24 Years Old… No longer do I want boobs, I finally HAVE boobs! 410/380cc Sientra Silicone Mod Plus- Miami, FL
Hi everyone, I want to start off by saying coming...
Update- my current size now. Pretty FLAT!
More up flat preop pictures.
Here are addition pics of me postop flat chested! I feel like the pictures I've been posting are ones of me with my so called "cleavage"... This is me BRA-LESS! Now you can see the difference and I am indeed very flat! Help! :(
Home made rice sizers!!!!
Bought my first compression sports bra!
I already have of a list of things I need for the surgery: scar cream, cocoa butter, soup, Gatorade, prunes (just from what I hear after the surgery *hint hint), neck pillow, zip hoodie/ button up shirts, ect. I haven't gotten all of them yet because its too soon, but I have made my list. I always like preparing that way I don't forget anything.
Off topic, I think I'm going to buy the book called "The Defining Decade" a book about adults in their 20s and how important those years are. I think I will read that when I'm in recovery mode... When I'm not in and out of sleep. I'm planning to take off 6 days of work... Hope that will be plenty of time to recover. Lol anyone has ever read that book? Any good?
What I need to do is hit the gym!!! I need to get as much work out in as possible. I want to lose 10 lbs before. The bloating scares me. Gaining all that weight, that's not fun at all. Any suggestions of ways to lose weight? I eat fairly healthy, only drink water and Gatorade, minimal alcohol (1-3 beers every 2 weeks), maybe eat out once a week, cardio 3-4 times a week, yet I can't seem to lose weight. I'm at 123 lbs on a good day. Would love to be 110 lbs - 115 lbs. Help!
How to make time fly?
Im working all this week then next week I'm getting off work early on Thursday March 6th to head to Miami. My family is from there but my job takes me to a different part of the state. I have my 3 consultations on Friday March 7th. First one at 8:45am, the next at 11:30am and last at 2pm. I hope that's enough time to squeeze them all in. I'd be devastated if I miss one, sometimes I hear there are delays even when u have an appointment- typical doctors office.. But I plan on coming at least 30-45 mins before, they are all located within 20 mins of each other. I have already filled out my paperwork for 2 of the offices to save some time. One was online the other they sent to me! All getting so close! I'm aiming for mid April to actually have the surgery! Just in time for summer!
i was really thinking about financing, but reading AWFUL reviews about care credit makes me not want to go that route. I've been saving and could pay half up front and possibly borrow the rest from family, but i really want to kind of do it myself because this is for me u know. I'm worried about capsular contracture/ rippling/ bottoming out.... i mean u never know. It's scary. You cant control what happens sometimes. I feel like sometimes i'm getting "boobie withdrawals" but i really do want this... it's too late to go back now. I have already spent like over $100 bucks on new bralettes/ bustiers/ sports bra. I'm so excited, i can't contain myself when i go shopping. I find myself in the lingerie/ bra department just browsing thru the cute stuff.
Anyways.... what do you ladies think on care credit?.... anyone financed their service thru them? I hear they have "promotional periods" interest free- however they do get you somehow and u end up paying way more than you agreed and then you cant do anything but to PAY IT because it will mess up your credit if you don't. UGH.
I couldn't help myself!!!
I'm really wanting a full C. I think 350cc would be good for me.... Or maybe 375cc... Ahhh! Lol what a decision! I added some pics of a cute push up bikini too I got for $14. I find it crazy that cute bras and cute tops like lingerie and bustiers usually are cheap. Of course the girls with NO boobs have to pay $50 for one freakin VS bonbshell to make it look like we have something! lol oh don't be fooled by pics, I stuffed then with my homemade rice sizers. Lol oh and don't mind me, I'm so pudgy, I'm kind of bloated as well, feel my lovely monthly friend going to pay me a visit soon. Ugh. Joy of being a female. I'll keep u ladies posted.
Woke up feeling bummed and sad... :(
Freaking myself out!
Not feeling myself- Mixed feelings! :(
So I'll be meeting all the PS this friday. I'll be heading to Miami Thursday evening. I'm getting off work hopefully a few hours early. It's a long drive. My sister is going with me but I dont know if she's going to the consultations with me. Anyways.... I had TOTALLY FORGOT a BIG/ SMALL factor that could prevent me from even having the surgery and it's stressing me the hell out. It just dawned on me yesterday. Since I was born, I've always had a minor HEART MURMUR. A heart murmur is basically an irregular heart beat. I've never needed surgery or anything for it. But I do recall going to the doctors when I was like in middle school twice a year just to check up on it. I'm so worried now that this can prevent me from going thru with the surgery. I'm so worried that if i did go thru with it and knowing this, maybe my heart will just stop in the middle of surgery because it can't take the trauma to my body and anesthesia. My friend told me about the rapper- Kanye West's mom who passed away getting cosmetic surgery, she had complications and went into cardio arrest. I know I'll have to have medical clearance before being given the go to get the surgery. Does anyone know what pre-op testing is involved before having the surgery?? Mammogram? Blood test?.... I'm 24 years old, so i think i'm a bit young to have a mammogram now. Did anyone had any pre-existing conditions before going into surgery?... Of course, i am planning to be upfront and tell the PS. I would NOT hide that. I'm just sad now because I might get NO as my answer that i'm not a candidate.... all the cute tops i've been buying in bigger sizes gone to waste. :( I honestly feel like once i see the doctor I will have some type of relief. What I really want is an ANSWER. I feel like I'm healthy... I don't smoke, no drugs (never ever did drugs- hard to believe no one believes me I never even tried), I barely drink- well compared to most people my age, no asthma, no diabetes... My mom has crohn's disease which is an intestine inflammation disease and it is hereditary, but I don't think i have that. You'd definitely know if you have that- PAINFUL!!!
Also... to top things off... I have not gotten my period, I have been feeling cramps and discomfort for the last 3 days... "pre-pmsing" however i'm not actually on my period.... By all means, I know I'm NOT pregnant. There will be no way I am for sure about that. I'm an normally irregular- like every 5 weeks or so. But hopefully i get it soon. I just want it NOW! I don't want to get it when I get down to Miami- puts me in the worse mood. Plus I wanted to go to South Beach this saturday too and get my tan on. I honestly don't want to go bloated and fat. I don't want to attract sharks too. Lol :( And none of the offices have called to confirm my consultations- what if i'm not even on the calendar?.... I'll be calling tmrw to make sure. But all this is coming down on me and I'm worried about EVERYTHING. All this crap in my head is throwing me off. I can't concentrate at work. My amazing BF who works an hour away and stays with his family during the week days is taking off work tmrw and thursday to see me before I head to Miami.... I honestly just want to hug someone. Someone help me... I just want to roll in a ball and cry. :(
I'm gaining my sanity again! :)
So 2 things have been lifted from my shoulders... it explains why i was acting and feeling extremely weird and crazy. I was bloated/ tired/ boobs sensitive and hurt/ constipated/ i felt soooo heavy and no energy/ I pee'd like 4 times an hr. Well those are symptoms very similar to pregnancy and period. But anyways.... so I made it to Miami! I left my house a bit late, the drive wasn't too bad... long but i listened to good music and my sister kept me company until she fell asleep. Lol I'm so anxious now. I need to shower and get ready for bed. I'm setting my alarm for 7am. I made sure everything was okay and good to go. I called all 3 offices today to confirm my appointment... I was so worried that they didn't have me on the calendar for the consultation and i didn't want to go to the offices and be like "I'm here for my consultation" and they tell me i'm not on their schedule. I'd be so embarrassed. Only thing was i called them before they could call me. LOL They didn't have a chance to call and confirm because I did it before them. You can just see how anxious I am, i can't contain myself. Im going to the consultations alone, which is fine, as long as in surgery i have someone with me. I'm excited to meet all the doctors tmrw! Wish me luck girls! The journey is really finally starting for me!!!! Thank you all for your support and kind encouraging words... means the world to me. :)
My second consultation was with Dr. Hochstien. Boy, let me tell you. I had a feeling from the beginning that he wasn't the right PS for me... just the way I am how i need someone to be personal and accommodate to my needs and concerns. I understand he's confident in his work, but geez, think how i feel doing this for the first time. I waited 30 mins passed my schedule appt. I kid you not, i saw him for maybe 5-10 mins. He came in and told me what he would do, which he said something completely different from the first PS. He said that my right nipple and breast are a mess. (I'm aware it's different) But he suggest a breast life on that breast and a nipple reconstruction so it matches the left one. That kind of threw me off since the first said it's not an issue. I also so many questions and he seemed frustrated at me. I asked him something in the middle of him explaining the procedure, he really said "I'm about to get there, can i finish first??" I felt like that was so rude. The girls at the office weren't really friendly. Kind of felt stuck up to me. Also, when i was in the room trying on the sizers, another girl walked in open the door and was like "Oh i didn't know anyone was in here."... Wow really?!?... Anyways, needless to say I left there with so many questions unanswered and very disappointed. He's just not for me. He said I can go anywhere from like 339-397 cc i believe he carries only allergan/ natrelle brand implants.
Last doctor was Dr Messa. The best is saved for last. I secretly had a gut feeling that THIS IS GOING TO BE MY PS from the start. Always go with your gut. I came in and the girl at the desk was so nice, i filled out a few paperwork. He saw me within about 10 mins. He came in and greeted me. So warm and welcoming. I felt so comfortable. He took a look at my breast, mentioned my right boogie problem (nipple kinda of lower and boob is a lil smaller and droopy), he suggested a mastopexy and the incision thru the nipple so he can adjust the placement and make it more centered. He said with my body I can go anywhere from 325-400cc. I tried them on. I really think 350cc-375 cc for me. But its better to go with larger just so i dont regret it. I haven't made any final choices. What blew me away and what I love about Dr. Messa is he answered all my questions before i even could ask them! I kinda drew a blank and he seemed like he knew what i wanted to ask but forgot. He went into the procedure/ recovery/ when to wear a bra/ when to exercise/ how long to take off/ bottoming out/ rippling/ capsular contracture/ medical clearance/ pre op appt/ post op appt. I told him about my heart murmur. He said it shouldn't be an issue and is common. He said he feels like I'm a healthy 24 year old. Then i met with Maria the coordinator, she was helpful with the quote and more additional questions. Also, he carries ALL the brands of implants, sientra/ allergen/ mentor/ natrelle. And they don't have to be ordered, they said they have them in office since they are basically high volume and high demand, they always keep them stocked. Anyways... I have found my doctor. Only lil disappointment here is that i cant find many recent realself reviews on him, i dont get it cause he's freakin awesome! So I told them I wanted to think it over and talk to my fam and bf about it over the weekend before I decided to commit. But i spoke about open operation days, of course, the time I want it done, he's going to be busy or gone! :( He's out 2 weeks the end of April for some convention/conference or something. Regardless he's going to be out. Awww. They have early april, which i feel is still too soon- I need to do preop test, come back in 2 weeks for preop exam and pay it off. I feel like it's not good timing for me. So next available date is May 1st which is a thursday. I'm pretty much set on that. I'll call Monday to see if I can lock it. Still need my bf's approval because he has to take off of work to help me. I'm so freakin excited!!!!! All the stress and everything is easing up. The only stress now is do I want 350cc, 375 cc, 400cc. I dont want to get boob greed but I want to be happy and proportional. AHHHHH! I really liked the 325CC to be honest, started to feel like 375cc is too big and heavy but i see some girls that go bigger like 400cc-500cc and look awesome.
All the quotes for the BA were a lil more than I planned, i had no idea i had so many issues with my right breast that's going to cost me more. But i guess it's what i get for coming in to see a plastic surgeon that specializes in fixing what's wrong and making it as perfect as can be.
The journey begins! My family is so excited for me. They can't wait to see the final results. My sister, friends, bf were all texting and calling my thru out the day to see how it went. I went by myself to the consultation but i didn't feel alone. I'm so happy that I went to Target after and bought 2 more cute bikini tops. That's how excited I am! Thanks for your support ladies! I'm coming to BOOBIELAND soon!
Nudies of what I'm working with!
Okay… Excited but still confused with tons of questions!
Also, I was suggested by 2 out of the 3 plastic surgeons that i should get a mastopexy to fix my right breast. It's droopy and the nipple is not centered so with the implant in, it will be very noticeably crooked compared to my left…. I remember dr mesa said that he will only be going thru my nipple, but taking a look at mastpopexy surgeries the scar is from the nipple to the crease. OMG I do NOT want that…. :( I have to clarify with the doctor and make sure…. I definitely want to prepare myself for what i'm getting myself into besides a breast augmentation. I feel like it's slightly lower and nipple is not centered… the more I look at it, it definitely bothers me. I feel like Dr Messa will know what is best and I trust him, but we need to be on the same page…. Take a look at the picture before. THIS IS NOT ME, but that is what a mastopexy surgery looks like…. :( It's an awful scaring, of course you don't see from the top of the breast, but naked… omg it's not appealing- plus i'm only 24, and have NO kids, yet my natural boobs are droopy and saggy. :(
So anyways… I called the office and asked about the quote- At Dr. Messa's office, he does NOT break down the quote, it is all inclusive. There's no anesthesia price/ implant price. I was a lil taken back, I called to see if they could drop it…. i am an AWFUL negotiator. Lol Maria the office coordinator was firm in the quote. She said the breast augmentations are usually $5,500 and since I'm getting the mastopexy lift on my right boobie that's $500 extra bringing it to $6,000. I'm kinda wondering to see more doctors, but I think with Dr. Messa it will be worth it. It's not all about the price, it's about afterwards, how i look and feel and the process of getting it done. It just sucks cause i have a budget. i'm not a money tree. lol But i was researching mastopexy/ benelli lifts (same thing/ different name)…. I was horrified of the scar from the nipple to the crease. I learned it was called "LOLLIPOP incision" just like the shape of a lollipop. But when i asked Maria, she actually clarified that i will NOT be getting the lollipop incision, THANK GOD! I'm actually getting a "peri-areola incision" which basically is cutting around the whole nipple. The scaring won't be too bad especially when it will fade over time. I'm super excited now, time to lose that gut and extra weight. As of right now, reading everyone's stories, I'm set on Mentor- Silicone- Mod profile- 375ccs. Dr Messa said he will definitely help me achieve a natural full C/Small D look. Originally I wanted 300-325 cc, but i feel like just an lil extra won't hurt…. I think maybe 400 cc will be just too heavy on my chest. I went to VS the other day just to look, and the 32 D bras doesn't look big at all…. for some reasons me and my small boobies always imagine a size D as a HUGE GRANNY bra. Lol I guess it's because I don't have big boobs to pay attention to that size. Also, on a brighter note, my mom who is supportive but didn't think i'm actually going thru with it until she discovered I had already seen my PS, she is extremely supportive now. She even offered to drive me and take off of work to help me. That made me feel so much better…. however i feel like it's my BF's place to care for me since he is like my other half. I've been with him for 4 years, we're basically an old married couple without the title. Lol He's been there for me thru everything, holding my hair when i'm throwing up, cleaning my vomit, taking care of me when i'm at my worst, so this should be a common thing for him. Lol I love him to death! I'm excited now for boobies! :)
Late night thought and research!
I showed my bf what my chest looked like in a bandeau bikini top n told him its so flat and he was like now I know why u want one, it will make u happier and more comfortable in your skin! Glad everyone is finally coming around and understanding why I really want this. I'm not trying to attract men, I'm not trying to look fake, not trying to get attention... I want this so I'm happier with myself and comfortable with myself. I'll admit I am insecure about that part of my body and I will be happier to just be confident and sexy in my own conservative way. I'm not a flashy kinda girl. I'm really down to earth and humble and keep to myself. I hate how ppl think I'm getting this for the wrong reasons and preach that "you should be happy with what god gave you...." kinda BS. Lol well god created plastic surgeons so they are here to fix things I can't fix. Lol that is all!
Kill me... Not really!
Yay! Update! Thank you God for blessing me.
I know i said i had already picked my date, but i hadn't put down the deposit. Well today i decide it is definitely time to commit and lock in the date. I call Maria the surgery coordinator…. She tells me Dr. Messa is booked up until May 29th. OMG…. are you effing kidding me?…. I knew he was popular but damn, they weren't joking when they said that he books up quickly. I just saw him less than 2 weeks ago and she told me she had a few days in April and May 1st available. I had chosen May 1st the whole time and wanted to confirm with my BF so he can take off of work to come with me. It ends up working out perfectly for May 1st because his work partner needs off that weekend too because he has to watch his kids while his wife is out of town for a bachelorette cruise. It would of been perfect, I literally wanted to cry when she said it was booked until end of May. I was like ohhhh noooo, is there anything sooner?…. I honestly do not want to spend all of June recovering. I want to recover in May so June I can be enjoying my bikini and the sun. Anyways…. Maria got a call in and had to call me back. I was really bummed. However, when she called me back… She told me she could get me in on Friday MAY 2nd!!!!!!! Which is perfect! Dr Messa usually doesn't have surgery on Fridays, but he is taking me first thing in the morning. Is that not the most sweetest plastic surgeon ever? I feel like my journey with this has come so far, but yet hasn't even started. I've been lucky from the consultations to picking my perfect surgeon to scheduling my date. So May 2nd! 6 weeks from this friday! My pre op appointment is set for Monday April 14th, where i have to pay in full and i'll do blood test and settle on size, all that good stuff.
As mentioned before in my post yesterday I have gotten my period again this month when i had ended just a lil over a week ago. I am probably experiencing HUGE stress and anxiety. And with life in the way I just have to continue and push forward. My bf is amazing and so sweet he surprised me and sent me a HUGE arrangement of Pink Roses to my work! My favorite! If you know my bf, he's not big on being romantic or thoughtful at all. He's more like the guy to be there for you when you need him and take care of things when you need it taken care of. Everyone was paying me attention because how could you miss this huge bouquet? Lol I am not usually the type to be the center of attention so it was a lil awkward for me. I literally feel like i'm floating on cloud 9 today. I booked my surgery and my bf has made my day/ week/ month/ year. He texted me and let me know he wants to always be there for me and will take care of me when i need him. I feel so blessed and lucky that this journey has taught me a lot of things about myself. it makes it easier with my support system behind me. I couldn't imagine doing this alone. :)
My prep is April 14th. 3 weeks and 3 days from now. :) My surgery is 6 weeks from yesterday. I feel like it's going to fly by quick!
Anyways here is a pic of a peri- areola incision to fix my right boob. It's very minor.
Surgical bra! Help.
Excited! Every day passes by, one day closer….
Ready to be sexy! I'm not one of those girls who is ashamed of having small boobs and wanting to change it by getting a BA, i think everyone in my whole family and even at my work knows i'm doing this! I told my manager i needed off for the consultation and for the surgery. She was supportive. Even all my guy friends know and keep asking me if i'm excited?…. I have a friend that is constantly reminding me i'm one day closer. This isn't a secret, I don't care, i will embrace this journey! If anyone says anything about me having "fake tits" i'll be like "YEA SO WHAT?…. YOUR POINT IS????" …. Hahaha Beautiful boobies and proud.
Sometimes my fears/ anxiety/ stress get the best of me as you can see in my previous post. I'm anxious… seeing some post op it makes me scared. I can only pray mine will come out and i'll be super happy. I hope mine just look round and fuller. I'm scared of the "BOXY look" or too high up to the collar bone, I'm hoping mine will look like those results, where they are just swollen. I can see why girls hate them at first because they are so ugly when you first get them in. Ahhhh…. Let's do this! :)
BTW my loving boyfriend is just the funniest supportive guy ever! As i type this he is glue to the TV watching Monster's Inc…. hahahah he'll be 28 years old this year and he's still a kid. Oh I love him so much. LOL
OH FORGOT TO ADD….
After my boobs settle and look phenomenal… I was kinda thinking of doing like a boudoir/ lingerie shoot. I saw it on another fellow real selfer's post and it looked awesome. Do you guys think that is a good idea?… I could like put something together for my BF… I've never been the girl to be super sexy, I don't even think anyone has ever called me "sexy"…. I'm always "pretty/cute" I think it's because i'm so small 4"11 and my face looks young- ppl always ask what high school i go to or if i'm old enough to work yet. :( It's annoying but i guess it's a compliment. It's just out of my element to do a photoshoot- I'm not even that photogenic…. Lol I guess i look decent with makeup on. It's going to be so awkward being half naked infront of photographer especially since i'm never naked in front of anyone….But i think it would be a good experience and having something to look back on when i'm older and say "damn I was hot"... Lol
On a brighter note, my surgery is 5 FREAKING WEEKS from today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot believe that. I know 5 weeks may seem super long to some people, but since I started seriously considering having a BA since end of January, i feel that 5 weeks is so short! I have so much to do, so much to buy before hand. UGH. The time is going to fly by. I already put my request to take off of work. I will be out for 5 days for recovery starting Friday May 2nd-6th, hope that will enough, then I'm able to work from home 2 days so basically 2 extra days to recover May 7-8, my job is done over the phone and laptop. Then i'll be coming in to work that Friday and i'll be back off 2 more days for the weekend… so i don't think it will be that bad at all. I feel that once you get your BA, time flies. I'm excited and everyone knows how excited I am… I feel like i'm going to change into a new woman. I'll be so much confident and happy with myself. :)
Almost 4 weeks. 2 weeks until pre op!
4 weeks counting down!
Shopping!!!!!! VS OUTLET!
I also went to Marshall's just to browse and I found a super comfy jockey racer back sports bra. I got a medium. I wore my bombshell today like everyday n tried the sports bra on top and BAM!!!! Love the look! Hoping with my new boobs it will look like that! :) excited! 4 weeks from now I will have some new assets. Lol
Bad tan lines!!!!!
Ladies… It's kicking in!!!!
So late night thought…. :)
So just to throw it out there, I was having a late night thought that I wanted to share with anyone who cares. It's personal and off topic to boobies. So me and my BF have been together for 4 years, of course it's not easy. We have some moments we were on the rocks and ended up taking a break for a few months. 4 years def takes a toll on the relationship and each other because you are changing and growing into who you want to be. Well in the mean time on our break, I had met another guy, I wouldn't say I dated him because he knew I just got out of a long relationship. But we bonded instantly and there was a lot of chemistry. Wasn't a typical guy you meet and just have to act all shy and pretty around. We clicked because we were so down to earth. But long story short, he had hurt me with his bad habits- trust was a big thing for me, and no matter what, from what I saw I couldn't trust him. We argued a lot too because of it…. I remember one time we went out to eat and we sat at the bar, he was on his phone texting another female right next to me, I clearly could see her picture, how disrespected I feel. He always kept like 5 females on the back burner for back ups and I wasn't with that. Well I had enough and we eventually stopped talking for a while and one day he hit me back up… he ended up getting in a relationship with this GORGEOUS girl, she is the type always doing photo shoots and she worked as like a bottle girl at some night club. You can imagine, perfect, pretty face, banging body (fake tho from the ass to boobs but I don't have much room to speak because I will join the boobs club in 3 weeks LOL). Well they broke up after a few months… he came running back. He said she wasn't all that, just a pretty face, but no good conversation and nothing new to bring to the table. Well seeing her and what she looked like, omg she was sooo pretty. It kinda made me feel worthless… I felt like I wasn't good enough even tho i felt like my personality is a killer and I'm like the most laid back chick ever. I just felt more insecure about myself, i was questioning myself, like what is wrong with me? My body, my face, my looks…. what was it?…. I didn't feel pretty or beautiful at all, like i said in my last post, i'm pretty much invisible to most ppl… well looking back, I just wanted to share with everyone, my lesson learned the hard way: Don't ever let a man or another person/ friend/ family make you feel like your WORTHLESS. We're all worth something, tho we may not be the prettiest or have the perfect smile, I know for damn sure, everyone deserves to be happy and respected. I just thought how I was in such a negative place in my life feeling depressed and down because I felt like I wasn't good enough with my looks… I snapped out of it once i realize i deserve better.
Of course i'm not getting boobs because of that a** hole, I wanted them before I met him. Just never had it done when I knew him, now guess my bf will enjoy them all to himself, he deserves it for putting up with me. Lol Well i'm completely done with the other guy, eventually me and my bf got back together and been happy since… he treats me with respect and the way i should be treated. Each one of us deserves respect. There is always someone whether it's a companion or even family that will show you your worth. I know this site is mainly about females a bit insecure about parts of their body they wish to change, well go on then, do what you gotta do to be happy! You deserve it! We deserve it! :) honestly without all you ladies positive comments and post, i'd probably wouldn't be doing a BA, the thought would still be roaming around in my mind instead of actually counting down the days until my BA. Lol THANKS for the support!
Only 3 more weeks!!!!
I can't stop laughing! I made it worse!
Pre Op DONE. What a nightmare.
First off.. I still love my doctor regardless of what i went thru. Lol well I was rushing my head off the whole day because I had to rush to the bank to deposit the last of my balance to make the final payment when i go into the pre op appt. I had to work as well. So I woke up and worked for 2 hrs, rushed out the door and went to the bank- there was like 6 ppl in front of me. Ugh what luck. I was freakin out because i had to rush to the other side of town in like 20 mins and my GPS said it would take 25 mins. Luckily I made it, only 3 mins late. They had me wait maybe a few mins before taking me back- had me fill out a lot of paper work. The the nurse came in and took my pictures, run over the procedure/size/medication/ prepping me before before hand. What foods to avoid. Showering and all that good stuff…. THEN it came to the anticipated blood test! I HATE needles and blood. Ugh i get so queazy when it comes to that. My worst fear was that she would have to poke me multiple times to get the blood… well my fear became reality. She poked my right arm and not enough blood came out. She had to poke me again. Missed the vein. Then poked me again and had to wiggle the needle once it was inside me. STILL NOTHING! UGHHH OWWWW! I'm such a baby. She was like i give up and we need to do the other arm. Finally she got it on the 4th try! She got the blood she needed. OWWW. Now my arm is bruised up. Ugh i hate giving blood. But anyways I got all the prescriptions and i even bought the special soap to use before surgery and I also bought anti bruising pills because i know i bruise so easily i don't want to come out with black and blue boobs. Lol Anyways Im glad i drove back to miami for the prep, so informative and helpful in preparing. They said since i'm from out of town i could just do the blood work at a clinic/lab/doc office. But i wanted to know what i needed to do in detail and have my questions all answered. So to go into the procedure…. They will call me thursday and let me know the time to be in on Friday May 2nd the day of my surgery. It should be anywhere from 7am-noon. Then saturday I have to go back in because they are sending me in bandage wraps not a surgical bra. When i come in saturday, I will get the bra and have the bandage taken off. Saturday the office is closed, but the told me someone will be at the office for sure. WHICH I LOVE. Someone is going out of their way on the weekend for me. Aww. Probably not just me, but anyone who has surgery on Fridays because Dr Messa usually does not do procedures on friday. He was nice to pencil me in or i'd have to wait until end of May/june when his next opening is. Then i'll come back on Monday and see him before i go back home.
He told me to find a bunch of pics of the look I want…. I'm scared/excited/nervous…. hoping not to get cold feet and call off the whole thing. AHHHH! Paid in full and counting down. Now it's time for me to get my list together of things i need to prepare myself. :) Any suggestions of things i need, let me know….
The look I'm going for! Wish pics!
I feel nervous and anxiety!
So of course I decided the perfect timing to work out again is 2 weeks before surgery. lol i make no sense sometimes. I still feel a bit chunky. I wanna keep my shape but without the fat. I wish I had like killer abs n a nice junk. lol I have all this flab and rolls n muffin tops over my pants. Ugh. Lol They told me so not work out my arms from now until surgery I guess that way my muscles are normal n not sore or torn. I have to stop working out all together 2 days before surgery. I'm so anxious. I dropped off my prescriptions today too. I'll get them tomorrow after work. It's coming together! 15 days!!!!!!!!! Ahh!
So if anyone is curious, I just wanted to share my nationality.... I'm 100% ASIAN. An Asian female natural figure is very petite and flat. So my figure is a lil different from the average Asian female. I guess I'm a lil lucky. Usually they are all small and flat front to back n super skinny. Some reason I didn't end up u like the stereotype. I have curves and meat on my bones n chubby thighs. Lol I am still short tho explains 4"11. lol but it's probably because I was born in America. I eat different than I would if I was born in Asia. I get asked if I'm mixed with Spanish/white all the time. Lol
2 weeks! Am I ready or not?!! Getting cold feet?
Anyways…. I went to walmart and bought all the stuff i need and picked up my prescriptions. I need ice packs and I'm going to buy tons of gatorade. Here are some pics again…. nothing exciting, just posting of the "IDEAL LOOK" that i want. i hope Dr Messa will understand what i want. ALL implants are beautiful from low profile to ultra high profile. However, everyone has their own opinion about what type of look and implant they want. Personal for me, I love the round natural look but not at the top of breast. I rather have them more round than projected. I DO NOT mean to offend anyone who has this look. This is just me and how i would like mine. Some girls like the really fake look, others like natural, and others like it where it's not even noticeable. Anyways… as mention, probably like many of us wear bombshell that add 2 cup size, i wear mine EVERYDAY I cannot live without it and that is the look i want, but i want them to be my own and not the bra. :) I have friends and coworkers that are excited to see them afterwards and i told them, it probably won't be a difference because it will be the same size I am not, i just can wear a regular nonpadded bra and not a bombshell. :)
Oh yea, I also wanted to say… I think i'm about to get my period. WHICH I HOPE SO. i do not want to get it on my BA or in recovery. Lol I started breaking out a lil and my TITS GOT NATURALLY BIGGER. I think my boobs know and sense something like in their near future there are going to be some BIG changes. Lol They usually get sore, but this time it's not. But i notice they are like more round n a tad swollen so i figure its almost that time of the month- i hope i get it soon or next week and not the week after. I'll also post some pics of the look that i DO NOT want…. Again, i'm not trying to offend anyone and i love the UHP look on some girls but it's not for me. My preference. :) some wish pics from fellow real self members!
The look I DO NOT want!!!!
Getting anxious! Help ladies!
Wow! Can you believe it?… Time never stops thats for sure… Next Friday I will be a new woman! I also got my hair done too this past weekend. It's super blonde, I usually have like dark with blonde highlights but i feel like for me to be a new woman, I kinda wanted to change up my look for a "new me!" It kind of bothered me today, i went into work today and someone came up to me and said did i dye my hair because of my boobs???… and he said it looked like i'm going for the "SOUTH BEACH" look…. which i am not. I am conservative, i wear typical florida attire- shorts/tank tops year round. And at work i dress professional. I hate how ppl these boobs are changing me as a person. NO! it's boosting my own confidence so i'm happy with myself. I am not doing this for anyone but me. I'm not trying to be someone i'm not. This will not change my personality. If anything, it will make me a happier person.
Anyways…. this weekend i need to get my house all cleaned- tho i won't be staying here. But when i come back from miami i want to come home to a clean home. I also need to get any last min things for post op. Trying my hardest to calm down and relax. I think once next week hits, i'm going to be super anxious and nervous and stressed. I just want to fast forward.
Also, In my last post, i mention my boobs getting sore and big- period is coming. better happen this week!!! I refuse to have mother nature give me my period when i'm having surgery or in recovery! UGH. I feel minor cramps now and i can't take any midol or anything right now, only tylenol.
Please let me know if I'm missing anything on my list:
Post op bra
1 cotton front clasp bra/ 1 front zip bra
gatorade/ gingerale/ lots of water
cocoa butter lotion
zantac (doc recommend to take it the night before for acid)
vitamin C/ multivitamin
Tylenol Extra strength
I'm not sure about scar cream yet- since i'll be seeing my the day after surgery and the following monday (i'll be 3 days post op) I figure i'll ask him then. I'll keep everyone posted.
Forgot To add!!!!!
Numbers!!!!!!!!!! 375/350 or 400/375cc?????????
I'm 1 week pre op. Next Friday i will be a new woman! I'm so ready to get this over with! i'm tired of talking about it, i just want to get it done and start recovering and experience all the changes! I'm thinking my pain tolerance is kinda up there, but i've never been put in a lot of pain before for an extensive period of time. I only had like piercings/ no tattoos/ car accidents/ tooth pulled… those are the only pain i can think of that i've experience. All i gotta focus on is having a strong mind set to make it thru. I'm hoping it will be a breeze, but knowing my drama queen self i will feel like death. lol
So plan is my bf will come with me to Miami after work thursday. We should be arriving late since both work until 5pm. May make it there around midnight, and have maybe 6 hrs of sleep if we're lucky. I won't know the exact time of surgery until my doc calls the day before. I guess it's because they wanna see if there will be any cancelations and all that. But i know it's anywhere from 7am-Noon. I'm actually pretty calm right now about it, and i hope i stay this way for the next week, but i think once monday hits i will be suffering from more anxiety. :( i just know myself. HELP LADIES! I think i pretty got much all the essentials i need- i'm going to stock up a lil more on gatorade/ ginger ale and soup- but worst comes to worst my bf or family can run out to get the stuff i need when I'm there. I'm a side sleeper so I'm def not looking forward to sleeping on my back at an angle- basically in a sit up position. Wish me luck. Still no period too- but it will be coming hopefully next day or so- mother nature is killing me with these pre pms cramps. Lol I get short periods but painful ones- last about 4 days so better be here in the next day or so so that way it's over in time for surgery.
5 days my ladies!!!!
Anyways usually my periods are AWFUL- heavy cramping and painful but short lived- it should be bye bye by tuesday and wednesday the latest. I usually take midol or pamprin but my doc said that thins out my blood so no. Isn't it so crazy how hormones change your body like crazy? Look how big my boobies got… They swell up. I'm posting a pic of me with my least padded bra 34A from VS- it's still very padded but not as padded as a bombshell bra since that's like double padded. But my boobs look great… sad that they will shrink in a few days when my period is gone. Sometimes i look at them and i'm like "NO BACK OUT NOW, MY BOOBS ARE FINE AND BIGGER THAN SOME GIRLS SO BE HAPPY!" But then… I look at myself in a bathing suit or braless and i'm like "I WANT TO DO THIS!" hahaha I'm playing with my own head.
Im enjoying my last free mobile weekend and relaxing- next weekend i will be immobile and a NEW WOMAN! So i went and laid out today by the pool to get some more color- here in Florida it is HOT- today was like 88 degrees. Felt amazing out. BUT… i realize when i was at the pool, i'm fine laying out and in the water, but i'm not comfortable walking around- i really don't want people seeing my body. I'm still very self conscious and insecure of my boobs, my legs, and stomach. I know some may think i'm crazy and weird, but i just see myself different. Very chunky and sometimes i even think my body proportion is DEFORMED. My upper half looks like it doesn't belong with my lower half. Until about 6 months ago, i was actually starting to accept my body. No one has ever made me feel very comfortable in my own body where i had the confidence to walk around the house naked or wear certain clothing. Not my bf, not my family. I always hear "Your nipples are too big…. you have cellulite… your thighs are huge…. you have manly arms…. back fat…. love handles… muffin tops…" All this has haunt me. I always feel like everyone is judging me when they look at my body. So i was in the pool today and I waited like 30 mins before getting out because i didn't want anyone to look at me. I kept looking around to see if everyone was busy before i got up and speed walk over to my towel. I'm weird i know. :( Anyways… can't wait for this… Ready to have some chest curves to add to my body. I'm trying to be as relax as possible and do some last min shopping for things i need. Picking out my clothes and starting to pack. I work Mon- Thurs and thursday i'm getting out early. I still haven't figured out size yet… i think the more i am fixated on it, it makes me stress out. So anyways- whatever the doc picks I will be happy with. I'm just scared for the pain and scared to wake up and see something i don't want to see. Anyways…. I will post any changes closer to my surgery. 5 DAYS! Thank you everyone for being so supportive thru out my crazy journey, getting so close.
Painful cramps :(
Wednesday… Thursday… Fri… I mean BOOBIES! May 2nd!
So today is April 29th and I had one VS reward card left and i was telling my friend at work how i'm going to stop by the mall after work to pick out something… She ends up having one of her own and gave it to me because she wasn't going to use it. So i went and bought 2 wire free bras and got $20 off. So each bra was technically $15. Super comfy. i know that i should wait on bras… but i assume i will be safe with a 34C sister size of 32D. But if anything I have the receipt and can return if needed or exchange. So i was browsing the store and was looking at 32D and 32DD and even some 34C…. i started getting kind of scared. Lol I was like these are all HUGE cup sizes. WTF!?!? I'm kind of taken back because i don't want to be THAT big. But then again i was like wow girls wear these and it doesn't even look at big. IDK… just a thought. I even tried on the bras and I can fit them now, still partially empty in the cups. You can see come extra space that needs to be filled. Ahhh getting closer and closer. Let's just get this over with. I hate the feeling of suspense and anticipation. Lol i feel pretty prepared. What I need to really prepare is my mind. Strong mind = strong body. :)
Last min prep!
12:30pm MAY 2nd! Tmrw it's going down!
It's here! The day is here!
OMG it's happening!
I'm alive!!!!!!!! I'm here!
So it's 4am....
Mini update for now.
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prays!
Post op DAY 4 with smiles! :)
So i want to go into detail regarding surgery- i feel so up to it to let u guys know since lately my updates have been brief. So day of surgery, i got up and showered with hibiclens soap. I got the call that they wanted to take me an hr early. We got to the office at 11:30am. Took me and had me do a urine sample- took me to the pre op room and started hooking my IV- i was terrified i hate needles. They got my dressed/ socks/ surgery robe- my bf came in and i had a mini break down- started tearing up because i was nervous- he was telling me to keep it together. I made him promise to be there when i wake up, thats the only person i wanted to see. So Dr Messa came in and spoke with me about sizes and look - showed my pics and also where to place the incision- i told him my concerns of breast feeding and he said on my left we can do the crease and the right the mastopexy. But i said i wanted the same incisions on each side, not thru nipple on right and crease on left. I told him i wanted 375/400 because i rather wake up bigger than smaller and he said it would def give me the look i want. But he warned me and said- what i see right out of surgery is NOT the final product so be patient. Then he marked me up- i met the anethesiologist- he was so funny! the nurse took me to the operating room- I walked in like a lil lost scared puppy with big eyes- i was like "whoa- this is so big and bright in here!" They laughed and jokingly asked if i wanted to be operated on in the dark? i was like HELL NO! lol The nurse was prompting up my legs and put booties on… the anesthesiologist said he was going to put some meds in my IV- he told me some ladies start so see the ceiling lights swirl- BAM. i don't even remember sleeping or dozing off. Next i remembered waking up and reaching out my hand for my bf. the recovery room was a tad dim. I was so happy he was there- i asked if i was in HEAVEN. Lol The nurse asked if i was ready to go home, i said yes. I don't even remember being wheel chaired out to the car or the ride home. I got to my moms and slept- when i woke up i was so in discomfort- nauseous/ sore/ tight/ immobile. My bf gave me an oxy and fed me soup- shortly after- a vomit fest begin (sorry) lol I threw up like 5-6 times. I even went pee and sat on the toilet and even leaned over to throw up on the floor matt. How am i suppose to throw up on the toilet when I'm sitting on it? LOL That was a bad bad day- i was crying, screaming bloody murder and couldn't breathe. I kept having panic attacks like i was breathing like i was about to give birth. My fam and bf were freaking out trying to calm me. I even started hallucinating. Day 2 i stayed home and ate soup and in and out of sleep. Day 3 i went to target and walked around and felt better- still had my episodes. Monday i had my post op appt- i woke up and took a oxy- bad idea- no food and i started feeling crappy. Made it to the doc and he checked on me- said everything was great- answered my questions of how long to sleep on my back- 2 weeks elevated 2-3 pillows. Lotion my chest/ switch to tylenol/ advil/muscle relaxer. I am seeing him May 27th for my 3 week check up. He said by then i should be looking semi-normal since i told him i feel like a monster now. I said one side is so swollen and the other is decent. Also- i got my card sizes i'm actually a tad bigger than i wanted- but i don't care anymore, i rather have these sizes than smaller- i am Round Sientra mod plus- 410cc R/ 380cc L. I feel like when the settle they will be what i want.
I apologize for my gross pics- i've been having it rough. I'm so glad the worst is over. Tmrw is my last day being a BUM. I am suppose to be back to work tmrw but I'm still sleepy and tired and not ready to go back to work. Im requesting an additional day off. But thursday and friday- i get to work from home- i brought my work laptop home i just have to be productive because i have like conference calls to take and i work with our field office in Colorado so i'm like constantly on the phone with consultants and clients for our office. I can't be doing that drugged up. Lol. I'll post some pics of the girls now- still bruising on the right (mastopexy). My neck and back still are like UGH- painful but not as bad. No more headaches (knock on wood). I cannot wait until they heal and settle. I like how when i zip up my hoodie you can't even notice them. I can't wait to wear some normal clothes and hide them at work and then the weekend or after work i can be like BAM new boobies.
Though i've been having the hardest time thru my recovery- i know when these tatas settle few months from now- i'll overall be happy i went thru with it and made it. I'm a stronger bi*ch than i thought! :)
Pics post op day 4
Also, i have an older sister, she is 2 years older than me, we use to be super close but we live in different cities and we grew up together but once we hit college we ended up having different lives. I'm a lot closer with my younger sister nowadays. Well my older sister just texted me that she will be in town for memorial day weekend. She wanted to meet up- beach and dinner? Unfortunately i will be back in Miami on Monday/Tuesday because i have my 3 week post op appt. Well she doesn't know i actually got my boobs done. she knew i was toying with the idea for the longest time. She didn't know i had the guts to actually go thru with it. So when i see her in 3 weeks- I'm hoping my boobs will settle more. I'm wondering if i should still "conceal" it and hide it or flaunt it and tell her. I know she'll run back to my other side of the family and tell them, i just don't want them to talk negatively about the whole situation. If any ladies can give me an input i would def appreciate it. :)
Ahhh I looked at them for the first time!
:) I feel good, not great yet, but good!
Post Op Day 6
It was my first day back at work (working from home) but hard for me to concentrate and I was soooo sleepy like around 2pm i wanted a nap. But i managed to get some work in and i haven't napped all day, wanted to get back to a normal sleep schedule.
Also my doc instructed that i take off the surgical bra 8 hrs a day to let the boobs breathe and drop. no band needed. I feel really weird having the bra off and bare my boobs around for 8 hrs. But i took it off and wore a zip jacket, still it's too loose and rubs my nipples and they are way to sensitive. So i found a better solution to wear a white beater tank top with the gauze pads in between. It's like tight enough to protect my boobies but lose enough so they can drop on their own and not be constricted. They aren't extremely high- well just my right one. lefty is behaving. The right one with the mastopexy is troubled. Super hard and super swollen. I am getting to the impatient stage ready for them to settle and drop and soften up. :( It's only day 6. I am looking forward to more days to pass on by so i can see some drastic changes. I don't even mind wearing a sports bra for a few months, i don't need to go bra shopping right away, i just want them to soften up and look normal. :( I feel like 80% but i would like to feel like 110%.
Having boobie blues…. :(
HELP!!!! Post op 1 week
Day 10 post op new pics!!!!
Today was my first day back in the office. It wasn't too bad, i was a tad bit uncomfortable. I accidentally punch myself in the boob by pulling on something that was stuck and then it all a sudden snapped and my hand sprang back and hit myself. OWWW. :( I had to carry my bags to the office and i know I'm not suppose to be carrying anything heavy for at least 2 weeks. Unfortunately my laptop bag and my purse weigh a lot. I was a tad out of breath when i was walking. No one mentioned anything even tho everyone knew i was having my boobs done. I wore a conservative loose button up and a tank top under. I look exactly how i was before surgery wearing my bombshell 24'7. Lol that;s what i wanted.
So here are some pics, i was trying some stuff on. I'm happy with the overall experience but I'm not sure about a lot of things. I want them to settle, and i'm just not happy with the weight on my body. I'd be happy to lost at least 15 lbs and now that i can't even do anything but watch what i eat. I feel like i gained more weight. I think i weighed 128lbs when they weighed me for surgery. Once i get the go to exercise i'm working my ass off so i can fit back into some shorts i use to wear when i was 18. :) I have no excuse cuz i don't have any kids or anything. I just have a big ass mouth and i love to eat. Lol
As far as the new girls, my right is still swollen and high. Pretty much lost sensitivity. My left however, the nipple is way sensitive and the whole boob it's self. I have been having pains on the side by my armpits and side boobs and also underneath the boobies. The bruising has gotten better, thank god. Kinda turned a yellow hint of color, but i've been taking the bruising medications so it goes away. They are perky and hopefully resulting in a more natural look. I'm very glad i didn't go bigger or didn't go smaller. I like my size, i don't think i will have any boob greed, i didn't want them HUGE in the first place, i just wanted them big enough for my 4'11 body. I think just for the heck of it, i'm still going to buy me a VS bombshell once they settle- lol if i want to go big, i'll wear my special VS bra. :) Otherwise, i will enjoy my natural shape. I'm also not wearing a bra to work, the surgical bra is not uncomfortable to me, first it was comfortable and i always wanted to wear it, now once i wake up i can't wait to get that damn thing off. LOL. My boobies aren't square-ish, but they def need the swelling to go down so that way they round out more. :) HAPPY HEALING. Bring patient!
Still having Boobie Blues...
I'm wondering if i made a right decisions now with the whole size and procedure… Still love my doc and his team but… I'm starting to get the opposite of boob greed… maybe i went too big. Is there such thing? I think so. Some pics they look great with my body but others it's like WHOA- TOTALLY FAKE TITS. :( which wasn't the look i was trying to achieve. Maybe i should of stuck with my original size of 300cc. I'm wondering if these will ever get soft and normal. I'm hoping they will shrink. With clothes on they are great, without, i just don't like the way they look right now. Doesn't look like boobs at all. All crazy and ugly looking. :( I was trying some bikinis on that i thought before my BA but in Medium tops (i usually wear small or even x-small) Well even Medium now is a lil too small for me. It was tight. I didn't want to be a Large top and Small bottom. That wasn't the proportion i was aiming for. Ughhhh. Post op appt in 2 weeks. I also wore a cotton bra today to work instead of going braless, it was tight and made creases in my boobs and sides, i went to the bathroom to take it off. Braless feels nicer. I just want them to drop and feel softer.
Also to top things off, i gained a lot of weird. I feel so freakin pudgy and fat. Just want to crawl in my bed and cry… Hope i start feeling better.
2 weeks already?!?!
3 week POST OP!
Now that surgery is over… I will be doing weekly updates instead of updating everyday like how i was because i was so anxious for surgery to come. Came and went, fairly quick. I am 3 weeks post op and I'm slowly coming along! I still have a long way to go, i really think it will be at least like 4-6 months before i will be super happy with the final results. As of now, they look pretty good compared to some other cases i've seen especially since i had more work done (mastopexy lift of the nipple)…
I have my 3 week post op this Tuesday right after memorial day. There are some concerns i have, but maybe it's in my head. Just part of the healing process i suppose. The symmetry is still off, but i can't expect the swelling to be all gone after only 3 weeks. My right boobie is noticeable either larger or more swollen. It is the one with the bigger implant 410/380cc. I'm wondering if i should of just gotten the same size, but pre op i was very noticeable smaller on my right, now it's bigger post op. Lol one extreme to the other. Can i catch a break?
At work, it is not very noticeable at all. I wear more conservative clothing, i don't want to attract any attention and get in trouble. Corporate is very cut throat. You do anything to disrespect others and they will cut you out regardless of your loyalty to the company. A lot of ppl know i had them done, but not noticeable at all, which i love… I've been BRA-LESS at work everyday too. HAHAHA I just wear a tank top under everything and i took out the padding from a bikini and put them to over my nipples. As you know, your nipples are HARD all the time after sugary until they fully heal. Hahaha On the topic of clothing, i definitely love how certain clothes look and i can wear things i would have NEVER worn before because it would of looked awful. lol I do feel sexier in ways… :)
Bad news is i have developed STRETCH MARK on my right breast, left one is so beautiful. Naturally before my BA, i had little stretch marks on my thighs, but not very noticeable at all, they are light and faint. This would be my very first deep stretch mark if u know what i mean. They are raised and you surely can feel them and see them. I think it's because right after surgery i was not moisturizing the skin so it had more elasticity that was stretch causing that. So now they are here. :( I hear if you treat them early they can fade away a lil bit more… Any suggestions on stretch marks?…
I also started at the gym again- shhh! i didn't get the clearance yet. But i couldn't stand being inactive anymore. I have been not doing anything crazy- no weights or upper body work outs. I just power walk 2 miles on the treadmill for 30 mins a day and i been doing squats to tone up my booty. Basically its summer in florida, its 90 degrees on a daily. Im also laying out and going to the pool and beach again, which i love now. Before i would go but i wasn't really comfortable. After all this, i've decided its time for me to happy in my own skin and also take care of myself. I am going to be 25 in a month, so now its time to change my life style and be happy. :) I feel like when your just generally happy, you have a special glow and it attracts positivity, which i need in my life! Anyways… happy healing! :)
Additional pics.... 3 weeks post op.
1 month post op! Do I feel sexy?... Hell yea!!!
I am officially a MONTH post op- 4 weeks ago i had my boobies done. Wow time flies. I am looking forward to another month and a month after that. They are definitely changing. I will do a lil break down and try to keep it short. U guys know i love to babble about nonsense. Lol
So the girls are doing great. I haven't realized any changes until i compare pics. I guess it's because i see them everyday. Lol They are definitely getting softer and rounder. Swelling is going away slowly. I still think another month or 2 they should be even and look close to perfect.
I had my post op appt on May 27th and I got some of the tape removed from my incisions. AHHH i was terrified of what i would see- but SURPRISINGLY it wasn't that bad. Nurse had to cut off some of the tape and it kind of hurt. I had glue on the incisions and they were slowly coming off. My right boobie with the full mastopexy still has tape- they said it wasn't ready to come off so wait and don't pull it off until it's ready. Fine by me. :) Cant wait until the incisions fade and it looks flawless. I keep massaging the stretch marks so they fade a lil more. Doc said my boobs are looking great- besides the right breast is slightly higher and more swollen and laying out and getting sun burned on it since they are still sensitive. :( My fault i didn't reapply sunblock.
Boobies are great- I definitely feel sexy! You can even tell in my pics- i have taken a million pics! I definitely feel more feminine, love the way my body can have more curves and shape. I even went to the mall and saw a few heads turn. LOL i also have posted a few pictures on my Facebook- i usually post "face shots'" but for once i posted a few body shots and it was quite a hit. I had about 6 different guys either i knew or didn't know message me. Too bad i'm already taken by my boo. Lol I didn't even bother going there. They aren't worth my time since before my BA they didn't even know i existed.
My nipples are slowly regaining their sensitivity i was getting nervous because i wasn't feeling anything. I am also on the medication- SINGULAR- which is basically for asthma and allege roes but some how it helps prevent capsular contracture. I have been on since surgery and still need to continue for another month.
I have started working out- i walk 2 miles at least 3-4 times a week- doing squats/ lunges. No upper body yet. But I'm glad to be active again. I would like to lose 10 lbs still before my birthday. I am planning to have a family formal dinner and I want to look hot. I have lost 5 lbs since surgery. But mind u i had gained a few lbs since surgery and now I'm basically back to square one with my weight, i weigh the same as before surgery.
My birthday is basically in a month. I can't wait. I am planning to go back to Miami to spend it there- I also have my 2nd post op appt on July 3rd- My doc's office is AMAZING. They told they are closed July 4th and Dr Messa is on vacation the whole week after. July 3rd- thursday was booked with surgery. Mind you i still have to work- i can't keep taking off to drive 4 hrs for a check up and 4 hrs back. Thats 8 hrs. Thank god my family lives down in miami and i stay with them, but if i go i rather stay a few days. So anyways… They said they can get me in July 2nd- i'm like I can't take off 2 days that week plus the 4th of july weekend. The scheduler said they can squeeze me in July 3rd- but won't know the time. I have to call the morning of to see what time betweens surgery they have available . But who care? I'll take it. I'm so glad the office is very understanding and flexible. Definitely 2 thumbs up.
Still no bra shopping- I'm actually quite patient with that. Every time I try on bras they look weird n don't fit the new girls so I rather not disappoint myself until they are ready. I go bra-less to work everyday. I still wear my surgical bra to sleep n probably will continue to do so for a long long time. I don't mind.
No regrets. Happy i did this and lived thru recovery- hardest part was right after surgery. As far as my size- i really am content/ satisfied about the size i chose. I don't have boob greed because i think they look good for my body. Of course u always have the thought "I COULD OF GONE BIGGER…" I was thinking hmm could of done 450cc… but honestly i would NOT go thru surgery all over again to get a bigger size. I am happy and will keep these lovely boobies until i need to get a revision after having kids- Probably in 10-15 years time to exchange them by that time. :) Happy healing! Thanks for the positive feedback and comments.
Crying my eyes out.... Help!
Reason behind my mastopexy lift....
I've calm down a bit after crying for 2 hrs!!!! I have no more tears to cry. I'm going to sleep on it and then make a call first in the morning. I have my 2nd post op appt in a month. But since in 4 hrs away it's not like I can come in on my lunch break or after work. I want to email them pics of the size difference right now so they know. I'll keep everyone posted.
5 week post op update!
Kinda experiencing boob greed now that they are settling and boobs aren't that swollen. I could of went 450cc. Hah but honestly I feel like it depends what I wear. Some tops are like whoaaaa others like ehhhh not big at all. Ppl at my work don't even really stare or look at my fake boobs under my clothes. Lol we are going as a work team to the beach in 2 weeks and I'm debating to wear a bikini or not... I don't want to expose my body especially to the ppl I work with. Lol I got some bras... I figure I don't think I'm going to like jump a cup size or lose a cup size. Plus the bras I bought were only $5!!!! From Marshall's and tjmaxx surprising only bra that fits me decent are American eagle/ aerie bras. Light cotton ones. I can wear 36B/34D comfortable. Before the bras would still out on the side and not cuff my boob right maybe cuz I was swollen but these fit nicely. I'll wait to buy more expensive bras later.... anyways happy healing.
7 weeks and 2 days update post op
So more boobie news…. I do wish i went bigger, but i am still loving what i have. I have emphasize in the past i wanted a more "natural look".. since mine are early stages, they still look fake, which at this point, i don't care cuz i love life with them! I look back at my pre op pics and i can't believe i had crazy looking natural boobs. These implants have done so much for me. I am VERY confident now, I am enjoying them to the fullest.
I got measured from VS during the semi annual sale- they kind of measure different- each girl i went to said i was a different size. I'll be the judge of that… I can fit 34D/32DD/34C. I think it depends on what kind of bras. I bought only 3 bras from VS semi annual sale. Didn't want to go all crazy. I am still wearing my lovely surgical bra to sleep. During the day i wear a non padded no wire bra. I don't really need them to drop any lower, maybe from upper pole, but that's it. I also sleep comfortably now. I can sleep on my stomach if i want but i am a side sleeper so it doesn't effect me.
My 25th birthday is in 2 weeks and I have begin an extreme life changing journey. About 5 weeks after surgery, i realize if i want to lose weight and be happy with my body i NEED to do something besides complaining and talking about it. A lot of ppl don't understand my struggle with weight loss and my weight. Everyone always says I'm skinny n perfect and all that... Honestly I have gained weight and didn't feel comfortable and was very insecure. The pic will show the difference of me over weight and ppl calling that perfect? Hahaha I barely could for into my shorts and couldn't breathe once I got them buttoned. Now they fit good but I could still have room for improvement. I started out slowly working out…. As i did NOT notice i have lost weight. In 3 weeks I am down 8lbs and I would like to drop about 10 more lbs. I do cardio and light weights and A LOT of leg work outs- squats and lunges. I am so much happier with my body. My max weight was 131-132lbs out of surgery. I knew then i needed to do something. Weight on me is so noticeable because i'm so small. i've cut back on eating out and junk food, of course i still have cheat meals. But i really am watching what is going in my body. :) My ideal weight is 115lbs. I feel like for being 4"11 that is reasonable since i use to be like 108-110lbs back in college. I don't mind having meat on my bones. There's no real secret for weight loss besides taking action and doing something about it. I kind of became a workout junkie, i don't want to stop. I got pass the point where you hate it and dread doing it, I look forward to it and i also try to do it 2x a day on weekends. Thats how obsessed i've become. I just want to be healthy and happy. :)
That being said…. i have gotten A LOT of attention, maybe too much. A lot of guys are noticing my body more… I posted some new pics on Facebook of my body and somewhat boobie pics, which before i had no courage to do so. Ppl have noticed my new "rack" if you will say. But i don't care anymore, i have no ashamed of them nor hiding them anymore. I've had about 10 guys have reach back out to me from high school and other times when i went out years ago… Crazy thing, i was INVISIBLE back in the day. No one noticed me. Now here is the new me that everyone comes back around. Of course i like the attention since i never had it before… but i think back and my lovely boyfriend had been there with me thru it all, before my weight loss before my surgery and loved me for me and not my looks. He's just amazing. :)
I'll post up some pics of my weight loss and my new girls and the scars, new bras, and also my birthday outfit. Please PM if you have questions or want to follow me on instagram/ IG on my weight loss journey and just my life in general. Honestly, if you are thinking of a BA for tuberous deformity or a BA in general i def recommend my doc and the whole procedure. The whole journey has been crazy for me as many of you know. It was emotional for me more than physical, I am so happy now that I'm on cloud 9 all the time. DO IT, this is coming from a girl who had a wild awful recovery, i thought i was on my death bed, here i am almost 2 months out and I am normal and happy. Only regret i have is not doing this sooner. I wish I had done it in my early 20s to enjoy them a lil more. But here i am almost 25 and i feel sexy as hell! Happy healing my ladies. :)
25th Birthday outfit!
2 months post op update! So happy!
Just wanted to give a brief update. Just had my 2 month post appt this week. Everything looks good. My doc said the right nipple (Mastopexy life) should be stretching out a lil more to make it even to my other nipple. just remember "GIVE IT TIME" no rush. For 2 months post up- i'm EXTREMELY happy. Recovery wasn't so great for my but the outcome and results are all worth it. :) My next post op appt is in 2 more months- september.
I am put back Singular for another month to prevent CC. I don't mind tho. I haven't massaged lately so i feel like they can be softer, but i'm slacking so it's totally my fault. I am still using cocoa butter, retinol cream, bio oil every night for the incisions. As for bras…. I went to the VS outlet the other weekend- TOTALLY WORTH IT. got so much stuff and i didn't pay more than $20 bucks for an item. So many varieties and selections. I got cute bikinis for like $7 and expensive regular store bras for $12.99 that are usually $60 in VS in the mall. Cant beat that!!!! I'm still weary about wearing wired bras tho i have a few. I am wearing these super comfy wireless bras from Mashalls. I highly recommend them. OMG so comfy better than VS wireless bras that i paid $50 for. I got these for $10. I bought one and it was ugly but felt so comfortable that i went back and bought 3 more in nude colors and white.
So this whole experience has made me such a happier person! I have gained so much confidence. Can you believe i actually walk around the house naked now???…. i remember when i first began my experience i didn't show my BF of 4 years my boobs. Now I show everyone my tits. LOL my sisters, her friends. I would have never before. Yesterday was 4th of july and everyone was squeezing my boobs. Lol I am working out like crazy too, which has relieved me from a lot of stress i suffered from. i'm down 10 lbs now and still got a lil way to go but my body is feeling and looking amazing. I spoke with my doc office and they said no chest/ shoulder work outs for another 4 months. :( Bummer, she said biceps and cardio and leg workouts are fine. Bleh. I can't do anything but wait.
Any detailed questions about the whole experience or my procedure please inbox me, I want to help! If you guys want to follow me on Instagram on my weightloss/ workout and my daily crazy life in Florida, please add me on IG- inbox me. I don't feel like putting on the post. I had some random ppl reach out to me about my experience that probably should NOT be on here. Lol Happy healing my lovely ladies.
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND DR MESSA. So happy i chose him. :)
3 month update
Dr MESSA is AMAZING! I knew he was my doc before even meeting him. I came across him back in September 2013 and my surgery wasn't until May 2014. I started researching for BEST TOP DOC in South Florida and he was on the list. I spent 9 months eyeballing dr mesa and his work. I read on his background and reviews from hundreds of patients. Then I actually decided to act on it and go thru with it. I have NO REGRETS. Dr Messa is extremely caring and has exceeded all my expectations. I feel so comfortable and reassured when i met with him because I had my doubts about the whole thing. His staff is great, each of the nurses and girls are awesome. All so helpful. I remember calling the office crying about my nipples and one girl spent time to calm me down instead of rushing me off the phone. Every time i had an appt- i came and never waited more than 5 minutes! He has a very soft, calmness to himself with the way he speaks and moves- he is very professional, doesn't come off as creepy or unprofessional, super knowledgeable. He is all about business and making sure you look your best. He is awesome. Bottom line. I'm glad i didn't chose anyone else but him. Not only did Dr Messa change my breast, he changed my life- I'm so confident and happier now. I feel great inside and out. I even referred him to a few of my mom's coworkers who saw my results and now are very interested in getting theirs done too. If you are looking for a GREAT doc in south florida to get yours done, please consider Dr Messa. My results speak for themselves! :)