This total timeline tornado just hit me today. I...
This total timeline tornado just hit me today. I have been a closet "Real Self" reader and I see how much it's helping me so I wanted to pay it forward. So here it goes....
I have been denied in the past for a breast reduction. It was discouraging but I never really minded my big girls. They went with the rest of me....curvy. Things changed somewhere between age 29 and 36 and the timeline tornado began to whirl. This year, thanks to technology I feel like my eyes opened and I suddenly saw my boobs as everyone else has seen them for years...MASSIVE. (We now have video conferences for meetings and good Lord were my girls huge.) "is that me, are they really that huge", I asked. My boss (she is awesome) responds "uhm yes, they are and yes it is you".
That's it!!!! I decided to go see the ps and get the ball rolling. It took me three months to collect all the letters from my various docs ( gyn, physical therapist and pcp). All of the form were submitted the week of Christmas, approval came this past week on Friday Jan 17th and my surgery is set for Feb 3. Apparently there was a cancellation at the OR and they can get me in NEXT WEEK!!!!! I have been waiting (I think) for this for years and here I am...reading all of your posts, biting my nails and making a to do list. Wait slow down I'm not in Kansas. And ToTo too?!
I am a 38K heading down to the D territory. Didn't think measurements went that high did ya ... but you girls know better than that!
Posting a before pic while thinking now how I need to get more focused on my weight loss goals. Before this planned reduction, my girls bypassed my tummy and (like I have seen some of you write) when I wake up I will see my belly button but not because I and smaller because my tummy is bigger. YIKES! How long before I can get back to working out. Lol
Pre-Op Call Today .. 6 days pre
So today I received the call from the hospital. They asked me all of these questions to which I had to laugh. Do you get motion sickness, can you open your mouth wide, do you take aspirin.... All I am thinking is am I going to an amusement park or to have surgery. Open my mouth what the heck am I screaming !?? I then thought maybe it's for the breathing tube but ya think they would say why they are asking. Anyway I'm 6 days pre and have loads of laundry an empty fridge messy house and a host of friends offering to help me after the surgery. I'm thinking any takers wanting to help me get my house in order before d day???
Not to mention I just spent three hours helping my daughter fill out a application for a summer leader program. How did any of you single mommies make time for all the prep work and families too?!
Getting excited but in denial about it being right around the corner. No time to worry too much to do!
Well it's 36 hours pre
Well it's 36 hours pre and I have no feeling. I got my mile long to do list done and now I am just finishing up paper work and tidying my house. I am not sure how or what I am supposed to feel. No nerves, no jitters. It's almost like its a normal Monday for me.
Had an awesome TaTa Bon voyage dinner with my girls yesterday. It was Amazing being surrounded in joy and warm wishes.
Anyone else have no feeling so close to the day of their surgery?!
This is the last time I (fill in blank) with big boobies
3 Feb 2014
Day of treatment
Good morning boosem buddies. All day and night I have been saying... This is the last time I brush my teeth with big boobs or can't sleep on my tummy or wear a $100 bra because no other bra fits me.
Heading to hospital. Have to be there by 9. Still not nervous just excited. Thanks to all of you for kind words and helpful hints. I'm having mom take pics so I have lots to share when I get home tomorrow.
Whooot whoot and a yahooooo for me.... Let's do this!
Did you say NINE POUNDS
So it's post op day one. I have so much to share. Where to begin. Overall everything went smoothly. Surgery took just under 6 hours. My ps said she removed a total of nine pounds. Uhmm that is a full term newborn I was carrying around in my boobs.
Pain level- on a scale of 1 to 10 I have been comfortably sitting at a 4. Maybe once or twice did I hit a 8 but that was in the recovery room.
Size - all I can say is that they are so round and tight my nurse this morning asked me if I got implants... They look that good.... I asked myself!?!?
Appetite- it comes and goes. I have only been able to swallow applesauce and pudding, mainly because the cold feels great on my throat. Thanks to all for telling me to prepare for the sore throat. I took some hard candies with me!!!
Meds- ps prescribed percocets. Made me sick at first but much better now. While the directions say take two I have been able to maintain a pain tolerance with just one.
Stinging - yes there is a stinging slash burning sensation on the sides but not unbearable. Ice packs are helping. I think it's my skin stretching and healing.
Sleepy- yep that too mainly from meds but I had thee worse roommate ever. She had the tv blaring all night, called the nurse at least 40 times from midnight to 6 and whined allll nightttt longggg. I asked to go home early because if I didn't I surely would have made a scene
Now that I'm home- loving my comfy chair been napping off and on and I am so grateful for all the love I have been giving. Thanks to my girls,boss and family!!
I will post better pics in the morn when I change my bandages. Here is one showing the same measurement 56 inches
Feeling Human Again
Last night was my first night at home. I was a little nervous but it went smoothly. I took one and a half percocets at 9 then one more after midnight. It was a restful night, some pain, still stinging and burning. I can tell that I'm swollen but every day it's gets better.
Few more revaluations:
Headaches - yikes they are excruciating. Only on one side if my head...odd
Cough- my mom kept telling me that i needed to cough up the junk that accrued in my chest. I had no idea what she mean until this morning. Uhm yuck and ouch.
Comfy chair - still so thankful for buying this chair five years ago .lol. It's the only way I can sleep and move around.
Drains - I didn't get drains but had some light draining on my right side. Mom helped me change my dressings this morning. I washed up in the sink and feel sorta clean. 7 days and I can get a real shower.
Nipple graft- so far keeping them dry and counting down till I can see them!!
Talk more later.
No more prescription meds
Home now for three days and I am off my prescribed meds. I have so much more range of motion in my arms. The pain is minimal and bearable. For the past few days I had the most painful migraines to which I fought this morning with a large iced coffee... Surprisingly it worked the pain faded and I can finally lift my head off the pillow and take off these shades. Lol
My left boob has no more drainage in the bandages and the right is slim to none. I do feel these weird zinger type pains that shoot around my boobs and around the incisions. They are painful but pass quickly. It kinda feels like and electric shock or someone twisting your nipple or boob then letting go.
I have switched from ice packs to heating compresses they give me lots of relief. The microwave ones are awesome...aroma and warmth all in one!!!
Sitting home is making me a little cabin feverish. If I see one more commercial about becoming a medical assistant or one more attorney asking if I had an accident from a slip and fall...I'm sure I will scream. Lol. Thank you Lord for allowing me to be employed because..(fill in blank)
Who is this person staring at me.....
So for the last week I have been walking past the mirror looking, turning, looking harder, sucking it in, looking again, poking out my chest looking some more. I have no idea who the person is looking back at me. I have wanted this for so long I didn't know that it came with a total identity transformation. I actually hate my body now. I am more determined than ever to lose weight and get fit. I don't want to be a model but I also don't want to look like I am five months pregnant now that my boobs are flatter.
My incisions are still healing and some light drainage. I know I overdid it the past two days because I had a bit more in my bandages. I made myself sit and rest and stop trying to be superwoman. I have two more weeks before I go back to work so I plan to make the most of it and rest up.
Tuesday I get my nipple bandages off and my check up. Looking forward to TAKING A REAL SHOWER AND WASHING MY HAIR when these nip whips come off.
Yeah ... Shower here I come
Today I had my post op appt. I was so happy to see my doc and she was happy to see me. I told her how the nurse thought I got implants. She laughed and was happy with her awesome work. I told her how pleased I was overall. She removed the little "whipped cream" looking things covering my nipples. I was so nervous I was thinking of all kinds of painful things to come...from her removing the stitches to having to use alcohol to freshly clean the wounds. It was a breeze. She was gentle and gave the shower go ahead. The incisions look great and the stitches are dissolvable (huge sigh of relief). My nipples are completely black and she said they will shed that layer and the new layer will come in lighter or darker depending on how I scar.
After seeing so many of you women who were as large as I was I wondered why I needed the graft...just hoping my color and some sensation comes back!! I feel something just not sure which is real and which is not.
I can't tell you how great this site has been for me and how awesome you all have been. A huge thank you to you all. Will take a new pic tomorrow to show the scary nipples!
Okay so what's this feeling
So heading into week three. I have the weirdest pains not quite
Zingers but feels like chills just in my boobs but I'm not cold. I have this weird pain where my bra used to stick me. I'm wondering if I got bruised badly during surgery because I can barely sit without feeling this nudging pain. Weird. Lastly I have horrid stomach issues. Like in full and swollen but didn't eat. Guess it's a good thing. Will escalate to my primary if it continues past next week. Anyway feeling way better as time progresses. Getting used it my body. Coloring my hair, loosing these grays and still watching what I eat. Will be ready for the gym very soon. This gradualweightloss is making me eager to do more!!! Next up new bra!!! Have to post pics but nervous. It's not pretty. Lol. Will do soon
Ugh. Some healing still to do
So it's been a few weeks, I'm back to work and happily getting my life back to something like normal. I am having some light oozing from small areas. It frustrating but doc says it's okay. The part that's frustrating is that the friggin gauze sticks and peeling it off is painful and causes the wound to open and re-heal. Ugh. Not trying to rush but just hate the morning bandage routine.
Anyone else have/had small areas of open wound and can relate?
I figured I would thank you all for the awesome feedback and comments in a post. After reading a few of your posts I felt so much better about my healing and minor setbacks. I told a friend today that if it were not for this blog and you awesome ladies I would have called my doctor at least 75 times, finished my 30 percocets by day seven and cried 90% of the time I was out healing. So THANK YOU!!!!!
At my last visit my ps said to use Vaseline in between the antibiotic ointment. She said over time some people get a rash when constantly using ointment. The Vaseline is helping with the dryness, chafing and forces me to massage my bubbies and nippies daily -and its more for less!!!
Some of my nipple color is already coming back. I was excited to see it happen already. The raised part of my nipple....you know that small round part that milk would come out of .... It hasn't yet shed the skin layer from the graft , so just adding more ointment and moisture there.
She said I can get back to gym for low intensity work out which means treadmill and elliptical. So excited.
Will post some pics in a day or so.
Today I am walking around without any dressing or bra on. I feel like my girls just want to air out.
Yesterday I spent forty....yes forty dollars on bandages that will likely last me a week and a half. So today I am letting them loose and to dry and heal without being smothered. Lol
Here are a few pics.