3 months post op! Updated pic***

I am a mother of 4 beautiful children. Age 7,5, 3 and 1 year. I am 38 years old. I am going in for a full TT, breast reduction/lift, lipo to hip area.
I breast feed all four children and my body hasn’t been the same. I work out 5 days a week at the gym, and try to eat healthy. I have done every diet possible, my body isn't changing. I have always had large, heavy breast even before children. At age 12 I was a full C cup and a size zero. I always hated the negative attention I received as a child; it was very embarrassing to me.

My goal has always been to wait until I am finished having children/breastfeeding. I cannot believe my time has come! I am excited and nervous at the same time!

I know my thoughts are like a lot of mothers on here. Am I sure I want to go through this? Is it going to be worth it? What do I tell my young children I am doing? How am I going to manage the recovery time? What if I don't wake up?
Please say a prayer for me if you think of it. I appreciate all the support from you ladies!
Happy healing to all!