3 Weeks update. Kenalog. - New York, NY
Wow, I cannot believe I'm actually doing this! I'm...
Wow! I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm having my rhinoplasty
surgery in 5 days! I've wanted to improve the appearance of my nose for a
very long time, but never did I think it would happen under such odd
circumstances. To make a long story short, I booked a date with the
surgeon I liked in the beginning of April, just in case, because he was
booked until July at the time. His office then called me with a
cancellation in May, and I told the receptionist I'll take the date. I
was not fully committed to the procedure, so I never called back with my
credit card information to make a deposit, and, as life got in the way,
forgot all about it. So, imagine my surprise when I opened an envelope
with prescriptions and pre-op instructions 4 days ago!
I had to
make a decision quickly, and decided to go through with the procedure
sooner than later. Honestly, a part of this decision was out of
convenience - the surgeon's office was close to home, I had the date and
wouldn't have to wait until August, keeping my life on hold (I'm
planning to start a family soon!). It helped that the current surgical
date happened to be at the very beginning of my two week vacation. Most
importantly, I had a heart to heart with an office insider (who happened
to be a family member through marriage! *another surprise!* ), who
reassured me that my surgeon is a talented and seasoned professional
with very good results.
However, ever since making the decision
to go through with rhinoplasty, I have been on an emotional roller
coaster. Imagine trying to cram months of research into one week's time!
For the past four days, I have been googling: what I'd want my "ideal"
nose to look like, open vs. closed approaches, graft options, anesthesia
complications, as well as stalking and tracking down every person who
has ever reviewed my surgeon and probably annoying the hell out of my
extremely kind "insider" with incessant questions.
One minute, I
am constructing a living will in my head; another, I am picturing a
whole life span with my new nose. One minute, I am picturing quizzing my
surgeon on what we agreed on before anesthesia puts me under; another -
I am envisioning taking the cast off and seeing a positive result. One
minute, I am terrified that maybe I've made a mistake in the person I
chose; another - I am reminded of multiple successful cases like mine in
his practice. One minute, my stomach is churning with anxiety, another -
with elation. I have experienced joy, fear, hesitation, sadness, hope,
serenity, curiosity, frustration, gratitude, amusement, and that's the
short list.
Five days. I really can't believe I'm doing this! :D I
am going in for my physical, labs, and final consultation tomorrow. And
then... the waiting game begins. Any last words of advice???
PRE-OP DAY!
My first and only consultation with my surgeon was a month ago, and I knew little about what I wanted then. I was really just scoping the waters out for a procedure I may or may not ever get. Our first consultation went well, and although I booked the surgery the following day, I remember feeling like I didn't get a good sense of exactly the type of nose I would end up with. For those of you going in for a consultation for the first time - be prepared! My confidence and my ability to speak "the same language" with my doctor improved significantly after I'd done my homework.
Today being my second consultation AND pre-op appointment, I desperately wanted to feel reassurance, confidence and understanding from my surgeon. Luckily, what I got - was beyond what I was hoping for! I showed him the pictures I brought in from my "research", and he pointed out the ones he thought would fit my face well. He was calm, confident, and explained intricate details of my procedure that I was interested in without pretense or trying to convince me. We discussed the difficulty of the operation because of the amount of tip cartilage I was (not blessed) with, and the steps he would take to ensure a favorable result. At the end of our appointment, I wanted to hug him. I was so nervous coming in, really unsure of whether I was making the right decision, unsure of whether I should have consulted with more doctors (I consulted with 3), and unsure of what I wanted. When we parted, I felt a giant sense of relief. It was a big and exuberant feeling of "Wow! This is my guy! I really really trust him!"
I made my full payment, received a generous gift bag with many great skin products, and left the office feeling light, happy, and SURE of my decision. I still had a whole day ahead of me, so I decided to go shopping for post-op necessities. I know I probably went a little overboard, but I got:
-2 packs of arnica montana 6c tabs
-Super Bromelain Capsules
-Chewable Vitamin C tablets
-Arnica gel
-ACT dry mouth lozenges
-OraMoist time released patches for dry mouth
-Biotene spray
-A gel cold pack
-Kiehl's lip balm
I also filled my prescriptions of antibiotics, anti-nausea medication (Zofran), and pain-reliever (Percocet). I was so excited about my purchases and a close possibility of a prettier nose, I nearly skipped home. Today was a 180 of how I was feeling yesterday. No more doubts, fear, and frustrations. No more roller coaster. Just elation, joy, and gratitude.
I will post my before pictures soon, but for now, I'm posting my nose inspiration.
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My BEFORE Pictures
1) My nose has a life of its own. What I mean by this is - one day it can be big, one day it can be huge, another day it seems as if an extra bulbous hump has appeared out of nowhere and put itself in the spotlit. Still, other days, it looks normal, fitting, comfortable, even (dare I say this?) cute in it's imperfection. The bottom line is: my nose can appear quite ugly at times, but it is not.
2) I was embarrassed browsing through my pictures. I tried finding ones that best showcased unattractive angles, and realized just how many of these I have. I also realized how many of these are "outtakes" that never made it onto my social pages. I felt ashamed that I have created an image of myself on sites like Facebook and Instagram, composed of carefully hand-picked photos that do not match everyday reality.
3) Of course, my nose is far from perfect, but it never stopped me from enjoying life, achieving goals, getting ahead, making friends, feeling attractive, or being loved by others. My nose never defined me. Sure, I always wished I could look good with an up-do, not hide the candids people took of me at parties, and other silly things, but they are trivial, to say the least.
And so, with that, I present you with my "before" photos. The ones from my consultation are the most realistic views of my nose. However, I also uploaded two at extremely unflattering angles for a dramatic effect.
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