Feels like this was my nose all along

Hello everyone. First of all, a huge thank you to all of you for posting about your experience on this site!! It has helped me so much and has given me a lot of assurance.

I am in my mid 20s and am going in for rhinoplasty on July 11th. Since I was very little, I was always told about how big my nose was by others. Family members would always make comments such as, "too bad you didn't get your mother's nose." Then later in elementary school, kids also made fun of me because of my big nose. Although I was always aware of my nose, I lived with it and did not seriously consider getting it reshaped until this year. I always used to ask myself if my self-confidence would be a bit better if my nose was a little smaller and I was always intrigued by the idea of rhinoplasty. In January of this year I decided to at least start looking on-line for some doctors in my area and at some before and after pictures. I only know one person who has had rhinoplasty done and she looks so much better now. I found out who her doctor was and booked a consultation with him in March. This doc is pretty famous in the city and has great looking results. The consultation was short but I got my questions answered. He suggested a closed procedure and nostril reduction. I had been to see other surgeons who suggested an open rhino, which I was a little nervous about. I ended up choosing this doctor mainly because I actually knew someone who had been his patient. This girl had a similar nose as mine and is of the same ethnic background.

Yesterday I went in to get my pictures taken and it ended up making me really nervous. The side profile mock up looked fine but the front was pretty bad. I know it is difficult to show the front view on the computer but I still can't help but feel really scared about the final outcome. I don't want it to look like the picture he showed me. The doc told me I have to trust him about the front. Has anyone else had this fear going into the procedure? Another huge concern for me is people noticing that I have had work done. I work with teenagers and will not be seeing them until September. Teenagers notice everything! They always notice when I get my hair cut or even if I change my make up! I'm going to get my hair done a little differently after the procedure in order to draw attention away from my nose. I have only told my parents and a few friends about the procedure and am so afraid that others will find out. Everyone says that people notice something has changed but they don't know what. I hope this is true but I feel like since my nose is so prominent, it will be more noticeable.

Anyways, I am super duper nervous and only have six days to go!!!! I've already got my arnica, wet naps, q-tips, saline rinse, polysporin and Netflix ready to go. I will update as I go through the process and will post up some pictures later.