running, although I do more incline walking on the treadmill than actually jogging/running. I developed later than most girls in my class so I first went through a couple of years of being teased for being super skinny and flat as a board. At the end of grade 7 they started growing and by grade 8 I was around a D cup. I hated it, hated the attention, especially because I went from one extreme to the other. During high school and college I basically stopped eating and developed anorexia in an attempt to control the boobs. I was 5'5, 95 lbs and still had to stuff myself into a too small C cup bra.
In my early 20s I worked to overcome the eating disorder and that is when I first began researching breast reduction. Throughout my 20's I had very little physically pain and although I was unsure about having children I didn't want to risk future breastfeeding. They still caused massive emotional issues though and it was my number one fear when I got pregnant--how big would they get?! Still, I did have 2 children in my early 30s and I breastfed them both for a year. Between kids my doctor started mentioning breast reduction but I did not take any action until after I had my daughter and the pain began. After I had my first child, my son, I was exercising a lot and got down to 130 lbs and able to squeeze into some store-bought brands of 36D bras. I could live with that, and I still didn't have much pain. After my daughter I also worked out and was able to get close to 130 but the breasts stayed large. For a while I could wear store-bought 36DD's but eventually as I lost weight the bands became too lose and the cups too small. So I moved on to internet order bras with the smaller bands and bigger cups, hoping it would help with the neck, shoulder and back pain but it hasn't.
Last November I talked to my family doctor about the reduction again. He referred me to a surgeon that does hospital work at in a city about an hour away from me (I live in a smaller city). The consultation was arranged for February and during the exam she said I would have no problem at all with approval, I was a good candidate and more than met the insurance requirements. Surely enough I got a call at the end of February, early March with a date of April 14th! I was expecting a longer wait so this threw me off a bit, I felt like I hadn't really fully committed yet, but here was a date waiting for me. I took it and still can't really believe it is so close. I had both of my children naturally with no medication and have never had a surgical procedure before, not even any dental work, so I am very nervous. My surgeon was very calming and I feel like I know enough information to feel confident, but the general nervousness about surgery is still there. Totally normal, I know! Today I have the pre-surgery visit with my doctor to clear me for the surgery, so I am waiting around for that and really thinking a lot about it. I am about 80% excited and 20% nervous, to sum it up :-) I would love to be a B/C cup in the end but I think it will be closer to a D cup. As long as they are smaller and lighter I will be happy.
I had some anxiety over the weekend now that I am...
- 30 Apr 2012
I will try and be brave and post a before picture soon. Have large breasts has always made me uncomfortable with having my photo taken (even with clothes on!) so it will be hard but I want to document it. One big positive I keep thinking of is how I won't be as self conscious after the surgery and I can do more with my kids and take pictures with them without thinking so much about how I look.
In my original post I made a mistake and listed my...
- 3 May 2012
Ugh, I have a bit of a head cold today that I hope...
- 6 May 2012
I have a surgical bra coming in this week, bought based on a recommendation from this group, so I'm looking forward to seeing it. I also have a Lululemon ta-ta tamer that is small in the cup right now that I think will work to wear while washing the surgical bra. I am going to do up baggies of peas this week and I've got lots of pillows and extra blankets ready both for at home and in the car (I have an hour+ drive home after the day surgery). I kept a body pillow and soft breastfeeding pillow from pregnancy and babies that I think will be really useful. I'm also going to order some healthy frozen meals for my family (they eat meat, I don't) so that my husband doesn't have to do a lot of extra work while he helps me. Speaking of meals, does anyone have good suggestions for food to help with healing for vegetarians? I am particularly concerned about protein because I keep reading how good it is for healing, and know that is one area I lack in.
My mom is coming with me to the hospital for surgery and it is great that she is so supportive (my dad and husband are too). She has considered the surgery for a long time and may even do it herself in the future.
Less than a week until surgery. Added my "before"...
- 8 May 2012
I did 3 miles on the treadmill last night, it is a...
- 9 May 2012
At this point I don't really feel nervous, I just feel ready for it. Bring it on! Let's do this! I am so looking forward to being on the other side, post-op. Every once in a while I get the worst case scenario thoughts, mostly what it would do to my kids if something went horribly wrong, but I just acknowledge the feelings briefly and then move on with the positive thoughts.
It doesn't seem real that I'm only stuck with...
- 11 May 2012
So I called the hospital this morning to confirm my arrival time and everything is set to go barring any emergency rescheduling. I arrive at 8 and my surgery is at 9:30. My surgeon's office called yesterday and gave me my post-op appointment which is 10 days after the surgery. One frustrating thing, the surgical bra that I ordered and paid extra to have quick shipping on is showing that it was delivered already, but I did not receive it. I've put in an inquiry to the website so hopefully I hear back soon. I wasn't planning on taking it to the hospital with me so there is still time for it to arrive. Today I did some extra shopping to stock up on stuff for my family and I've got everything ready for my son's birthday which is a couple of weeks after my surgery. I'll do some laundry and cleaning this weekend, get in a couple of workouts and then try to relax. I've been sleeping pretty good all week so let's hope that holds at least until Sunday night.
Getting ready to shower and leave for the hospital...
- 14 May 2012
Everything went awesome, I have been home for an...
- 14 May 2012
An overview of my surgery day - May 14,...
- 14 May 2012
Everything happened exactly as explained to me by my surgeon, her office and the hospital, no surprises which was great, and everything was right on time. My mom came to get me this morning, it was a beautiful day for weather so a really nice drive. We arrived in the city of the hospital early so walked around a garden centre for 20 minutes to stretch our legs. Then we reported to the hospital, very minimal wait at admissions and then went right up to the day surgery suite. Again, minimal wait and I was called in to answer the general questions and change into the hospital gowns and slippers. I then sat down in the waiting room inside the day surgery area and was expecting to pass about 45 minutes by myself but the nurse that had first seen me was super nice and said she could allow my mom in to wait with me since there was no one else scheduled immediately after me. Chatting helped keep my mind off of any worry, I did really great with no anxiety, that alone makes me feel so good about the day.
I was asked the standard questions (allergies, any medical problems) again by a nurse who was going to be in the surgery, waited a bit longer and just after 9 my surgeon came out to take me for the drawing part. All of the staff kept saying how she was a real artist with this, that I would be very pleased with the results and how nice she is. Very nice to hear and helped keep my spirits up! She drew the lines, measured and traced the template, I really remember the smell of the marker, lol! Then I met the anesthesiologist, again, he was super nice just like everyone else. And then after another brief wait it was time to go into surgery.
There were three nurses there, one prepping the instruments and two setting me up on the table and hooking up the IV. We talked a bit about the city I live in and then the anasthesiologist was there and we did the mask, I was out fairly quickly. Then I was waking up, which felt like I was waking from a deep sleep and dream, in my mind I was thinking, what was I just doing? Oh yes, I made it!! One nurse was asking me about my pre-op size and then just asking how I felt. The main thing I recall is the tight feeling and feeling like I wanted to be very careful with any movements. My regular bra that I'd removed the underwire from last night and washed was on with lots of padding, so one of the nurses said don't worry, you are small under there, that is all stuffing! The straps are just hovering over my shoulders, they don't even touch, that is how loose it is even with the pads! They asked about my pain level and I said about a 3, but it was more discomfort and a stretching tight feel. They gave me two t3's and a pack of crackers with some water. I ate one cracker. I felt great, no nausea, a bit hazy vision at first but that was it. Around 1:30 they asked if I felt another half hour would be good and I said yes, so they told my mom who went to get the car.
My instructions are to leave everything on until Friday and then I can shower and change the dressings myself. My post-op appointment is next Thursday. I got an email from the site I ordered my surgical bra from saying it was sent back to them so they've resent and it will arrive in a few days, so that's good.
My husband thinks I must be flat under the padding, because in comparison it must look that way. I peeked in to check for bleeding and assured him no, there are nice boobs under here! It is hard to say at this point obviously but I bet I'm between a c-d, but it could even be just a c which would be awesome! I'd be happy anywhere between a b to d cup, I'm not picky because I can tell that the heaviness is gone, and a letter is just a letter. Even with the padding and old bra I look in proportion to my lower half. Amazing!
Right now I can tell the local freezing has come out, but I prefer being able to feel what's going on. The Tylenol is helping with the discomfort too. They also feel more swollen than they did this afternoon so I've done a bit of icing near the tops and sides. I did have a small dinner and an apple, and have had one nap already. I think sleeping should be okay, so here's hoping for a good night!
I changed into my old Lululemon tata tamer (sports...
- 15 May 2012
Thanks for all of the comments, I can't wait to share some after pics! Amazing since I was so hesitant and embarrassed sharing the befores!
It has been 2 days since the surgery now and...
- 16 May 2012
So I had my husband remove some of the side...
- 17 May 2012
Had my first shower which was so nice! My hair is...
- 18 May 2012
I'm totally off of the pain meds now and swelling is better with the bandage for compression. I've been even more tired than usual today so there is probably a lot of healing going on. I even felt some itching near the insides of the underneath incisions this morning.
So this is day 6 after surgery and I'm seeing some...
- 20 May 2012
I'm getting minimal amounts of the clear yellow drainage and my tape looks really gross underneath, but I guess it will be changed at my appointment on Thursday? I hope so. I have feeling in my right nipple, even though it is the right breast that looks the most beat up. Lefty looks really good now, just some light yellow bruising.
Sleeping has finally gotten a bit difficult. I'm using a foam wedge, an expensive medical one we had purchased for a family member, but it is making my back sore over the past two days. I'll have to play around with pillows tonight since there is no way I want back pain now that I'm free from my breasts causing it!
Overall things are great though, I am thrilled that my body finally looks like ME, in proportion, and I love the size so much. I think I'll be a 34D in the end, which is basically equivalent to a 36C, an awesome average size! I will be able to wear so many clothes that I never could in the past. I am saving my tax refund money for clothes, clothes and more clothes! And bras!! :-)
Another update, more just a thought I had when...
- 20 May 2012
Photo day! So over the weekend I began feeling...
- 22 May 2012
So over the weekend I began feeling even better, it kind of makes me realize how uncomfortable I was last week in comparison, but it also wasn't that bad, I have had it really easy. I have a lot more movement in my arms these past couple of days where earlier I felt like if I moved too much it would pull or hurt something. I can see why everyone says that it is harder to limit their activity in the second week so I am being careful not to overdo it.
Pictures... my first impression is that the front on pic looks bigger than I actually am, but the side pic shows how small they really are. Makes sense since I had wider/round boobs to begin with and I know that the width pretty much stays the same. I still have a good deal of bruising on the right breast and more swelling on that side as well. Swelling has gotten much better these past few days but I know it is still there as they are softer but still firm and my skin has that shiny look to it. Also note for these pics, I have not yet had my first follow up appointment so this is the tape from the surgery and it is starting to fold and peel, plus it just looks awful. The side shot is of my "better" boob, my left. I plan on doing pictures once a week for a while to watch and share the progress.
And some good news--my surgical bra JUST arrived now, off to try it on!
My surgucal bra fits really nicely and I can...
- 22 May 2012
One thing I'm sure everyone notices after, I can totally see the ghost of my old bra lingering around! I not only have shoulder indents but my skin is darker where they rubbed, and I have side indents where the band went. I would always wear the ultra minimizers, squeeze into too tight bras in hopes they made me look smaller, and this past year I only went braless to shower I hated them so much. So we will see how long it takes the markings to fade, or if they even do.
My follow up appointment is on Thursday so I will update after that. Hopefully my surgeon says everything is healing up well!
Had my follow up this morning and she said...
- 24 May 2012
First negative I've discovered... I need a bigger...
- 25 May 2012
My bruising and swelling is really going away this week, the left side looks really good. Can't wait to compare me week one pics with week two.
2 weeks today and still doing really well. I feel...
- 28 May 2012
I'm uploading my week two photos. I notice a lot of improvement from last week, way less bruising and swelling. The tape came off the bottom of my left side but I replaced it around the area where the incisions meet just in case.
I'm starting to miss exercising at this point, even though I'm tired I just want to move! Just have to be patient and it will all be worth it to see how much easier yoga and running are!
Got my period yesterday morning and I am so...
- 31 May 2012
Part of the tape around my nipple finally came off and I am surprised at how nice and clean they look, like no stitching or incision marks at all. Not sure what method my surgeon used for them but I'm impressed! I will probably wait until Tuesday to do my week 3 pics since I have an appointment on Monday and am hoping the nipple and vertical incision tape will all come off then. All of the lower underneath tape has been off for a few days. I will ask about starting some type of scar treatment at my next appointment.
Sorry I haven't updated since my appointment, I...
- 7 Jun 2012
I got my first "you've lost weight" comment this...
- 11 Jun 2012
I had the anchor style reduction with almost 3 lbs of tissue removed (620 from right and 705 from left). Everything went smoothly with my surgery, I am very happy with all aspects of the care I received.