I'm 41!! Two Beautiful Kids, Married Almost 10yrs and It's Time to Put Myself First. - Murfreesboro, TN

I have struggled with my weight since age 13. I have two beautiful younger sisters and we grew up eating the same foods and playing the same sports. Yep, I was the heavy one. At age 18, I was my heaviest 265. Not cool for a Sr. in HS. From 10th grade on, this was the most horrible time for me. At age 20, I began to binge and purge as it was "the thing" to do in college. It never helped my weight but I had CONTROL over my life for the first time. Really? No. I started taking every diet pill, drinking and smoking cigs to stop the hunger. In 1997 I started Phen/Fen and it worked, got down to 140lbs...ended up in the hospital within 8 weeks with all kinds of problems. My weight came back, started purging again and just delt with life. Needless to say...at age 41 I still have stress, weight problems and am ready to put myself first. No problems with purging, no pills, no drinking and no smoking..yuck! I have been researching Sleeve surgery for the past few monthls and have met the best Dr. My insurance will not cover the surgery and I will be paying back my parents for the next 200 years. :) I am so excited to start the next step of my life and see the positive changes. I know this will not fix my marital stress, my emotional stress and make me perfect. However...it's the first step to start loving myself and start letting other's in to allow them to love me. Dr. Westmoreland, Murfreesboro,Tn said this in the seminar..."I can fix you physically with surgery but God will be the one to heal you Spiritually".

Hey y'all..quick update. Still dealing with the cravings and my son's 6th bday is this weekend, which means party foods. Oh my! I have started this week by doing my best to go total protein liquid and lean meats before the weekend. Yep, getting the headaches and wee bit grumpy. This will pass I know but geeze Louise...it's surely not fun. We will all struggle in different ways and I wish y'all the best for the rest of the week and weekend. Cheers!!

The best part of joining this site is reading all the comments, suggestions and praise for all of us getting ready for the surgery, post surgery and in thought about it. We are not alone y'all. Have a wonderful weekend. Cheers!