Mixed Emotions - Nova Scotia, NS
Where to start? I am 43, 5’ft 1, 133lbs and a...
Was I was about 26 a doctor that was filling in for mine asked me if I had “ever considered a BR?” I was at first a bit insulted but within seconds got over it quickly to think “I knew it! I knew that I was too big!” She told me that every patient she has ever had that has had one has been thrilled and she had none that have ever “regretted it”. At that time, I knew that I wanted children and was afraid that I may not be able to breast feed so I thought that I would wait. I only weighed about 123 then so I would have been a perfect candidate.
Fast forward 10 years and 2 kids later, I decided to be referred to a PS for a consultation. After 2 years of waiting (long time if you want to be covered by the Provincial plan) I got in. At that time I was 154 (too heavy) but he thought that I would be a great candidate (after examination etc). The PS said he felt that I should just try to lose the 16 lbs (I had to be 138) to qualify as your BMI cannot be more than 27 to be covered. As he put it, “he has a number of women that need to lose 100 pounds to qualify and it would be healthier for me etc., etc. It was all true.
I have hypothyroidism (which I was diagnosed with during the 2 years of waiting) so 16 pounds is like 30 in regards to how fast my body seems to drops weight.
Many things happened in my life that sort of put my “weight loss regime” on hold but last spring I decided “enough is enough” between being overweight (which I was for me) and having a huge chest…I had had enough. I figured that I would lose the weight and if I could get beneath or to 138 that would be a “bonus” in regards to the BR.
I joined the gym in April and by September I was 138. Then I got scared. The “what if’s?” started and I prolonged going into my GP to be weighed (that was the requirement – she would have to weigh me and send my weight back to the PS. Truth is, I lost 21 pounds and did not go down a bra/cup size.
I put it off until March when I went for my annual checkup. I told her that I had lost 21 pounds (which she said she noticed) and that I wanted to be weighed for the PS. She weighed me, sent off the request and that afternoon I had a vmail on my phone from the PS office saying that I had an appt one week from that day! I was in shock.
Went in to see him. He was great. Told me I was a perfect candidate and saw no reason why the provincial plan would not approve me. He sent off the request that day.
Funny, he asked what size I would like to be and said "most women want to be a C". I would not be upset with a B if he can do it. Obviously I just want him to take me down to the safest size he can without compromising blood flow etc. I keep thinking that I will be more upset to have this done and feel I am still too large than I would be to think he made me a little smaller than I had expected. If I get the nerve, I will post pics.
**Note that the cost I have added is an estimate. Since the health plan is covering, I don't know the "actual cost". If I find out..I will update that piece.
5 weeks and I got the call that I had been approved. My surgery was initially supposed to be TODAY but got cancelled and then moved to July 9 and THEN to July 10 which I am told is not going to be cancelled again. NOW I am a wreck. I have never had surgery. I did have two C-Sections but I was awake for those. This morning I felt the anxiety building and I have been flip flopping back and forth with “maybe this isn’t worth it?” “Maybe the recovery will take too long” ETC ETC. Basically trying to talk myself out of it. I don’t want to and I cannot let myself because I know that I will regret not getting it done. I hear from doctor’s and read on this site that no one seems to ever regret it. Even the ones with the “not so perfect” experiences. Just trying to hold it together.
Totally Worth It
I am almost 6 weeks PO and had my 6 week follow up with my PS this morning. I have been cleared now to do everything that lack of pain tells me to. I don't have to see him again for another 3 months just to see how they have shaped etc.
I went bra shopping after I left his office as I have been living in a sports bra since surgery. I have been cleared to wear a regular, no underwire bra. I am a 34B! I tried on the C cup and it when it was too big, I just really could not believe it. I am THRILLED to be a B. The day after my surgery, the PS told me that he thought I would be a small C or a Full B when everything healed. I remember thinking "B is what I am hoping for".
I saw my "before" pics today at his office and just wanted to hug him after that! I cannot believe that I was dragging those things around all these years. He removed 4 pounds (2 each side) during surgery but looking at those pics, I would have thought that he took off more. UG. It reconfirmed to me that I am so glad that I went ahead with the surgery.
I would recommend this surgery to anyone that has every seriously considered it. It is life changing!