Anxious, Excited, Nervous...aaahhhh! - Philadelphia, PA

I am 45 this year! Happy birthday to me! I have been married to the same lovely, thoughtful man for 21 years. We have known each other since we were 9...Soulmates in every sense... We have three great kids (16, 13, 9). I breast fed all three for a total of about 5 years. So needless to say, my girls looked like utters. They hung down to what used to be my waist...... We went toVegas for vacay a couple years ago and bought a dress in a shop. They designer took a liking to me, and asked me to do a billboard shoot. ME! Just a plain old mom! Anyway I dieted and worked out, and looked to be what I thought was great for me. No matter what I did, I couldn't get rid of the wrinkly skin in my belly or the saggy baggy girls(rocks in socks). The photos looked great ( photoshop is a wonderful thing)! Anyway, started thinking about what I used to look like, and what I could look like... I went on a dr hunt... Met a couple, and didn't really think it would actually happen. A friend who is a nurse told me about this doc. We went to see him, and it all fell into place. I poured over tons of pics. Hubby said he never looked at so many boobs before. I didn't want to be any bigger, just have them up to where they were before I had kids. I was always about 34-36b/c. I had a meltdown while the doc wasmarking me up, but went through with it. It turned out great! The pain was much less than I anticipated! I had a lift and aug, with silicone under the muscle. Everything dropped into place and was moving along... Fast forward 6 months, and doc wasn't totally happy withhowmuch they dropped in only 6 months. He saidheunderestimatedhow elastic,y skin was and wanted to go back in and redo the lift. Since HE wasnt happy, he would not chargemeforhis time, anesthesia and OR time. They are still so much better than what they used to be, but hubby suggested that if he wants to go back in, let's do it now while he is willing. If we wait longer, then he might not be willing, and in a couple years it might be worse and I will REALLY want it done... Ok, so while I am in there, maybe now is the time to do the TT that I have been talking about for years.... I am all set for 2/15. Surgery is at 1:00. He does facelifts in the morning. Since I am staying over the first night, they tend to do those surgeries later, grrrrr! So no eating after midnight the night before, valentines day... And no coffee in the morning!Aaahhhhh! I get up at 6 with the kids... No food or drink until surgey at 1! Ok so stressing about that.... The pain was so manageable (I think I have a pretty high tolerance for pain, had all thre kids natural and no drugs, not by choice, just worked out that way....) that I a worried that I am underestimating it.... Hubby is looking forward to takingcareof me. He likes when Im on valium, says Im much calmer and sweeter, haha! I have some before and after pics of the first time, will try to figure out how to upload, so NOT techy... Also, will do beforesof the tummy...