Distressed

I had a mommy makeover over a year ago. To be honest I gained about 8 lbs. since. I was to have a “scar” revision if I lost some weight for optimal results. The more I look in the mirror the more disappointed I become. This should not have happened. My belly is smaller yes, but certainly not near what it should have been. I did have a lot of complications and since “healed”. I blamed a lot of how I look on my weight at the time of the surgery. Yet I have seen women here on RealSelf substantially heavier than I was with beautiful results flat clean stomachs and I do not understand why I look the way I do. I am very disappointed and saddened that all that money spent and I look like I do. As for my breasts I do need the scar revision but my right breast is completely different feeling when I lay down. I have thick scarring inside the breast which makes it flattened out irregularly? I’m not sure how to explain it. I’m writing just to vent. I just hope the surgeon will continue to give me time to lose the weight and correct my surgery when I do. Honestly I don’t think he should even charge me for using his facility. I am just sad and disgusted after everything I’ve been through.