35 Year Old, Feel Like I Am 85 - 375cc Smooth Saline Submuscular Almost 13 Years Ago - Maumee, OH

First I must say, thank you to all the wonderful...

First I must say, thank you to all the wonderful strong women on this site! You have all helped me without even knowing it! So here I am with my story. I have 375 mentor smooth saline, and they have been inside for 12+ years. I explant on 5/20!! Yay! I am sick. I have been on a slew of medication ever since implantation. The first was depression medication. I was healthy and young and fit. I have the most amazing husband and family and wouldn't change a single thing about my life (except the boobs). But about a year after implants I just got this 'funk' so doc gave me anti depressants. In the first year I also began to experience the start of peripheral neuropathy. But at 24 years old I just thought maybe I over did my workout or something. Fast forward- I am now in a ridiculous amount of pain. I have peripheral neuropathy still, along with fibromyalgia, Raynaud's phenomena, degenerative disc disease, depression, weight gain. And my ana panel is through the roof! Ana is the level of inflammation present in the blood. I have had nerve conduction tests, 2 neurologists, a pain management doc, 4 physical therapists, and a slew of medications! I have had injections directly into the spinal column. I have spent a week in the hospital cathed bc I couldn't even get up to use the bathroom due to muscle spasms! Not once did anyone say- hey maybe it's the giant bags of plastic you had put in your chest! But then I found you ladies and this forum and it makes sense!!! I am so grateful to you all and hope to be on the mend soon!

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Your story sounds so familiar, and thanks for putting it on this site. I had my saline implants removed today after 19 years. I have been looking for the right doctor for two years , and the third time was the charm. I feel amazing tonight ! The heavy feeling is gone, and so is my anxiety. It's my 52nd birthday today, and my daughter wrote in my birthday card "welcome back to the Itty bitty Titty Club." However, my ta-ta's are not itty-bitty, as I now weigh about 30 pounds more than I did 19 years ago. Yes, the first thing I did was look inside the surgical bra when I came to! HAHAHAHA Then I had three cups of coffee, cheesecake , and wished myself Happy Birthday.
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When I first decided to take these out I measured out 375 cc and put it in baggies and really pondered the weight. It's funny when I got them put in I was thinking- oh they aren't that heavy. Boy that's changed! Can't wait to feel lighter too!
Thank you for sharing your story and good luck with your surgery...look forward to your updates....hopefully things will improve for you and your health Hun xxx
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My before before pic

In retrospect I think I just didnt like that my boobs were mostly nipple!

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it is difficult to believe with all the actual reports, just on this website alone, that doctors and the FDA all say there is no correlation between implants and this same constellation of symptoms. i too have ANA issues, fibro, depression, cannot lose weight no matter what i do, cannot think, have raynaud's, been diagnosed with lupus (only to have the symptoms all disappear and then reappear years later), add a carcrash that has ruptured my encapsulated dow-cornings that have been in there, hard as a rock for 26 years...jeesh. you would think i would be thrilled to have them out n wednesday, but i am scared to death. thank you for being so brave to post photos and your story. i am also having a lift...not much choice about it, as i have very little breast tissue on right, and im a oversized D on the left. to even them up, i am having the explantation, a reduction on the left, and both lifted, no one talked me into this, by the way. my surgeon laid out all the options with photos, and he is absolutely the doc in town for breast reconstruction, with a great rep. he didnt suggest new implants either. i am hoping all of us that are suffering from this slew of immune responses get better after explantation, thanks for posting all your info and i will wish the best for you! ps mine are also silicone, submuscular, and i am 53. i weight 30 lbs more than when they were implanted. i will check in with yall after i am done wednesday.
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Mine keeps testing for lupus too - and thyroid problems. Annoying that they just give up. I'm on diclofenac now which really does help with the neck pain. Will definitely be interesting if it all clears up once I get these out.
Oh my! Sinderella- they keep checking my thyroid too! They say it is starting to self destruct but still functioning enough that they can't medicate for it! Well they said it in more tech terms than that! Haha. You are my twin I think! So nice to feel like I am not alone!

Tomorrow!

Just excitement. I went through the doubt phase weeks ago. So now I try to sleep. I need to be there at 6:30 am. Wish me luck!

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Good luck today! Praying for awesome results. You are really lucky to have before pictures because not a lot of girls on here have those. I just got mine from my PS and am eager to compare the pre BA, BA and Post BA photos to one another (when I get them out). Best of luck and happy healing!
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So today's the day! I am sure you'll do great. I'm at day four post-op and feel absolutely amazing! I have no pain at all and am looking forward to getting rid of my "thunder vest" today at my appointment. Have a bag full of bras to take with me and am buying myself something pretty to wear afterwards!
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Good luck, can't wait to read your progress x
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Gone

I thought I needed plastiboobs. I thought they made me sexy. They were nothing less than an abusive relationship. When we were first together it was good. I felt pretty I felt wanted. In the last 5-6 years they have stifled me. They kept me in pain. I hid them in bigger clothes out fear of others judgement. I denied I had them and blamed a big chest on weight gain. The bad days outweighed the good by far. But I was so afraid. Afraid of what I would look like. Afraid that I wouldn't be sexy. And right this second I do not feel the pain of the emotional side of the break up. I was over it. And knew I wanted out. Each day was just dragging on until the day I broke free. And I am free. But God bless America- the physical pain is so hard right now! Will hopefully post more tomorrow!

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Did get some pics of scar issue. Doc said it was a pretty bad amount! Hence the being 34ddd w only 375 cc

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hope you are recovering and feeling better...tomorrow at noon im going in for my explantation and lift! terrified yet excited...and sending lots of good wishes your way.
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Lemay! I was just reading through my comments and was going to reply to your original! First- today went awesome! I am already feeling better- and am shocked bc they really had to slice me to free up the scar tissue. Amazing! I don't get to even take off my bandages for a week. But I know I will be happier- lets face it they weren't that perfect before. Anyway- I have been in constant muscle spasms in my back since Thursday. When I woke up from surgery- that was when I noticed my spasm wasn't going? I know I wouldn't have believed it if you told me!! I will take it though! It's like I just know that I am a new person! I truly hope that you have the same luck tomorrow! I will be thinking about you and sending wishes right back!
i have been a little worried about spasms too, i get them with little to no provocation in my neck and along my spine since my carcrash in january. im assuming laying down and intubated on general anesthesia for 4 hours wont be the best situation for my muscles, so im bringing my flexaril just in case...had a few left over from the crash. we are staying at a nice inn close to the surgical center overnight, but damn, it is good to hear from you that even tho you got sliced and diced you are feeling okay enuf now to write on the same day. jeesh. maybe i am getting worked up for nothing. thanks for posting your story and being so encouraging, i will try to post on thursday when i get home. i have the shivers thinking about it all. soft hugs to you!

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You won't believe this either. As far as muscle spasms, I have been on xana flex continuously for 5 years straight. So for me to not have a single spasm is huge!! You are going to do great! And I truly believe it! Now go be awesome!!
wahhhhhh! internet is up (unusual) here so stopped in to say hi, having my meds and water, feeding the cat, pretty soon it is time to go! thanks for all the kind wishes! argh!
Good luck, lemay!!! Saying prayers for you. Can't wait to hear how you're doing!! xx

Sneak peak

May I vent a little? So I was in a pretty hefty amount of pain. After years of dealing with a slew of issues causing great pain for 8 years, I do not really feel any better taking Vicodin. Hubby called the doc and they told me to increase the frequency of the dose to every 90 minutes. Two nights ago I started getting night sweats and nausea and was running a slight temp. So hubby called the doc again and they wanted me to come in and have a nurse check me out.
I look hilarious right now. You know that people of Walmart website? I could so be on there! My husband is a foot taller than me and 70 lbs heavier. I been wearing his clothes. And my hair which goes almost to my belt line is in a crazy bun. So we drive to the docs office. And.... Wouldn't you know I have never in my life seen so many people in a waiting room! Haha! The best part about it was I brought my bucket in with me, just incase the motion and moving would send my meds out the wrong way!
Now I must tell ya- that's really not a huge deal to me. People can tell hey she is messed up- or wonder what she had done to be feeling that bad! What upset me was we had to sit in the waiting room for 40 min! 40! I was hoping they would just put me in an empty room so I could puke in peace. How is it good for business to have some crazy hobo lady having a meltdown in your lobby? I didn't expect to get in faster than those who had pre scheduled appts. I just wasn't happy that I was on display for so long. And the fact that when we did get called we walked past 8 or 9 completely empty rooms! Whaaaat? My hubby did get pretty crabby bout that. My nurse agreed that the front desk girls should have put us in a room when we first walked in. But she said they were newer staff and she would educate them.
Anyway, long story I know. They switched the pain meds. And checked on the stitches, all is good. And they told me I could take some Benadryl! Yay! The itchiness is setting in so being told that was worth the waiting room debacle. Oh! And I got a sneak peak.

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Hope your feeling better soon xxx
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Tape is off

Hello! Well good news- tape is off and I can shower!! I did go to the hair salon on Saturday morning to get my hair washed. And layed on my step stool so my kid could wash my hair on Monday. My hair goes about to my waistline and I needed that wash to feel normal;). Yesterday we met with the doc. I thought my stitches were pulling apart. They weren't! It's just a slight amount of oozing combined with someone (me) that freaks out about stuff.
They are a slight bit scary right now! But I already love them! Something about it being me. My right side scar is so long- will try to update with a pic of that soon. Doc said the scar tissue around that breast was the size and texture of a payday candy bar. Yum!
Thanks again for being my support crew y'all.

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did not breast feed a wolverine, this cracked me up! today, i had my trip to the doc to get stitches out, drains removed, and it looks like between the two of us, we have matching "pairs of terror". yours are larger, dammit, im gonna have to settle for perky. i am really happy about it tho, no regrets so far. doubled up on pain meds and slept the 105 degree afternoon away. personally, i think you are gonna look fab when all done!
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I honestly did not expect to have boobs! Last night I actually cried a little. Mourning the loss of the side show style boobs i guess?i don't know. Now I will always be scarred. But I am pain free!
Hey, there! You are looking good. When that all heals up you are going to be one hot momma. I didn't get the lift, but seems those that did are doing great and look so natural. Good for you. The worst is over. Enjoy that hair appointment!! That's funny "payday candy bar", not really funny, but I smiled as I could envision that feeling. Heck, they couldn't even describe mine with anything but "grossly ruptured thick and goey" what's that a chocolate covered cherry? ha ha...oh well, gone and good riddance to them!! Glad you are doing good and keep us posted. XOXOXO....
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Swelling

Hello ladies! Not much new. I tried to drive for the first time since surgery. Tried- no, I did actually drive. Now I have some swelling and pain. Back to the doc I go tomorrow. I hate calling his office, I feel like a problem child. I don't think I look as busty as I do in the photo! However, I am overweight. I am a former trainer and got sidelined due to the fibromyalgia that came with the implants. I would still attempt to work out on a regular basis. Now I can't do anything. And I pretty much eat simple carbs all day.

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i am 13 days post. tried to drive too, gave that up after 2 miles, just didnt feel connected to the responsibility, prob the drugs in my case. called my doc to ask if i should still have all these pains and probs, he said was "normal". sigh. i am a little overweight too, couldnt lose to save my life, especially after the car wreck in january that ruptured the implants. since the surgery i am losing weight, but they did take over 2 lbs away. fibro sucks. have had it for years now. cannot stand at this point to have ANYTHING except air touch my nips, cannot wear a bra, cotton shirt...anything feels like sandpaper scrubbing my breasts, so laying down or sitting very still is my only options, no matter how good i feel otherwise. occasional shooting pains too, doc says is nerves regenerating, correcting themselves, hooking up...etc. i am telling ya all my woes so when you call your doc you can see you arent the only one being a pain in the ass, i asked all these questions yesterday of my own. they always seems slightly puzzled dealing with me, i am assuming, since much of their biz is reconstruction for breast cancers and illnesses, that they arent used to such a lively or assertive patient, but who knows. things are improving on a small day-to-day basis tho, for me, and i hope they are for you. i have stolen your line and added some imagery, i tell my GFs that i cannot show them my new girls, it looks like i have dropped my breasts into a badger hole. ima getting pretty damn sick of doing nothing, lemme tell ya. yesterday, i DID discover that a very light silk shirt camisole, that is too large for me, took away about 75% of the irritating. but going commando and airing them out seems to be what they want...sorry world, there isnt enough eyebleach to unsee this, im keeping them in the silk. and forget a bra, that aint happening. im eating fruit like there is no tomorrow, im addicted to grapes and cherries right now, after last weeks watermelon frenzy, i think they are really flushing my system of excess water, my wrist and fingers, ankles and feet look like ive lost 10 lbs. not my ass of course, if i lose weight i lose it in places you dont notice! thanks for posting an update, i am still out here wondering WTF is going on most of the time, unless i am reading library books, eating or sleeping, that is my whole life right now. and standing at the mirror with flashlights and hand mirrors trying to get a closeup look at my badger boobies. thinking of ya...XX00.
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oh boy, i felt like you came to my bathroom and took a photo of me. we are practically twins here. scary aint it? mine are littler but the surgery looks familiar for sure! im off for a nap, went to the library and it wore my ass out. thanks for thinking of me! i will have to check in later, im all pooped.
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Hey lady! My reason behind getting the implants removed was the hopes that the fibromyalgia would leave. Honestly- I think it has. But I won't say that outloud yet! And as far as being the pain in the ass patient- I think I have been that at my family doc for years!! Lol! All this crazy stuff that no md could connect had to be the sacs that I destroyed my body with. Did you ever take a flashlight into the dark bathroom when you had implants in? I did it! It was crazy X-ray vision. I am probably rambling. Bored as heck. Can't wait to go to the doc tomorrow and figure out why the right side is so swollen. Thanks for checking up on me. Will let you know what's up tomorrow. And keep me posted on your journey! Much love!
Hey there..that's good the fibromyalgia is leaving. I noticed alot of that and other things disappearing. Mostly with my mind. I can think clearly and sleep so much better. So glad u are doing good. Im battling on along my journey getting my ducks in a row while I have time and feel hood. I have a bone marrow biopsy next Thursday which will tell us more. Not looking forward to chemo and loising my hair but they say it griws back..oh well im rambling..take care xoxoxo

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Hello beautiful ladies! Today's news? I am a jerk. I can feel how crabby I am. I am usually a super happy upbeat gal. Not today. I hate that I can't workout. That was my vocation years ago when I was well enough to work. I was a trainer. This time last year I was working out atleast 5 days a week. Not to be skinny- but strong! No matter how much or how little I would work out I would stay the same somewhat chubby size. But I am one of those crazy peeps that likes to workout. Even with fibro and all my other conditions- I would plug through it. Now I can't. And it makes me bored! And feel like I don't have control. I am seriously wondering if now that I don't have the sacs of toxic bleeech in me if my workouts will be better. I hope so. I don't want to be skinny- just fit.
Anybody have any luck with better metabolism post explant? I know I look smaller. I was 5'4 (wait I still am 5'4) and had a 50 inch chest. So if I didn't dress in super clingy clothes I just looked like a little tank. I am rambling. Bored

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good god, whatta photo. when my implants were removed, i had 1.5 lbs removed from my left one to be symmetrical with the right. im telling ya, i wish like anything that my poor badger-boobies looked like yours, i loved having big breasts, even tho they were a pain in the ass to deal with the size. so im adjusting. you may be a jerk, but i am a bitch. cheerful is my middle name, or else i just fake it until i feel better; it isnt anyone elses prob and i dont take it out on anyone else. but i can feel my brain kinda swelling like a toad within my skull with being pissed off and frustrated too. im snappy, and quick to feel slighted. i cant stand dithering, pauses, hesitation, prevarication, whining, avoidance, not saying what is meant, in short, i am totally intolerant and impatient. im 5'5 and a little bit, stuck at 177 lbs since february 20. no matter what the hell i do, exercise, starve, eat small meals, count calories, massage, walk, weights, eat anything i want, avoid wheat, dairy, soy, salt, you name it, i have tried it over the last 4 years; when i get to 177 that is IT. i simply will not lose any more. now, i still weigh the same, but i have deflated all over from edema going away. my upper chest is a vast Great Plains, im not bloated or puffy anymore, even went down a size in my pants, and my shirts are so loose, even in the arms, i look like ive dropped 10 lbs easy. i have much better energy, but cant stand the sandpaper/sensitivity thing, so cant do anything unless i am topless, and with my husband home this week...well, let us just say the girls aint coming out to play with an audience right now. im gonna start doing some isometrics today, stretches that i can do without bending and having them swing around, cant sweat, that really bugs me, cant have a hot bath (bacteria), hate TV and movies, almost blind from reading, nothing to do but bitch and stew. im ready to get back to my life too, so i totally understand the frustration. maybe i should try to meditate, or do some tai chi, i have a tape for that, or go thru all my photos, or write, sigh. if you figure out the answer to this besides what everyone tells me "be patient" (ha!) let me know.
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How did your visit go? Haven't heard from you lately and I've been thinking about you!! xxxx
Lemay, your little nicknames and expressions are cracking me up! I love your level of humor and sarcasm in spite of the agony you are going through, girl!! I don't know how you do it, but I know you have no other choice but to endure....I hope the sensitivity decreases each day and you'll soon be back to your normal, but hilarious self. xx

Awesome!

Hello ladies!
Not much new. I did have a back spasm tho! What the heaven! I didn't pay 12 gs to be in pain! But there is an explanation. I ate junk food. So who cares? Wait for it, this fits into the story. My hot stuff husband also got me sick. So I took a mucinex. Apparently mucinex is very dehydrating? And I ate high sodium junk food. A common cause of muscle spasms- dehydration! Who knew! Needless to say, I will deal with the mucus. Can't deal with back pain!

Doc visit went well. Stitches got cut out. But just the knot ends that were showing. All the stitches will dissolve. Doc was jacked on how good it looks. He did do great work! I am going to have next to no scars?!!! Around my nipple it's barely even visible! As the scabs fall off it is seriously like the thickness of a strand of hair. I am still a little bit swollen. Are bras vanity sized now? I don't think I am a d but can fit in a d bra.
But I can't complain. Yes those are stretch marks, the ripples... I breast fed and weighed 215 post baby. I was 115 pre pregnant. So ya- those were natural stretch marks. Implants just filled em out!

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I'm so happy for you that you are healing up nicely and loving you new body! Thank you for continuing to update us and share happy ending story! ;)
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Thanks for reading! It's been so nice to know I am not alone on this journey!
my goodness, the swelling is gooing down and they are getting their shape, a very nice shape too! my scars around my nips are not even noticeable, you would honestly have no idea, unless you really got your eye on it, even then, its hairline. the ones under the flap are a bit ropey, but fading quickly, they arent red. i have not unveiled them in the light of bright day, but they are peeping and peeking now and then in the ...ah...bedroom, if the lights are low. im sure not ready for any kind of unveiling, for even the hubster yet. hunny, you look like a D to me, even bigger. ya still got the bazoomba look while I have what are now known as Little Tenders. I guess this is better than the original nickname of Tiny Tenders. lol. im happy for all of us...we survived and we are gonna thrive! here is how i sign off now: ( ,)( ,) but YOU can use my old sign off: ( , )( , )
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Sinus infection

Hello to the ladies trapped inside my iPhone! I plan on figuring out how to get you out of there, but seeing as I can barely even operate this simple forum update good luck!
So the hubby's cold or flu or whatever he gave me has turned into a full blown sinus infection. How fun is it sneezing your guys out with 5 zillion stitches across your chest? Not very! Now I gots me another round of antibiotic and a steroid! Crazy pill poppin lady! You guys probably do think I am nuts! Yes I am crazy in person, and now I look it! Snot face McGee! I used to be big boobs McGee! My poor husband. How is he dealing with this crap? I married a big fat party guy 15 years ago. Now he looks like a damn underwear model. I am small boobs snot face. Hahaha! I kid I kid. Snot face will go away- and I actually think my boobs look better NOW than they have my entire life :) God bless america! Belle- out

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How are you feeling now? Is fibro symptoms improving?
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Belle, I love your sense of humor. :D You are looking so good... and yes, by the pics, your breasts look better than ever. congratulations! :D
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You look amazing!!
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So far so good! Went in there said i want these giant sacs of toxic yuck out! And I want a lift! And he says ok. Didnt even try to push for new implants!!

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