Nervous but Need a TT Plus Lipo - 27 year old - New York, NY

Hi...I'm a 27 year old who has went from 170 lbs to 265 lbs back down to now a pretty solid 190 lbs...I have been on a few consultations about the excess skin that I know only a TT would be able to take care of and am just so nervous about anesthesia...the prices definitely aren't helping either but I'd be ok with financing it as long as i live to tell about it...i really feel i deserve to reap the benefits of my hard work (i've worked out like crazy and ate healthy to get to where i am today) and i should do so while i'm young...it sounds crazy but i don't make much money right now cause i can't find work but it seems like now is the perfect time to do so because i am in a place i want to be weight wise and i would have the time to recover until i found a more steady job...i'm already in debt so i figure why not just get in a little more so at least i can enjoy my debt with a flat stomach hahaha...i've never been comfortable going to the beach or taking my shirt off in front of people (not even in relationships) and it's just annoying...I've been getting quotes for full TT's but I just recently inquired about getting a TT (and some lipo of my chest) WITHOUT getting my abs repaired on the inside...i've read that most guys don't need it and a doctor already said it would definitely bring down the price (i'm waiting on a quote from one office now)...I'm really looking to spend around $10k max for both surgeries combined...someone convince me i'm not gonna die from the anesthesia!!! thanks for listening...its kind of weird i've never written about this stuff before tonight

So I officially scheduled the surgery for November 1st. I am getting a "smooth tuck" (no ab work) and lipo of my chest/flanks. I'm really really really nervous but also excited to finally be able to go to the beach and not just make up some stupid excuse about not liking sand or the hot weather...i just want to swim with my friends and be able to do anything (sexual) as well and not have to worry about my stomach/chest showing...i don't think i'm going to post before/after pics cause i'm just the most shallow human on the planet i suppose but we'll see what happens...my main concerns are:

1. living through the anesthesia
2. not dying from blood clots afterwards or other post-surgery complications
3. getting back to work (a desk job where I sit for 8 hours a day) within a week like my doctor said because its only an operation to the skin and fat...I'm going in for surgery on a thursday, get drains out on a tuesday, and he said I should be able to sit there at the desk on wednesday but I will def still be in pain (pain I can deal with...death i cannot)


Thanks for any support everyone!

Thanks a lot for everything kimmers, you're a great person! I keep going back and forth with regretting my decision and then telling myself I deserve it...and I'm not sure if I'm more nervous about the anesthesia (and actually waking up) or the recovery...I guess there's not much more I can do but pray now.

Anyone have any suggestions for best preparing my body and mind 6 days out? I wish I could take off from work for a month but the 7 days are going to have to suffice. I just have to try to stay as least stressed as possible at work a few days before and for a few days afterwards...I can't wait til I wake up from the surgery and breathe my first with of relief towards a more enjoyable life for me.

Thanks for anyone's prayers.