Sigh. Ten Years in the Thought Process - New York, NY
- Almost 50 in NYC
- updated 1 year ago
So, ten years in the thought process. 18 years ago...
- 3 Sep 2012
- 2 days pre
So, ten years in the thought process. 18 years ago I lost 85 lbs. I was 30. I took it off within the span of a year. Then started an exercise program on my own in my house and walking outside. At 48 years old I am probably in the best shape of my life. 5'0 tall 120 lbs, lots of muscle. Just some left over "Stuff" that I can't seem to get rid of no matter how I train. Lifting, cardio, running. Crunches. Medicine ball....and of course a decent diet Monday-Friday. My children, 24 and 21 have had their college tuitions paid. Cars purchased. Husband was sent on the trip of a lifetime for his 50 th birthday and a party....so in my head I can now justify the 10,000 + this is going to cost me. Sort of. Full tummy tuck and lipo of the hips, inner and outer thighs and knees. I am a bit of a control freak and move at double speed so I'm in a bit of a panic. I'm struggling with the thought of down time. Not being able to orchestrate everything in the house. My job is a bit hectic but I can work from home part of the time im home and be somewhat sedentary if I need to be when I return 12 days after surgery. Oh the emotions. Frivolous. Vain. Things I could spend this money on instead of something elective. Feelings of Inadequacy that I can't be satisfied with myself. Panic. In a nutshell.
Ok 24 hours post op. no where near as awful as I...
- 7 Sep 2012
- 1 day post
Guess today makes the start of 6 days post op. I'm...
- 12 Sep 2012
- 6 days post