Yeah! Finally - Maryland

I'm happy so far with my results. My PS said the implant should be softer and drop down more within the next few mos to look more natural. You can see they look much better after 2 months. Pics below are taken with my webcam.

Last night (1 week and 1 day post op) the surgical tapes around my left nipple got really itchy and I was afraid that it might develop rashes like the one below my left breast that you can see in the picture. So I mustard up some courage to remove them and OMG I wasn't happy to see how raw and unsightly it is. I just put bandages over it and email my PS in the AM but he said it is normal and just to cover it up w/ some gauze. I spent like 30 mins crying and whining to my husband like it is the end of the world. He had to yelled at me and call me a cry baby (my goodness I'm 32 yrs old so I guess I should stop being a lil whinner and tough it up).

All day today and I'm sure I'll be spending more days thinking about it whenever I look at it. My skin is really sensitive and they don't heal well like most people (I mean I still have brownish scars sporadically all over my legs from mosquito bites.....yeah mosquito bites!). I did thought about the scarring before getting BA and figured I'm not getting a BA to be a [RS bleep] star so only me, my husband and my PS get to see my boobs so I was like 'ok I can do this'.

Sigh!!!!!! I feel so ugly and depressed (guess I'm just being a lil whinny beeaaooootcchh cuz I did want the BA in the 1st place).

I hope you ladies out there don't have to feel like me. And if you ever do, at least you're not the only one!

saline 330cc under the muscle

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my story:
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I waited my entire life for boobies and waited for the last 10 yrs to get implants. I'm a wussy when it comes to pain and I've never been hospitalized, never have any surgeries, etc so the thought of going under the knife freaked me out. Not to mention, it's embarrassing to ask your boss for days/weeks off for a boob job (can you imagine the office rumor?). Besides, it's hard to take days off in my profession due to deadlines and no one to cover for me.

Luckily for me, my husband had a temporary job transfer to Maryland as a promotion so I quit my job for now to be here with him. After much talks and consideration w/ my husband that now is a perfect timing for me to get implants if I want. Since I don't know anyone here and I'm so far far far away from all my friends and coworkers, that would saved me some gossips for now.

I've done tons of research and look at tons of pictures but I'm still not satisfied because it seemed like results varied depending on each person. I was thinking of 275cc or no more than 300cc since I'm only 5'2 and 95 lbs. But then some people look so big with just 275cc and some look so small w/ 300cc. The reason why I decided to go with Saline is because it's safe (long track record) and if it leaks you will know right away. Silicone gel will feel much nicer but I would have to get MRI done at some point to make sure my breasts are still healthy and no leakage (I mean I don't want to get really sick and then get MRI to find out that something is wrong with it. MRI is about $2000 and might be even more later on and is not covered by most insurances due to it being cosmetic). Soooooo the "$ factor" and the "unsure of size" got me decided on saline. I did have a change of heart 2 days before surgery asking if I can get silicone. My PS told me it would take 1 week to order and my surgery will have to be postponed 2 weeks. Well, my mom is already scheduled to fly in the next day from another state to take care of me. That would costs me $300 just to reschedule her flight but worse is that she can't go any other days due to work. So I just stick w/ what my guts told me since the beginning (saline) ... hmm..or at least that's what I want to believe to make me feel better haha.

My PS seemed to know what he is doing I guess just by looking at me on my 1st consultation. He told me I could be 300+cc and will still be fine. I was doubting him cuz I'm so skinny. Since I told him the moment I walked in that I wanted to have Saline so he didn't really try to persuade me otherwise (because if you look at this link: http://www.realself.com/question/moderate-profile-overfilled-moderate-effect1 all the plastic surgeons on here told me to get silicone (I posted the question 1 week before surgery just for additional opinions to make me feel at ease - but instead it makes me more confused and dubious). He told me that since it's saline he can adjust the size at the surgery table to make sure it will look nice on me (since I was so unsure of what I want). On 2nd meeting I was hoping that he would confirm with me what profile he would use but he didn't (I told him on 1st consultation that I want moderate plus so I assume he has that down on my file). I also asked to see some before/after pics over email a week before my appt but when I got there he didn't have it and said he will email it to me later. Well, when I got his email, he said he couldn't email the file cuz it's not going thru but he said he can show them to me on surgery day. Boy, I was so nervous when I hear that. It's like, what's the point of seeing it if I'm getting surgery on that day right? -----like I can just say "Oh, me no like your pics so please give me back my money."

It's helpful that I cannot find any bad rating on my PS at all on the internet. Everything has been "excellent rating" and he is a board certified PS as well so I put my fate in his hands.

I was so scare about getting surgery that I didn't sleep the night before. Surgery day my husband was there with me while I'm waiting in this room in a reclining chair in a hospital gown, socks, cap, a warm blanket and an IV on my left arm (they give me antibiotic thru the IV too before surgery). There were 3 nurses taking turn taking care of me before and after surgery (oh so wonderful). My anesthesiologist is also a doctor so he's not a nurse anesthesiologist. He was so careful that he made the nurse give me a urine test to make sure I'm not pregnant before they take me to the surgery room. My PS did show up w/ a laptop and did show me some before/after pics and I pointed out a few pics I liked. I re-confirmed w/ him to make sure that I'm getting moderate plus and not moderate (which is low profile cuz I don't want a uniboob aka symmastia) and he said yes moderate plus. Cuz in his email he told me he will use moderate and overfilled to get moderate plus so that it will look more natural (hence, that's why I posted that question u see the link above). Oh well, I really have no idea what he did other than knowing he puts 330cc.

I was knocked out before I can finish my answer to my anesthesiologist question. I woke up 2 hrs later and I was whining from the pain. The nurse give me some pain killer, apple juice and water. They constantly monitor my vital sign and giving me apple juice and water. My husband was able to come in to see me 40 mins later for about 20 mins before they let me go home.

My doc prescribed me Hydrocodone (pain killer) which I stopped taking after 4 days, Cephalexin (antibiotic) which I'm still taking (almost done) and Diazepam (muscle relaxer) which I like better than the pain killer cuz it does help. I filled my prescription 1 week before surgery so they were all ready for me when I got home from surgery.

I am 1 week post op now and still feel a bit uncomfortable especially if I try to lift something (even if they're not even 2 lbs) but I hope it will get better soon since I'm running out of med.

I have to sleep in a more upright position so it helped if you have one of those bed wedge (see pic).

My skin is so sensitive that I start developing some mild rashes around my chest and tummy from all the med that I'm taking (Aveeno hydrocotisone helped). and not to mention constipation. If you're having the same problem or want to avoid it, drink a lot of orange juice and buy Miralax or something like that cuz it helped.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL YOU LADIES THAT WANT OR WILL BE GETTING BA SOON!