I developed my breasts between 8th and 9th grade,...
I turned 35 this year. I started taking classes in an attempt to get a nursing degree. I'm a mother of two gorgeous children, and we are a very busy family. I am sick and tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. Of this extra burden I carry on my chest. I no longer want to feel ashamed about myself. I want to be able to chase after my kids, and play with my dog!
I have decided that next year, after my classes are done for the summer, I am having my BR surgery! I will try to have my insurance cover it, I have a bit of time to try and get needed PT, and chiropractor paperwork). And even if they won't, I'm doing it! I have waited 21 years!! I have read so many wonderful stories, and all the great feedback from other users is really encouraging!
My husband is nervous, (as am I), that I won't be pleased with the results. He is worried that my expectations will be so high that I will be disappointed. I have assured him that ANYTHING, (pretty much), is better than what I have been dealing with for all these years. The PS that I am consulting with comes very highly recommended, so I am pretty confident. (I would be very confident, but it's a very scary surgery!!! But I want it done more than anything!)
I welcome any feedback, I'm already chomping at the bait, I don't know how I'll wait almost a year to do it! I'll keep you posted as to how I'm holding up ;) I look forward to the warm support that I've seen amongst all the users here!
Ok. Really embarrassing. Pics :(
Consultation appt made :)
Anyone else have breathing problems due to large breasts?
Heading to my consult!
Not exactly what I was expecting...
He is planning on doing the procedure so that I will have some fullness on top, whereas right now I am "bottomed out" he said. Because the dense tissue has dropped down, I am very wide/full on the bottom of my breasts. And lifting them as well :) I was so excited to hear all this wonderful stuff, and then...
Now the sad part... Unfortunately I do not have enough tissue to remove to qualify for insurance coverage :( The insurance company wants 600g taken from each breast in order to cover, my PS told me if he took that much I would have an A cup. He won't remove that much tissue. My husband wouldn't allow it either! So I will have to pay out of pocket. This was quite disheartening to hear, especially knowing that my husband isn't keen on the prospect of me getting it, and I wasn't sure how he would react to this news...
He was wonderful. I give him so much credit, he was a little taken aback, but knows how much it means to me, so he really took it in stride. I will talk to him further, but I am really thinking that I will do my surgery either mid December, or early January!!! They have appointments available for both time periods. It's a matter of me finding out about school and when semester ends/finals are and stuff.
Holy smokes! I'm actually planning this all out, for real, in my head! Whoa! I can't get too far ahead of myself, lol. Hubby and I still have to hash out all of the details, and see about getting the time off approved! That's the other thing. If I can't get the time approved from work, it's a no-go :( Yikes, didn't think of that until right now...
Well, one can dream, right? I'll hold on to this hope for right now, and keep you abreast (ahem, lol) of the situation :-D
A date is set!!!!!!!!!
I have lost weight in the past by working out and eating right, but never lose my boobs! I started going back to the gym the day I decided I was definitely having the surgery. (This was before the consult and everything. The day I decided that it was THAT important to me.)
So I've made a new goal for myself. Our friend Moondiemoo suggested training, to help with the waiting process first, and in turn, the healing process later. I am now seriously working out. I've been going to PT, but now I'm actually using weights to help strengthen muscles that were damaged due to the car accident I was in. I've also started eating better. A few years ago I lost weight and was 126 lbs. On my 5'4" frame, that should have been a good weight for me, but with my boobs, everything else looked smaller and I looked too thin! (From what other people said.) I thought my body looked good, but my boobs were ginormous :( So I am trying to lose that weight again, and get back down to 125-130 lbs, so when I go for my consult in December, he won't have a problem with making them smaller, because at that size, they will be more proportionate! That makes sense, right? Ok, off to the gym I go :) Thank you again for all the lovely comments, and support!
So I missed going to the gym these last 2 days... I've got some stuff going on here. That's ok though. I'm not beating myself up about it. I've come to realize that I set myself up for failure because I set unrealistic goals. Now, my specific goal is to get as healthy as possible, that's not unrealistic, right? I have been eating better, which is good. Previously, if I missed the gym I'd think that I've already screwed up, so might as well eat bad too. Not going to do that though, if I can help it! I've been making these fantastic smoothies, with fruit and veggies, that are super healthy and really delicious. I think my body is actually craving them rather than the sweets that I usually eat.
I don't know about many of you, but I've struggled with my weight since I developed breasts. I stopped playing sports b/c I was self-consious of them. I didn't do many "active" activities. So while I'm (not so) patiently waiting, I can use my updates to help keep me accountable. Maybe there are some others out there doing the same thing, and we can help each other! Thanks for listening :)
Busy, Busy, Busy...
I haven't been to the gym since Weds. But it's ok. I ate pretty decently considering the circumstances. I've been able to curb my snacking during my work shift. I would usually stop and get a sweet snack (like a muffin, or donut, or ice cream) to eat during my shift at work. I've been really good about not doing that since I've been back. At home I'm also not snacking as much. I'm drinking lots of water, and still not craving sweets :) I was even good while making cupcakes this weekend! No spoonfuls of frosting, or "testing" the cake batter!!! (If you knew me, that's HUGE!!!! LOL) I was even able to try just a tiny piece of key-lime pie and ONE mini cream puff at the party! Woo-hoo!!!! Go me!!!
I hope everyone's doing well, and things are going smoothly for our friends in the healing stages :)
Taking pics down
Hope everyone is doing well!
A new day!
Today is a new day, and I'm back to being positive :)) There are so many new beginnings coming my way, and I am so excited about all of them! I am getting ready to start my next semester of school, (on my way to a new career), I am starting a new position at work, (which I am very much looking forward to), I am President of the PTO at my children's school this year, (very nervous about this!), and my Christmas present will be a BR!!!! What an unbelievable next few months I have going on!!!
And, I lost 5 lbs since my big "Training" update! Unfortunately I haven't been to the gym in a week, but I've been eating very good and drinking lots of water! I've even gotten myself down to drinking coffee only every other day (about), I'm not too worried if that doesn't stick. But I haven't gotten headaches like I usually do from skipping it :) I'm scheduled to go on a little vacation in a couple weeks, and if I can just lose another 5 lbs by then I may be able to fit into my shorts!!! Fingers crossed!
Thank you again, all my friends who posted their encouragement, and who are so understanding towards my feelings with what happened yesterday. I really appreciate it. I don't want to ruin anything for anyone else, really I don't, but I am embarrassed about the way I look. I don't like my breasts, and don't even like my husband to see them...
Hope everyone is having a good day and healing is going swiftly and smoothly :)
Still on the right track!
I started my new position at work. That went well. The other staff seem very nice, and I was busy the whole shift. It was hard to make the hour drive home in the morning, though. I was VERY tired! (I work third shift, on the weekends). Also, something to be noted, I can go pretty much the whole shift (8.75 hrs), without going on crazy snack binges! That's HUGE for me! I would usually bring "lunch" or "dinner" with me, and then have snacks on top of that, usually not healthy ones, either. So I really am in a good mind set right now :))
I was at Target the other day, and they have some sports bras on clearance right now, and I was so tempted to buy a couple, just because they were so cheap! But I restrained myself. I'll get some when It gets closer ;) It was really hard to not get them, though, they were so pretty! Bright colors, and thin straps, a racer back type! I can't wait to get some for me to actually wear :)
Ok, hope all you ladies who are healing are doing well, those of you who are having surgery Best of Luck to you!!!!
Other than that, the new job is going well, and I am all set for my next semester of school. I have been going nuts to try and figure out how to hurry up and take what I need to take in order to get into the program I want to get into, and every way I add it up leads me to believe that either I'm going to take more classes at once, or it's going to take me another year to be able to apply. I was only planning on taking 2 classes at a time, so I can focus fully on those classes in order to maintain my good grades. I don't know if adding a class will be detrimental to my GPA :-/ I'm definitely only taking 2 this fall. I guess I'll have to see how these classes go before I can figure it out.
Oh!!! I was telling my cousin about my surgery, and of course she was kind of supportive, her comment was, "Wow! Well I'm sure you have your reasons. Congratulations". Which was fine, she knows how big I am and she was surprised by my size. I told you guys I hide it very well, right? I have to tell you one of my strategies, (for anyone who has to wait before they get their BR and really likes to hide their boobs.) I wear maternity shirts! NOT the ones with the empire waist and the tie back. I go to Target and shop the Liz Lange section. They have t-shirts and "fitted" looking shirts, but they're designed for a pregnant belly, so instead of conforming to your stomach, they fit to your breasts, but then kind of go straight down, which gives the illusion of smaller boobs! I've been doing that since I had my daughter. I just kept wearing the tank tops that I had, and then realized that they really do hide my boobs...
Well, take care everyone! I don't know what I'll do without checking up on all you lovely ladies every day!!! I hope all of you who are healing are taking care and behaving themselves ;) and to all our girls who are due to have surgery this week a big God Bless!!!!
I can't wait to be able to check everyone's updates! I hope all you lovely ladies are healing well and/or waiting patiently for your surgery dates to come!!!!!
Have a great day beautiful people :)
I am going to my PCP in 2 weeks, for a follow up from my car accident. I am still in considerable pain, and I want him to have another look at my back to rule out anything other than the weight of my breasts. Both the physical therapist and the chiropractor believe that this is a factor, but I want to be absolutely sure. I will definitely get the surgery, I am just nervous that the back pain won't go away like I've heard so many women say it has for them. I go on the 27th for my appointment. I will tell him my plans for the BR, who knows, maybe he can even offer some guidance, as far as insurance goes.
The weather here in the northeast has been amazing the last few days! It's been mid-high 70's sunny, and absolutely perfect. The mornings & nights have been in the upper 50's-lower 60's and it's been nothing short of sublime! I love love love the fall. I know it's August, but this is definitely early fall weather, and I am in HEAVEN!!! :-))
Ok, well, I hope all our friends who have had surgery are healing well, and quickly. All our friends who are waiting, doing so patiently and productively ;) and those of you who are trying to decide if/if not, I hope you are find what you are looking for! There are so many wonderful, supportive, insightful, informative, courageous, and caring women on this forum. I am so happy I found this little community
Off the wagon?
Dr visit this week
Ok, well, that's it for my news. Other than I'm still very much off my diet :( I really need to get back on track!!!
Hope all you lovely ladies who are healing are doing well, and all of you who are waiting, are feeling great!
I absolutely need to get my eating back on track. It's ridiculous. I did so well, and one dessert (not even joking), was my undoing. I swear I have some sort of eating disorder. When I'm good, I do really good & I feel so much better when I'm eating healthy. So why would I not want to eat good? Because I love sugar :( grr... So pretty much, my lifestyle change cannot include desserts. Once I take them out of my diet I should be ok, and have them in the house without eating them. I wish it weren't this difficult. It's not hard to gain the weight, how could it be so hard to get rid of it!!! I want to scream!!!! Ok. I'm done. :)
I hope all our friends who are healing are doing so without complications.
All who have surgeries set the today, or this week, BEST OF LUCK!!!!!
Everyone else, have a beautiful day :)
Is it December 30th yet?
Got myself a workout partner a couple days! Hopefully that will get me in line :)
Now on hormones from my GYN. Hopefully this helps with the moods!!!
Hope all you ladies are healing nicely, and those waiting (like myself), are doing so patiently :))
I went today to finally get my blood work drawn to check my hormone levels and my counts and stuff to see if there's a reason I'm such a basket case, lol.
Well, I'm only a month away from my pre-op appt! It's Dec 4th! I can't believe it's getting so close now!! :))
Ok, I hope everyone is doing well, that healing is going smoothly, and everyone is staying positive!!!!! I really appreciate this little community
Can I just tell you how READY I am for Dec 30th to get here :(( I am so impatiently waiting. Nothing is helping to take the edge off. School is going fine. I'm super busy with stuff at the kids' school. I just want everything to hurry and pass by. So sad b/c Christmas is right around the corner & I know I won't enjoy it fully b/c I'll be anticipating surgery.
I have not lost weight, in fact I have gained!!!! :'-( it's so frustrating!!! These hormones are really throwing me for a loop. Hopefully it gets better quick.
Ok, I'm done complaining! High point: time is flying. I can't believe I have just a month and a half before my big day!!!
Thank you, wonderful ladies, for posting all your good, and bad, (and even scary sometimes) reviews. The knowledge I've gained on here is immeasurable :))
Wowzers, where'd November go!?!?
I am so very excited!!! Just got my reminder call for my pre-op on Weds!!! What?!? Lol.
I also got my paperwork for work, to hand in for my time off. Crazy. Hopefully all that goes without incident. I didn't tell my supervisor exactly what kind of surgery I was having, for, while it IS necessary, it's NOT something that if I don't get it I won't be able to live, and I don't want her giving me grief for it... Hopefully my MD's can write how necessary it really is...
To be quite honest, I really don't care. The only issue, is that I don't have any sick, or leave time. So I won't get paid :-/ it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make!
Ok, Ladies! Hopefully y'all are doing well!!!! Xoxoxo
Hope all of you are healing up quickly and non eventfully, and waiting patiently and productively :))
Hope everyone is doing really well!!!!
Exactly 3 weeks to go!!!!!!
I hope everyone is healing up well, waiting patiently, resting, and being positive :)))
I also got word from my job that my FMLA was approved! Which means that even though I will be taking unpaid leave, I will not get in trouble for it, and I will still have a job waiting for me when I return :) Thank God, He is surely looking out for me :))
I am getting a little nervous, but I am really more excited than anything! I can't wait until I can be free from the back and neck-aches and just be comfortable in my own skin :))
I hope everyone's doing well, healing happily and resting. Who ever is waiting for their turn, (like me!!!), is waiting patiently. Your time will be here before you know it! Just take it from me and keep busy, lol!!! :)
T-minus 7 days!
Happy healing friends, and Merry Christmas, if I don't get on here again before then :))
Ending 2013 on a high note, and beginning 2014 with this surgery. I am truly blessed, to be able to do this, and I pray for a wonderful, positive, experience. Night, all!!!
I'm on the "other side"!!!
I got up this am at 5:30 & did my hibiclens, and we walked out the door at 5:50am. When I got there I made my payments and signed numerous documents. Then went in back and was given gown and scrubs to wear, and a patch behind my ear for nausea. After that I went to my little pre-op room and my IV was started with antibiotics. Then the anestesiologist came in, followed by my MD who marked me up. Then I went to the bathroom one more time and was walked into the OR. They had me lay on the table and then they adjusted me and put oxygen on me, which I think had something in it, lol. Because I asked if they started the meds yet, and the next thing I remember I was trying to wake up from anesthesia! It took a while to come out of it, because they tried initially & I was very uncomfortable and nauseaus. When I finally came to, about 3 hours later, the nurse said "hi! You're up! And you're smiling!!!" I must have felt pretty great at that point :)) I got to go home at around 2:30, I think. I couldn't wait! Lol.
I got home and have been relaxing on the recliner, my hubby's been awesome :) I did eat some stuff and have been keeping up on pain meds. I think that's so important, I don't think I'd be able to tolerate the pain without it.
Also, I'm all bandages up & can't take them off until weds! I can't see my boobies :(( I Amos excited to see them! Ok. I'm falling asleep while writing, I'll keep you guys posted!
My Surgeon called last night to check in, and he said how happy he is with the results. He did also tell me that I'll "probably" be a C-cup, "possibly" a D. I really hope it's a C! He said that having broader shoulders smaller breasts may not be flattering on my frame. I totally understand where he's coming from, but I REALLY hope it's a C. Fingers crossed!!!! I already feel lighter! It's unbelievable, really! So, I cannot wait for the big reveal!!!
Thank you, everyone, for all the positive energy, thoughts and prayers being sent my way! Honestly, I'm so, so, soooooo happy!!!
Still feeling pretty good!
Just wanted to let you lovely ladies know that I'm feeling pretty darn great! We even had people over last night and I was able to sit at the kitchen table with everyone for several hours! Although no one would let me do anything, lol. But just the fact that I had enough energy to hang out was great!
Then I took my meds and passed out! Oh! And thank you all for the advice about taking something to help you "go." I did last night, thank goodness! Now I'm going to take a rest!
I haven't seen my new girls yet. I feel very safe with this wrap around my chest, and I don't want to take it off! I'm definitely nervous about that, but excited at the same time :))
Thank you all for your well wishes, I appreciate every one of the comments that have been written to me :)
Good luck to any girls going in this week, and happy healing to those of us who are on the other side!
Otherwise, I'm taped up and have some gauze in the bra in case I have any bleeding/oozing. I noticed some bright red blood on my tape after I showered, so hopefully that's nothing :( I still feel really good! A bit tired, but not too shabby!
Oh! And my right nipple has feeling! Not left yet, but I'm hoping it will come back soon :))
My hubby helped me take dressing off and I was so nervous for him to see them, but he was a real champ! He even said he thought the size & shape looked good :))
Appt delayed due to weather
But we will be fine, I'm sure. They will learn to be more self sufficient in the next few days, haha.
So I am still very optimistic about my new boobies! In the bra they are very padded with gauze, and they look a bit big, but they are also swollen, so I think I'm going to love them! I have that really nice rounded shape on the upper part of my breasts, which I hope stays that way, because it looks so nice in the bra! I keep forgetting that I don't have all that weight to hold up any more so I'm constantly reminding myself to drop my shoulders. It's a hard thing to do. Ok. I'm going to rest now. Here's a couple pics of my cleavage ;) haha. This is the best angle I can get!
Hope everyone's healing nicely, and uneventfully. And good luck to our friends out there with upcoming surgery dates!!!
Ok. Done with this recliner!
On a side note, I didn't take pain meds last night before bed, and I still feel pretty decent! A little soreness, but nothing unbearable :)) Thank The Lord! I just feel so fortunate!!!!!
Thank all if you for your support and well wishes! I hope that my story helps at least one person in their decision to have this life changing surgery!
Happy healing to the post op peeps, at whatever stage you're in! Good luck to any of our girls going in today!!!!
Tried the bed
The last 2 nights I spent in my bed. The first night I slept pretty well. Other than smooshing my left boob while trying to reach back to fix a pillow :( ouch! That hurt!
Last night was terrible. I took a Percocet with a zofran, b/c I was in a lot of discomfort from doing too much yesterday. I slept like garbage. Or should I say, I didn't really sleep at all :(( I don't know if the meds kept me awake, or being out of the house, or what, but I was NOT sleeping.
So, I will be relocating back to the recliner tonight. Hopefully that helps. I'm so tired!!!
Now, for the real stuff. I had my 1st Post Op visit yesterday. It went really well! My PS is very pleased with my new breasts. He talked about one area of (slight) concern with me, which is a little pocket of fat under the L breast. He said that was the breast he took more tissue from & if he took any more from that area, b/c of the type of tissue there it would end up looking hollowed out. I am fine with that. I know that natural breasts are not symmetrical, and I was not expecting perfectly symmetric results.
As of this moment, I am extremely pleased, and I feel wonderful about my results :)) and, I'm sure that when the swelling goes down I will be even happier!
I'm posting a pic of something I was Soooooooooo happy about. Last night we went to a friends house & it was the first time since my surgery putting "real" clothes on. I looked in my closet, and started to reach for the old standby sweater, (cozy & covered up), but instead I grabbed the size M button up from old navy. I was a little nervous, but wasn't completely expecting it to be able to button. Well... It did!!!!! I've not been able to button a (normal sized) shirt in... I don't even know how long!!!! Check it!!!
Happy healing, and good luck to all!!!!! From One Happy Chick!!!!
It was back to the recliner for me last night, and I've come to the conclusion that I don't think I'll be sleeping a lot. At least not until I get my daytime routine back again... I think that because I've been lounging around for the last week, I'm just not sleepy enough to go to sleep at a normal time at night. Plus, I had to take a laxative the last two days because I hadn't gone since New Years Eve. But then all of a sudden, it worked TOO good :( So half my night was in the bathroom, sadly, and that's just not fun, getting up and down. (sorry for the TMI, lol)
OK, done complaining :))
I have to say, I can't get enough of my new boobs! (that's figuratively, not literally, literally, there seems to be JUST enough ;) Like our 16 year old friend Amy Snow says, "I can't stop looking at them and touching them!" haha.
What an amazing feeling! I'm not adjusting my straps, or band, I'm just cupping them, and poking at them, and generally just in AWE of how cute and pert they are!!!!
So, currently, I am wearing the Hanes front close sports bra. The 38 is a little loose, but fits the cups perfectly. The 36 fits around the band, but I have to leave the top 2 hooks opened in order to not have the girls being squeezed on the top. But they don't spill out the sides or anything! How awesome is that!???!! I still think I need to get a couple more size 38's, but I couldn't be more excited to be wearing a soft, cotton, Walmart, cheapie bra, and being totally supported!!!!! I feel like the luckiest girl in the world :)))
Hope everyone's doing so well, wether healing, waiting, going in today, or on day 100 of new boobies! Happy, positive, vibes to all!!!!!! xo
Boobies are feeling good. I can't wait for my next PO on the 15th to see how I'm healing. I'm very curious to see how they will look when the tape comes off!!! Waiting, waiting, and more waiting!!! Lol.
No new, exciting news for today, really. :)
Hope all are doing really great & everyone has quick and easy recovery and surgeries :))
Other pics didn't update :(
Two Weeks :)))
I count my blessings every day that I was able to have this life changing surgery!!!
I just wanted to let you all know that I'm still doing well :) I'm taking my recovery day by day, and still feeling good! I've been out and about, and eating pretty good and generally keeping positive. I am sore, sometimes more than others. If I do a lot during the day I'm definitely feeling it more. But my energy is pretty much normal, which is good and bad, lol. With my energy so high it's hard to take it easy! ;)
I have my 2 week appointment on Weds. I will hopefully get this tape off, it's really starting to irritate me! I've been cutting the edges when it starts to peel off, but I want clean tape!!! I also want to see how my incisions are doing. I feel like they have to be doing well. I just can't wait to see what they look like with nothing on them!!!!! I'm nervous and excited, and just really anxious to look at them. Also, I can't wait to properly clean them! I hate seeing the dried blood under the tape, it's so gross!!!
Anyhoo.... That's all I have for now :)
I hope everyone is doing really well. Healing good and waiting patiently for their procedure :) xoxoxo
2 Week PO appt
I'm not unhappy, but it wasn't quite what I expected to see under there? That's the best way I can describe it. I know my PS is experienced and very well regarded in our community. I was a little surprised at first. All I saw at first was really bumpy incisions and a spot that wasn't closed yet. I know that sounds terrible. However the doctor told me that the incisions and the skin surrounding them will smooth out. The left side is bigger, and there is more swelling on the underside. He told me that, also, should straighten itself out, in time. I do have a "dog ear", I think. A bit of skin that's been sutured kind of in a little ball, right under the R breast.
Let me reiterate. I am NOT unhappy.
After getting home, I looked at them again. They are smoother than they were at the office. What I was seeing was much due to the tape! Duh. OH! And they stayed up! It wasn't just the tape holding them there, like I feared, lol. As far as the asymmetry goes, only time will tell. :)
I was having a bit of a "downer" day today. I think it was nerves. I was nervous about the tape coming off. I was thinking about life. I was just in a mood. Then while driving, people were driving like fools. Everything just annoyed me. But I'm better now :))
I know I've heard "it takes more energy to be positive/ it's easier to be negative" that type of thing. I know people actually get upset with people for being too positive. Someone actually said that recently! They wish she'd just go off one day. You know, even my cousin said to me a couple years ago that it was hard to talk to me b/c my life was so good. B/c I didn't complain enough. That's kind of sad, because, what's the point of complaining? I would rather focus on the good, and forget about the stupid, petty, things that may or may not be bugging me... I'd rather enjoy my time talking to friends/family about the good stuff, rather than feel bad & bring others down. Is that so bad?
Ok. That was me venting ;) thanks for listening, my RF girls.
I hope everyone's doing really well! I send positive vibes to all of you :))
And here's some pics!
That is all :))
On a brighter note, I did a little retail therapy today. Haha. I got a little something for the whole family. Plus a few new T's, and a tank for me :)) I'm pretty thrifty. Most of my shopping is done from the clearance racks, but today as I walked through the store, a shirt caught my eye. It was a blue and green plaid flannel shirt. I looked at it longingly, then started to walk away because I can't wear button up shirts. But then remembered! I turned back. I picked out a size M, and I bought it! It was the only item I paid full price for, lol. (What can I say? I'm a 90's grunge chick, haha) when I was in HS, I used to wear my dad's flannel shirts, and mostly to hide myself. But this is a slim fit, and I can't wait to rock it :D woo hoo! Oh happy day!
Ok. I hope everyone's feeling great, recovering nicely, patiently waiting, and thinking positively! Sending good vibes out to you all!
I dropped the kids to my M-I-L and she said I looked great and THINNER! (and I have definitely NOT lost weight!) She said she thinks my PS was right to not make me too small, b/c she thinks the size looks just right :)
We then met my S-I-L and her boyfriend. It was the first time I've seen her since surgery also. She was floored when she saw me! Her jaw actually dropped! It was quite funny, actually. She couldn't take her eyes off of me and she said they were "perfect" :)) I was so happy! Everyone has been so supportive and it is so wonderful to have that... Ah, I am so, very, blessed :))) and you know what? I didn't take any pictures!!! Lol. Go figure! I'll put the outfit on again tomorrow and take a pic ;)
Hope everyone is doing as good as I am! (Yes, I'm still sore, but nothing's gonna bring me down!!!) I'm on top of the world!
Love and positive thoughts being sent to all of you!!! Xoxoxo
1) Is there something I can do to get swelling to go down? I still feel really puffy and I've been drinking water and taking the Arnica sublingual tablets (I have to admit, I don't take them regularly, though). I feel like my left nipple is puffy today, for some reason. It's been quite cold here and I've been feeling my nipples react to that, which is good, but my PS said no nipple stimulation for 6 weeks. Hmmm. Also, I just don't feel like my bras are supportive enough. I actually doubled up yesterday, but that made me feel more squished in than held up. The size 38 sports bras are too big around the band, but they cover my boobs. The 36's are good around the band but they don't fit the girls... Grrrr.
Question 2) my skin is peeling all over my boobs. It feels irritated, not red or hot. Just feels almost like a reaction if get from tape. Has anyone else ever experienced this?
Thanks ladies! I appreciate any input!
Hope everyone is feeling great!!!
Now, I am on the hunt for a soft cup bra. The nurse at my PS office said that if I feel like I need more support I can go ahead and get an adjustable regular bra, as long as it's wire-free :) Anyone know where they sell Warners bra's? I found a couple at Marshall's and they were super soft, and really comfortable, but they didn't have a D cup, which with swelling, I think I need. The C was okay, but I felt squished. I'll be heading to Kohls to see if they have anything.
I really am so happy I happened across this forum :)) What an incredible feeling, knowing that I'm not alone in my journey. Not that I don't have support from my family and friends, but they don't FULLY understand.
Whoa! As I am writing this, I think I have experienced REAL zingers! Holy crow! I thought I had been getting something that zinged, but MOMMA!!! I think that was a real one... That was fairly intense...
Okay then. Best wishes and much love to all going in, coming out, healing, revealing, and enjoying their new lives :)) xoxoxo
The Verdict is in!
So, a few hours, 4 bras, 3 dresses, 2 accessories, and 1 shirt later, I'm glad to be home!!! Lol. I went a little nuts! I had a 30% off coupon though!!! And everything except 2 of the bras and the gloves were on clearance :) (and even still, they were on sale) lol. Look at me justifying my shopping addiction...
Anyhoo... The bras run in sizes S, M, L, XL, but they have the adjustable close back. I got the L, it feels so comfortable! You guys should really try them!!! I'm so excited :)))
Crazy stabbing pains?
Ok. Goodnight ladies!
4 weeks tomorrow!!!
I already feel more comfortable in my own skin. I know thy may sound crazy, but I really do. I still forget that I can wear things that I used to not be able to. I can't wait to be completely healed so I can wear all the fun summer tops and dresses I've never been able to wear before!!!
I am so happy I made the decision to finally do this, I know that the back pain was the final deciding factor, but I wish I did it years ago!!! I think my quality of life will be 100% more amazing :)))
Anyone on the fence, DO IT!!!! completely worth it!!!!!
All my Real friends, I hope everyone's healing well, feeling well, waiting, anticipating, and above all, staying positive! Xoxoxo
Yesterday was 4 weeks since my BR. I continue to be in amazement of how wonderful I feel! I'm going to describe how I feel the best I can.
I now feel like the person I should have felt like my whole life. I have never, ever, not once in my life, felt confident with my breasts. Even at my thinnest, I felt like my boobs were too saggy, and still too big for my smaller frame. Now I know my "new" breasts are by no means tiny, but I love them! Even with their faults, if they're a little asymmetrical, a little bruised, and scarred, I feel like they're more "me" than the old ones.
I've read a lot I reviews where women are unhappy with their results, and/or picking out every imperfection they can find. Many women go through an "emotional" period shortly after their surgery.
I have felt NOTHING like that. Not once have I had a moment of doubt about wether I did the right thing, chose the right surgeon, or thought I "lost" something or some part of myself when I woke up with smaller breasts. I expected scars, and I didn't expect perfection. Humans are imperfect. And I am definitely human ;)
From the moment I woke up after my surgery, all I have felt was complete peace with myself. Like I was a caterpillar waking up, and emerging from my cocoon a beautiful butterfly. Knowing, that this is exactly where I am supposed to be in the evolution of ME. I was so ready for this...
I think that sums it up :))
I hope that anyone reading this, who has been having a hard time, or having doubts about wether or not they made the right decision, will try to see the positive aspects of their surgery. I cannot stress enough how much a positive attitude can help in the way you look at yourself...
You are all beautiful people. It doesn't matter what's on the outside, if you don't feel good on the inside, all you will see are the imperfections.
I choose to see past the imperfections, and embrace the new me, the butterfly who' ready to spread her wings and show the world her true colors!!!
Anyone doing research about BR & trying to decide if they want it or not, I've realized that it's such a personal decision and you have to be ready for it. If you are truly ready to make the decision, DO IT! It will be one of the best things you will have ever done for yourself!
Best of luck and positive thoughts going out to everyone, in all stages of their BR's, from waiting to recovering, to out living their lives after surgery!! Xoxoxo
A name change
4 Week PO and, things that make you go, hmmmmm...
I had my 4 week PO appt today, and my PS and I chatted for a little bit. I told him how much better I feel about myself and how he did a really fantastic job on my new boobies :))
However, I have some confusion today...
While my positivity is for real, I am so much happier than I was before... I still think he left me a little larger than I was hoping. But I would absolutely deal with this, if there was no easy fix. My issue is that I don't think he explained ALL my options ahead of time, and made a decision based purely on aesthetics. If I knew he couldn't take out as much tissue doing the lollipop incision, I would definitely have said to use the anchor incision. I was expecting the anchor incision scars, so this wouldn't have bothered me.
He agrees that I am still big. He says to give it a few months, and see where I'm at when things are more "settled". If I still feel like I am too full, then he said he can do a procedure right in the office which will reduce some of the fullness without the need for excessive down-time. Either lipo some extra tissue out, or cut out a little extra skin under the breast and stitch it back up, which would be superficial, just skin, no tissue removed. The latter would basically just make them "tighter".
Now, the reason behind this confusion.
Last night I did the stupid thing of trying on some of my old bra's, and found, like some of you shortly after surgery, that some still fit... Now, I was VERY surprised, because I feel so much smaller!
But, of course, it got me thinking, and then I was agitated, and annoyed. Here's the crazy part: when I measured myself before the surgery, my bust measured 47 or 49 inches around, 33 inches around the band. I now measure 38 inches around the bust!!!! That is either 9 or11 INCHES SMALLER!!!
My band is now 32 inches (but I wear a 34 comfortably), so that is a difference of 4 inches. If I remember correctly, each inch is a cup size, right? Which will leave me with a 34D. But measurement-wise, (if I go by the actual 32"), I am actually a 32DDD? What the what?
I repeat: I am very happy to be lifted and I FEEL smaller, so that is definitely positive. I am just surprised by how I actually measure up. Which I think may be a lesson to us all: I don't think the measurements mean ANYTHING!!! I think they are a jumping-off point. Like ok, based on these measurements you should wear this size bra, however, you can also wear this size, or that size, depending on your body type. I forget who wrote the review recently, but someone just said something close to this. I know that I shouldn't have tried on my old bra's. Now I'm wondering how the heck I fit into them before!!!! So crazy! AND I didn't want to have to pay an arm and a leg for bras anymore. If I'm a 34D or DD, I think I'll still be stuck paying more, and having a hard time finding those sizes in regular stores.
Ugh. OK, I'm happy to get that off my chest ;) hahaha...pun intended.
Please don't think I am being negative. Just after the bra debacle, I feel more like I got just a lift, rather than a reduction. If that IS the case, I think I overpaid ;) My PS was VERY understanding, and he said he would take care of it if I am not content with the results... Another reason he's so wonderful :))
See, I'm still being positive, and I still feel like a beautiful butterfly. I guess my point in telling you this is to make sure you talk to your PS. If you guys are on the same page, you'll be better off. I didn't make myself as clear to him as I should have. He did a beautiful job, just a bit bigger than I wanted :)
Love to you all xoxoxo
Feeling better :)
I first want to thank all of my beautiful BR sisters for understanding where I was coming from the other day :) I really appreciate the support! I literally said the day before that, that I hadn't experienced any "emotional roller coasters" since my BR. Well, I guess that's why it's named a roller coaster. You don't know exactly what you'll experience or how you'll experience the darn emotions!
I am feeling much better, after many thoughtful and considerate comments and replies from you all, and from family members, I definitely should wait and see how I feel after a few more months :) I have gone through such a change, (a metamorphosis, if you will), that I really need time to heal and get to know this new butterfly that I have become. I still LOVE my new boobies :))
I went to a birthday party for one of my good friends, and my GIRLS got an awful lot of attention! (I didn't actually show anyone, but they were examining them pretty thoroughly through my shirt, haha) my friends all think they look awesome :))
My hubby is still really happy with the way they look. I tried on some lingerie I got for my bridal shower 11 years ago, (while I've put it on once or twice since then, I was never comfortable in it), well, it fit better than it ever has, with the girls staying in the correct place! Yay!!! That was awesome, especially considering Valentines Day is coming up ;-O lol
So I've noticed changes in the last week. My breasts are not puckered anymore on the bottom! The scars and the skin under them is really smooth now!!! I still have a little puckering around the nipples, but that's from the stitches. When they dissolve that should go away :)) There is still some lumpiness in there, near where the incisions were made, but they don't LOOK lumpy. That will more than likely go away with time :)
I will post pis tomorrow :))
I hope everyone is feeling great and healing well and happy :)
5 week Pics!
But the shape is great & the scars look really good :))
Aside from still being a little bigger than I hoped, I'm really thrilled with everything and I would do this a million times over!!!!! :))
I had a thought last night. I have a couple bras that I bought a few years ago that I knew didn't fit, but I was looking for a specific style to wear with a specific dress. You know how it is, we can never find the right bra to go with those low-cut dresses... Well I have a 36D push-up bra sitting in my closet for years now, and last night I put it on. Whoa!!! It looked great!!!! The left side had a bit of "popping out" on the side and cleavage, but it wasn't too bad! That was a Kohls bra that I probably paid like $15.00 for on clearance, AND it was a push up, so it had the extra padding in there! I've been saying that I'm not happy being "big" still, but I have to say, I think I looked pretty good in that bra ;)
So I came to the conclusion that I don't think righty needs to be altered any. I think if I can get lefty to match, I (and my husband), would be very happy :)) He really likes them! I am so surprised! It looks to me like he completely see's past the scars and just notices how much better they look (and how much more confident I am with them)!!!! I am one happy girl :)))
You know, one of the reasons I was so unhappy last week when I wrote that post? I have a dress that I bought years ago, it's been sitting in my closet for that long, but I couldn't wear it. I had been holding on to it, because I love it, and it's so my style, and I couldn't bear to part with it. Last summer I let a friend borrow it, and said that I wanted it back, because I hoped to wear it after surgery... Well, I also tried that dress on when I tried the bras on, obviously it didn't fit still :( But I have decided that I'm ok with that. So I'll let it go. Maybe I'll give it to the friend who borrowed it. She's flat chested, (the lucky b#&@*, lol), so it looked really good on her, and she really liked it. And I'm ok. I took it out of the closet the other night and folded it up, but then hung it back in there, before I decided that I'm ok with my new size. So I will take it out again, this time for good... Well, I guess that means I'll just have to buy another one!!!!! hahahahaha!!!!! Oh man... I think I need a support group!!!!! lmao!
Thanks for listening, ladies, I know most of you understand what I'm going through, and I appreciate being able to just say things on here :))
I hope all the ladies healing are doing so swiftly and uneventfully. I wish everyone going in today, tomorrow or sometime soon, the best of luck!
Remember, above all, be POSITIVE! Positivity will, without a doubt, be your best asset through any stage of you BR journey. If you can remain positive, even through the ups and downs that you will inevitably experience, you will find healing and waiting will be that much easier. Xoxoxoxo :))
Has anyone ever "popped" an internal stitch?
I think I may have popped a few internal stitches that hadn't yet dissolved :( I have a little bump, at the outside of my Right areola (sp?). Looks and feels like it's something under my skin. So that's my guess. Hopefully it'll be ok. Like the shape won't change if the stitch did pop. I'm going to try not to pay attention to it too much, but the sensation I'm getting will make it difficult. It's a really odd, uncomfortable pain.
Ah, well, I guess we'll see.
Hope everyone else is going great! Enjoy your weekend!!! :))
6 weeks!!!!! What????
Well, today marks 6 weeks post op for me!!! I cannot even believe how fast the time has flown by!!! I had a very busy weekend, with something going on all three days! Even this morning before I had to go to class we had something going on, along with a sick boy at home :( I'm exhausted, I tell ya!!! :)
So, how do I feel 6 weeks after my BR? Aside from the recent injury, (I'll call it that, lol), I feel pretty amazing! I don't feel completely confident in my skin yet, but I'm getting closer every day!
In honor of being the big S-I-X (week), I wore an underwire bra today!!!! My PS said I could start again at 6 weeks. I wore a VS full coverage, (I think), cotton, underwire bra, no padding just lined. It's one of the bras that I bought before a vacation a few years ago and wore for that week and pretty much put weight on right after that and wasn't able to fit back into them after the summer! Today I put it on at about 10 am, and I'm STILL wearing it, and I have not had to adjust anything on it ALL DAY!!!!! Never once. It feels awesome, and liberating, and totally freeing, to not have to find a corner to adjust yourself or be pulling at your straps or band or sticking your hand into your shirt to put your girls back into the holster! I could cry tears of joy right now!!! Which truly goes to show you, I think Becup said, that we wear bras that we don't really fit into. We squish and squeeze ourselves into these sizes. Really, I KNOW I'm smaller than I was before. I have to get past that "number" and realize that it shouldn't matter, as long as I'm not in pain anymore, and am happy with the actual results. I think they look great, and with a little tweaking they really will be better than I ever dreamed they'd be :))
Last night I went to a small event at Victorias Secret at the mall. They had a DJ and raffle prizes and stuff, pretty good event sales going on too :) Unfortunately I didn't win a prize, but I got measured, and, sure enough, I'm definitely a 34DD right now. Righty (smaller one) fits perfectly in that size, while lefty has a bit of overflow, it's not anything horrible, though. While I was a bit disappointed, I was a bit happy too. I have a bunch of bras that I bought a few years ago, (including the above mentioned one, when I was super fit) that are 34DD! Thank goodness I didn't give them away like I intended!!! They're practically brand new!!! I did end up buying a cute lacy one. But they have a sports bra that's AMAZING!!!! I'll post pics. When I got into that thing, I felt more secure than I don't even know! lmao... It's awesome! I can't wait to wear it to the gym!!! ;)
OH!!! I also forgot to mention! After my post the other day about the dress that I have to give away, I ended up going to Kohls. I found the CUTEST baby-doll dress/top! It's a grey, lace v-neck I think it's too short to wear as a dress, but I was thinking leggings and boots for Valentines day! It's a babydoll! I could NEVER wear one of those before!!!! Come on, you all know you've tried it too! Empire waisted gowns, and baby-doll dresses or tops, that come halfway up your boobs! I've always loved that look, but was never able to pull it off. Until now ;) I'll have to do a little fashion show for you guys, in honor of the upcoming NY Fashion Week, lol.
I highly recommend having this surgery to anyone who's thinking about it! I know that I'm just scratching the surface of the life-changing benefits that come along with it. I feel taller, I feel lighter on my feet, I feel like I can be looked at as a person, not a walking sex-toy ;) haha... Come on, you know you feel that way too ;-P
Thank you, to everyone who's posted amazing, supportive, and extremely caring comments to me throughout my journey. I appreciate every word that has been written.
I hope everyone out there is doing really well, and I wish for speedy recoveries and beautiful results, and positive attitudes!!!! That is all :)))))) Goodnight!!!!
I missed an update!!!
Week 6 came and went with nothing really new to report. I have been sleeping on my side more and more with no issues, but I had started doing that already :) Now, as we got into the 7 week mark I was feeling like a champ! I am so ready to start working out and getting my upper body strength back up. This is super important as part of my job includes lifting and transferring people. I am hoping beyond hope, that we have no more snow days this year! I was really hoping to have gone back to the gym this past week, but with all the crazy extra days off I had to concentrate on my household duties :-/
So... Intimate issues... My PS said no nipple stim for 6 weeks. So we gave it an extra week, just to be sure, tried at the beginning of week 7 and it was a little weird. I wasn't sure I liked the way things felt. But I think I was also a bit nervous. Well, at the end of the week 7 we tried again, and WHOA!!!! Let me tell you... It worked out MUCH better ;) The left side gets little "jolts" of feeling. Like, one minute I don't feel much, then I'll get a little feeling, or a moderate feeling. The right one DEFINITELY has feeling! And it still works quite well ;)) I asked my husband afterwords what he thought. I was very curious as to how he was going to feel about being intimate with them. He said that he liked it, but he liked my old ones too. He also said that the Right one is more healed than the Left. I was a bit confused, but he explained that it doesn't feel the same. I thought that was so interesting that he could actually feel that difference! He said that one difference between old and new was that he didn't have to "look" for them, they were right where they should be, no scooping them up from the sides of me when I lay on my back!!! hahahaha... he was very polite and didn't say anything negative about my old ones at all, he's such a great guy, lol.
That's about it, really. I'm almost into week 8, and I can't reiterate enough how unbelievably happy I am that I was able to get this surgery. I feel so amazing, like I am the luckiest girl in the world :))) I'll post my 7 week photos from my phone :)
God bless all of you, and I hope everyone is doing really well, and healing and waiting patiently :)) Thank you for taking the time to comment on my review and for always being so supportive. I still continue to be so thankful for all or you lovely ladies!!!! :))
8 weeks have flown by!!!
I already said how happy I am, and how much more confident I feel. Have I mentioned how much more I am smiling? How people notice that I sit straighter? I'm not hunched over and "hiding" myself any more? Have I said that I am actually happy to show my husband pictures of myself in a bathing suit or a bra, or that I can walk around my room getting dressed without a bra or shirt on and feel completely at ease with him in the room?
This surgery has changed my life, and has already, completely, opened me up to the kind of person I have always thought myself to be. I am not afraid anymore. I didn't think it would hit me this hard, this fast. I thought there was going to be a period of still feeling like my boobs are the starring attraction of ME, but nothing. I just feel HAPPY.
Something really fantastic happened this weekend, and I'm so happy I want to yell it from the tops of buildings! I tried on bikini tops from Victoria's Secret PINK, and they fit!!! I had to buy a Large, but gosh-darn-it, they FIT!!!!!! I bought two, the same top, but different colors, and they were only $20.00 each! ($40.00 for the whole suit!) I've NEVER bought a $40.00 bathing suit!!! EVER!!!!! If I can tell you how ridiculously happy I was, it wouldn't correctly convey my actual feelings that night. I felt AWESOME! And that's not even the really fantastic thing that happened!!! (They didn't actually have my size in both, but I bought the one that fit, and another in the smaller size and exchanged it at another store, so I could get it at the sale price)
I was at an after-hours event that the store was having. They had a DJ and some scratch off tickets that you could win a prize if you got a winning ticket. (I didn't win with my ticket) They also had the bathing suit on special, and some special dollar-off deals, too (like $25 off $100 purchase, $50 off $200 purchase, etc.)
Well, with my new-found confidence, I asked the sales associate if I could get another scratch off ticket, as she had a whole stack in her hand, and there weren't still people lining up outside the store. (what's the worst that can happen? she'd say no?) She fanned them out in front of her and joked, "sure, I'll just tell them you grabbed it out of my hand" and laughed. I was so surprised that she said yes, and asked if she was sure, then proceeded to choose a ticket. (As I scratched it off, I was talking to her, telling her how I was in need of some cute new clothes, as I had gotten the reduction, and was so excited about the bathing suit, and I was a little bummed that they didn't have anymore in my size.) I looked down at the ticket that I was scratching, and I'm sure you can guess what happened next....
I WON!!!!! I GOT A WINNING TICKET!!!!
Ladies, I was awarded with about $225.00 worth of free stuff from the PINK store!!!! I got to choose 5 panties, a bralette, yoga pants, sweatpants, a tank top, and perfume!!!
When I say that being positive has changed my life, I truly believe, from the bottom of my heart, that God and the universe are watching, and when you are positive and do good things, you will be awarded!!! I am putting myself out there, and feeling amazing doing it!
I hope you all get on the positivity train, and I hope that you also experience the amazing benefits that it can have on your soul...
Much love to you all, and I hope everyone's doing as amazing as me :))
8 week Pics
Just a quick update. I'm doing great. I've started going to the gym and doing some upper body exercising to help me get my strength back. I went a few days last week and I'm hoping to do more each week :) Unfortunately I'm a fighting a scratchy throat right now, so I've been home resting today drinking a lot of hot lemon water. Hopefully after a good nights sleep I'll be feeling much better tomorrow :)
As far as my lovely lady lumps ;) I'm really doing well! No changes from last week, so I'm not posting any pics this week. I did start using Mederma for scars last week, but I don't do it every single day, so I'm not sure how it's going to work. We'll see... Oh, I also have a couple of stitches coming through, which is just weird. They don't hurt, I just find them annoying. I'll just trim them down.
Anyways, that's all for now... I hope everyone is doing well. Healing swiftly and painlessly, and keeping a positive attitude :))
Thanks for listening!
So far, so good :) He was very informative and reassuring during the consult. I am so happy with Dr. Brown. He and his staff have been unbelievably wonderful. I would recommend him to anyone going for this procedure, for sure! I have had a very worry free recovery, for the most part, but I did call the office with a concern and they quickly had a nurse on the line with me. She answered my question very professionally and courteously. Other than that, I haven't had to contact him via email or phone, so I can guess that he would have been very quick to respond, based on the experience that I've had so far.