12 weeks tomorrow!

I am 35 almost 36 years old. I have been married for 11 years and I have 3 children, a 10 year old boy, 7 year old boy and a 4 year old daughter. I have been overweight since middle school! I am 5' short ( hahaha) and I used to weigh 190 pounds. I have lost 70 pounds total since Jan of 2011. I workout 5-6 days a week and eat healthy and have maintained 120 pounds for a year. I have a large pouch of skin on my stomach that will not go away no matter what workouts I do or how I eat. I wear a size 2-4 and I am sick of trying to lose weight ( and tucking my stomach into my pants) just bc I want my stomach gone when I am pretty happy with the rest of my body. My loving husband knows how upset I have been about the way I look, I have worked so hard to lose this weight and I want to be able to be comfortable in tight fitting clothes and he told me to go for it. I originally decided to do just the tummy tuck but after many discussions with my husband and my parents I have decided to get a breast lift and augmentation. I am a small droopy B after losing the weight and I decided if I was going to do the tuck I should do both as it is a little cheaper doing them together than doing them on separate occasions. I am not going huge in size just the sized used to be after losing weight and having kids! I am very nervous but excited and wish the next 5 weeks to go by quickly! I am ready to get this surgery over with and start healing! I will post before pics soon, just trying to get up the nerve! No one but my hubby has seen my stomach:-(

Okay so I ordered all my vitamins for per and post op last night on amazon. I have 2 weeks and 4 days until my surgery and I can't think of anything else now that Christmas is over! I ate way too much during the holidays and not a ton of working out so I need to eat healthy the next 2 weeks! The weekend before my surgery I am going to visit my husband's family who we haven't told anything to. They are very judgmental and I know they would give me a lecture on how I look great since I lost the weight and how it's a waste of money:-( the thing is that they don't know what I look like under clothes and I hide my pouch of stomach very well, no tight fitting shirts, spanx, etc. I am not brave enough to show them and I don't want to defend myself to them. I believe they also would have a problem that we are spending so much money when I am a stay at home mom right now. My youngest is 4 and she will be going to kindergarten next fall and I plan on going back to work and if money gets tight I will go earlier or get a part time job! My problem is what do I tell them??? My oldest son is 10 and he will find out I am having surgery and he will probably tell my inlaws that mommy had surgery....so do I lie? I could tell them I am having a hernia operation but I hate lying!!! I don't know what to do:-( If anyone has a suggestions please let me know. I go to the doctor on Thursday to pay him a lot of money and get in my last appointment before the surgery! I am sooooo excited! I still haven't figured out if I am doing 300cc or 350cc yet. I am hoping Dr. Deluca will help with the decision. I am only 5' short and I don't want to go too big. I am hoping to stay in the size C range and not a D! I will update after the doc on Thursday when I am broke! Hahaha

So I meant to post last Thursday about my pre op appointment and all the details but after the appointment where I spent 13,500 on this Mommy Makeover I received some devastating news. My best friend in the whole world who I spend almost everyday with ( and sometimes see more than my husband) found out she has breast cancer!!! She is 33 years old, 3 kids, and a loving husband. She works out regularly and is the one who got me on this path of getting healthy and losing 70 pounds without her I would not be here. Since this horrible news I have not been happy or excited about my surgery and have wondered why I am doing it. She has been wonderful and told me not to cancel or postpone my surgery and that it's important that I do this, I am having trouble seeing it. We will most likely be having surgery around the same time and she says we will recover together. I just can't believe this is happening to such an amazing person. I am heartbroken beyond words. I have however gotten most of my vitamins, pain medicines and antibiotics. I am almost ready, I think. I have also been eating, stress eating and that is not good. I have to get control of this before it gets crazy. Tomorrow my goal is to eat healthy and get in a workout and hopefully get out of this funk! I am trying to keep busy, I am organizing food for my friend while she is recovering and possibly going through chemo and or radiation treatments. Hopefully we will both be recovered at the same time like she says but I have to be able to be there for her so hopefully I will be back on my feet quickly after the surgery!