25yo 5'4" 150lbs Athletic - No Kids. Finally Scheduled the Procedure I Have Wanted for 10yrs! - Melbourne, FL

After years of wishing and wanting and months of interviewing surgeons, last week I finally booked and paid for my procedure! April 29th is the big day and I can hardly contain my excitement! I will be doing somewhere between 300-350cc silicone submuscular with an inframammary incision. I wish I could go a bit bigger, but apparently I have a narrow chest..I will be happy though I'm sure. I can wait to finally feel feminine!

A few questions for you ladies who have already had this done..I am a nurse finishing my masters to be a certified nurse midwife, so I am catching babies and doing paps all day..I obviously use my hands and arms a lot. How long did it take other nurses to get back to work? Also, how long before you all were able to get back to a normal gym routine and how much strength did you lose/how long did it take to get back to where you were? Then what about feel? I have this fear that they will be two hard stationary rocks on my chest..I've been reassured that this isn't the case, but it never hurts to hear it again :-)

Now that its real I have an ungodly amount of anxiety! Hopefully some of you girls can tell me its normal. This fear really feels like it came out of nowhere..I'm afraid that I won't like how it looks, that my body will look even more disproportionate, that I will never be able to get my strength back, I will have trouble breastfeeding one day, that something will happen requiring a revision surgery at a huge cost...and the list goes on!! Any comments that would help give me peace of mind are welcome! Anyway, that's where I am right now! I will write something about why I'm doing this and the decision making process with my surgeon a little later.

Thanks for welcoming me to the community ladies!

So like I said before, I have had a TON of anxiety lately, but I had my pre op yesterday and I am feeling a bit better. I talked to Dr. Oppenheimer about my stress and anxiety, especially surrounding the anesthesia, and he took his time to explain everything and reassure me. We also discussed what he finally decided on for my implant choice. We had previously discussed doing somewhere between 300-350cc moderate plus, but he said after reevaluating my measurments and my goals, he thinks I would be best off doing somewhere between 250-300cc high profile. At first I was disappointed and..of course..more scared and anxious..that I would be unhappy and they wouldn't be big enough. After I came home and did some more research and gathered a better understanding of total volume and width:projection ratios, I feel confident that I will still achieve my goal look or close to it. I trust him, so I think in the end, I will still be happy with the results.

Anyway, I'm done being a downer! I am so excited that I am LESS than 2 weeks away!! I can't believe this is finally happening! I have started putting my bag together because I will staying with a friend of mine for a few days after so she can help me out and I brought my rx to the pharmacy tonight and will pick them up tomorrow. This is all beginning to feel so real, but I know the full excitement won't sink in until I wake up in recovery and look down!

Thanks again for your support and encouraging comments!

I'm starting to feel better about everything..I'm sure the night before the procedure I'll be a wreck, but right now I feel pretty good! I enjoyed a bit of retail therapy yesterday..despite the fact that Dr. Oppenheimer told me not to do any shopping. Who tells a WOMAN, with anxiety mind you, NOT to shop?! That's almost blasphemous! Alright Dr. O...I get why you would tell me to hold off, but that's why we have return policies! I kid..but seriously..I felt so much better after a few laps around the mall! I have some pictures of the gorgeous (and on SALE!) anxiolytics I bought at VS. I bought a few sizes and I'll return or swap out anything that doesn't work post op.

Anyway, luckily I'm incredibly busy over the next 9 days..two days in the clinic, four 24hr call days at the hospital and one online conference..no time to sit online and read things that I shouldn't! ..Hopefully..unless no one is in labor when I'm at the hospital, in which case I'm sure I'll be back on here.

All in all I am incredibly excited and the 29th can't come fast enough! I love reading everyone's updates post op and tips..it has been so helpful. I think I have everything bought, packed, cleaned and organized. Is this what nesting is like?! Thanks again ladies!