Almost a year post-op. What a roller coaster. New pics.

I'm 39, and have an 18 year old son. Breast fed...

I'm 39, and have an 18 year old son. Breast fed for a short time, he just wouldn't do it. I have wanted boobs since the sixth grade when I saw a girl in my class bend over an didn't have a shirt on and I saw her boobs and wondered how come I didn't have any. All the females in my family have large chest. My younger sister is a 34 DDD. And has had large breast since 8th grade. I've been the laughing stock of my family on holidays. I exercise and try to eat right. I'm 5 foot 6 and 125 lbs. I scheduled a consultation with a PS that a couple of people recommended. I made the appointment without telling my husband. I told him the day before the appointment. My sister went with me and I had tons of questions. I hadn't decided if I was going to do it or not. I have a hard time spending money on myself. My sister said this is what you've always wanted and encouraged me. So I scheduled the surgery. Once I made that decision I was very excited and then got really scared and nervous. I scheduled the surgery a month ago so I have had a lot of time to think about it an I'm so addicted to this site. It has taught me a lot.

My pre-op is Sept. 12, and I can't wait. I'm thinking of 400 cc, moderate plus profile, under the muscle, inframmery. I want a natural look and would like to be a D cup. I'm currently 36 B. I'll post a picture as soon as I can. I've not told a whole lot of people. I work in a place that gossip spreads so fast. I've been wearing padded bras for the last month so hopefully no one will notice when I come back to work. I'm nervous about recovery and them riding high at first. I'm afraid I'll look at myself and get so depressed. I want to tell some of my friends because I feel like I need the support. Which is why I love this site so much. Any encouraging words are greatly appreciated.

Sept, 12, 2012 I finally posted some pictures,...

Sept, 12, 2012

I finally posted some pictures, I am very computer illiterate. I also had my pre-op appointment today. Gosh I don't know why I am so nervous. I got all of my prescriptions filled and decided on an implant. I spoke to my doctor and took about 15 pictures of other women that I liked the look of and some that I didn't. I just want a natural looking chest, I'm not trying to look 20 again, just like a sexy hot 40 year old women that knows what she wants, Ha, ha. I'm going with the Mentor Memory Gel, 400 cc, moderate plus profile. Please comment and let me know what you think. Is it too big? Too little? Would love the advice. Also, I was thinking about getting one of those wedges to sleep on, but they are like 80 bucks. I wanted to know if anyone recommended investing in one. If it's worth it I need to order it soon, or should I just use lots of pillows? I don't have a recliner so I'm wondering about sleeping. I can't believe it is just two weeks away. I'm so excited but so scared also. I will keep you updated. This site is awesome and each and everyone of you girls have given me so much to think about reading your reviews. I feel more confident I'm doing the right thing.

Well, just one more week and I will have new...

Well, just one more week and I will have new boobies! I'm so excited and nervous. I've been trying to get everything ready. Medicine, snacks, my wedge pillow and getting my house clean. I've got to work a lot this week. I'm off the weekend and I'm going to my first football game. Then it's back to work Monday an Tuesday an then it's here. I'm so scared of what they are going to look like. I know there is no guarantee of the outcome. I'm afraid I wil hate my body even more than I do now. I've researched the doctor but there is always that fear that you overlooked something. My friends and family are so excited for me and I'm afraid to look at them after surgery. I don't know how I'm going to relax between now and then. I guess this is normal. I can't believe I finally get the opportunity to do this for myself. Keep me in your thoughts gals!

Well three more days. The house is clean, the dogs...

Well three more days. The house is clean, the dogs are washed, and I think I've taken care of everything I need for after the surgery. I've been so busy this weekend I haven't had time to think about it. Now that I have time I'm so nervous and scared. I really hope everything goes ok and that I'm happy with the end results. I have to work twelve hour shifts the next two days so hopefully that will keep me from having a nervous breakdown. This all seems like a dream that's about to come true. I can't believe it!

Well tomorrow is the day. I just got to work and...

Well tomorrow is the day. I just got to work and will be here for 12 hours. All I can think about us tomorrow and the days to follow. While I was getting ready this morning all I kept thinking was I sure hope I'm happy after its done. I'm so scared and nervous.

Well,finished the work day and know its time to...

Well,finished the work day and know its time to eat a good supper and get myself prepared for tomorrow. My surgery is at 8 in the morning and I'm so sick to my stomach with nerves. When I start to think about what is going to happen to me tomorrow I want to cry. Cry because I'm scared, nervous, afraid of the pain and if everything is going to be ok. I want this and can't wait to have a nice size chest but honestly I'm scared today. I'm afraid of the unknown that I can't control. Please girls, say a prayer for me and send your positive thoughts my way. Thanks!

Well, it's been 17 days since my BA and I haven't...

Well, it's been 17 days since my BA and I haven't done any updates. I've taken pictures and will try to upload them in the next couple of days. The surgery went well. When I woke up I didn't think they had done it yet. I really didn't have any major problems. It was more of a soreness and tightness than any pain. My doctor has me wearing the strap for the first three weeks and then I can wear a sports bra. He also doesn't do the massaging. I kinda wished he did because I wish they would drop quicker. They are really high and are dropping some. The right has dropped more than the left. Because of this I have gotten so depressed about them. I'm afraid there is something wrong with the left. I'm afraid if it doesn't drop soon it won't go into the pocket. Or, maybe there is something wrong with the right and the left is normal. I don't know, but I am a worry wart and I have cried so much. I just wanna be gorgeous and beautiful and love my body, and I was never that girl growing up and I'm so afraid I was never meant to be her and my boobs will turn out gross. To make matters worse my husband barely looks at them and my friends have touched them more than he, and that really makes me think they are gross looking. He says he just doesn't want to hurt me.

I had a two week post op appt. on Oct. 11, and my doctor says they are looking good and everything is normal. He says not to worry. He says they are going to look great, that it just takes time. I've had a little swelling, no bruising and my incisions look great. I'll post pics soon. I wonder if my doctor is just telling me that cause he knows that's what I want to here, or if he is being honest. You just never know. I know someone who has had a boob job by him and hers are beautiful. She says this is normal the way I'm feeling and in three months I will love them. I knew it would take time I just wish I knew if everything was really ok. Like I said I'm a real worry wart. I wonder if I did massaging that would hurry it along, but I really want to do what my doctor tells me. Please pray for me girls, if I loose the little bit of confidence in myself, I'll probably crawl in a cave.

Oct. 12, I went ahead and posted the pics. Please...

Oct. 12, I went ahead and posted the pics. Please be honest and tell me what you think. I don't know why that left incision looks so pink in the picture it's really not. Thanks for all your thoughts. Feedback is very appreciated.

Oct. 17, 3 week mark and the doctor says I can...

Oct. 17, 3 week mark and the doctor says I can quit wearing the strap and wear a good sports bra with no underwire. So I've been wearing it today. It feels a little strange now after wearing the strap for three weeks. They still have a lot if dropping to do so I wonder if I should continue wearing the strap until they do. The left one is still a bit higher than the right. I wonder if it will catch up with the right. The waiting game is crazy. I guess I'll know how I really feel about them when they are completely dropped. My next dr appointment is the 26 th and I can't wait to hear what he ha to say. Lots of luck ladies on this roller coaster of body changes.

Nov. 12 2012, Well, it's been awhile since my last...

Nov. 12 2012, Well, it's been awhile since my last update. I have been really depressed in the last few days. All in all there has only been a couple of days that I have liked them. I have felt something was wrong with them since my first post op appointment and told my doctor and he said give it time. I took his advice and tried to be patient but now I think something is wrong more than ever. They look like two completely different boobs. I hate looking at them. I think my doctor is avoiding telling me there is something wrong. I am so depressed and feel so stupid for not being satisfied with what I had to begin with. I am an emotional wreck. I see my doctor tomorrow. I pray God gives me the strength to tell my doctor how I feel and that he is honest to me about what is wrong. I'm not one to share my feelings. Please send me your prayers ladies. Good luck to you all.

Nov. 13, well I had my doctors appointment today....

Nov. 13, well I had my doctors appointment today. My doctor says to give it time and says its normal that he wouldn't be able to tell if something was wrong till at least 3 months to give it some time. He wrote a lot of stuff down in my file. He wants to see me in a month. I tried not to break down and cry but I did. He assured me everything was ok. I guess for now I will just keep them hidden from everyone including myself.

Nov 15th, I uploaded some pictures. Please give me...

Nov 15th, I uploaded some pictures. Please give me your input ladies. Still depressed. : (

Question? Can an implant move back up instead of...

Question? Can an implant move back up instead of down? I did push ups and boy that felt strange, but since then my right implant seems higher than it was. Anyone have any input?

1/24/13. Well I'm almost 4 months and I went to...

1/24/13. Well I'm almost 4 months and I went to see my PS and he says the right one is still a little high and he is not sure it will come down any further. He says it looks normal, just a tad higher than the left. He is going to check it again at the end of March. He said I can have surgery again and have the pocket redone. My down time would be another three weeks and it would cost a grand. So look at the pictures ladies and tell me what you honestly think. I just don't want to look like a freak in a bikini.

Well, it's been almost a year post-op, and four months since my last update.

My last update was at about four months and if you read my review you can tell I wasn't very happy with the results. My PS told me to give it time that it sometimes takes a year to see final results. I can say now that I am finally happy with the way things are turning out. I think they look very natural, which is what I wanted. I am 40 and wanted nice breast but real looking breast. My friends that have came over for pool parties cannot believe the results. As a matter of fact, we where at the lake and a friend of mine was commenting on another females fake breast. She said you can so tell they are not real. Me having a bathing suit top asked how about mine. She couldn't believe the results. I ended up showing them to several of the woman in our group because they had also thought about having breast augmentation done. Several of my friends have even taken the doctors information and plan on getting consultations. It sure does change thinks with the way people look at you. Men can't take their eyes off of them and women are envious. My husband loves them and so do I, and that's all that matters. I must say this experience has been a roller coaster for me. I tried to prepare myself for it and believed I failed. I have such hard feelings toward myself. Also, the friends who supported me in the beginning seem different now, and some friends,who I thought where my best are no longer close and never once asked me if I was ok or anything. That broke my heart. I can hardly wear any of the tops I had before so I've bought some new clothes and bras. It's nice to wear sun dresses without a bra. They feel very natural and feel like they belong to me. I wished I would have done it years ago. I'm going to post updated pictures so give me your info girls! Are they too big? Do they fit my body size?
Dr. Gregory Pastrick

A very talented artist/surgeon, who knows what he is doing. He kept telling me give it time, be patient, and he was right. I love them!

5 out of 5 stars Overall rating
4 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
4 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
5 out of 5 stars Payment process
5 out of 5 stars Wait times
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Oooooh my goodness! your results look amazing. They turned out Great! I guess Patience is Key & it is Truely a Virtue. But those babies look WEEEEELL worth the wait!
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Thank you so much. I love them now. Its such a process but well worth it!
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Very natural looking!!! They became identical I think by month 4 right? Congrats!!!
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I think you look great. they def fit your body
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Go try on bikinis and see. I think they look good but it's your decision on what you think is best. Do what feels right for you and I hope things get better for you. When do you go back to see your PS? Maybe you can post pic and ask doctors on this site for opinion. Good luck!!!
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Hey there you will be fine. I learned that you have to stop obsessing over them naked looking for perfection cause that's not how we will be living. Dress them up in bras and bikinis and see how you look. I started getting boob greed and my bf was like they're nice. I showed my friend who had a BA and she was like they're huge. Had to train my brain to see them dressed up in cute tops, bralettes and lingerie. Try it out one day just go shopping and have done fun with them. Even if you don't buy anything, you will feel better about your babies. Good luck and jerk us posted. You look fabulous.
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HAHA, my boob greed showed up...right on schedule as I'm 4 weeks out... lolol.. I like my fullness on the boobs everywhere but I don't have as much cleavage or fullness between as I had hoped and now I'm thinking about that! isn't it stupid, really...! but then I push em a little together and bam, there it is...get a pushup bra...
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That's right. As long as they don't sag when you're naked and your man is on them every time you release them, you're good. Push-up bra and lingerie please!!! Lol
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Hey GoBig, I agree and have to stop obsessing. I keep thinking I have to go larger! Will it ever stop! I don't want to upgrade in the future. Hahaha....funny. :)
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I think they look great! This is a personal decision! I don't think you can see much difference but I think if it bothers you than it is worth it.
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They look great and I done see anything wrong! ;)
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You definitely look 100% better. It is strange how some ladies are "perfect" within days, some in weeks and others in months. I too was riding high on my right side and had bizarre muscle contractions as recently as last week. Most PS's say to wait 6 months...I guess they are right ; )
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Wow I think your breast look so much better! I would wait, I think they look great!! Save your money...
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Hi lady, just looked at ur photos, ur breasts, evened out really good! It just took some time, now they are good! I had my ba/ lift in November, I just hope mine go down in sz, at least to a Dd...
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I think you look great in the frontal pics! I see a difference in dropping from your last pics. I think it would be easier to tell if one is still too high in profile shots which you did not add to the new pics. If one is too high I am having a hard time seeing it. How does your profile look compared to your last set of pics?
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I think they have come a long way! They look really good now, I can't even tell a difference between the two. Looks like one took a little longer to drop, but now they are evened out perfectly. Congrats! :)
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I don't see a problem. I would save the money for something else, bank it for later.
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They look great. I can't tell if one is higher. :)
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Honestly, I really can't see that much of a difference. Nobody's breasts are exactly the same. Even after a BA. My left is slightly higher but definitely not noticeable with clothes on, or even with a bikini top on. Remember, it can sometimes take up to a fulk year for everything to "settle". I think you look great! Is it worth the risk of more surgery and money? And you could wind up having a complication from a second surgery. Remember, the purpose of a BA is to enhance you, not make you perfect. Like I said earlier, I think you look great and i really can't see much of a difference. You can look at my profile pics and see there is a slight difference with my left. Try not to worry. :)
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Thank you so much. I'm having a hard time being confident with them so I appreciate the kind words. Honestly I'm afraid of another surgery. The emotional stress is the worse part.
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Well I hope you will be able to let that go and enjoy your new girls. You look great there is nothing to be self conscious about! Now its time to enjoy! =)
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Yesterday I tried to do push ups, it felt really weird to me also, so I had to cheat an do the other push-ups on my knees, I'm gonna wait a few more months for that now
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Hi DoNthis, hope things are going well, I have refrained from all peck exercises for the same reason; they feel "bizarre". There is a PS on this site that discourages all peck training post op for a YEAR! Until my right peck "relaxes" I am doing simple 5lbs flies & press...wimpy but at least it is better than nothing! Tale are : )
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I'm in the same boat. I've been cleared for all exercise, but it just feels so weird in my chest. I'm staying with 5 pound weights also and only going half way down on my push ups. I figure it's better than nothing. I'm just over 3 months post op.
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