Research & surgery planning has come to a hiatus!

Unfortunately after planning & gaining weight I am now stuck between getting the sx or getting a car.... My car runs fine but my bfs doesn't so I would get a new one and he would get mine, which I do want a new car. He said I deserve to get the sx and doesn't care what I choose. But until I figure out exactly what I should do with this money then I'm not doing anything! It's so horrible because car shopping is a pain in the ass!!!!! I hate it! And I'm done shopping for the
Sx I know I want yily I had a plan as far as money and traveling went. Not to mention yily told me to gain 8 lbs and I already gained 5 so now I feel like a super tubby and have to work out extra hard to try to look like SOMETHING by summer. I'm not ever going to look "bbl fabulous" but I don't want to look like Shamoo this summer. *sigh* why can't I be rich. Lol

I just weighed myself I'm 141.9 .. So basically 142.. But it's the middle of the day and Iva had about 3 donuts from Dunkin already today, a few choc covered strawberries, all kinds of crap who knows I'm probably less than that in the AM. But it's good because the last I checked I was about 138. All I'm doing is NOT watching what I eat! I have to say, I feel discusting !! My goal weight is 145 by my sx in May so i need to sloooooow down. I feel like a fat heffer lol. Anyways. Just wanted to update ! :)

Ladies I can't stop thinking About this surgery. I think about it from day to night. I'm almost obsessed over it. Idk what's wrong with me !
Now for the past 2 days I can't stop thinking negative thoughts.
I really don't think I have enough fat !! And the other thing is money is going to be SO tight... I can do it but its seriously so tight. I want to get the insurance but I want to save $250 too! It cn go towards my stay at the RH or some massages! Ughhhh help me ladies :( how much extra after the 3000 for sx should I generally have ? Bc I have that but I'm worried Abt all the extras
Costs!