The Next Chapter - Las Cruces, NM

By the time I have my Extended TT, BL/BA, I will be 44. This is my birthday present to myself (bday is July 7). I am 5'7" and weigh between 165-170, depending on what day it is. I have had 2 csections and I had Gastric Bypass in 2007, before the bypass I topped 300 pounds. Having the bypass was a wonderful decision. I have done well using my tool, but my tummy is a constant reminder of the major damage I did to my body, for years and years. I feel so good about the weight loss and then when I look in the mirror, or even just look down in my clothes, it is depressing. I am so blessed to be able to have this opportunity. I can't wait to have the pouch gone. It is funny, because people have told me how good I look after the weight loss (and I am very grateful that I have lost the weight and I am sooooo much healthier), but I tell them that they don't see or know the naked truth. They are not there when I have cried myself to sleep over this, or felt that I would never want to be naked in front of anyone, or hid so that people wouldn't see me. I know that a having these procedures will not solve any of my problems, but I will feel better about myself. As a matter of fact, I already feel better about myself since I am writing another chapter in my self improvement journey.

I have been an emotional roller coaster......total excitement one minute and then scared the next. I had preop today and that calmed me a great deal. I am ready!!! It will be here next Tuesday and I can hardly believe it. I have been looking forward to this for a very long time and thought I would never be able to have it done. Well, this opportunity is such a huge blessing. I want the days to fly by!! I can't wait to not have a big apron hanging there all the time.

I have gained so much knowledge and comfort reading many of the reviews, posts and questions here. Thank you to all that post!!!! Reading about the various procedures and experiences has been wonderful...priceless.