Fat Transfer - 10 Months out - New York, NY

My results are mixed, but keep in mind I am very, very picky. When I look around here I have to say that I faired very well, which makes me sad to say because I really feel terrible about others who now don't want to show their face.

I had fat transfer done ~10 months ago. Age/sex is late 20-something year old male. I mainly wanted to restore the 'baby fat' of my mid face, as well as make my under-eye area look rested, full, and healthy. I had a good face to start with, one that people would guess as being early 20s, but I myself could see changes I wasn't comfortable with. Mainly that if I was at my target weight then my mid face looked too thin, and if I was at a higher weight then my jaw/neck looked too undefined. I needed a method of selective volume.

I found a surgeon in NYC after much research and I liked his method. Many doctors say that proprietary methods are silly and never better, but I liked his, it was elegant, based on real R&D, and was designed to require nearly no over-filling, due to a higher predicted survival rate. For me the procedure and recovery were a walk in the park.. within 3 days I looked normal enough to be out and about, no one seemed to notice, not even people who knew me. I think it helps when you are younger, because the added volume doesn't look to striking, it blends in better because I had more to start with. I looked maybe a little odd, swelling caused a complete absence of nasal labialfolds for example, and my cheeks/under eye area looked tightly full.. Otherwise I managed to escape most all bruising, I'll never know if it was the Arnicare they had me take orally 3 days before and a week after, plus using it topically.. but in any case I faired very well. For those first three days I did almost nothing but rest, keeping ice packs sometimes gently on my face where it felt the most tight. I drank a lot of water, and was good about the anti-biotics they had me get. (getting those 3 hours after the procedure was really the most hard/embarrassing part of the whole thing!)

For awhile I was very pleased. He put the fat just where it needed the volume (he had a younger picture of me for reference) and his own work was as good as a doctor can do really, or so I feel.

At 3 weeks out I looked best, swelling was gone, and I looked like I was 16 years old. After that it starts to get disconcerting, as if it wasn't so enough after a sharp change in looking better, which is not natural to this level, you now get to see it continue to change in a direction that is less pleasing for 3 - 6 months.. Every day I'd look in the mirror first thing, trying to gauge the changes, if any.. it isn't a healthy thing I know, but I was a little paranoid since I knew to expect some to go away, yet no idea how much would. 3 months out it was clearly still of help, but had decreased a bit in areas. During this time I had also noticed that under my left eye there was one hard cyst, you could feel but not see it. Under the right-eye, where my cheek bone was lower (asymmetrical to my left-side) and had been built up a bit with more fat, I could feel 3 hard, small cysts, again not visible. (All around the size of a small to medium caper.) In all cases they are right along the very rim of the sub-orbital bone. They are beyond where he put any fat, which means they are really bits that made it past his attempted boundary, or they merely migrated. The body, especially under the eye, will sometimes deal with these by encapsulating them, thereby becoming a harder scar tissue. This bothered me of course, but I knew there was hope of them going away, I read that you can sometimes crush them too. I managed to succeed at this with the single one under the left eye, and it became nearly undetectable. If I really hunt for it I can feel something very flat but firmer, sitting on the bone..

8- months out, I've had my ups and downs, days where I was down and felt like a bit too much of the fat had gone away, but I also had to remind myself that I've gotten used to my fuller face, that my standard has changed and that it is hard to remember exactly what volume had been like pre-op in each area. Pictures are difficult, I think it is why many don't post pictures here for this. The reason is you can, with zero changes to your face, in the same 5min span, take pictures that make you look wonderful, and others that look terrible, without changing lighting or anything more than changing your mental attitude, and the angle of your face to the light and the camera.. it is all very subjective and extremely hard to make fair comparisons unless in a very scientific controlled manner take proper before pictures, and do the same for after.. Even doctors fail at this often though, I've seen many where the lighting and other aspects had changed. I myself have not posted pictures because I won't risk people I know finding them, I am prominent enough that it is a risk.

I think the worse part from 6-months on is that I started to know that now as I see the final result and have mapped it all out in my head, that I can see how it could use a touch-up here or there. Things others do not likely see, but I do. The fat survival was not completely even, a couple of the cysts can slightly be seen, not by height, rather by it appearing somewhat more white in those spots. This is due to having more buffer between the skin and the muscle.

I think overall it looks good, and the few people I told are the ones I know would tell me if it looked worse now. They genuinely can say that I do not look worse in any way, and believe that I look a bit better, but that it is subtle to them.

My fears now are long term, due to things I have read, I am wondering if this fat could behave in a strange manner as I get older and lose fat in my face.. The doctor claims it is no different than any other fat in the face, but I am not convinced. For example, if someone is doing a graft to compensate for a malar fat pad (either due to atrophy or position) then how can it be expected that micro-pearls of fat are going to act normally with muscle movement as an original fat pad, which is solid and attached with ligaments and such? It seems logical that the behavior would be very different. I think using fat grafts for certain areas, when well thought in a way that it won't bunch up or interfere with muscle moment, or cause the skin to have an 'Orange-peel' texture is OK. But I don't see how it could behave and compliment the major fat pads in a natural way.. I wish I could get a doctor to talk with me about things like this, but they never seem to have interest in talking to a patient about the really granular details and hard to answer questions.

Final thoughts:

There is no doubt, after all my research that fat transfer is unpredictable. It is the nature of it, I can't say still if it should be reserved for those who need it most, or not done at all until it can be improved.. Partly because sometimes the ones who need it most are the ones who it is least likely to take well, and blend in with existing soft tissues to look natural.. In theory It is a fantastic answer to volume replacement, my main reason I did it was because synthetics of all kinds, any of the typical 6-month fillers were just not at all appealing. The cost in the long run with those is incredible for the amount of volume you get, especially in the US, and they don't feel natural under the skin. In the end I still don't hate or love it, I think it, like most medical practice is still very crude, despite how intelligent and technical the science of it seems, the actual work is a gamble every time. It is not possible, no matter how skilled, for any surgeon to predict what your body will do with a graft like this. There are too many variables, there are different types of fat, there are different degrees of bleeding and other fluids between people that will mix with it, and so on.

Feel free to ask me questions. I will ignore the really bitter people who seem to get mad at anyone who didn't have a terrible experience.. I understand that you are upset, but you have to realize, even though it makes it harder for you to bear that something that ruined your face can in fact work wonderfully on someone else.