One Year Post OP Tummy Tuck! Omaha, NE *new pics*

I gained a lot of weight during pregnancy and in the past 5 yrs have lost 60 lbs and have sagging skin

Ugh so frustrated with myself!! My surgery is Thurs and these last 4 days I have been eating everything in site! :( I need to stop b/c at this rate I am gonna go in 5 lbs heavier.....yuck!

On the other side the closer I get the less nervous I get...I am not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing lol!
3 days to go......

So I am on my last night shift before surgery! I have so much to do tomorrow and not sure how to fit it all in along with sleep! I know the one thing that I will accomplish is a spinning class and I have to b/c I have ate so bad this last week. I have almost had the mentality that it's gonna get tucked and sucked so eat now while you can...NOT a good idea lol!
My kids have been hearing DH and I talk about surgery and today they asked me why I was having surgery. I told them the truth...I am having my extra belly skin taken off. They seem to understand (as best as a 5 and 8 yr old can) and agreed to keep it a secret (well at least until after the fact b/c I am so tired of people telling me that I don't need this!)
41 more hours!!!

Well today is the big day!! I don't seem to be nervous although with the crappy way I slept last night you would think otherwise. I have a feeling it was more due to the fact though that I just came off of 6 night shifts and tried to go back to "regular" time. I have the cubboards stocked and showed DH where I put everything....he got nervous and was like stop I u aren't dyin and I was like I know that's just the ocd part of me needing you to know where everything is at lol! I made two soups last night and stocked up on the yogurt (not 1st 24 hrs though) applesauce, jello, pudding, and popsicles! Ok well off to take my 2nd shower and finish getting ready! Wish me luck! I will post pics soon!

Well ladies almost 24hrs post op and gonna make this short and sweet.
Pain is bearable although I am staying on top of the pains meds for the first 48 hrs per PS. Pain totally isn't as bad as I thought it would be!
Drain tubes as everyone else has said are annoying!!!
Nausea is ok I had a horrible drive to and from the PS for f/u appt this morning even with the meds....this is my worst complaint so far!
On a sad note I was so nauseated at my appt that I didn't get to see my new belly when they unwrapped me but not stressing I have the rest of my life :) DH said it's super flat thought!
I am also posting some pre op pics and will post new ones as soon as I feel up to it!
Bought a wedge pillow at Bed Bath and Beyond and so recommend it to go under my knees! I also borrowed an airplane pillow from my sis and works wonders sleeping in a recliner! those and diet 7up are my god sends right now......ok back to napping! Oh and homemade chicken noodle soup made night before surgery was best food decision ever!

So day 2 PO and doing good! Still in pain of course but it's tolerable and still staying up on my pain meds about every 5 hrs or so. Drainage tubes aren't bothering me as much as they were yesterday....still annoying but that's about it! I can really start to feel my scar though today so hoping that's normal....not painful just can tell that it's there!
This morning I changed clothes, washed up with some baby wipes, did the stairs (10 total) and just all around feel better although I was beat when all was said and done and took a nap! I got a glimpse of my new belly today when DH did the bandages and readjusted my CG (added a tank top under it b/c it was irritating my skin) and so far it looks good! Can't wait until I feel a little better and get a better glance.
Ok well I have rambled on long enough and not sure if I am even making sense lol! Will post PO pics as soon as I feel up to it!

Well everyone I'm 3 day PO and so ready to be up and moving again lol! I am not a sit and do nothing kind of girl! I am so bored!! lol :) Pain is still minimal (still just mostly uncomfortable). I haven't taken any pain meds since 9am this morning and started on tylenol instead and so far so good. The drains are still a pain in the arse and can't wait to get those out!
So DH this morning was helping me reajust my CG and redress my bandages and I almost passed out. He took off the CG and I just got so dizzy, turned white, and he said he was really worried there for awhile....this happen to anyone else? It's almost like I could sense my stomach missing and it made me nauseated....weird I know...hoping it goes away lol!

Day 5 post op and woke up today feeling good!! I slept through the night except to pee and take pain meds! I have moved from the recliner to the couch (next stop my bed)! I talked to the PS yesterday over the phone and he said the fact that I have weaned myself from pain meds and only taking them during the day is great! I have to call them today with my drainage output and we will set up an appt this week to take out the drains (can't wait! the tubes are still really uncomfortable) I will post pics soon but want to wait until drainage tubes come out lol!
Well I hope everyone else is feeling good!

Well today is day 6 post op and I am feeling good! I had a dr's appt this morning and they removed drainage pump #1 (#2 should be removed on Fri). I am so excited to have it removed b/c they were really starting to bug me! I understand why they need to be in but it doesn't mean I can't not like it haha!
After the dr's appt I went to lunch and was out and about for the 1st time in a week! It felt good! We went to Famous Dave's and I got one of the new 600 cal citrus meals and it was really good! I have always been a huge out to eat and love to eat when I go out and I couldn't even finish the meal lol! I was so stuffed and my binder was starting to pull to I brought home the rest of the meat and ate it as a snack this afternoon!
Last night was rough again :( but I was expecting it b/c my Mon night was so good! Oh well the fact that I am not even a week post op and feeling this good I will take a couple restless nights :)

Well one week post op today!! and honestly again I will state it's not as bad as I thought it would be! No regrets although I still want this last drain to come out lol (soon enough-tomorrow hopefully!) It's very irritated and red but the PS said it wasn't infected just irritated.
Well onto something that I haven't had the "guts" to talk about....warning TMI! It is one week today and I still haven't had a BM :( I went the morning of surgery (thanks to a susp) but not sense! I have been taking a stoll softener daily and then last night was told to take some milk of magnesia @ 6pm...still nothing....I am not super uncomfortable but I have never wanted to get a BM over with so bad haha! Ok well now that I have grossed u all out I am off to have bfast!

I am drain free!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!

So PS said that everything looked amazing! I go back a week from Tues which will be 2 days short of 3 weeks po to have the sutures removed. I was told not to push myself this next week and she would prefer I didn't do much of anything! No light house work, (damn lol) small trips to the store but nothing major, and try not to drive until I feel really good and off the pain meds for 2 days.

I went to lunch after my dr's appt (Subway) and then Shopko gone about 2 hrs between the two and feel kinda swollen so I am in my chair with my feet up as I write!

Well I finally had a BM yesterday (sorry if tmi) but it had been a week and 1 day and I was starting to worry! I had been taking a stool softener daily since day after surgery and then a laxative the final 3 days....I feel so much lighter now :) It was horrible but it wasn't easy either but no stomach pain and that was my worry!
So it is day 9 po and I am feeling ok....kinda tired and my tummy feels kinda tight. It's not pain, not soreness, I really don't know how to describe it.
Not much planned for today! I threw some things into a crockpot this morning and got into trouble by DH b/c he said he could have done it but oh well :) Idk if we can post recipes but this is amazing and super easy to make for all you post op people (just make sure to by no salt or reduced salt if you can-I do!)
http://www.skinnytaste.com/2008/11/crock-pot-chicken-taco-chili-4-pts.html
I may or may not make a quick trip to Wal-mart today I need to pick up 10 things and if I want to get out this afternoon may....if not I will with DH!
Have a great weekend everyone!
Oh and btw.....drain free is amazing!!!! and my shower this morning felt good.....I feel so clean :) !!!! although weird b/c I didn't have my CG on and that just feels weird still....I still feel like my tummy is pulling....

Well Day 10 PO and doing good!
I talked to come girls on "make me heal" and we all 3 had the weird feeling...I pin-pointed it as a sunburn feeling and they were like totally! Well it's gone today but they both totally felt it also and someone on there said it was just another fun part of healing :)
I didn't go to wal-mart yesterday and instead went to Texas Roadhouse. It was delish as always but I totally overdid it with eating and between that and salt I was super uncomfortable and swollen. I came right how, put my feet up, and then drank lots of water and a couple hours later felt better....man I hope that goes away b/c I love to eat out :)
Overall had a good night last night and only took one pain pill! I am only taking them at night (tylenol during the day) so that's awesome! I don't like that I can only sleep in one position :( and I get really tight and stiff!
I am going to limit myself to one adventure a day :) and today will be a 6yr old bday party for 2 hrs.
I can't wait until I feel more up to par after a shower to take some more after pics!
Have a good rest of the weekend everyone!

I don't know if anyone will see this or not but I some swelling above where my drainage tubes were and below my incision....if you push on it kinda looks like a water bed. I talked to my PS on call and she said to relax and keep my binder tight and to call in the morning if it is worse and they may have to drain it.....has anyone had to have fluid drained....does it hurt? I am afraid of needles so much :(

Day 11 post op and doing good other than some fluid on my belly! I decided just to lounge today hoping it would go away but it didn't and so I had a 3pm appt.
I just got back from the dr's and it wasn't bad at all! They did drain about "only" (their words) 20 from my stomach but said that it looked like more b/c I am so tiny :) She said that they remove the drains @ 25 in a 24 hr period and this was 20 in a 72hr period so she doesn't think that they took them out too early..yay! She said that the pocket may come back again but maybe not....if not no biggie (her words not mine lol) It didn't hurt just kinda stung a little here and there.

Day 12 post op and doing good! I tried to sleep in my bed last night and made it 2 hrs (which is better than the last 2 times I tried and made it 2-5 minutes). I moved at 11pm to the couch and then...wait for it.....slept through the night!! woot woot!! AND I did it with no pain meds or tylenol!
I am planning on taking it easy again today per dr's orders when they drained my excess fluid yesterday. She said that they can't guarantee that the pocket won't come back but this will help so why not!
Hope everyone else is having a good recovery! I was thinking today about going back to work and I still have 1 1/2 wks but it seems so close haha!

Day 13 post op and still doing good! I showered yesterday and then went out to dinner and to the mall b/c my 5 yr old wanted to get her ears pierced (which didn't happen b/c she chickened out lol) but my point is I ate WAY too much (it was a buffet) and went walking afterwards so of course I swelled BUT I ate more than day 10 and felt better afterwards so all in all a good day b/c not as much swelling! so in my opinion that's a good thing :) Not the extra eating but the fact that I could eat more and walk more and swell less :)

So today I want to touch on the fact of telling people. Before surgery I didn't tell people for two reasons
1) I got tired of people telling me when I was just thinking about the surgery, "You don't need that"
2) I was worried something was gonna happen (like I die) or it would get botched or just something bad....

Now I am one day out from being 2 weeks post op and everything is going great and I love my results so that in turn is making me be more open about what I have had done....when people ask why I am "couped up at home" or "why are you hunching" I now say I had a tummy tuck! I still get the occasional, "you didn't need that" and I almost want to scream, "You don't know what the hell I need u don't see me naked!" but mostly I get, "Wow I want one you are so lucky" b/c really think about it.....what woman (who needed it) wouldn't want a tummy tuck if they could afford it or do it lol!

I lost 65 lbs and worked out at the gym 5-6 days a week for two years to try to get my body back! Two weeks ago my body was the best it has EVER been (even before kids) and now it is even better!! I needed to take this last step and loose the extra skin so I can feel better about myself.....not for them, not for you, but for ME!! and I have no regrets :) I worked my ASS off I deserved this :)

Well today is 2 weeks post op! I am actually kinda grumpy today and probably won't write much. I am kinda sore but really stiff and I ate way to crappy this week! All I want to do is reach for the sky and stretch!!! and I can't :( I can almost reach to the sky but stretching wouldn't be a good thing......
I am also ready to be back to normal life! Work and most definitely the gym!! I miss it so much!!!!! gym that is not work lol!
I also have a small amount of fluid again building up. It's not as bad as last time (and last time was "only" 20cc) so I am letting it go for the time being....if it gets bad today I will go back in tomorrow but for now it's cool.
Well ok enough grumpiness and hope everyone else is having a good day!

2 weeks and 1 day post op! I don't have a lot to say today....kids are off for Easter break so of course my oldest wants the computer lol!
I will say I tried my bed again last night and DID IT! I even slept through the night only waking up once to pee! I have tried my bed 3 times before (twice I only lasted minutes and once 2 hrs) but I am so excited to be back in my bed....so is hubby lol!
I still have a small amount of fluid but it's not getting any worse and all in all it isn't that bad. I am gonna call the PS just to be sure since we are heading into the weekend but I am guess they will have me wait until Tues (my appt) unless it gets worse

We are at my inlaws for Easter and I ate SO much :( ugh! Temptations are everywhere!! Candy, texas sheetcake, blueberry crisp, ice cream, homemade rolls, cinnamon rolls, ham, mashed pots, corn, green beans, stuffing, 3 types of jello salad.....need I go on! So needless to say I totally overate and feel like I am ready to explode out my binder :( I can't wait to go back to work next weekend or at least doing stuff this week! I think that is my main problem with overeating is I am SO bored!!!!
I was depressed yesterday b/c I feel like my butt looks horrible and I think I look like I am wearing a diaper!
Ok sorry for all the negativity today! As for being post op I am doing very good today! Up and moving around and not much swelling other than from overeating lol! I am hoping that when I go home my fluid isn't back but I guess we will see!! Stitches out in two days....can't wait!

Well everyone 2 weeks and 5 days post op today! I am really beating myself up about the over eating I have done the last two weeks. I do/work for Weight Watchers so I weigh weekly and am maintaining overall from presurg weight but I am up from my goal weight (3 lbs) so need to get back down! I honestly think that all my bad eating is just boredom and being out of routine! I went to the gym 5-6 days a week before sx and now all I do is sit in my recliner and do nothing! I am so excited to get back on track and start eating healthy again! I have something planned for each day this week and then go back to work on Friday!
So here is my vow to all of you lol! and to myself of course :) I am done eating shitty though...seriously!! I am not gonna undo everything that I just did....that is just plain stupid!! I have eaten healthy for 5 yrs so I can do this!! I go to the PS tomorrow to get my stitches out and have one thing planned each day this week and then back to work on Friday....I will get back into the swing of life and be fine...I can do this!!!
Well I am off to the dr here shortly to get my stitches out!! I had both removeable and dissolveable ones and time to get them out!
Have a good week everyone and thanks for all the support through my negativity!! positive from here on out!

Omg I feel like a new woman!! I am so over this depression!!!
There is hope!! I just got back from my 3 week f/u appt (technically 2 days early) and I have the ok to burn my pantyhose on Thurs, start walking/light elipitcal/or stationary bike, and to only wear my binder with upped activity, and sleep on my side....there IS light at the end of the tunnel!!!! Next appt isn't now until 6 weeks!
I can't wait for Thurs to weigh in for WW....odd considering I ate so horrible but ready to own up to it and get on with my new life/new body!!
Whoo hoo!

Well everyone I am 3 weeks post op today! I have to say I have regrets but can't wait to see final results! I look back at my day 12 pics and I don't see that definition anymore due to swelling :( I wanted to take 3 week pics today but DH is out of town so it will have to wait until the weekend!
I have finally gotten mostly out of my down spunk lol! I have been able to go for walks the last two days! Day 1 I walked 1 mile and today 2 miles...feels so good! I called my PS nurse last night though b/c I was upset that non of my dress clothes fit for my part time job. I was informed that it could be 2-3 mos before I wear my pre op clothes again...wish I would have known that although I highly doubt it would have affected my decision haha!
I have been cleared to only wear my binder with work or working out. I went without it for 2 hrs today and started to feel slightly swollen so I put it back on! I figured I would take it slow and wean myself off of it haha!
Well I go back to work tomorrow....diving right in with 3-12hr night shifts this weekend...ugh! wish me luck!

So I started back to work last night (I am actually on night 2 right now as we speak). I was 3 weeks and 1 day post op when I came back. I work as a tech/clerk on the neonatal icu floor 12hr night shifts. I stupidly scheduled myself 3 shifts in a row on my first week back but it was the only way to avoid using anymore vacation pay! My first night was a slow night (thank god) no pain but by about 2am I was pretty swollen and it only got worse. Honestly all in all for being up for 24 hrs it wasn't too bad when I got home and looked in the mirror...my hour glass shape was just straight lol and my belly kinda pudgy. It felt really tight like my skin was pulling but again...no pain. When I got up @ 1600 to get ready to come back to work it was all gone :) although arrived again about 1800 :( but not too bad yet @ 2300 so we will see!
I am hoping to take pics again soon so keep an eye out! Hope everyone else is doing well!

4 weeks out today! I am doing good! I have returned to work and yes I have some swelling but it's not too bad. I have learned that I can only work 2-12hr night shifts in a row (3 is too much). I have started working out again either walking or doing my at home stepper. I had DH take some pics today for my 4 week mark!

So I just posted a pic day 12 and 4 weeks and I don't like it at all! It's so depressing.....I look so mushy again :( Is it b/c I am loosing muscle mass and haven't been to the gym in 4 weeks!?!? help :( so depressed!

So things are going good! I just posted 5 week pics and I am 5 1/2 weeks today! I tried on all my clothes this morning and for the first time since sx my pre op clothes fit! Most of them are still pretty tight and would be uncomfortable but they still fit and that's better than where I was last week and the week before! It may also have to do with the fact that I gained 5 lbs post op but I am gonna blame it on the swelling :P I have been back on track with eating for a week now and feel so much better! I also am back to 30 minutes 5 days a week of cardio (either bike, eliptical, or stepper) and can't wait to get cleared for weights (hopefully on Tues!)

So I am 6 1/2 weeks out and doing good! I am back to full workouts minus abs but easing back in slowly! i did spin class twice this weekend but ended at 30 minutes instead of 60 and was careful on the drills!
I have been back to eating healthy for awhile now...still up from goal about 4 lbs but not too bad. I am a little stressed and upset b/c my clothes don't fit :( I can get into all of them and get most of the zipped but can barely breathe and definitely donsn't feel comfortable on the scar! I am hoping it's just swelling and the fact that I am still 2-6 weeks out from final results and not fat from the 4 lbs I am up.....

Well I am 7 weeks and 2 days today! things are going very well! I am over my humps and back into my clothes although my scar is still so touchy I am not actually wearing them lol but at least they fit!! I am not wearing my CG and/or binder except to workout or work :) I wore it last night to the Taylor Swift concert and I actually felt worse with it on! The only "issue" I am having is I am spitting stitches and some of them aren't healing the fastest so my scar is still very red, puffy, and sore!

I will be 15 wks tomorrow! I have to say that I am happy with my results but still not loving them......
I do love that I am finally back to normal and have resumed all activity including full workouts! It has just been hard for me with swelling and mental images. This whole thing is a true mind game and I would look in the mirror and see swelling (or in my mind fat) and that would drive me to eat and well let's just say that @ 3 mos I was up 12.6 from my goal and about 7lbs pre sx. I have now since lost 5.2 lbs and only up 7.4lbs from goal. I have been totally on track with my eating and working out for 3 weeks now!
I am still struggling with swelling on and off especially if I work 3-12hr night shifts. I hate the way I look in the mirror when I go home after work :(
I am struggling with what the "make me heal" boards call "the ledge". PS's assistant said @ 11 wks it was soft tissue swelling and could take 6 mos to go away but I again am struggling to believe that...I see it as fat or extra skin (or mainly hoping that's not where my 7lb gain went!!). I started wearing my binder 2 nights ago (at the suggestion of a fellow tt'er) and have noticed that it does help with the ledge which gives me hope that it may be swelling! If you look at my last two pics you can see it in the last one! It is under my BB and above incision and basically I have a ken doll above and below my incision :( Everyone tells me that it's "tiny" but for the money I spent I don't want it there at all lol!
Well it's 0400 and I have rambled enough :)

15 wks tomorrow and wore my binder for the 3rd night in a row (just to sleep) in hopes to help with my "ledge"
I woke up this morning the flatest I have been in a long time so that gives me super hope that it's swelling!
Now...the next step is to learn patience for the swelling to go away b/c within about an hour my ledge was back... :(

Well ladies I will be 5 mos on Thurs!! This has definitely been a journey and I can finally almost say I am loving my results :) I honestly think that if I hadn't struggled with my eating for 2 mos and gained weight I would already be there but it is what it is! I am finally back into all my pre op clothes (including my tiniest jeans) even being up 6 lbs from goal so hey...I may just stay here :) I am gonna shoot to lose 2-5 more lbs and see where that puts me and then decide! I took a pic last week and love it!!! if only I would have included my head lmao! I am still struggling slightly with swelling although my "ledge" is almost gone :) hoping the little that is left will still go away b/c when I wake up in the morning I am super flat! I have a strong feeling that working 3rd shift and living on soda doesn't help lol! :)

Well I am just past my 5 month mark!
I wish I could say that I had better news but I seem to be backsliding more than I am moving foward :(
*I have soreness on my MR on and off and it doesn't matter if I workout or not
*I have soreness along my incision....I want to massage it all the time sometimes
*My stomach from BB to incision is still really sore to touch at times!
*Yeasterday morning I got home from work and was relieved to put on my binder....will I ever lose that thing? (I only wear it to sleep)
*Sometimes my incision still feels like it is pulling (swelling maybe?)
*My ledge is gone (for the most part) and now I have budlges over any pants that are even remotely fitting on the sides! (again hoping it's swelling b/c it appeared out of nowwhere this last week or so)

I know that it takes time but I guess I thought at 5 mos I would be farther along than this! On the bright side I am back to gym 100% and loving that! I also have been back on point eating wise for 2 months (except for a minor setback last week) I have lost all but 4 lbs of what I gained in the first 3 mos post op!

I am hoping to get some new pics this week!

Well about 5 1/2 months post op and just posted new pics today! I was really depressed when I took the pics originally but now looking at them side by side I am starting to love them :) I just thought that I would notice more of a change from 12 wks to 5 1/2 mos but I look good and need to realize that! With the weight gain and all the swelling I have lost my confidence and just now starting to get it back! I actually have felt very skinny and hot the last two days :) I am just my own worst critic and like to look for flaws...need to see the good things! :)

Warning...bloggy :) So I have been struggling since about 4 weeks with loving my results! @ first it was swelling, then weight gain (I gained about 12 lbs), and now I am only up about 4 lbs and these last 3 days have been a complete turn around for me...finally!!! I am starting to finally see my confidence coming back and what has been important for me to realize is that I had super high expectations...I wanted perfect and nobody is perfect lol!! I do have a couple small things that I am unhappy with but hopefully they can be fixed with these last 5 lbs gone or slight revisions but yay! I also struggle with the fact that I love what I see in the mirror and not in the camera...naked I hate it and I think it's still more the stretch marks and scars I don't like b/c I love what I see clothed in the camera! Touching on that...I have never minded my stretch marks and still don't along with the scar....they are fine...as long as they aren't nakes in pics :P and I think that's why I have issues lol! These last 5 1/2 months truly has been a mind game and I am so thankful to finally be coming out of it! I just need the swelling to say away and keep me out of this mind game funk! All in all I think my mind set is finally back and I have 5 weeks of nothing planned (special events wise) and gonna kick ass to lose those last 4 or so pounds! and be hot for my 6 mos appt :) thanks for listening!

Well I am at my 6 month mark! I don't have my 6 mos appt for a couple more weeks though as my PS only does f/u appts once a week so not a lot to choose from lol! I am still struggling with my weight and up about 5-7 lbs but all in all I am happy with the way I look so not pushing too much to get back to goal although it is my ultimate choice! I also think that it will help with a couple of my "flaws" that I am not happy with and will discuss with PS in a couple weeks! I think I have a dog ear over one of my hips and not happy with my hips so idk if it's something I have to work off or if I need lipo...guess we will see! All in all I am happy that I did this and no regrets although I can't wait to get back to goal and see if we can tweak these hips :)

Oh and I don't like my slit aka belly button...idk if this is something that I can/want to be fixed I guess it will depend on cost and what it entales!

Well I will be 7 mos next week and man can I say this has been such an emotional roller coaster. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember and it seems like everytime I get close I sabatoge myself :( I am now back up the 13 lbs (goodbye only be 4 lbs from goal) and so frustrated! But I had a hair appt last week and of all people :) she really put things into perspective for me! I have been on this weight loss journey for 6 1/2 years and I can't let 6 mos derail me. I keep thinking that 13 lbs is so "far" from goal but in all reality if I just buck up and stick to the plan (Weight Watchers) I will be there by my one year and summer (if not way before)! I can do this I just need to get my faith in myself back :)
I have my 6 mos f/u with my PS in 1 1/2 wks. I am only up 5 lbs from day of sx and hoping I can get a couple more off in this week :)

So I had my 6 mos (although I am technically 7 mos) check up last week and all went well! I see him again in Feb for 10 months!
I did have a spot that I showed him (posted today) and his response was "You are still a long ways out from a year but if need be it's an easy fix just clip and tuck" so I am guessing he thinks it will flatten by a year....

I have also attached a new pic of my belly button (sorry it's sideways lol!) and I need some advice! I told my PS that I thought my belly button looked weird..."more like a slit than a BB" and he told me "Yeah I could widen it but I wouldn't do it if it were me....I shaped it like all the models now days"
Am I crazy or does my belly button look weird.....opinions please

Also, for anyone who has had a bb revision....did you go under or is it just easy peasy?

Wow I can't believe in about two weeks I will be one year post op! I seems like just last week I was thinking I was never gonna be "normal" again!
Well what can I tell you all.....hmm where to start lol! Well all through my recovery I struggled with eating, depression, and the fact that I couldn't work out. By 3 mos post op I was up about 10-15 lbs. I finally told myself enough was enough and really started watching what I ate again the 1st of the year and am now back at goal (well technically up 3 lbs but it's my new goal lol since I don't have all that extra skin!)
I saw PS about 3 weeks ago and we are doing a revision of my right hip I have a slight dog ear and I am still in "negotiations" with him about my belly button. Idk if I am gonna get it fixed or not...I am not happy with it (it's just a slit...nothing to it) but if I have to go completely under anesthesia again I am not sure it will be worth it! I also and a little sad to say that I still have a small amount of excess skin. It's mostly only noticeable when I sit down and am wearing fitted clothes it kinda poofs out over the top...not much but more than I would like for $7K. PS said it's b/c I still have a ton of strech marks and it's just sadly my skin elasticity :(
I am posting a couple pics I was able to take by myself! I will add actual belly shots in a couple weeks closer to 1 year and when hubby can take them so I can make side by sides!
If I had to do this over again.....yes I would do it! I would also hope that I would
*not be so hard on myself for a couple lb gain (which turned into 10 lbs etc)....
*also it's swelling!! I saw it as fat :( swell hell swell hell swell hell does exist!!

The biggest thing I have come to realize in the past year is no one is perfect! I truly had unrealistic expectations and it took my realizing this for me to truly love myself again :) I mean seriously.....in my mind my new belly was even tan!! I have never been tan lmao! I am as white as can be haha! :)

Ok I think I have rambled enough and hope that I even make sense! I am in the middle of a night shift lol!

I also wanted to add for those who didn't go back and read my "history" I had lipo of the hips, butt, and thighs.
*Legs...I was actually comfortable with my legs for the first time in my life leading up to sx and debated on even getting it but thought "what can it hurt" I know hate my legs again :( They are bigger than ever and idk if I gained there and didn't lose it again, swelling still, or what but :(
*Hips...I don't even notice a difference! I will say that when I gained my weight a lot of it showed up in my flanks (not lipo'd) but dissapeared again as I lost the weight (for the most part)
*Butt...my booty is now very well shaped and although I think it's huge I have gotten tons of comments lol!