Tummy tuck with lipo and breast reduction/lift

I am a 30 year old woman, married with two kids aged 3 and 1. I have been fat since my adolescence and always struggled with weight and body image issues. I tried so many diets and attacked the gym but apparently my relation with food was pathological. Anyway, I decided to get a Mini gastric bypass in 2007 because i couldn't look at myself anymore. I was 100 kgs for 1.64cm. Nothing fitted, i looked awful. The surgery was not successful and i only lost some of the weight and I couldn't keep it off. It was a post-op mistake because i was not well informed (despite all my researches) and the dr was not the kind that explains everything, u had to litterally pull out the words from his mouth. Now, 2013, i weigh 85kgs and most of the fat and ugliness is concentrated on my belly area (2 consecutive pregnancies+overweight+fat= 0 self esteem). So i have been hearing about the tummy tuck and coming to this group and reading the reviews and taking more and more info each time, made me seriously think about having one. I KNOW that this procedure is NOT for weight loss...That is why I started a diet (AGAIN) with a dietician and i am planning to loose 15 kgs before really going through this. I am lebanese and live in Lebanon. I had several Drs names and i am trying to get in touch with one soon (maybe this month) just to get an idea about the cost and the pros and cons etc. I am really scared this won't work just like my bariatric surgery (the bypass) and i am REALLY REALLY REALLY in NEED of feeling better. and for me feeling better comes from looking better. Don't get me wrong i am SO blessed to have my husband and kids and my lovely life but i don't seem to enjoy this because i am not satisfied with the way i look.......I don't know what more to say...I will update when i see the dr........any help will be good.....i couldn't find someone with the same body as mine here..help :S

After a long period of thinking reviewing and checking this site, i finally gathered my courage and took the appointment. I am going to see my PS on the 6th of January 2014. I do not have the money yet, i saved the first 1000$ i think i might need some 3000$ more (my friend did the TT last july and told me about the cost). So, i am a bit confused scared excited and a bunch of feelings i cannot define hehehe i guess because it s still not real. I am thinking of doing it when i take my summer vacation (July 2014). I have 2 months off work and i cannot do it any other time and in case i decided i will not waitfor the summer after i want this now i am fed up with my looks. One more week and i will update my review. Please God i really need this to work :(

Ok see the ugliness....i dont know how i ended up like this...this is awful. My husband still manages to tell me i am pretty though...