Full TT, BL, BA, Lipo of inner thighs and flanks in 8 hours and counting!
- Lovely Lizzie
- updated 1 year ago
I dont know what to say. This decision is so major...
- 14 Jan 2012
- 2 months pre
I dont know what to say. This decision is so major and huge and exciting and scary. I know so many people think that its unnecessary to spend this amount of money for ultimately selfish reasons...but i have to have this done. I just have to.
I am a 32 year old mother of two(5 and 8) and i have been married to by hubby for over 10 years!:) When my son was born he weighed 12 pounds. Yes, 12. He was HUGE! :)Naturally that pregnancy made its mark on me. However, to place the blame for my body and its shape completely on my pregnancies is unfair. I have never had a hot body. I was always a pretty face on a less than pretty body.
I have struggled with my weight for my entire life. Even before my first baby i had the pooch around the middle. So, while some women may be having this surgery to return their bodies to what they used to be, i am walking into unknown waters. I have never been without the flabby tummy. I cant even imagine what it will be like, what I will be like. Words cant explain how thrilled i am about my approaching transformation!
I am having the works/a FULL mommy makeover with TT, Lipo, BL and BA. I am also a type 1 diabetic. I was diagnosed at 13 so i have been living with it for 19 years. I know that my glucose has to be in amazing control but i am ready for that. I am ready to do anything i have to do to achieve my goal. I now would consider myself an athlete and i go to the gym 5-6 times a week.
I am 5'9" and currently weigh 191 pounds (down from 220). I will get down into the 170's by my surgery date. I am VERY stubborn and so i know i will get to where i want to be by the end of March. This choice to have such a major procedure done has empowered me more than i could have imagined and i am ready for all that is in store. I am eternally grateful to all who post here, as it has helped guide me in my own decision to have this done. You are all amazing, and i am honored to be a part of this tribe of women who are taking control of their lives and themselves. I appreciate any advice that anyone is willing to give me. I will post before pictures very soon. Good luck and fast healing to everyone out there who are already on the road to recovery!
Its so hard to wait, but i am glad to have time to...
- 19 Jan 2012
- 2 months pre
I am going in to pay the full amount of my surgery on Monday i hope. I need to lock it in the make it real, you know?
I am still trying to decide how big to go on top. I am a runner and i love dancing and playing with my kids so i dont want my boobs knocking me out during workouts or anything. I guess the reaction i want is "Nice rack!" Im 5'9". Any thoughts? I was leaning towards a D...or DD? :)?
I am now officially $16,000 poorer (ouch!), but...
- 25 Jan 2012
- 2 months pre
I feel kind of stupid because even though my date is two months away, it's all i can talk about. Every free moment is spent writing questions to ask my Dr, making shopping lists for before surgery, looking online at before and after pictures (man i have seen a lot of tummies and boobies lately)Its all i want to do.
I try to picture what i will look like but i think i have decided to try and stop doing that. There is no way to imagine the end results. All i can do is keep on my weight loss journey and focus on my goal of 170 by my surgery date. I have lost 16 pounds in two months so i have faith i can get to that goal (or at least close to it) in time. I am now 188.
I just want to eat clean, workout and make myself stronger, and keep my mind calm and focused. That is my hope these last few weeks.
I still am not sure how big to go with the BA, and i am now trying to figure out what to tell my extremely perceptive 7 and 5 year old about why mommy had surgery and cant do anything for a few days. Any thoughts?
Anyhoo...excited but trying to still live in the moment. I want to get my before pictures up here asap. Im sure you are all just dying to see them ;)
Love to you all! Now i must get back to watching a biggest loser marathon. Im hooked!
Is it March 26th yet?....No?....Damn.....
- 26 Jan 2012
- 2 months pre
So i've had my first dream about my surgery. In my...
- 31 Jan 2012
- 2 months pre
I cant wait to see what else my subconscious comes up with over the next few weeks! Stay tuned...
On a more serious note, while brushing my teeth today i had the moment that i have been waiting to have since i booked my MM. The "what if i die on the table and leave my family wifeless and motherless?!" moment. It honestly hadnt occured to me until today. I know that it is HIGHLY unlikely but still i love life and my family too much to not think about it, you know?
And then when i was in the gym, feeling strong and athletic and full of energy i realized that i am willingly cutting myself into pieces and taking myself out of the game for several weeks. And thats really hard. i love working out. It's like my therapy. I need to sweat out the crazy, you know? I know that it is all for the greater good, and that once on the other end of this that i will never regret this choice. But i have to deal with these fears now so i can be prepared. or at least sort of prepared.
But there's nothing like looking at before and after pictures and reading all of your updates to cure a girl of doubt, so thanks ladies!
Now, to finish up on a crude note... ;)
Do those who have been through the MM recommend shaving the hoo-ha or waxing it? ive never waxed before but would be willing to if it makes life more comfortable while recovering. Opinions, please!
So here i am, in my full glory. My husband, who...
- 8 Feb 2012
- 1 month pre
You know, at the start of this process i wasnt sure if my husband was behind my decision or not. I knew i had to do it but i think he felt let out of the process or something. But now he is being so encouraging and supportive and it means so much to me. His faith and positive energy is not necessary, but it is sooooooo nice to have.
On a side note, i think that those pictures was the first time in maybe eight years that i have stood naked in front of him in the daylight. I hope to do more of that after my surgery! ;)
Hello ladies :) I cant believe that i am less...
- 21 Feb 2012
- 1 month pre
I cant believe that i am less than 5 weeks away. Insane. I am down to 186 with a weigh-in tomorrow so hopefully even less in the morning. Come on green tea, work your diuretic magic!
I try to spend a few times each week meditating about how grateful i am for my healthy, strong body. I know that after the surgery i will feel like crap for quite some time. So i have been trying to live in a positive thankful place where i feel gratitude for being able to climb out of bed in the morning easily and with no pain in stead of being a crabby patty about having to wake up. Im not always sucessful at this, but the effort is there!
I continue to eat very clean. So clean in fact that when i splurge just a tiny little bit on something off my diet i suffer the next day with a food hangover where i feel slow and tired and kind of stupid. SO annoying. Cant a girl have a little brie now and then? Geez...
I also go to the gym about 5 times a week and i honestly love it. Its my time and i relish in the fact that i finish each workout with a feeling of empowerment and a general psyched-i rock-go me attitude.
I had a lightbulb moment the other day. I am not the fat girl any more. It may look like it in my picture but i really am not. And after the surgery removes this rediculous skin belt around me and i can live life without the inner tube on my waist i will look awesome. Is it crazy to be slightly afraid of that fact? I have never looked awesome. That is not self deprication just the honest truth. My sister told me to be prepared for more attention paid to my looks and i try to say that i am prepared...but im not sure i am.
Anyhow, doing my best to mentally and physically get where i need to be in five weeks and i think i am well on my way....but ask me again in 4 weeks and i bet ill have a different story to say. ;)
Good luck to any ladies out there who are heading to surgery soon! Prayers are with you :)
I am having a hard time believing that i am only a...
- 3 Mar 2012
- 22 days pre
At the grocery store i started buying food that i will make into dinners and freeze for the family when i cant cook. Tomorrow i will beging shopping for post surgery supplies with my mom. Im a list girl- i looooooove my lists. In fact, i began making my surgery lists months ago. So the fact that i am now needing and using my lists is major! :)
But i am getting scared. Not that im going to die on the table or anything, but of recovery. The pain is a little intimidating but honestly what i worry about the most is not being able to take care of my family. I know that i have help in the form of my mother, sister, friends, and a perfectly capable loving husband. But in my house i am a bit of a control freak. I like things done my way and even though i know others can cook and clean and help with the kids it makes me sad that i wont be able to for awhile. I love taking care of my family. It makes me feel complete and fulfilled. It may sound hokey but in my house when im doing the mom and wife gig i feel balanced and happy and grateful. Dont get me wrong, there are days when i want to quit and stop and run away from cranky/demanding kids or hubby. But the vast majority of the time i like being the one who cooks the best eggs and knows where everything is and how to get everything done. I'll hate having to watch from the couch.
So those are the demons i am batteling right now. The closer i get though the more certain i am that i want it done and that i am doing the right thing. I know that the next three weeks will be over in the blink of an eye. This coming week i have my pre-op and my Dr check up and parent teacher conferences so that will keep me busy.
Still praying for all those recovering and those entering surgery soon! Good luck ladies!!!
So i went to my pre-op today with the hubby and i...
- 7 Mar 2012
- 18 days pre
On the way to the appt i was freaking out a little bit. The closer i get the more worried i have become about not being able to take care of my family. Its funny because im not concerned for myself or my healing but for my kids and husband. I feel like im standing at the edge of a cliff looking down. I know i have to jump but the longer i stand there and the longer i wait the more hesitant i become. I need to jump already!!!
I want to really focus these last 2 1/2 weeks on eating clean and working out and giving my body the tools it will need to help me heal. I also want to relish the feeling of being active and energetic. 19 days is nothing. It will pass in a moment, i know. I stopped taking my fish oil and multi-vitamin. I also gave up drinking green tea :( which i hate because mama looooooves her green tea. Oh well. Its only for a few weeks. I also have my Dr check-up on friday and im planning on a brazilian wax
(Eeek!) and a pedicure so i will feel pretty :)
Blessings to all those healing and heading in soon themselves!
OK...so in about 31 hours or so i will going...
- 24 Mar 2012
- 2 days pre
There has been hardly any time to think about myself these last few days and what is about to happen. When people ask me "are you nervous" or "are you scared" im like "why? Oh wait....im being cut in half. Riiiiiiight....."
But im still not nervous yet. i think im waiting for someone to snatch this opportunity away from me at the last second. But man oh man do i hope nothing goes wrong and that early on monday morning all goes as planned.
I have everything i need. I have all my supplies and tons of healthly food. I have a little cleaning left to do and a little more cooking and then i should be good to go! My sister is coming in from out of town tomorrow which is WONDERFUL! She is my best friend and not only can she help me but she can help my mom. Tomorrow i plan to get a pedicure and to eat light and relax so i feel completely prepared...at least as much as possible. So only a day or so left, ladies....holy crap! Here we go....
So i have six hours before i need to be up and...
- 25 Mar 2012
- 1 day pre
I know that is crazy talk and that ill be fine. But you cant help but wonder and worry a bit when you have so much to lose.
I have everything set up and ready for when i get home. Say prayers for me, ladies, please. I really believe in them and in positive energy so any you can send my way is greatly appreciated. Blessings to all those who are healing and those about to dive in like me. Much courage and strength to us all! :)